Saturday, December 10, 2005

   Ha ha.
LIEK OMFG U WULD NEVA KNO WAT HAP 2 ME PEEPS! Yet ANOTHER boring day! I skipped doing chores in favor of reading a lovely SasuNaru fic. And it was great, though not yet finished. So I submitted a pretty review to hopefully encourage her to continue soon.

Umm...yeah. That's about it. Couldn't figure out why i wasn't so hungry for dinner...till I remembered how much Ramen I ate for lunch. XD So, tomorrow I gotta do my shitty chores. *cries* oh well. Then Sunday, thankfully, we're getting our Christmas shopping done at Chicago Ridge Mall. Kyle, as usual, kinda spilled who he's shopping for. XD But at least this time he didn't OUTRIGHT say it. If I was completely stupid, I may not have figured it out! XD He's an interesting little kid. I mean, he CHOOSES to watch Shakespear! Seriously! And he LIKES it! Mostly the movie Much Ado About Nothing-cause it's just funny as hell. But when he talks, like...instead of saying "you're wrong" he'll say "you're mistaken." and...oh, what was it he said today...ah, I forget. But it was pretty amusing. XD

Apparently Erik's comin' home in March instead of like...July. Cause now Gina's gone and he's sooo lonely. *rolls eyes* Big baby. Oh well. He may stay here for a few weeks, but he won't be living here.

Now, for Kyle's Christmas "present" I figure I'll finish cleaning up Erik's room while the gaki(brat) is at school every day. That way he won't know about it. that way after Christmas we can move my crap and then ta da. What to do for Jeremy, though? He's so damn hard to shop for, too. But even just doing favors...I don't know. Any ideas, guys? x_x

Well, tired. Nite nite! By the way, thanks all for your comments, I really appriciate them! ^^ *huggles all*
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He loves me, He loves you not...
He loves me, He loves me not...
He loves me, He loves you not...
He loves you not.

Give it your all girl, give it all ya got
Take your chance at a second hand shot
Say what you want girl, do what you do
He's never gonna, gonna make it with you

Pulling petals off a flower trying to get your way
Keep pulling til' it says what you want it to say
Girl you can pick a field full of daisies
But he'd still be my baby

Instinctively, I know what you're thinking
You'll be giving him an open invitation
But my baby won't be taken in

You can pout your cherry lips
Try to tend him with a sweet kiss
You can flutt your pretty eyes
He ain't got his hands tied

No chains to unlock
So free to do what he wants
He's into what he's got
He loves me, he loves you not
No matter what you do
He's never gonna be with you
He loves me, he loves you not.

You're the kind of girl that is always up for do or dare
Only want him just because he's there
Always looking for a new ride
The grass is greener on the other side
You're the kind of girl who's not use to hearing no
All your lovers try to take you where you wanna go
It doesn't matter how hard you try
You're never gonna get with my guy

No chains to unlock
So free to do what he wants
He's into what he's got (that's me!)
He loves me, he loves you not
No matter what you do
He is never gona be with you
He loves me, he loves you not.

Doesn't matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you!

Give it your all girl, give it all ya got
You can take your chance at a second hand shot
Say what you want girl, do what you do
He's never gonna make it with you

You can pout your cherry lips (yeah)
Try to tend him with a sweet kiss (sweet kiss)
You can flutt your pretty eyes (pretty eyes)
He ain't got his hands tied

No chains to unlock
So free to do what he wants
He's into what he's got
He loves me, he loves you not
No matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you
He is into what he's got
He loves me, He loves you not

No chains to unlock
So free to do what he wants
He's into what he's got
He loves me, he loves you not
No matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you
He is into what he's got
He loves me, He loves you not....
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Friday, December 9, 2005

   Tired.
Well, we got snow alright. A shitload of snow. Like, half a foot or something. So I shoveled our snow and our neighbors(both the house to the right and house to the left). Jeremy shoveled the backyard. Woohoo. Lazy guy. He had this blue headbandy thingy on and all it was missing was the konoha leaf plate. So he was coming towards the back gate when I saw him so I'm like "Sasuke! Daijobou ka?" His reply: "Ah." (translation: "Sasuke, are you okay?" "Yeah.")And he came up front and we talked a bit and shoveled out the cars since the snow plows hardly ever come down our street...assholes.

You know what I just noticed? When adding a post, at the top it says "Keep your fans updated on your life." Fans? FANS? Ha ha. I also noticed I very often have a Gravitation add at the top of my site. Makes me happy, because it's more like decoration than an add. XD Goes with my site!

Got this in an email from Terrachan, so I thought I'd share it with you all:
"What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of
sadness?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are, and send it to the person who sent it to you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.

Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing some body out there cares about you and always will.

I'll Always Be There
In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you are feeling SAD,
You can count on me.
I will give you a wink,
Until you smile,
give you a hug,
And stand by your side.
I'l l be there for you till the end,
I'll always and forever, be your friend!"

The only part I protest to is the part about "what if for every moment of true happiness, there were 10 moments of sadness?" cause well...that's how REAL life is. Don't know who wrote that, but for every moment of happiness, there are many moments of sadness-just sometimes the happiness outweighs it.

Uhhh...still working on those drawings. Cause I've been doing chores and stuff. Speaking of that, since we ate whatever we wanted to dinner tonight, I realize I forgot to eat anything. And had no lunch...and no breakfast...WHAT THE HELL?! How does someone just forget that?! Hungry....well, ja ne for now then! Oyasumi!
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Perfect? Such a word should not even exist.
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Change is the promise often made and rarely kept.
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Wednesday, December 7, 2005

   Wheeeee!
Heh, well today was nothin' special. But the house had a much nicer...atmosphere to it. Erm...at least most of the day. My grandfather pissed me and Jeremy off a little, but we'll ignore that. XD I did dishes and started-*GASP*-cleaning my room. So my mom was happy. She was out here on the computer for the majority of the evening. That's okay with me. She paid her bills, listened to her Christmas music and whatever. *shrugs* as long as she was happy. XD

So apparently since on Chritmas day the bishop dude gave the people in charge of the choir a half hour for performance, they need people to, well, do stuff. So looks like I'm soloing O Holy Night. That's fine with me. No big deal. I did it as a duet with Erik a few years back. That song's awesome. I love hitting the hiiiiiigh A at the end. So fun. Josh Groban's O Holy Night is REALLY good if any of you have heard it. He's the guy who did the song Believe for the movie The Polar Express(haven't seen it, I just know these things). It's intimidating and inspiring at the same time. XD Intimidating cause he's so damn good, inspiring cause it pushes me to want to be as good. So I practice the song on my own, and whenever my mom has time, she has to do the piano part for me(too hard for me. x_x Plus it's actually pretty damn hard to sing and play at the same time. I've tried.) so that I know exactly when to come in and such. Should be okay. Wow, when it comes to singing, I can talk forever. XD

My mom also still wants me to see this supposedly cute guy at the church, too. ha ha. And guys in the church are usually pretty good people, so...who knows. Maybe I'll come out of this with a boyfriend! XD I doubt it. Even if I like how he looks, he'll have to like how I look(yes, folks, sadly, that's how the world works, as I'm sure you know. It's not just "Oh, she/he might be a nice person! Let's find out!" it's always "Ooooh, he/she is cute. I wonder what their name is." -_-) and even if he does, someone's gotta be brave and say "I'm so-and-so. You are?" And I don't know his personality, so if he's a shy guy, then prolly not...ha ha. Why am I even talking about this? Cause I'm a hopeless case? Sure, could be. XD

Not much else to say...I plan to get more done tomorrow(Jeremy was off today so we talked too much and crap. XD) I gotta finish dishes, and clean up the kitchen and front room(living room, for you not Chicago people...you can easily tell where someone's from by how they talk, and Chicago people just say that, I guess. *shrugs*) and then vacuum and wash the floor aaaand..*thinks* finish cleaning my room I guess. it needs to be clean anyway for when we move me into Erik's room.

I guess that's all for now. Seems like sometimes you guys whine that my posts are too long. XD C'mon...don't you guys read books and long fics online and stuff? What's a couple tiny paragraphs? XD What about me? I TYPED it all. XD oh well. Oyasumi!
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I updated my FF8 fic yesterday, and in my author's note at the top, I put something about a tough nut to crack-and almost typoed CRAP instead. XD
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Still working on my punk Envy pic because I've been lazy about it, and I started the drawing of the FMA cast in pokemon suits. XDDD Roy is awfully cute in a backwards hat. Seriously. We'll see what I can get done, eh?
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And OMFG a pic of Sasuke LAUGHING that doesn't look totally awkward! Yay! I mean, he has his happy moments, but he's mostly dark and unhappy.
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Tuesday, December 6, 2005

   Hmm.
Hello all(geez, typoed "Hell all" there), and sorry i haven't gotten to sites lately. I feel guilty about it...but I'm trying to keep up with my PMs...so if I haven't been able to see you lately, PM me! I'm not trying to ignore you guys, I just haven't been feeling so well.

Speaking of not feeling well...today just wasn't my day. Mondays never are, it seems. To highlight the worst parts of my day...Jeremy took more hours, so my Grandfather had to take Kyle to the dentist and decided to drag me along because he didn't want to have to do anything. So he sat in the car while I took Kyle up there. Kyle, of course, acted like a little baby. That was kinda embarrassing, but yeah. Not much I can do about it. So then we got home and then Jeremy got home soon after. And we argued a bit about me having to go with Kyle, then it escalted into other things. I discovered Jeremy feels like he has to hold up the place of my dad and our brother Erik(the doofus in Thailand). I didn't know he felt like that. If he'd just open up sometimes...*sigh* He keeps to himself too much. So about when he started getting into that, I tried to cut the argument short. Just...shut up and leave me alone kind thing, ya know? Apparently he didn't take it well. After a moment of silence, he goes past me to go to his room and said "sorry I upset you." but he sounded choked up. I've only seen him cry a few times in my life. But it made me cry, too. It made me think...how horrible am I, to be so selfish? I told him how it's not like he's taking dad's place cause he doesn't give my mom all his money. he works for himself. But then...I also know he'd give my mom every cent he has if she asked for it. It made me...hate myself a little more, I think. And it made me realize...how truely little I do sometimes. Just because i'm lazy, just because I'm a teenager...what kind of excuses are those? I have responsibilities...people are depending on me to do things...and I have the nerve to use lame excuses? I'd like to think I've grown up a lot the past four years...but maybe I need to grow up even more. I was 12(and right after turned 13) then, I'm 17 now...sometimes I just want to be a kid. This is why I have a hard time with immature people sometimes-no offense to anyone...it's just that I've become so muh more serious in some ways and less....childish I guess. Like I told lil' sis Lyss earlier...I just don't have the time, nor the drive. My dad told me in his letter that I should try harder not to slack off, so my mom doesn't have so much to do or complain about...and maybe...this christmas, our fifth without him, I can...make that happen.

My mom was in a bad mood today, too, but she picked herself up. I cut kyle's hair and then when he showered/took a bath he got water all over so my socks got wet a little while ago and now my toes are going numb because it's 9 degrees. So, I'm going to bed. At least I finally posted, ne?
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"Everyone...everyone here has lost something precious. Everyone here has lost homes, dreams, and friends. Everyone, now...Sin is finally dead. Now, Spira is ours again. Working together, we can make new homes for ourselves...and new dreams. Although I know, the journey will be hard, we have lots of time. The road is ahead of us, so let's start out today. ...just, one more thing. The people and friends that we have lost...the dreams that have faded.....never forget them."

Yuna, FFX
I haven't played that game in a while, but I went and beat the ending again...and it made me cry...again. And made me hate FFX-2 even more. Yuna wasn't too bad in FFX...it's X-2 that made me dislike her. oh well.
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Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies...
Well, I'm all grown-up now,
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream...
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown-up Christmas list
Not for myself,
But for a world in need...

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts...
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end...
This is my grown-up Christmas list.

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree...
Well Heaven surely knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul...

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts...
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end...
This is my grown-up Christmas list.

What is this illusion called
The innocence of youth?
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth...

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts...
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end...
This is my grown-up Christmas list...

Grown Up Chirstmas List...love that song now.
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Friday, December 2, 2005

   So! Today I worked extra hard to make sure my mom had a nice day. She was working, so that gave me a bit of time. I made my yummy stew for dinner and I baked a Double Layer Pumpkin Cheesecake Pie for dessert. That made her quite full and happy. Plus I made her a card(and what I wrote in it made her cry) and Jeremy picked up some pretty flowers, which she loved. We also rented a movie she had wanted to see. All in all, i'd say it went well. She was really surprised, too. When I popped the card and flowers on her she's like "it's not my birthday..."(cause her bday is Jan 12) and then I pointed to what the top of the card said. but she was just joking anyway. lol She said she's going to brag to my grandfather about how well i can cook. XD And she's talking to my dad tomorrow afternoon.

At Christmas we all put stockings up(even though we all know Santa isn't real-even Kyle. it's just for fun) and she kinda hinted at wanting little tiny presents wrapped and put in there like she does for us. So I think I'll do that for her. ^^ We've done a "grab bag" like thing ever since the thing with my dad, and we write our names on paper and everyone draws one and they have to buy one present for that person. I drew my mom anyway, that's why I'll spend every penny I got on her if I can. I can complain about my family a LOT, but after all's said and done, I still love them, and I know that makes me luckier than a lot of people. Cause for all the bad luck and terrible things that have happened...I still have a family that loves me. Not everyone can say that. And that fact makes me sad...it really does. Parents are supposed to love their children-otherwise, why have any? And to know how many parents don't...it's heartbreaking.

I wonder if my step sister Pam(though she now changed her name to...was it Laura?) and her husband dave will see us at Christmas if they come to see my dad. I kind of hope so. For all the time i hated them for nothing...I feel kind of bad still. Yeah, the great relationship our two families used to have before she disappeared was broken, and I'm still uneasy about it...but it can be fixed, too. We sent the money to the lawyer, so hopefully he'll get on that and have something ready by Spring. I can only hope...for without hope, we are truely lost.

My mom's still kinda tryin' to get me to go to church, but eh...she's not pushing so much. I guess she hopes that I'll come to my sense as I get older or something. But eh, let's not get into religion. That and politics ALWAYS cause chaos. Always. No two people can have a civil conversation about it unless they're both of the same religion or the same side of the political fence. Politics: Poli meaning many and Tics meaning blood sucking creatures. Oyasumi!
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Thursday, December 1, 2005

   DECEMBER!!!
I changed my background and avi. *sings* "It's the most wooonderful tiiiiime of the yeeeeear!" Ha, not really. Tis the season for depression, fa la la la la, la la la la...*cough*

Anyway, so my dad called today and I got to talk to him a little...it was great yet...sad, you know? So after we hung up, I felt like crying...but didn't. Tomorrow is my parent's 26th anniversary...so I'm buying my mom flowers and making her a card and a special dinner and dessert and stuff. Cause I want her to get something...like she should. She desserves it.

Umm...yeah. not much else going on. It's supposed to snow tonight/tomorrow so we'll see. That'll be nice. apparently my mom says it snowed when they got married, and the weather guy says it hasn't snowed on december 1st in 26 years, so...wow. If it does snow that will be cool.

Man, if I was rich, I'd buy a second house for all of my friends with mean families to live in. Wouldn't you guys be so happy? lol I think most rich people are mean cause if they were nice, they wouldn't be rich anymore...>_>

I hope tomorrow goes well with my mom. My dad wrote this poem for her that made her cry..it was nice. I don't aim to make her cry, just to make her happy. And I gotta work extra hard to make the house look better and get crud done...pie pie...maybe some kind of pie. *looks up different kinds online* I don't wanna have to buy more crud to help me..x_x

So how is everyone? good I hope. I'm just tired. But I'm okay! Oyasumi!
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005

   Wow-I updated.
I know I haven't updated for a couple days...*feels guilty* Though I've tried to get to a few sites. So erm...don't kill me if I haven't, k? I've been keeping up with my PMs at least...so...I think I'll PM you all. If I can remember this time. XD

Not much goin' on around here...this Sunday is the performance for my choir college class. So that's neat. I hope we'll do well. *sweatdrops*

Um...I had creepy dreams last night. One was that I was at this shrink's office, but she never came out. So I was stuck practically babysitting these two little blonde kids. Then I do see her and ask if she's ever going to take anyone into the office...and I think she said no. I think I left after that...I can't remember. Then there were a buncha people at my house...including Gaara. But he looked "normal" in the sense that he didn't have his giant gourd. So I could take comfort in the fact that he couldn't kill me. XD I don't really remember anything else...except somebody brought food...and spilled a latte on themselves. XD And these little kids were crossing the street and almost got hit by cars several times. x_x Yeah, I went to bed early and woke up several times during the night. *shrugs*

Not much else going on, really...unless you count that I should probably cut off a few inches of my hair or I just might start sitting on it. Not cool. Sitting on it = OUCH. Yeah. Jeremy bought this interesting little thing that allows us to record music off an movie or video game(easier on games cause you can turn off voices and stuff)...so now he has his favorite music from the punisher game. I'm trying to figure out if I want anything...oooh, maybe some stuff from my old sega saturn. True, you can get SOME of the music straight off the discs, but a lot of the level music you can't. For like...Astal and Nights. So...I want that. N64 I think I'd want Castlevania...dunno what else, if anything. PS2 and GC...I'd have to think about it. Ok, I'm rambling. *sweatdrops* Time for pics!
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Thursday, November 24, 2005

   Thanksgiving!
This is the email I sent to family and friends(whos email addresses I actually know) so i figured I'd share it with you all, too, since a lot of you are my friends, but don'thave any contact info up! *tsk tsks*

"And OMG look who it is, right? This is some lovely Thanksgiving spam made up by me for you guys to read, pass around or um...whatever you do. Let's start spreading the love and happiness, shall we?

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!
Whee! Don't even ask how much of a pain yahoo was to even get the alternating colors to work. Just...don't even ask.

So...what are you thankful for?

Sure, it's a load of crap, we hear it all the damn time! "STFU! I'm not thankful for anything cause my life SUCKS!" Yeah, well...I could say that, too. But I'm not going to. Time to take a better look at life, just for a moment.

"I know it's not Thanksgiving, but i'd like us to say what we're thankful for...I'll start. Um, I'm...thankful to be alive this year. And...to have a job. And to be sober."
"Yeah, um...I'm thankful for my mom gettin' out of jail...that's cool. And this girl gave me her number..which is also cool."
"Thanks for leftovers-I'm full. Thanks for diet Pepsi, and good neighbors."
".....thanks for dinner."
-Joan, David, Bumpo, and Frank-in that order-, The Punisher.

I hope you all appriciate the effort I had to put in just to make sure that quote was accurate. Cause the DVD player in the kitchen doesn't have a remote at this moment, so I had to fastforward through the movie to get it that far, so I could listen. And for the hell of it, one more good quote from that movie:

"Good memories can save your life."
-Joan, The Punisher.

Because that's really very true.

Feel free to add what you're thankful for and send to friends, family, or just back to me. Cause I'm sending it to everyone I can. Spread the love, I tell you!

So...I'll start. I'm thankful to be pretty much out of my depression this year...and especially thankful not to be cutting anymore, for quite some time now. It proves that you don't need shrinks...that you can quit harmful habits at your own will. Um...I'm thankful for my family, of course, and them all being in good health. Even though Erik's off in Thailand and my dad can't be here...it could be so much worse, and I'm just so thankful that they're alright. Obviously, I'm thankful for a house to live in, a bed to sleep in, clothes to wear and food to eat. I'm thankful my Grandfather is still in good health, cause without him, I'm not so sure I'd be here to even say this to you. Thanks...for good friends, even if a lot of them are many miles away. I'm thankful for all the good times and the little things...because, let me tell you, the little things are more important than you think. You never realize how important those little things are to your happiness until one of them goes wrong or disappears...then that's one less smile, whether you really realize it or not. Um...I'm thankful to be able to look on the brighter side of things, cause...I know I've said to every "blessing", there's a downside, and that's true...but being able to look past that and see the good in nearly everything...that's true happiness. So I hope you'll all try to do that, even if just for this one day. Cause no matter how far away family or friends are...they still love us. And that blessing, in itself, is something you can never be too thankful for.

Love to all, and happy thanksgiving,

Elena"

Yes, OMFG that's my real name. But half of you knew that already, I think.

Now, if you guys don't mind...I'd like to hear the answer from all of you, not just the people I emailed it to(obviously, if I emailed it to you, ignore this), be it in PM or just in the comment. Be safe and Happy thanksgiving!
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"Yes, let's thank God, shall we? For his blessings are raining down on me-wait! That's not rain!"

"So you think God is picking on you?"

"God is a mean kid with a magnifying glass. He could fix my life in five minutes if he wanted to. But he'd rather burn off my feelers, and watch me squirm!"

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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

   ^^
EDIT: I also now have a "button"/icon thingy at the top. Staring at aodtr666's icon reminded me of my fanfic and thus this icon was born. Just read what I put next to it and tell me what you think of it. And if you don't like yaoi, I don't wanna hear it. XP

Big thanks and hugs to all who answered my silly little questions. *hugs* If you guys kinda liked it I might do them every now and then, just about random things. Or maybe have a question of the day-or every other day, I don't know if I'm that creative. >_>

Well, why not get the show on the road getting to know everybody eh? I think tomorrow I'll just PM everbody randomly-if I'm not already going back and forth in them with you. XD

So...my Uncle still hasn't called my mom on what we're doing for thanksgiving, so we've decided that we're(the four of us) going to have our own little thanksgiving here to ourselves and my grandfather is just going to have dinner with my great aunt(since my grandmother died in 98') and my aunt and uncle can do whatever...I know they like my aunt's side of the family better anyways, so see if I care.

We're gonna ahve duck instead of Turkey. Why? Cause it's damn good, that's why. My mom and i have to go shopping tomorrow for some stuff cause we haven't been shopping in weeks cause she can be lazy like that. We skipped our college class tonight cause she didn't feel like it. Cause last night she stayed up till 4 AM studying her chemistry and I stayed up till about 5 AM watching the Full Metal Alchemist movie. The only reason i could see it is cause someone used a digital camera in a theater in japan to record it. The video quality sucked, the sound quality sucked, the person moved a lot sometimes and only had half the screen in the picture for the first 15 minutes or so, there were no subtitles, but I watched it, damn it! And I loved it. ^^ I can pick out simple Japanese phrases, certain words, and names easily, and I knew the basic plot, so...I was able to understand most of the time. Thank goodness for that. Otherwise, I'd be lost. But I loved it. When it comes out subtitled I'll get it again, and than I'll but it sometime. Yay!

Ya know, my mom was screwing with her portable CD player and made me give her a CD and my batteries. lol So, I did, and the first song on the Cd was Nickelback's Someday and at first she's all like "Ugh, how can you listen to such a nasty song?" but after a couple minutes, I came back into the room and she was still listening to it. I was so surpsised. And she told me she liked the words, even though she didn't much like the tune. Right away i said "AH HA! Cause you make fun of my songs and then here you'll tell me it isn't so bad!" and she admitted she only hears the tune from in the kitchen when she'll say how much it sucks which really drives me crazy, ya know? So hopefully she'll be a little nicer about it now. Hey, I can dream, can't I?

Damn, i had this good idea for a question of the day...and now I forgot...damn...ugh. Hmm...I'll make up another one.

? of the day: Who's the one reletive that you absolutely CAN'T stand? Why?

Hmm...my Atunt Patty(married to the uncle who never called my mom back). Even if she means no harm, I can always feel her eyes on me and it makes me feel like she hates me even though I'd say she hardly knows me at all. I know almost for a fact that she likes her neice Jenny-her sister's kid-better. Not that I care about being top on list, but geez, she could at least do a better job of acting like she gives a shit. -_- Even my uncle(my mom's brother) likes Jenny more than us. they go see them in indiana all the time, talk about them a lot, generally pay more attention to them, and have pictures of them all over their house and I don't think I've ever seen one with any of us(my family) in it. If that last one's not a dead give away, I don't know what is. He draws Jenny pictures all the time, too. But one birthday I gave him a paper and asked him to draw me a picture and he never did. My mom asked him to draw her something to remember him by(in long terms, ya know?) and he never has. Well, screw you, too. My mom draws just as well anyway! She has this giant paper were she did this kitten...so real looking and cute! *huggles it* Oh well. Ja ne!
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Giving up on your dream, no matter what to, is just like saying "Okay, i'll be your bitch now."
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

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Geez, Lindsey, that was so perfect. "As we progress, we get dumb." XD I love that! *gives you a cookie*

Hello all! How goes it? You were all very right-I was just being goofy. Crying less could mean a lot of things...but it doesn't mean we're any less human.

Erik's picking up the languare over there really fast. Told me he's learned more Thai in a couple days than he has in hsi whole time with it here. So...well, shit, if I could, I'd go to Japan for a couple months and I'd be speaking it in no time! But noooo, I gotta learn the hard way. Well, in college I'll take a class to learn to read and write it! HA! And he got contacts...lucky bastard. I want contacts-kind of. No, I want perfect vision without hassle! But it's like $1200 an eye. Damn it.

I try not to want anything anymore...after all, I can't have much. Yet I'll still say "I want..." I must be getting stupid lately. Me and Jeremy were talking about life today and stuff...we do that a lot. I was mad at him earlier cause Kyle was helping me clean out Erik's room and Jeremy wouldn't do anything. He sat on the computer the whole time. But, if ya ask me...behind great anger lies great sadness. I know I can have a short temper sometimes and get really mad...but that usually turns into a sadness that doesn't even have anything to do with what I was mad about. Mostly self loathing. I'm doing too much of that lately. Drowing myself in my own pity. Anybody can easily say "I like myself the way I am." but I think everybody has wished, at least once, to be someone else. I think my problem a lot of times is feeling talentless. I mean...talent is something that comes naturally and is developed more with hard work. Hard work alone isn't a talent...it's a...eh, I can't think of the word. Erm, I'm not looking for pity(believe me, I give myself enough of it, so you guys don't have to), I'm just trying to explain the feeling. But come to think of it, let's find a different subject.

So, a friend of mine had made a little mini quiz on her site, so I figured I'd swipe the idea and try it out. If you don't want to, you don't have to. No worries.

1. Okay, my life isn't THAT exciting, it's okay to admit it. So what keeps you guys coming back here? It's the pictures, isn't it? XD

2. Do my posts ever depress you guys?

3. If you ever met me in real life, what's the first thing you'd do? Besides try to pick pocket me while we hug. Because I am the master pickpocket here! So we'd just end up with each other's wallets. Wouldn't that be embarrassing?

4. What's your impression of my life? As in, what do i make it sound like?

5. How well do you know/think you know me? Cause, ya know, PMs never hurt.

6. Here's a good one: how many of you have actually clicked on th link to my "website" to check out my fanfiction? this is mostly for girls, since I tend to write yaoi-sorry, I can't help myself.

7. If you had one wish, what would it be? This doesn't have anything to do with me. And don't give me that "i wish for your happiness" stuff. Something YOU, Yourself, and only you want. For yourself.

8. Do your have a dream for your future, or have the flames of desire been smothered by parents/sadness/etc?

9. If you had to choose one other place to live besides where you already do, what would it be and why?

10. Do you think we'll still be talking to each other a couple years from now?

11. There, that wasn't so hard was it? Was it a waste of another couple minutes of your life? Seems a lot of things are...x_x

So...I guess I should answer some of these questions, too. the ones that don't have anything to do with me.

7. One wish. Well, when I'm not being totally selfish, I'd say "I wish miracles really happened." because that would be good for everyone. When I'm being selfish it's "i wish my dad could come home right now."

8. The only time my dreams for the future are ruined is when I'm too blinded with tears to see them. Losing faith in yourself kills dreams and ruins lives. I'll be a singer one day...and all of you can say "Hey! I know her!" XP

9. I would live in japan. I love it to death, and even though i've never been there before...i just have this feeling that I'd be at peace there.

10. Depends on who you are and how much effort you've put into trying to get to know me. If we PM/email/etc, then I'd say yeah. And when I have money, I plan to come visit you all. I swear it. ^^

11. Eh..."time is a waste of life and life is a waste of time, so get wasted all the time and have the time of you life". XP or something.

So...that's it for tonight. Take care everyone! Oyasumi! or um...it's kinda 1:30 in the morning so...Ohayo!
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My mom told me one of her chemistry questions(she's finishing her degree that she paused in getting years ago), which I don't completely remember, but it was something like How would the isotomic whatchamadingles effect the following alcohols? So I answered "Depends...are they shaken or stirred?" XP I know my chem, but that's a bit advanced for me.
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