Thursday, November 3, 2005

   *yawn*
I was supposed to start working on the final drawings for page two today, but I was a little too lazy...so maybe it'll be ready by friday? We'll see. I don't think I have much in chores to do tomorrow, so I just may be able to get a lot done. ^^

I've had this one thought in my head all day: I miss having real friends. I don't mean real as in true-I just mean I miss having friends who live around here, I guess. Roxanne lived pretty close...we used to go to movies and ahve sleep overs. We saw Bruce Almighty together in the theater and then we couldn't stop saying "it's GOOD" XD or singing "what if god was one of us" just like he does in the movie. I remember seeing Two Weeks Notice, too. I couldn't stop imitating the British guy. "Look! This house is so small, I can walk from one end to the other in five seconds!" Whenever I slept over, after the lights were out, that was our confession time. She'd tell me everything and cry on my shoulder. I'd tell her everything and try my best not to cry. She said I was her only real friend...funny how she let me go so quickly in place of more fake friends, then. Jen lived further away, but...that made what little time we were together for even more important. I would sleep over for like...a week every summer. We watched movies, played video games...ate lots of good food...sat outside at night and burned candles while we talked...and that was actually one of the first times we'd hugged. She's not a touchy-touchy kinda person. Anyways...and we'd both talk about everything at night. Roxanne was always a little...well...yeah. So me and Jen always had these really deep conversations. And, I hope I don't scare any of ya with it, but she was the first girl I ever kissed. It was her idea, but yeah. Needless to say, I've decided I am 100% straight. no worries. And we were just SO close, that we stopped being friends over a stupid argument about paranormal stuff. Point is, I miss having people who's houses I could escape to on bad days...people i could talk to on the phone without it costing a ton...people to hug...people to have fun with...people to give things to and get things from...I just...miss it. Heh. Ignore me. "People...are never what they seem."
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I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness is
That I care too much
And my scars remind me
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel...

"Or, like the great Falls, is the bedrock of my LIFE eroding beneath me?" Bruce Nolan, Bruce Almighty. Falls is Niagra Falls.
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YAOI WARNING!!!








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