Wednesday, January 25, 2006

   Quickest post in the universe.
Okay, I'm REALLY tired and REALLY need to get to bed. I just wanted to apologize for not really being able to get to people's sites much. I love you all, really! Life's just kinda rough right now, but I'll see what I can do. How is everyone? Better than me, I hope.

So here's the other two pics of me. (Lyss you cheapskate, you already saw them on MySpace! >_> ha ha, kidding.) My eyes look a little asian-just a little. And I seem to have Violet's hair going on, if you've ever seen the incredibles. Most of you ahve never seen me before anyway and those who have saw pics that are now more than a year old. Never liked how I look anyway...So, ta da! Current me! Whoo hoo, how exciting! *passes out*
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“Seifer? Why are you here? We’d been told you left Garden.” That was about the extent of the greeting I received upon arrival to the meeting.

“I did leave. Princess Puberty over here requested my ‘services’.” I pointed to Squall, who was already seated. Ha ha…wow, that sounds so wrong…and delicious.

Quistis crossed her arms. “You’re late.”

I turned and looked up at the big clock. “By five minutes. Five minutes. Be happy I’m here at all, eh?”

“Excuse me? Who do you think you’re talking to-”

I smiled sweetly. “Not an instructor or someone higher up, but a fellow human being. And you’ll be ecstatic to know-I treat everyone the same. Ain’t that right, Squally boy?” Ah, life’s so much fun when you’re a part-time asshole.

Said ‘boy’ ignored all his rules and manners for once and promptly flicked me off, then giving Quistis an apologetic look-if you could call it that. “He…didn’t get much sleep.”

“That’s right. Cause we were up all night havin-”

“That’s enough!” Cid coughed. “Let us begin the meeting, shall we?”

More quotes from my fic. yaaaaay.
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this is my fav Gravi pic-they just look soooo great


i love this one cause he's actually smiling-Yuki, I mean.
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Monday, January 23, 2006

   Hmm..
So...my past couple posts have told you guys just about jack shit. I know it, and i'm sorry. My life is just...well, it's a wreck. I just don't really want to tell you all how much. So...like the penguin from Madagascar says...*just smiles and waves*

My mom's always been into me singing classical music...like charlotte church. But I feel like I can't make my voice that operatic. I always thought I'd be doing pop in some form or another...but I find I can't much mimic people like Kelly Clarkson at all. At then...there's music like Evanescence. I'm not ure if it's a good thing or not, but I'm starting to think my voice is best suited for that kind of music. I know my mom would hate it. So, of course I'm not telling her that. But...I've listened to Kelly Clarkson's Because of You a million times and I still can't really sing it to myself. But then today I'm doing laundry and singing Evanescence's Everybody's Fool to myself...that's when the realization hit me. My vibrato isn't very well developed if ya ask me(it can be sometimes, if I'm really into the song I'm singing), which is why classical wouldn't work for me. Amy Lee doesn't actually use hers very much. Most of the notes she holds are actually very straight. She's actually only a couple years older than me...I'd probably feel like I'm copying her. So I'd have to put my own twist into it somehow. Plus, she plays piano-I play piano. Dark hair, dark hair. when you think about it a bit, sometimes it looks like we have similar face shapes. o_O My eyes somehow look a little more on the asian side sometimes...and are dark. man...she got dark hair and blue eyes...so lucky! but yeah...so I've been thinking about that an awful lot lately. Cause singing/music/art is my life, and when I find I can't do something like I want to...it really depresses me.

Um...I dunno. There isn't much else to say. The world could always use another Amy Lee, right? x_x Cause she rocks. Oyasumi, min'na.
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1000 words couldn't bring you back
I know, because I tried.
Neither could 1000 tears
I know, because I cried.
You left behind a broken heart
And happy memories, too.
But I never wanted memories...
I only wanted you.

The first pic is actually me(yes, *GASP*) and it kind of reflects my current mood anyway...the light was weird, the shadows were weird, and my asian-like eyes only show up in the other two which I may post tomorrow. Deal with it. x_x And I was actually wearing my Punisher shirt...but you can't see it. -_-
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Saturday, January 21, 2006

   x_x
Just another crappy day with more crappy people in this crappy place. What more can I say? Here's the awesome video I wanted to show you all. so...here. Watch it.
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Friday, January 20, 2006

   Ugh...
Well....Erik's home...but I don't even really want to talk about it. I...really don't.

I updated my fic and because of my mood, the chapter is a bit sad. *shrugs* but I think it's good. And my longest chapter yet. Actually, my longest story yet. And there's plenty of chapters left, so...

I was telling whitecat how I've written 279 pages total in my fanfics...and if that had been all work put into my own story and plot, I could be....ya know, selling it. lol

Um...[insert general life sucks blah blah blah here]. And that's about all. EVERY freakin' site seems to be down today for maintenence, so...I'll post a cool video tomorrow.
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Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame?
Don't you see me?
You know you've
Got everybody fooled

Look, here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh, how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she
Never was and never will be
You don't know how
You've betrayed me
And somehow you've
Got everybody fooled

Without the mask
Where will you hide?
Can't find yourself
Lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

It never was and never will be
You don't know how
You've betrayed me
And somehow you've
Got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You're not real
And you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

Evanescence - Everybody's Fool
Totally beautiful song...you don't really...REALLY get it until you've seen the video, though. Then it all comes crashing down...very sad.
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I notice I don't post pics of girls too often, so savor it, my male friends. :P

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Monday, January 16, 2006

   Oh boy!
I just want to thank you all because you guys really made me laugh! Sure, I was really pissed yesterday but it's nice to know you all get pissed right along with me!(probably because the $8000 is so fucking ridiculous) It just...made me laugh. XD So thanks! Especially you, Bruja8...the comment about them suffocating in their own feces was just hilarious. XD I have a punching bag!!! *lends it to wolf wasenshi* ^^ but really, guys...thanks for always being on my side and making me laugh. XD I love you all!

Um...I think a squirrel is living in my attic. I seriously think he chewed a hole right into our house. My mom said she saw chewing near the roof. And we keep hearing strange noises in the attic but no one has investigated this matter. So...I think a squirrel is living up there. Not to mention squirrels aren't out too much at night, but a couple nights ago one was outside the window and scared me!(I thought it might have been a robber or a pervert). My mom doesn't mind if it is, though, since my dad used to cut trees, and so a lot of times he'd have to bring the baby squirrels home and we'd raise them and then let them go. We even had a baby starling once. We named her BabyStar and what was really neat is that she developed a unique whistle. She didn't whistle like a starling, she whistled like a human(cause of my dad whisling to her all the time. XD). And even after we released her she hung around, and you could always tell her from all the other ones. And her kids caught that whistle, too, so it got confusing for us who was who. >_>

ANYWAY! Nothing going on, so that's why I'm talking about random things. Second semester of my college choir class begins on Tuesday, so then every Tuesday I'll be gone from about 6:30 to 9 PM. Ross(my brother's friend) joined up too since he's taking other classes there anyway(he's going to be a teacher and already is a substitute). So it'll be nice having someone in there to really talk to. He's funny anyway. Apparently he had substituted this one class a few times and this 14 year old girl asks him to marry him...in front of her parents. And she was serious! He tried to gently explain that he wouldn't even date a girl who wasn't 18 yet. Her parents just thought it was funny, but the girl cried a lot. x_x What a crazy world, eh? Well, goodnight everyone! Sleep well! And enjoy the school day off tomorrow! ^^
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Ya know, I'm just going to keep using quotes from my story, because...it's funny. XD
Warning:[implies...or something]Yaoi

Now, I thought I had it all figured out. I’d tell Squall what I thought and just hope that the stick in his ass wouldn’t interfere. “Squall, we’ve been…friends for a while now. And I just want you to know-well, you have a very nice ass. I’d like to show you some of the things I’d like to do with it. You can still hate me in the morning, that’s okay.” Ha, yeah right! He’d hit me so hard I wouldn’t be able to see straight for a month. “Squall, let’s be fuck buddies!”-I think not.

“Squall! I’ve been looking for your grumpy ass. C’mon, I have to talk to you.”

He simply nodded and followed me. I was supposed to lead him to my dorm, buuut, we ended up in his instead. All the better.

“Squall...the truth is...I think you’re very hot. And I’d like to sleep with you.”

I waited for him to hit me or kick my ass out, but his reaction was quite different. He pulled me into his arms and kissed me roughly. This was nothing like when I kissed Rinoa. This was way better. I wanted more from his perfect lips as I slipped my tongue into his mouth to taste him. I want to take your clothes off…I want…

Then there was a knock at the door. I could feel Squall’s hot shaky breaths as he slowly pulled away. And I woke up from my dream. NO! I HAD SQUALL! I DID! But looking around, I was all alone in my dorm. The uncomfortable feeling in my pants certainly thought it was real, though.

“Yeah?” I sounded pretty annoyed, and I was. Damn you for interrupting the perfect dream!

“Get off your ass and open the door.” Squall? Have you been sent by Hyne to answer my dreams?

I yawned and got off the bed, willing my hard-on to go away. I’m not sure my mental capacity is enough-dammit, Squall, this is all your fault. Can I take it out on you? Okay, okay, shut up, Seifer. Since when Have you been this perverted? Well, okay, a long time, but not like this!

“Took you long enough.” Squall sounded equally annoyed. What’d I do? “What the hell have you been doing? The instructor sent me to find you.”

“Oh, SHIT! You’re kidding, right? This isn’t just your lame first attempt at being funny?”

Squall glared at me. “No. It’s not my fault you’re an idiot.”
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Sunday, January 15, 2006

   Tiiiired....
Ya know, at first, staying up all night that one night to solve my sleeping issues worked...but now it's not working. GAH. And it doesn't help that all these assholes drive around with their stupid rap music blasting so loud that it shakes the house and SHOULD be making their ears bleed(I hoep it DOES.). And they obviously can't tell time, since it wakes me up soemtimes. I'd love for a law to be passed against it. That you can't play you shitty rap music(or any music for that matter) loud in your car after a certain time and can't start until a certain time. They have that for in the summer with lawn mower noise I think and stuff...so...whatever. It makes me want to watch where they park and pop their tires. *sigh* whatever.

My day was boring, nothing hap-oh, wait. Yeah, something did happen. I mentioned on here that back in March, Erik got into a lovely little car accident. He was driving around with GINA, by the way, so she was probably distracting him and he made his left without looking. So today we get a paper in the mail that tells us that we've received letters from the person who hit him and that if we don't pay the $8,000 to their insurence that they're requesting to fix their car that they're going to sue us. Isn't that fucking LOVELY? Thank you, God, for your blessings are raining down upon me like needles. I thought life was great before, but you've really outdone yourself this time, big guy. No, really! Your best work yet! Now, Erik has a smaller car(a bright yellow 2002 Mitsubishi Lancer Rally Edition to be exact) and was hit in the passenger side door. This asshole was in a fucking SUV and hardly hurt his fender. Erik's repairs cost like $3000(they had to replace all the glass and repaint the whole car and get a new door and shit) so don't you fucking tell me this asshole needs $8,000. Not to mention we don't HAVE $8,000. So guess what assholes! You picked the wrong people to try and get money from because we don't HAVE any! Ha ha fucking ha! Jokes on you! Life is so fucking ridiculous i could PUKE. So, excuse me while I go beat the shit out of something until it breaks.
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I sent him a glare. “Just what is it about me that you hate so much?”

“I…” He paused mid-step before resuming in his walk. Well, at least you have to think about it. “…a…lot of things. I just hate you. I hate…” His voice became quiet. “…that you won’t give up on me like everyone else.”

What?

“Gee, and here I thought that’s what you liked about me. I put up with all your shit, and actually get you to call me your friend, only to find out you hate me for sticking around? That’s fucking rich, princess. That’s wonderful. Best news I’ve heard all fucking day!” I stalked ahead of him.

Squall’s icy exterior seemed to melt instantly, but by then I was too mad to notice, much less care. “T-That’s not what I-”

“Save it for when I give a fuck.”

“…” And save it he did.

-Squall and Seifer, again from my fic I Promise-chapter 19.
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Saturday, January 14, 2006

   x_x
I know, I haven't posted in a while! I'm sorry! I tried to get to you gusy sites tonight, for those who updated. Life can get out of hand sometimes...it feels like time is flying without me.

The big news is that Erik is coming home. He'll be here on Thursday next week. What happened to get him to decide to come home? Gina being her bitchy self. (and I swear if she ever tries to get back with him I'm going to email her telling her to leave him alone because she's fucked things up enough as it is. My mom agreed.) First she gets mad because she put a lie on his resume for over there and so he had to lie to every potential employer. Then her parents ask him something and he tells the same lie to them, too, out of habit. Makes sense. Though he corrected himself, but Gina got word of it and got all mad and told him she can't be with someone who lies. He talked to some of her friends, ask them what they think he should do and stuff, and she gets word of that and flips out saying that their relationship should be just between the two of them and he has no right to tell anyone anything about it. Bullshit, right? So it was pretty much over. Couple days later(and he actually wasn't too depressed about it) he goes on his MySpace account and changes his status to single. What happens? She calls him and gives him some bullshit about how they hadn't had "THE" talk yet and so it wasn't over yet, but after "pulling a stunt like that" it's over for good. You know what I say to that? Fuck her. Damn slutbag. So, that's why he's coming home. Which puts us all at ease. He's apologized for treating us like garbage while he was with gina. So I hope things will be better now...more like they used to be. I swear to god, sometimes I wish my brothers would be freaking CAREFUL about what girls they choose. Both of their first "serious" relationships have been with bitches and that destroys their relationship with the family until they end up breaking up. *sigh* That's why I swear to myself that any guy I date I'll introduce to the family pretty early on before it gets serious. See what they think(cause they can often see better than you when you're the one in the relationship)...so that way if things go bad, I won't have been too, too close to the person. I have some pretty high expectations for myself...but that's as it should be, i think.

In small news...um...I don't know. My mom's birthday was the 12th. I made her desserts and a card. Jeremy bought her a printer. Oh, here's the icon I said I was going to show...um...DAYS ago.

If you can't really read it well, it says "All the good men are either taken, gay, or fictional characters." Isn't that so sad, so true? *sigh* That's life for ya. So....I can't think of any else worth talking about. So sleep well everyone! Oyasumi!
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I was about ready to stalk off when Quistis emerged from Cid’s office, carefully closing the doors behind her. It was then that I realized that in the time since we’d left the office, we hadn’t gotten very far away. “You two are very lucky.”

I frowned as she approached us. “Oh yeah-so lucky, in fact, that we’re getting punished! It doesn’t get much better than that.”

She smiled sweetly, but that didn’t fool me. “You’re lucky that you’re getting punished by me. I’d say two months worth of lunch detentions should do it, hm?”

Squall sighed. “Is there anything I can do that wouldn’t require me to spend time with this moron?”

“Sorry, Squall. Not this time.” She laughed lightly and walked on past us, getting into the elevator. “Neither of you better be late for class.” The doors closed and down she went.

I growled. “Glad to know you like me so much.”

“Except that I don’t like you.”

“What’s the matter, don’t know sarcasm when you hear it?” I snickered. Even though you practically invented sarcasm you lousy bastard.

“No, it just pisses you off more when I pretend I don’t.”

I blinked. “You know, you just gave away your motive for acting like an asshole.”

He shook his head sadly and headed for the elevator. “If you had half a brain, you would have known already.”

-I Promise, my FF8 fic. This is part of the chapter I still have in progress. So those who happen to read it are getting a sneak peak.
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Someone drew this, I colored it. I don't know who.


Again, someone else drew this, I just colored it.


These last two were drawn and colored by some other people...i don't know. If I did I'd give credit.



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