Monday, August 29, 2005

   What a nightmare.
Well, let me tell you, I'm SO glad the first day is over. As predicted, I hate all of my classes except for Advanced Vocal Ensemble and Physics. Sorry, i'm a science freak. Other than that, classes sucked, teachers sucked, people sucked. I knew maybe two people. We got a whole set of new dillweeds in Advanced Vocal, since a lot of the people in there were seniors. You have to audition to get in, but it looks like he must not have had very much to pick from. *gags* A bunch of idiots with no talent. It's going to suck teaching these brats the ropes. There's only...four of us that weren't seniors. So...we're rather outnumbered in our tiny 15 person ensemble. How ridiculous. *cries for the seniors to come back* Nick Hollinger in there is pretty cute. I liked him more last year though. And he has a great sense of humor, personality, and voice. *melts* That's all I'll ever want in a guy. AND he plays guitar! But, his best friend is an asshole that hates me, so...it'll never happen. *cries* Dammit.

Well, anyways, I'm not even going to bother talking about school EVER if I can help it. Unless soemthing exciting happens, which I doubt. I did see all those happy kids, though. Not only is it depressing, but it makes me wonder...Am I the only one who doesn't want to be here? I just can't get into school. I can't love it like I love anime or singing. I can't sit and happily do it for hours like I can drawing or piano. It's just...not fun? Horrid? I don't know. It seems like each year the Freshies are more and more corrupted than the year before. What the hell is with kids these days?

On a side note, ALL of my brothers were assholes to me today when I got home, so I was a bit depressed...okay, a lot depressed. Like hide-in-my-room-and-blast-Evanescence-so-no-one-can-hear-me-crying depressed. Well, no, I won't say I was really depressed. I was angry. REALLY angry. Oh well. Then I just read a bit and i was okay. I'm still mad at them. And thanks to them getting em so angry, I ahven't gotten any of my chores done. I have a tiny bit of homework, but it's just that "get to know you" bullshit. I hate teachers that do too much of that. I mean, a little "say your name and something you like to do" is okay, but having to chat with kids you don't know and fill out worksheets on what they like or playing a bazillion name games is just...ugh. Even a shower didn't cure my problems today, and that's saying a lot.

I had another weird dream. I was in Japan and walking with this girl to her house. Problem was, we couldn't find it. Somehow, I got her all the way to the USA, to my HOUSE, just to go online to Yahoo! Japan and look up directions. Now THAT'S messed up.

On a happier note, I did finally update one of my stories on FFN last night when I couldn't sleep. But, due to my living nightmare I feel like I've hit a wall and someone cut out my brain and put it in a blender. Oh well...milkshake for brains is better than nothing at all.
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Don't want your hand this time
I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once.
Not tormented daily,
Defeated by you.
Just when I thought
I'd reached the bottom...
I dive again...
I'm going under.
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