Tuesday, July 12, 2005

   Hmmm....
It's actually nice outside today. Very windy, but much cooler. It makes me think of September...I usually hate it-hate the feeling of going back to school. Hate finding all my new classes with more crappy teachers and even crappier kids. But for some reason...this time...even smelling it in the air-feeling it in the breeze, I don't mind. I'm at ease with it. Maybe, for once, for some reason unknown, I don't mind. My life's back on track this time-I'm happy. I won't fail half my classes this time. I won't go goth on chosen days and scare people. Instead, I'll go back to making them laugh, like I always have. I don't like people, I don't care to really make friends...but it's the one thing I could always do right with people. Even when I was depressed, Jen...you hated me for being that way, for all the fighting we did...but I could still make you laugh. I could still make you smile...and that's something I'll never forget. How come I still keep tabs on your LJ every now and then? If we were still friends I'd be at her house right now. She moved, so I would always sleep over during the summer. We'd plan a three day and it'd turn into a week or more. But even hate is better than feeling nothing for me at all, I suppose...though I'm sure by now it's turned into indifference. I guess I think about it more than I should. Maybe...when I got rid of my depression, I kicked away everything from then. I don't have the friends I had then...I don't have that boyfriend anymore. So this is...some kind of new me, eh? Not that I mind. I had more in mind to say, but I got distracted...so...I'll just leave ya with another reminicing thought before I take off.

Do NOT mess around with your friends(same or opposite sex) because it just fucks up friendships when the people get confused. I'm not going into detail, but trust me, I know. Geez, that makes me sound bad. Well, I am, but that's beside the point. BE CAREFUL! *tsk tsks at you all*
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Here's the thing-we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah
Since U Been Gone...

Dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah, Yeah
Since U Been Gone...

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say...

But Since U Been Gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since U Been Gone...

How can I put it?
You put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song...
Yeah, yeah
Since U Been Gone...

How come I'd never hear you say
"I just wanna be with you"?
I guess you never felt that way...

But Since U Been Gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since U Been Gone...

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again...

Since U Been Gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get, I get...
You should know
That I get
I get what I want
Since U Been Gone...

Kelly Clarkson - Since U Been Gone
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Only one pic today, but I love this one. XD

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