Saturday, October 15, 2005

   *sigh*
Well, my computer STILL has shit wrong with it...so....I dunno. I'll have to continue to try to find out what. I don't have much else to say. Life has been chores and boring shit. The video game Geist for gamecube is really cool. So is the Punisher for PS2-graphic, but cool.

I LOVE Kakashi. Seriously. Episode 101 was the funniest thing I've ever seen in my life. XD *glomps him* I've seen a pic of what he looks like without his mask. SO CUTE! *ahem* Sorry.

Anyways. Off to bed for me! ^^ Are you all doing well? Tell me! I visited some sites tonight-sorry if I didn't get to them all. I'll try to tomorrow if chores don't wear me out.
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

   I still exist, I swear.
Okay, I reformatted my computer two days ago, but of course, it gave me a hard time. Took a WHOLE DAY to egt the internet up and running. I'm STILL installing programs and putting shit back. I have NO pics on this comp right now, so please weait a couple days! I PROMISE you guys that I will visit your sites in a few days when I update again, okay? Life is so fricking crazy and shitty right now.

I woke up WAY early this morning to a nasty cramp in my calf. It hurt like a BITCH and even made me fall out of bed. So that's hurt like hell all day and then later in the afternoon I had to go with my grandfather to my great aunt's house(he's cleaning it out and selling it, cause she's in a nursing home). So I was picking up the fallen, rotten pears that came off her tree. There were a million. Back in september I did SOMEm, but there were a million yellow jackets, so I couldn't do anything or I'd be stung a million times. So, this time, it's colder, so there were only a couple, most of which I killed. So it was a bunch of squatting down picking the nasty-ness up, standing, moving, and doing it again. My leg didn't like it. Then I come home and rest a bit, then I had to make dinner. That took a while and shit and now here I am. What a pain in the ass.

Okay, I'll shut up now. I hope you're all doing well. You guys know how I worry. I'm sorry I haven't been around, but I promise, in the next few days I'll try to fix that, okay? Oyasumi.
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"The future is nothing more than a tool for breaking us over and over again."
-Me
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Wednesday, October 5, 2005

   x_x
Ugh...I'm sick today. Really sorry that I haven't updated lately or visited anyone's sites...things have been...eh. You guys like the new look? Even a new song! Blame Zac, now I'm obsessed with Kakashi. *glomps him* He's so awesome. Uh....I don't really know what else to say. Thanks to those who emailed or PMed asking. sorry to worry you all. x_x So...I feel crappy and tired. I'll try to eat and go to bed. *dies*
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"YOU'RE LATE!"
"I got lost on the road of life."
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Monday, September 26, 2005

   bleh.
I didn't do much today, so of course I don't have much to talk about. Um...I saw up to #10 of Naruto. Kakashi is still the best part of the show. Sasuke needs to lighten up, Sakura needs to get a boyfriend(NOT Sasuke) and Naruto...well, he need USE his brains. Like...all the time, not just when he's ready to die. XD Oh well.

Seriously, if any of you have a good copy of Evanescence's Missing...it's pissing me off trying to download it when-AH HA!!!! I GOT IT! *sends it to Lyss* Anyone else want it??? You guys know I share. XD

Um...I'm actually writing away from the computer. Ya know...on paper. With a pencil. That old fashioned away of writing! *mock-gasps* What a surprise! I'm just tired of sitting at the computer. Very tired of it. Some night I can't even bring myself to come online because it's just...every day is the same. x_x So I'm gonna try sitting outside while I write and such. It should be nice. I hope I'll be writing more than usual, too. Then I can just type it up quick. ^^ I made Shippitsu Noto #ichi, ni, san, shi! That's Writing Notebook #1, 2, 3, 4! I even put the kanji on them. ^^ ALSO! I have a drawing thing...a USB drawing graphic pad. It's Jeremy's, but i'm gonna hook it up tomorrow. Maybe I can give you guys a crazy sketch of the day. I can draw kanji for you. XD Um...I can attempt to draw my anime characters I've made...I can ask you guys' opinions on different eye choices and such...oh, the possiblities! BUT, gotta find it all and put it in first. But that's tomorrow's chore.
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Please, please, forgive me...
But I won't be home again...
Maybe one day you'll look out
And, bearly concious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing...?"
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Sunday, September 25, 2005

   ^^
No, Lyss, Kakashi is NOT going to be the new Roy. XD All bishies are different and I like them for different reasons. XP

Well! I'm updating like I promised. I'm really tired and don't feel so well. Today my little brother was sick and everyone was working to I took care of him. I had to constantly make the cloth for his forehead cold again. I had to give him more medicine, food, soda, etc...His temp was 101. I also had to put in movie after movie for him. And I made dinner and such like usual. At least my mom didn't yell at me for not doing the dishes. I mean, she comes home to good food, hot coffee, a vacuumed house and a clean kitchen table...what more can you want? Well, a lot I suppose, but...what more can she want from ME? Yet she does want more. Oh well.

We also had an interesting discussion about how I'm the only one in the family who has in mind a career that will earn millions. XD That's funny. But ya know...to be a singer...you have to be different. So many out there are the same and they'll just fade over time. I wanna be one of those where the kids 30 years later still know your song. Like...I don't know. Everybody knows the song "I will Always Love You" and things like that. Whitney(sp) Huston and Tina Turner or whoever can get as old as they want, and they'll still be singing their old songs at concerts. I want that. It's not about the fame, really...but making a lasting impression. Being different. It's what every singer aims for but hardly any ever get. Well, we'll have to see.

Ummm....not much else to say, since nothing's going on. I think i'll go to sleep now...ja ne!
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Please, please forgive me...
But I won't be home again...
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago...
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now...
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone...
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me...
But I won't be home again...
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care...
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there...
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Evanescence - Missing <-- if any of you guys have this song(I have a crappy version), I'd love you forever if you gave it to me!
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Saturday, September 24, 2005

   Naaa....
Sorry I haven't updated lately and sorry if I haven't gotten to everyone's sites all the time. Life's a little x_x right now, but I'll get it under control somehow. And I'll make a better post tomorrow night if I can. x_x Sorry again!

P.S. On a side note, Zac got me to like Naruto. Just a littlebit. >_> Kakashi is so awesome! *glomps him*
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~Dr.Rosen - A Beautiful Mind~
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Monday, September 19, 2005

   uhhh...
I'm really tired. Yesterday was kind of a bad day for me. I had to do a lot of chores AND make dinner(when Sunday is supposed to be our eat-whatever-the-hell-you-want night). So I was a bit pissed off. And my mom was asking me WHY I was pissed. Gee, I don't know. ><;; Anyways, so when my anger fizzles away, I'm usually really tired. And I was...but i couldn't sleep to save my life, and it really sucks. Hence, I am tired.

Things have been calm now. Erik hasn't been too mean ever since my mom told him he has to be out by January. So at least maybe it'll stay that way a bit?

Man I came up with the coolest hair for one of my manga guys. Now I'm just deciding on his eyes. His hair is going to be red, I think. *nods* I still need a name for this guy...hmm....well, I'll think on it.

I hope you guys are all doing well? Ja ne.
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I'll be here...
Why?
I'll be 'waiting'...here...
For what?
I'll be waiting here for you...so...
if you come here...you'll find me.
I promise.
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Sunday, September 18, 2005

   Happy?
How's the new layout for my site? well, not layout. I just changed the background and added the cute little stars. The stars are thanks to Night Shade 2! Yay! The background is by the original artists obviously, but I made the words on the tag and envelope. Yes, it indicates Yaoi. Deal with it. :P

Um...my mom finally broke the news to Erik that he has to be out of here by January. Tomorrow I want to remind her about giving him a deadline for getting his stuff off the comp. Yes, she was supposed to tell him weeks ago, but she didn't, until just today. Because I don't mean to threaten her, but I told her if she doesn't things will get REALLY ugly. Well, we'll see how it goes.

Ummmm....that's about all. I'm tired. So, nite nite everyone!
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"We're here..."
"That's right."
*sigh*
"What's the matter Nii-san?"
"What do you think? I'm going to have to sit through the Colonel's long sarcastic comments again." *deeper voice* "So, the Phiosopher's Stone in lior was a fake. How much longer are you going to spend military funds on this wild goose chase? Oh, where's Edward?" *normal voice* "I'm here!" *deep voice* "Sorry, sorry! I couldn't see you over the stack of papers! HA HA HA HA-"*sigh*
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"Anyways...I'm going on leave to see my mechanic. You know the one, don't you."
"Sure Ed, how could I forget? I saw you lying there, unconcious with that same stump of an arm you have now, bawling in your sleep 'IT HURTS! I'M GONNA PEE IN MY PANTS!' So tough."
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"He said 'Don't die under my command, you're enough of a pain without the paperwork.' that was it."
"Tell him 'Fine, there's no way i'm dying before you do, you morally bankrupt Colonel with a God complex.'"
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Saturday, September 17, 2005

   hm.
Well, I don't think I have too much to say. I had a NICE dream for once last night. My dad came home with a ton of chocolate ice cream...and I helped him put it into the big sherburt tubs...odd. I've wanted to write these past few days and haven't gotten the chance. *sigh* There's too much chores I have to be doing. Dishes, vacuum, laundry, clean Tichy's cage, etc. Tomorrow I'm making pizza for dinner, which takes like an hour to make. x_x And I gotta go grocery shopping with my mom in the morning...x_x So I should have been in bed already, but Jeremy took too long on here again. At least Erik wasn't on here. Ya know, at least TWO times my favorite guy character that I would normally daydream about has changed. For Gundam Wing, it was Heero...now I like Duo better. For FMA, I liked Ed best...now it's Roy. x_x Oh well! My little brother was watching Kare Kano today. I'd forgotten how funny most of it is. lol so maybe MAYBE I'll watch a little more tomorrow(I have the box set). I also have to write my dad a letter tomorrow. Man...what happened to my ME time?
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A convo between Heero and Duo in Gundam Wing ep 4!
"Hey you! I'm calling you!" *is ignored* "You won't even acknowledge our help! Here I am, Mr. Nice Guy offering to fix your mobile suit with mine, but you just brush me right off."
"I don't want anybody touching my mobile suit. That's all, pal."
"Well, that's a joke. You don't even have the parts! The best engineers in the world couldn't repair machines without the parts! Mechanics need PARTS for repairs, not like you with your leg. You see what I'm saying?" *is still ignored and sighs* "Why did I even bother to rescue this guy in the first place? He's anti-social, thinks he's Evil Kinevil and hardly speaks! You've got such a gloomy personality, why don't you give up and stop PRETENDING to be human?"
"Hey."
"What is it? You're too late if you think you're gonna ask for my help."
"...could you keep it down over there?"
"Yeeeah, sure. Forgive me for interrupting." *beeps* "Huh? What is it?"
*he looks at it* "I'm on call. An enemy carrier is transporting Gundanium Alloy. I'll see to it first thing in the morning."
"Hey! You can't go anywhere with your machine in this shape! We're talking miracles here!"
"It'd take a miracle for you, but I can handle it."
"Well, excuse me for being a mere mortal!" If you mess this up, you'll be blown to smithereens. You missions have no room for failure, just like mine...who are you anyway?
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Thursday, September 15, 2005

   *sigh*
I'm so tired...I must have slept through school.

Yesterday I went with Reenie to her house and spent house installing software, helping Mosiah(a kid she homeschools) with his homework(he's 6 and the cutest thing ever) and Reed(her own son that she also homeschools) with his homework(he's 12). And then I was also helping Reenie cook for her guests she was having over for dinner. She asked if I wanted to stay for dinner, but i said no cause I had to do dishes and make dinner for us. However, she was going to leave Reed to babysit Mo when she and Mo's mom went to a meeting of some kind-she said she'd call me before she left. So I came home and asked why Jeremy didn't start on the dishes for me like he said he would. He said starting them was the worst part. I asked if he would wash some after I started them and he said yes. So I start them while making dinner. He washes like...five things, then talks on the phone and went on computer. It's like "Jeremy, I love ya and all, but sometimes you're just such a pain in the ass!" I got Kyle to clean up his mess though-I basically had to threaten him. lol Then I made dinner and got to take about two bites before Reed calls and says "Elena, are you coming over?" "Uh...yeah, why?" "Cause we've been home alone for about an hour." "Crap, okay. I'll be right there. At least Jeremy drove me there. I did NOT want to bring Kyle with, because two little kids is more than enough. But no, Kyle wouldn't shut up. So I took him, and I'm sorry i did cause he was such a pain in the ass. Not to mention her damn dog...*sigh* Let's just say it was rough watching them all. I love Mo, though. He calls me Aunty and he's a real cutie an' all. So he was pretty well behaved. When I finally got them to settle down and watch a movie and eat ice cream, Mo sat on my lap. ^^ So cute. I think Reed likes me though. *cringes* He's flippin' 12! When he was younger and I was still the lil' punk I used to be fore anything bad ever happened, i used to tease him a lot. He said to me "When I was little I hated you a lot-but now you're cool." He said something like it several times and it scares me. lol I got home like...10:30ish. Jeremy STILL hadn't done any dishes or anything. GAH. I got to bed late because I was taking care of putting the food away and stuff....*sigh* and I only got ONE hour of sleep the night of the computer problem cause it took me over an hour to fall asleep.

I had the most terrible dream last night. It had to do with Erik and Gina...but i don't even want to talk about it. Just know that I was sobbing in the dream and breaking things and when I woke up, I was pretty much crying. Anyways.

I'm REALLY tired. But I think I'll make rice balls now...and wrap them in bacon, NOT seaweed. Like...an american rice ball or something! o_O I dunno...but I'm hungry, and fricking TIRED. But I can't nap for several reasons...the main one being that Kyle's home, too, now and so I gotta stay up cause I'm the only one here. I guess I should do dishes, too. *sighs* I'll put on music and try to get in a better mood. I'm getting Bleach 49, today, too. But I have a feeling it'll eb sad. It's mostly a flashback of how Rukia met this guy she had loved, and how he got killed. He looked sliiightly like Ichigo. Anyways, we'll see hwo that is. I have a feeling I'm almost to the end of the series, which is cool-then I can write fanfics for it! ^^ WHICH, I do need to write some today, too. x_x I'll get on that after some food. Ja ne, min'na! *runs away*
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Seifer:*talking to Squall* You're on my tough-nut-to-crack list.
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"So, what did you think of the game last weekend?"
"I wasn't paying much attention." *lying* "Who won?"
"we did, 21 to 3."
*mock-gasp* "You mean in spite of your low opinion of him, Drew managed to complete two touch down passes to Skip?!"
"AHA!" *points an accusing finger* "You weren't paying attention, huh?"
*blushes* "I wasn't! Aimee told me about it on the way home."
"Aimee wouldn't know a touch down pass if it hit her between the eyes! Admit it: You're afraid you might have to say something nice to me and it's killing you."
"I'm not admitting a thing."
"No, I know you won't. that's part of your charm." *he looks into the locker and sees his picture* "Now there's a good looking guy."
*looks up and down the hallway* "WHERE?!"
*grins* "...I guess I asked for that one."
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