Friday, February 13, 2009

urgent post!
ok heres whats happing my life was finally going well and then two horriable things happen. my gradfather is the hospital with interal bleeding and failing kindenys it might be the death of. i really dont want him to die im soooooooo close to him i always have been theres no family if hes not in it. on to the second i just got off the phone with my best friend and she just found out that her boyfriend who she loves dearly might have cancer she so scared and feeling so helpless. i have no idea what i can do for her i feel so useless it annoying! i hate not being able to be there for her! please please pray for both of them and please if you think you know i way i can help either one please tell me
please help me save them im begging you

Comments (0) | Permalink

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

hi everyone the new theme is losing grip. cuz i am losing my grip on everything friends are falling deepeeer into the void of their problems and my family keeps fighting and my older sister got into a car accindent yesterday. but anyway how are all of you hope you enjoy my still be here but it doesnt seem that way. well got to go to school bye

Comments (0) | Permalink

Friday, January 30, 2009

hi there just wanted to say im doing better if dont including my family fighting both physical and verbal. and having yet anothor fainting spell this morning, not to mention the anixetie attack i had last night. yup my world is just cheery. oh and my family made my boyfriend so upset that he left here two days ago crying and he hasnt come back to my house. i hate my family for putting him through that!

Comments (0) | Permalink

Sunday, January 25, 2009

   me or GOD?
not to offer anyone but life sucks! its like go hates me to no end. he floods my life with death and heartbreak and friends whose lives are falling apart. i really dont think i can take all this anymore but i wont let him defeat me with such cheat tactics! (sorry just a bit ticked) i will save my friends from all their problems and i will avenge the innocent lives that ended. God wont get the best of me like this!

Comments (0) | Permalink

Monday, January 19, 2009

read and respect
hi everyone i was gonna post sonner but once again tragic events have struck my family. four days ago my sister came to visit she brought her son and her dog with her. well my dad put her dog and our two dogs outside and shortly after i heard my sister screaming at the top of her lungs. When i came outside i saw my dad covered in my sister's dog's blood and looking at my sister i saw her punch the neighbor's pitbull. the same pittbull who attacked my dog last nov. well this pitbull now attacked and killed spot a seven month old puppy that belonged to my two year old nephew. we made sure the pitbull was killed this time. spot funerel is today its gonna be hard to face my sister and her family their in so much pain and angony. rest in peace spot your with your daddy now. (yes spot was one of cookie (mom) and rusty (dad) puppies).
Even though his dog is dead i wish my neighbor could be gone with that dog i hate him so much for taking two of dogs away from us.
the video is to bring bring spirits up and the pic is of my little sister and our nephew on christmas





Comments (0) | Permalink

Sunday, January 11, 2009

   hi totaly stressed here
hi everyone sorry for miss out on the hoildays things are kinda been hecktic for me. My first semester of this year is coming to a close in fact my last day of classes is tommorow and my exams are on tuseday. there is another exam on wedenseday but i dont have one set for that day. due to exams and others things i have a six day weekend. though all my friends have exams on wedenesday so i got nothing to do then boredom will most likely take me. i super stress about my one and only exam:ENGLISH! i need a perfect B on it to pass the course. its so unfair i only missed one assignment and now nothing matters to my teacher. He has offical given up on me and everyone eles who is failing (he told us this so im not just saying this). God this is the kinda thing really could use my old friend, lordsesshomaru's humor. Well i hope your all as stress as i am its not healthy. In fact i been barely sleeping anymore to busy studying. Well only luck can save my grade now. see ya when i can.

Comments (0) | Permalink

Monday, December 22, 2008

   well hi to anyone that still bothers to deal with me. I got some good news for once in my life here. heres goes drum roll please! my cousin got MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!! her wedding was amazing total gorouise she was so happy the happyiess i've ever seen her. i hope one day my sisters and i can be that happy. oh and more good news my dog, Cookie just gave birth to 4 healthy puppies at 2:30 this monring. she with them rigth now. we have no idea what their gender is yet because cookie wont let us touch them yet. and also i finished my cermics project (my last cermics project for the year!)its a gaint cermic cake! so thats my life what yours?


Comments (0) | Permalink

Thursday, December 11, 2008

hi there long time no talk. well that was lame but the truth and the reason for that is that my computer competely crashed! i needed to get a new montor and few new cables and a lot of tinkering around to fix it. um well a lot has happened since you last heard from me none of it good so lets begin: NOv.22 my dog, Rusty was killed by a pitbull and im not taking it well. He was my baby and now hes gone and i have to see his killer day after day because the pitbull is my neighbor's dog. Well more recently on Nov.9th tuseday i passed out right after performing in school concert my doctor says it was low blood persure and wants to look into the cause of it so im getting some testing done on me tomorrow. im scared as all hell cause its being done a hospital and i hate them. well i have a concert tonight so see ya around



Why do have to lose those i love?
Comments (0) | Permalink

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

hi there everyone im sorry i been gone so long i was going through something and even though i did come to you for help i realives needed to deal with it alone. im sorry if i worried anyone and i thank the two people who did try and help. in the last few days i found myself sitting at my desk with my english textbook in front of me for hours but not even looking at it what was doing in those hours of sitting there was thinking about myself. what i came up with is that i dont really know who i am anymore and until i find that out i cant really be happy with myself.
so enough about me and my drama heres the second part to my story A wolf's Tail:

Loko and Likoda headed toward the concuil on their way they notice that ALL wolves were helping Mika and Honda gather the demons of the forest. Once everyone had arrived Loko explained the situtation that falls upon the forest. Myra was the first to speak
Myra:Loko dear what will you do? Hikonda is your one of best friends but if you leave the forest there is no idea who eles may come while it is unprotected.
Gama (king of the Kappas):Shut up the guardien may never leave the forest they are bound to it by their duty to protect it. Allow the wolf to die and we shall protect the forest against these invaiders.
Likoda angered:How dare you HIkonda i one of the most elite of the wolf clan only bested by Yoko and Loko! but how would a Kappa such as yourself know that when your kind spend their time under water!
Loko unable to take all this:Now stop it all of you yes it is my job to protect the forest and everyone in it and that includes hikonda. SO in order to do that job i will surrender myself to them. In doing so they will leave with no victims besides myself. I will be protecting Hikonda and the forest but while i'm gone i except everyone to work together to protect our home.
wiht only a half hour left Loko departs with Likoda and their wolf partrens. Loko's beatiful silver hair that usally flows freely with the wind was tied back, a sign she was no longer free. And her black dress was replaced with a white, a sign of surrfice.
Mika:My misstress are you sure you want to do this?
LOko:yes Mika now go take my crstial to brother he will know what to do once you get there. with a nod from mika loko cut her woven vined choke that carried her crysial and retied it on mika neck. once Mika left them loko turned toward likoda
Loko:you understand why i am doing this do you not?
Likoda:I understand you want to protect the forest but you can do that with leaing its not fair your brother put this upon you let us -
LOko:stop it im giving him back to you. Hikonda your love i am returning him to you.
Likoda was speechless so loko stepped out into the open to where Crimson and Hikyko waited.
HIkyko:whao is that really are girl!
Loko:SHut up Hikyko i'll here so let hikonda free i shall tell yoko's location once we are out of my forest.
Crimson threw a kunai at HIkonda releaseing but he did not move. Loko took a good look at her friend they had injured both his legs to the point he couldnt even stand on them.
HIkonda glaring at her:Loko if you turly turn your back on us and your home then dont you dare ever return for any reason for if you do friend or foe i shall kill you.
Tears trailed down loko's face. she may be strong when it came to fighting but her heart is weak. she was protecting the forest by going she wasnt trying to betray anyone. turning away from hiknoda loko gave a little nod and likoda leaped out by hikonda's side.
Hikyko:what is this an ambush! are you double crossing us loko!
Loko:NO just making sure my firend is taken to his home safely. Now we can get this over with.
Crimson tied a rope around loko wrists. Loko looked at her friends Hikonda was glaring at her. his eyes carried a lot of weight behind them, dissappointment, betrayal, and hatered. she turned her focus to likoda unlike hikonda likoda had only concern and sorrow in her eyes as she watched her leave she allowed tears to fall.
Hikonda:That trador desereves anything they do to her. i thought i knew her and those tears this was her choice no one force her!
likoda:Hikonda dont tell me you didnt read her eyes. those eyes were saying why she did this. this was a chocie she didnt want.
Hikonda:then why did she...
Likoda:It was for you. All the demons said to let you die but she wouldnt allow it she doesnt want to see anymore red then she has to. Loko couldnt bare to have you die she may be gaurdein but she is still only 16 years old. her heart is weak when it comes to friends. she gave herself fully aware that there was no way she would return alive. she sent mika to yoko to warn him because of that and she wants forest to be protect by its inhabitants.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hope you enjoyed it more will come i promise

this one goes out to my mom i just finished making her an angel in my cermics class so may angels protect you mom love you so much

Comments (0) | Permalink

Monday, October 27, 2008

help please make the pain go away please!
hi everyone just wanted to let you know im still alive. heres how life going
~love issues (heart wont stop crying)
~ school is hell (what eles is new)
~ and being at home only depresses me more
~ spirit week is going on today was pj day tomorrow decades day

theres no place for me right now home depresses me, school pisses me off and depresses me i cant be around my friends with getting upset. my heart is gone, without it im not me...



this song has been going through my head nonstop since saturday night when my bf yelled at me in front of a whole party! he says he considered breaking up with me but he didnt because i said i kill myself if i lost him and he said he didnt really want lose me its just that he didnt want to hurt me anymore but that fact he considered it scares me does he still love me? does he really want me? please tell me what to do please im sick of crying i need something anything help me please.


Comments (0) | Permalink