Birthday • 1991-03-29 Gender •
Female Location • the dephts of hell Member Since • 2007-02-03 Occupation • shinigami Real Name • if i tell u i have to kill you
Personal
Achievements • writing 2 books Anime Fan Since • as long as i can remeber Favorite Anime • FMA, Inuyasha, Naruto, Ereaka 7, Yu Yu Hakoshu, Ruruoni Kenshin, Bleach, Trinty blood, Tokyo Mew Mew, Zoids, Fruits Basket, Hakaru no go, Prince of tennis, D N angel, One Piece, Mizasiki's movies, Sailor moon, Negima and the list goes on and on Goals • to rule the world with my shinigami powers and my shinobi abilities Hobbies • reading manga, hanging with friends, playing video games, watching anime, writing, singing, dancing, going to anime club Talents • dancing, writing, reading, singing, watching anime, mutitasking, and babysitting
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alright so i finally changed the depressing theme that i had for months on here. My depression not competely gone but im getting by. i changed the theme to a friends theme cuz it is my best friend who has been there for me for the these last few intense months. It was such a change cuz i always the one together and shes always the one who needs support n help, but this time the roles were switched. I owe her so much for everything she done for me.
Yes i'll admit im still heartbroken it still hurts to see my ex walk through the halls of our high school just longing to be at his side. but he did leave me he hurt me without a second thought so yeah i dont see how i fell in love with him but i will never regret being with him. my tears are leaving me and i think that soon i will be able to smile for real again. I only hope is that someday i will find someone who cares enough to be there for me. for now though i have my best friend no matter what she is always a light in my world.
advice: No matter how dark life may seem to get always cling to whatever light is left
its my birthday. im 19 and my life is finally looking a little brighter. still heartborken but there are other good news in my life Comments (0) |
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Friday, March 26, 2010
i thought all the tears had passed that the pain of my broken heart had faded even a tiny bit. but NO hes moved on now to my friend she now wears the necklace i once loved so much. when my friends told me this i lterally lost it. I screamed loudly i cry hersically i ran from them until i collasped to the floor. the tears fell from my eyes painfully. yes i cried so much this past month that my tears hurt me physically. but then i saw her, my supposed friend wearing that necklace and she was laughing. i dont know if she saw me crying there but i lost it even more then i ran i had to get away from there in was killing me being there, trapped by the pain. but right before i could get out sercurity n my friend stop me. i honsetly cant say what they said to me or even remember how they got up to the office. im so sick of this pain sick of these tears n sick of getting hurt. i want to smile n laugh again i want to be happy.......... im disgusted with myself for being so weak.
i dont know who i am anymore. i hate myself and i cant see why im still here Comments (0) |
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Saturday, February 27, 2010
i miss my love. but he has hurt in so many ways i cant trust my heart to him. no matter how much its going to hurt i must say goodbye to my one and only love. i hurts to even think about hurting him like this. i just cant go back him though i need to get away while i still can. my heart cant take it if he hurts again Comments (0) |
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Thursday, February 25, 2010
i hate this. he broke my heart now he wants me back and i just cant go back to him. and now i cant even trust my friends cuz their using me so that he can hear my thoughts on everything. i dont want to break his heart i still love him but i cant be him not after everything hes put me through
once again i am sorry. i know i havent been much company here but i am grateful to those of you who have stay by side in this troubling time.
I got into another fight with my chir instuctior today. She simply was yelling me for not smiling during the rehershal, she is completely in the right to do so because the concert is less then a week away. But it pissed me off and i just went off on her. saying that i like to see her smile after hearing that your best friend tried to once again kill herself! That it doesnt feel right to even consider peroforming without her! I mean really she is the reason I started singing at school in the first place. she conviced me to join with her, and we had so much fun singing side by side. But now that she has left i feel bonded or chained to stay, but at the same time the closer and closer the concert comes the more i know i can't perform without her. its just not right for me to do this alone when it was something we shared so dearly together. what do these people want from me im trying trying so hard not to just break down and cry. shes my best friend damn it! they have no idea how much it hurts not to able to do anything to save her from herself! My best friend could die at any time without me knowing and she excepts me to smile for some concert... yeah i say that i believe the concert is meanless compare to the the battle that I'm fighting inside myself. an interal battle fighting my own emotions to please the people around me
sorry
gah too many turkeys! Yesterday i had an arugment at work with a customer about a certain turkey being sold out. Thanksgiving is tomorrow people you should have got your turkeys already shessh. anyway no happy holiday for me i just found out that my friend had another step back and it kills me knowing she left to stop all this to get help but now......... I can't think of it its just to hard to painful
turkey maddess
hey just got back from work i due to my job i have obtain a new hatered of turkey (I work at Gaint). Every year gaint gives free turkeys away if you earned 300 gaint reward point on the bonuscard. Well the free turkeys weren't going to be given out until today, but everyone wanted to get their turkeys early and thought they can get away with it. so then they come up the cashier and when they say they can't have the turkey for free they send ME to take the turkeys back! And turkeys are pretty freaking huge, heavy, and cold. And today the store was so packed with turkey lovers that i had to work through my break ugh. I hate the bird so much! Anyways i hope your thanksgiving rocks i if you got a turkey of my store you better enjoy it ;) Comments (0) |
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