Thursday, June 22, 2006

Angst to whatever.................pain and suffering.

There is no reason or for the people understand why they feel like this....IF you care....YOU READ THIS POST....if you dont....YOU DONT HAVE A SIMPLE MENTAL HEART TO CARE FOR THEM.

Everyday People suffer's and pain's to see there past of pity, some are still seeking atonement and some are just sitting there no where to go on what lies ahead, these people are the most important to be with becuz if you dont be with them they will create a world of more pain and suffering to other's to realize why the only one person is in pain, in pain of his/her past life.
Where I am getting at is really a burden of myself everyday, and yet I dont remember what I am suppose to attone...heh...its really weird for me to type this subject but it is important for everyone who understands them, I definitly understand to where they are going through, as other's they look at them like there not even there and betray their trust or abandon from each other, for me I look at myself at mirror to see who I am or what I am or why I am here.
Everyday during the past school Im always hiding my pain and suffering away with a simple smile or mostly just being quiet all the time, like during Kawaii Seth's SWEET SIXTEEN party I hid my feeling from other's and no one notice at least I dont think, anyway what I was thinking about was why am I here in this mizerable world that I live. I wonder of through the abyss of my inner mind everyday, and searching for a cause and answer to know alone.....heh....all my life Ive been alone, alone from everyone, cuz I know they are talking behind my back, as for that I dont know if I can go on, If being alone is the best way to do, then so be it, I will suffer more in the shadow, until I can go to Japan and go to a Place where no can find me and live inside a cave with pure darkness.

Dark: Shin, dont be like this....Shin....I know someone who does care that you didnt know that she does....just wait til she comes......

Heh...no ones waiting for me no one....no one

Dark: Shin.....

this conclude my post ill....seee you later
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I am not doing nothing by doing nothing
Every day I do not do a single thing at my house
Im bored out of my mind.
I want to get out of here
I want to live alone out there
I want to go to Japan for all eternity
I want to wander any where I see that fits
there is no point in staying here
I want to hang out with my love ones and my dearest friends
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Sunday, June 18, 2006

   right now i am tired and bored
yeah got back from camp...so i come home...and yet im still looking for work...but where is the best game store that will hire me...i want to work bad....i need my own CELL phone...so i have to use my dads cell phone...so yeah....its currently mine until i get my own...what game should i rent too....i wonder...i dont know.
Anyway...HEY KAWAII lets hang out together sometimes this summer when your not busy.
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

its that time again for me to move out of the house from my mom and dad
yeah i am moving in with my brother-in-law but i will be visiting you my friends who is close to my heart.

Dark:......

Are you still down cuz Seth is not going out with you?

Dark:......

Get over it.
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Today...
Right now I am trying to apply a job mostly on Gamestores....cuz games are my passion as well as ANIME....I want to work at a gamestores...so I can go whatever I wish to go, But then again I need a car...so thats what I need to do now.....oh yeah Im getting a celly phony ^ ^.
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Monday, June 12, 2006

days go by goes by
Anyways,
During my days of weekend it went well, I went to Dave N' Buster's to play some arcade games like crazy, ate good food, I am really kind of happy but in sad ways I need some friend's with me so they can fun with there life's, although I know they cant go there *sigh* oh well, I still want to AKON cuz there is a Jpop Artist there I like so much it was KOTOKO who did the opening and ending theme for this anime Kannazuki no Miko.
thats it for now...

Dark:..........

~Shin
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Thursday, June 8, 2006

Nothing new lately
today was just the same of my life so as I write I went on and on so that is really my kind of my day of nothing better to do so yeah.
thats about my post.
HAVE FUN KAWAII SETH, MUUN, LEMONY, ZAPPA, THE REST WHO ARE GOING TO A-KON.

FRONT KICK TIPS

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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

My day
It was just a normal day of my life, in other words its mostly boring day, same o same o...which i hate, I rather go visit my friends that I love to hang with during school, they are precious to me that I want to be with them and yeah, I would love to go to akon but im poor either way no will be able to let me go or take me there so i have to drive to be able to go there it is sad enough that i am staying to this city of the heat of hell, but i still love it for some reason, anyway, I want to go with my friends to go to AkON to meet other people and be in a different environments and surroundings, so yeah.

here are some tips on speed of Martial Arts

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Sunday, June 4, 2006

I INVOKE THEE THY GODS OF THE EYGPTION GUIDE ME
Today, Im feeling alittle better and hope im well just have nasal congestion and cough.... not alot except nasal congestion, I wish I had the power to cure thy self from all things...Let alone.
Anyways, right now I am bored at my house I want to go somewhere that is fun, like to the convention's mostly anime and JROCK, but then again I dont even know who I would cosplay as...except in the anime convention...Shikamaru and the Organization XIII I would dress up as one of the Tenchu Characters Rikimaru but I need short hair and it should be either Gray or White...so yah...as for the jrock one....I have dont have a clue who I should dress up as heh except my favorite vocalist, GACKT...wearing his tight ILLUMINATI outfit or either the Squall looking one...either ones they are hot.

~Shin

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Saturday, June 3, 2006

Im not feeling well
So I dont feel good and I have colds and other crappy Syptoms....anyway...I hope soon or tommorrow feel alittle better but my body system is the weak....so I get sick really fast that I hate my body system or defense mechanicism....also last night I got to see X3 it was really good so yeah I went to the theater...so yeah I hope my friends from school are safe and having lots of rest and having fun...

Dark: I think you should go to bed and get some sleep and rest.

Thanks I will...after this. And Im gone....

~Shin
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