Wednesday, August 23, 2006

hm, well today was my first day back at school, it wasn't that bad since it was only an hour or 2 long, but still, it was irritating that some of my friends aren't in any of my classes, we just have to sit 2gether at lunch, no biggie (hopefull) well, no poem today, I have a headache from the bus ride, man the stupid sixth graders are takin over, it's so many of them on my bus, it's horrible, they're so loud and rude it's so irritating I felt like punching this one kid, luckily I didn't, he was my little brothers (my lil bro is in 6th grade, too) best friend, he would've told on me if did, smart ass sixth grader, man, screw him, I'm graduating in a few months anyways, he'll hate me 4 the 4 hour ceremony, lmao, well, g2g, ttyl. Byeness Comments (2) | Permalink Monday, August 21, 2006 Back to school Hm, I go back to school in about 2 days, or one, lol, My room is a mess and I have to clean it today and get my hair washed (wich I hate doing cause it's thick and I don't like having water run on my face, it gets in my nose, my ears, and I hate that, well, I don't have a peom today, cause I'm to brain dead to think of one, (It's 4:34 AM right now, so I'm pretty tired) anyways, here's an AMV that I made, it says athrunsgurl on it cause that's the account name I'm under (I have a site on here, too, it's the same thing, athrunsgurl, lol, it's much brighter on that sight, too, lol ) well, enjoy (although I know it sux cause I forgot 2 put in transitions, oh well, it's my first vid on WMM with a very old song, lol, but it's sasusaku so I'm happy) Comments (0) | Permalink Saturday, August 12, 2006    I'm not feelin to well....(poem title: Worlds Apart) I came home from eating out with my friend and her dad and brother (who is so adorable) and I think I'm sick to an extreme point of a sickness, like I might have to stay in bed tomorrow sick...I don't know...either way, here's a poem that I wrote today, actually a few minutes ago, and it might not make sense cause I'm probably running a fever, but I usually always have fevers when I write whatever...well, enjoy the poem, and sorry no AMV today, I don't feel like going to youtube.... -------------------------------------------------- Worlds Apart What do you see when you look at me? Do you see my pain and sorrow? Can you tell I’ll cry tomorrow? I wanna see through your eyes, too, what do I see when I look at you? I see a person, I see a soul, I see that you need someone to hold. When you look at me, what do I let you see? That I’m nice, I’m smiling, I’m hollow... When I look at you, I see this, too, your eyes tell truth, I could tell you your own life’s story. Does that mean you can tell mine? When you look at me, can you see my fear? Replaced by smiles, not a single tear.. I can’t cry no more, can you see that, too? I have to be happy, just for you! Look at my eyes, tell me what you can find! Do you see my pain, my sadness? I don’t care anymore, about celebrates... George Bush... or your next party... Just take a minute, look at me, and tell me where to start. Cause sometimes when you look at me, I think we’re worlds apart... Comments (1) | Permalink Thursday, August 10, 2006    Alright, I haven't posted in a while, idk, it might've been only a day or two, I have a bad memory and I don't feel like checking, I'm going to my friends house later on, so, yeah... anyways, I don't have enough inspiration to write a poem. I tried about five times, but it didn't feel right, so here's 2 I wrote a while back, okay? ------------------------------------------------- Thinking of you Memories of you They hold me back Thinking of you Takes me way off track Here in this house I'm missing you Just wondering if you're still alive... Hearing your voice... It makes me glad and seeing you laugh leaves me far from sad You beeing away I can't help but sigh Knowing I'd wait forever, Even if I cried.. ------------------------------------------------- Healing As i walk beside you i sense the pain and sadness that you feel. why won't you open up? Why won't you let me in? i look you in the eyes and wish i could say, "things will be alright, you're going to be okay," open up, let me in let me hear your voice let me feel your happiness let me feel your joy no more crying no more pain tell me how you feel i can help you now no more cring no more pain i can help you again one more time one more chance let me heal you now i won't cry, i won't run you can trust me forever i'll help you you'll help me i'll make it go away no more crying no more pain seek what you can gain i'll be by your side tell me how you feel one more chance one more line trust me and you'll be fine I love this song to much...I couldn't help it. Comments (1) | Permalink Tuesday, August 8, 2006 Hearing it again... well, I went shopping yesterday and it was a drag carrying all those bags, they were so heavy...today I have to clean my room and closet which is going to take a year, I should get some sleep soon...I leave with this poem I wrote a few minutes ago and an AMV Forgotten chapter Can you save a heart that’s flown, off to darkness; somewhere cold? Can you heal a heart that’s stained? Slowly giving in to pain. Reach in deep, past smiles, giggles and laughs. Reach in deep to a hidden past. Scars of sadness, tear of woe, a tiny voice screams “please don’t go” Don’t ask what’s wrong, I won’t let you see my tears, I’ve kept this smile fake for years. There’s no way someone could know, just how far back that my pain goes... I seek out guidance, I seek out help, but all I found were someone else’s. their pain, their tears, their broken heart. I don’t want them cause mine’s torn a part! I want my life, my joy, my laughter, I don’t want to be a forgotten chapter. A life that’s gone, and faded away. Replaced by others who she helped to stay. Pages left unturned, mind lost, body burned. I need your help whether you like it or not. I’m not gonna be a chapter that someone forgot. I’ll be the best, I highlight this story. I’ll be the chapter, Laden with glory. I never thought I'd hear this song again. It's the same song, but sung by a different artist...I like the origional version better...this one *points down below* Comments (1) | Permalink Monday, August 7, 2006    hn, well, my relatives came over yesterday for a change, but you really don't need to know that...well, either way, here's a poem I wrote and some AMV's... Smile Forever... I feel your pain and I’m smiling at you. Right in your heart, you learn just what to do. Smile in return, give a giggle or two, Look at my face and I’ll help you through. Seeing you smile, it warms up my heart, but hearing you cry, well, it tears me apart. But there’s just one thing, a secret, you see? I wanna cry, but you’re smiling at me... I’m caught in a trap, Thought up on my own.. My trap, yeah, but no one to lean on. So please let me smile, don’t smile at me, pour out all your problems for me to keep. I’ll bear your burdens, and I’ll take your sins, Just let me smile, so everyone wins Comments (0) | Permalink Sunday, August 6, 2006    idk Hm, well, like I said, no one was gonna comment on my first post...well, I don't expect any one to comment on this post as well, it might happen...maybe not, well, here's a poem I wrote the other day, and an AMV at the bottom. How Can I? How can I smile, when I know that you’re suffering? How can I smile, when you were right there for me? How can I smile when I know that you need me? How can I smile, when I know how your heart breaks? It’s simply because, I’m frozen inside. How can I frown, when I knew that you loved me? How can I frown, when I heard you got your first date? How can I frown, when I knew you were happy? How can I frown, when you were right here for me? It’s simply because, I’m frozen inside, Please take me home, I’m trying to cry. How can I laugh, when I knew you had surgery? How can I laugh, when I knew that you needed me? How can I laugh, when I heard that you had cried? How can I laugh, when you’re glaring at me? It’s simply because, I’m frozen inside, Please take me home, I’m trying to cry, Please don’t ask why, I’ll just tell you lies... How can I say, that I needed your help? How can I say, I’m losing my mind? How can I say, I just want your hand? How can I say, I want you to see; be right here with me? How can I say, I knew that you loved her? How can I say, I’m frozen inside? How can I say, I was trying to cry? How can I say, I lied all this time? How can I say, that I needed you so? How can I prove, that I want your attention? How can I prove, I want all eyes on me? What can I say? I know I am greedy. What can I do? I just wanted you. How can I smile? When I know you don’t love me anymore... Comments (0) | Permalink Saturday, August 5, 2006    First post... Haha, this is my non-existant 0th anniversary...which is my welcome, I'd guess, hm, well, nothing going on here, I'm just trying to get this together, I don't really expect anyone to comment here, righ now, it's my first post, hn, well, l8ers Made with help from animerequiem.com's blog templates. Comments (0) | Permalink