Thursday, August 11, 2005

   Naaaaa....
Well, it's been raining all day, which is good. Makes me happy since I love the rain. However, my mom wakes me up this morning and tells me Reenie's going to pick me up in five minutes(naaa...I can't stop yawning) because she's having computer problems and she needs to get on there today. Elena to the rescue as usual. For those of you who don't give a shit about or don't appriciate the work it takes to work with complex machines, just skip the next paragraph and know that I worked hard, but fixed the problem. XD

Well, her internet wouldn't work. Now, it's a complicated thing since she has two computers and a wireless router. So, after fiddling with it all and finding everything to be plugged in, I ended up unplugging her modem from the router and plugging it directly into the case. It still didn't work, so I switched around the ends that were plugged in and then it did. It doesn't sound like a lot, but, trust me, it took a long time to figure out. Anyways.

Then she took me for lunch, so I guess taht pays me for it. Well, anyways, so that was BS. I left at like...10 AM. I got back just about now at 2:15 PM or so. Sucks to be me, eh?

Remember...when you're down and depressed, a good shower can wash it away. Good music can sing it away. As long as you don't think-don't know-it can't touch you. It's when you take the time to think about these things that they become painful. But once you start, you can't stop-and that's when you need a good place to just spill it all out. The worst things happen to the best of us. Some of you ahve learned all this...some of you have not. Life isn't pretty like it is on TV. There are no happy-ever-afters. However, life is what you make it. It's all about perspective. In a situation that makes you depressed, someone close to you may be able to help you find the good in it. Pain isn't always a bad thing. One of the scariest things you'll ever see...is the strongest person you know breaking down and crying. The person you look up to most do something completely unforgivable. Friends aren't always what they look like. Don't be eager to believe someone when they say they love you-just because you feel unloved. Life is what you make it...and I want mine to be happy and full of good memories. I want...enough good memories to make up for the bad. I want to be the best person I can be-and no, I'm not joining the army. I can do it myself. And if I try hard each and every day...not to lie, not to fight...to help out more, to do what I'm asked, to do even what I'm not asked to do...it's not very fun. But I gotta dicipline myself. By helping people, I can exercise my patience and selflessness....wow, I'm gonna be the best mom in the world some day! *wink* ha ha...sorry, I'm rambling again. I love you all! Ja ne!
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Maybe tonight...
We'll fly so far away...
We'll be lost before the dawn...
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