Sunday, September 11, 2005

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*whines* It's too hot in this house! 8 comments on MyO? That's a new record for me! I feel...popular. XD Um...oh, yes. Since I don't do it enough, I want to thank you all for your comments-cause you guys are so nice! ^^

Me, me, me...what did I do today?(well, yesterday.) Okay, I got up kinda late...for some reason I was exhausted. Reenie called(for my new friends, that's my mom's friend)and she was buying some computer stuff she wanted help with. My mom was supposed to drop me off, but she was too slow and was late getting out the door for work. So I said "Hey, Kyle...feel like taking a walk?" At first he said no(that lazy bum lol), but then I promised I'd take him to the park, too, so he said okay. So I walk...*thinks* 8 blocks to the park, I believe. It was about 3 PM. I let him play for a while, then we walked three blocks back to Reenie's house. She wasn't there. But her door was open. However...we never should have checked, if you ask me...but I wanted to call her cell to see where she was. She has a REALLY big dog. One that can pull the weight of a car. The dog is in training scools and all, but...*sigh* she makes me not like dogs too much. I used to ahve one, but at least my dog wasn't like this. The dog nearly ate us-I'm serious. So I make kyle get away and I go in and push the dog back. I grab some treats from the cabinet and grabbed the lesh. Luckily, it was already attached to her...or I never would have gotten one on. The dog drags me outside and pulls me down the stairs...I almost fell flat on my face, because the dog didn't listen to the wait command. She's suppose to wait for em to go down the stairs first. Reenie taught her that because the dog did that and made her fall down the stairs once(she has bad legs). and then Kyle was scared, so he tried to get away, and the dog went after him, dragging me like I weigh nothing. She tried to jump on kyle, too. I was so scared she was going to hurt him. My throat has hurt all day I was yelling so much. I got kyle to calmly walk back to the house and go make sure the cats don't come out, though, thankfully. I still had to yell and feed it a treat so it wouldn't go after him, though-at least twice. My wrist has a red mark-it must be from the damn dog. Neways, then it dragged me into the backyard and into it's pen where I thankfully locked it up. Then I couldn't find Reenie's phone anywhere. We waits and waited and she didn't show, so we walk home. like..6 blocks or whatever. Kyle whined about his feet hurting a couple blocks from home...so I carried him on my back. He's getting heavy. When I told him he says "we should tell mom to stop buying snacks." so i say "You need to decipline yourself not to eat them." lol So we get home and I check all the messages on the answering machine. It was 5:30 when we got home. Most of the messages were Reenie. So Jeremy came home about then, and I told him about it, then I called Reenie. She was late. *rolls eyes* she says we could ahve stayed in her house to wait-that's why she left it open. Well, gee...thanks. Then I made dinner...which took a long time. But it was yummy.

I had a weird dream last night that inspired a dream for a manga...so we'll see how that goes. Now I have even more to juggle. I'm going to draw the character profiles and write out what I what to happen first-so I know how much bubble room I need and such. I'll put the writings on here, and pictures, when i do them. Neways...

I'm a little depressed, because although I tried not to think about it, September 3rd marked the fourth year my dad's been gone. For those who don't know, erm...it's in a pervious post-I explained what happened. I read his letters today...how he says how proud he is of us and how he misses us so much it hurts...it really makes me sad. But well..let's not dwell on the sad things. Leting things go is my way of cutting-except it doesn't hurt me. I used to cut...but i ahven't for some time. Cause when you cut, everytime you see what you've done, you'll remember why you did it. Letting it go...is like forgetting. It doesn't help I'm constantly reminded, but I try to put it out of my mind...and when I push it away, it can't hurt me. ^^ I lose it now and then like everyone does...but for the most part I try to be strong and keep it together. Too many people depend on me to fall into anymore depressed slumps.

Well, I suppose that's it for now. Ja!
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The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was to say that, but at the moment, it's the sentence that best describes my tragic flaw-my inability to change. The more I get to know other people, the more I get to realize that..it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying the same for as long as possible. It feels better somehow; and if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, did something unexpected, who knows what other pain is waiting out there? So you maintain the status quo, and it doesn't seem that bad. You're not a drug addict; you're not killing anyone..except maybe yourself a little. When we finally do change, it's small-the kind of thing unnoticable to most people unless you look close, which, thank god, they never do. But you notice it. It's a world of difference, and you hope that it is the person you'll get to be forever..that you'll never have to change again.
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BIG TIME YAOI WARNING!!!! RUN AWAY, MY MALE FRIENDS!!!!
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Zac: whee! add a footnote about how awesome I am. er... nm.
Aku-chan: lol...I just might.
Zac: =D
So....as promised, Zac ish teh awesome. *poke* lol
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