Friday, April 22, 2005

Im sorry
Im sorry, I cant take it anymore....Im gone.
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Eh, no picture.
Well. I feel, wierd. Something inside of me has driven me to the conclusion that..the pain will never end. So im calm know.

How the hell has everyone been? I want a psp so damn bad.Oh and Eric, I heard of your little goal, I should be spiteful and try and beat you like I normally do....but I just dont feel like trying.. eh.........meh..........feh..


I push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I have to take...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the Pieces, then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

I dont know whats coming over me. I know my outlook on life isnt the happiest but I seem to not care about anything anymore except graduating.

You know, females make sick to my stomach. They are so damn selfish....selfish can enter into alot of divisions. But id better not get into that, I've talked about that before.

I feel sick...like...a mental sick. My mind just..cant process all of the stupidity I live in.. Maybe im not as strong as I thought? -_-; I want to hurt something...or someone...

Maybe its the life I live. If I were to just act like everyone else and where the same shit that everyone else then I wouldnt feel this pain....that option is so appealing right now. Sadly, I cant succumb to such a level...of degration.

I just dont.....care....anymore...and the sad part is, I think I will never be able to care again...Im probably gonna take a break from MYO...I...just dont feel the inspiration to write anymore...If you want to let me know anything then just PM me....peace....

I hope all of your lives dont end up like mine, I hope your insides dont become as dead as mine, and I pray...you never give up hope..hope of change...as I almost have..
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Monday, April 18, 2005

Another week...

Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

TYRELLJEFFERSON
T	is for	Tricky
Y	is for	Young
R	is for	Revolutionary
E	is for	Enjoyable
L	is for	Logical
L	is for	Lovesick
J	is for	Joyful
E	is for	Easy
F	is for	Fit
F	is for	Foxy
E	is for	Enchanting
R	is for	Refreshing
S	is for	Serene
O	is for	Outrageous
N	is for	Neat

What Does Your Name Mean?

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

This one disturbed me alil but oh well..



This weekend was alright. Every play Phantom Dust? That game is so great. I bought that and I also bought Slipknot Subliminal Verses...I love slipknot.

I also hung out with Eric that day, and my ex ditched me again. Oh well, I dont give a two shits because I got a new game..

On Sunday I went of Kuro Kitsune Chans house. We spanked her in Smash Bros a few times, and then we chilled. Well...only I wanted to see some fanfics and she bit me and scratched me and we ended up wrestling for like two hours. It was fun, seeming as though shes strong enough to beat up one of my friends....::Cough cough:: Zan ::Cough::

How was your weekends? If you havent noticed, I dont go to people sites during the weekends...no computer..but I do try to go back and see your stuff, Luminae, if you go back and look I did comment.... OH, thanks for the quiz's and if you get that damn bored then just call me.

I came to school today and had work due in every class. I didnt do a damn peiceof work during the weekend. I got a 0 for the first time on one of my test. That actually hurt me in the inside alil.............Oh well. O_O;

Eh...im so damn bored...i might be back later...I also started Livejournal, I havent really put anything up and if you guys wanna know my name its. Narcalepsy
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Thursday, April 14, 2005

Well, in case you didnt notice X is my favorite Anime and Falken Fanel is my favorite Anime character.

How have you people been? Im really interested So...?

I dont feel good for some reason. I need help.... -_-; I dunno....Eh, Ill hopefully come back and post tommorrow but im not in a good mindset to actually post anything.
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

I cant wait until Otakon. So I can see what im up against. Last year I did pretty damn good in the GGX2 tournament. Came in 5th, I plan to win this year. Thats for sure..

Zan and Afrojones came over on Saturday. They were decent foes, but as usual the outcome came as me...the victor. I cant also wait to play Brandon in Tekken 5. Im looking forward to that. Once again, if you didnt answer the quiz, then go back and answer it.

My Testament and Ky are so good..
So, Amber, HFSTIVAL is coming. Do you know if there sold out? I hope to god there not because I dont have tickets yet..-_-;

Can you people tell me who your favorite anime character is and tell me why. Please, dont say " OH BECAUSE HES CUTE!!" Or some dumb shit like that. Give me a reason that will suffice..

''You wont bother me if you let me bother you.''



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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

One day I will get this game again. When I do you people will probably never hear from me again...nor will my friends...-_-;

Oh well. On another note. All of you that did answer my quiz I applaud, if you didnt then answer it now...please..

Eh, HFStival is coming up and I gotta go get tickets. Ill be fucking furious if they get sold out or something. >.>; I need a vacation. With loads of cash....and females....eh, but thats not gonna happen. Why am I so obsessed with bigger pictures and better things?

Well, I got some homework to do so Ill be back later..maybe. I got to go get a tux today for that shity prom.

LMAO, I gotta tell you this.. Eric got payed 22.36$ Last week. I was crying I was laughing so hard. It said

Pay exactly: 23.36
lmao!!!!!!

I needed that laugh.... Thanks Eric.......................LMFAO...
.


''Now, dont you feel stupid!?.''
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Monday, April 11, 2005

This is a great card. I forgot to mention to everyone if I havent that I play Yugioh. Ive been playing for a long time but Ive kinda retired. I use to be really good, although I never one a tournement...I would always get to finals and lose. EVERY TIME.

Anyways.. How have you people been? Me and Eric finally hung out after like a billion years. We walked in the blazing sun looking for a bank and didnt find one....
-_-;

Proms coming up. Ive decided that Im going to it. Eh its better than staying home because I have to pay for prom even if I dont go... ( Senior dues, yeah, private school sucks )

Im definitly gonna go to HFS Festival. That shits gonna be great. Any of you going? Oh yeah, Luminae, if you get this, thanks for the button and..umm..call me when you can?

I need some money. I want Xenosaga 2. Ive already beat Resident Evil twice. Im probably gonna trade that in and get like 20 credits for it. I wonder if I should trade in something else.

Well, I dont know what to say, im lost right now because im dieing of hunger. o.o; I know what ill do, Ill make a quiz and you people answer it for me...? Im gonna use the same one luminae used...so technically I didnt make it..lol

01. Who are you, what's our relationship?
02. How and where did we meet?
03. What's my middle name?
04. How long have you known me?
05. Tell me one good thing about myself?
06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?
07. My age?
08. Birthday?
09. My favorite band at the moment?
10. Color eyes?
11. Do I have any siblings?
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?
14. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?
15. Describe me in 3 words.
16. Name 5 things I love.
17. Do you think I'm good-looking?
18. How would you describe me to someone?
19. Would you ever date me?
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did.
21. What do you like most about me?
22. If we could spend a day together, what would we do?
23. Have we ever gotten in a fight?
24. Do you think we will be friends for at least three or four more years?
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stonger, weaker, or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal to see what I say about you?
36. If I were an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least once daily?

41. This one I made myself. If I ruled the world, what do you think would become of you and the world itself..?
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Thursday, April 7, 2005

I will find a way to get this game back again. It brought me so much supreme happiness....

I would do anything to get it back...well....almost anything

I have video game club today...although I kinda dont even want to go, im starting to get bored of it.

Me and Eric still have talked yet. Me and my EX are like...almost enemys again. Im so sick and tired of trying to please her, I hope she gets commited for treason and exiled or somethen...I dunno, as long as she stops getting on my nerves.

Thanks Luminae!!! I apreciate it alot. Well, its hot as hell down here. Its like 80 degrees. Wearing all black sucks in the summer...especially when you dont have any other choice but to wear that.. ( All my clothes are pretty much black.. )
Well, I dont have much to say...Peace out peoples. Imagine, if all of us lived on the same street how things would go? God, Id ejackulate all over the place...LOL..

''Fuck it all, Fuck this world, fuck everything that you stand for, dont belong, dont exist, dont give a shit, DONT EVER JUDGE ME!!!.''
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Wednesday, April 6, 2005

I didnt feel like puting a picture up..
And thats just how depressed I feel. God gracious im tired of this schoolwork. THERE IS NO END TO THIS MADNESS. I thought I was done after this ten page paper but...well...that wasnt the case..

O_O I dont have school because the pope died. In a way I want to say YES! but well....what the fuck...YES!! Im so happy im getting away from this god forsaken school. I wonder what im going to do on that day off.

I actually havent talked to my friend Rin in about a week. Ive left him a couple of messages but he hasnt answered them. I guess were not cool no more or something stupid...-_-; Well.....shit happens..

On another note. Something last night happen that pissed me off to a degree that is.....unspeakable. Dont you hate it when someone uses you as a puppet and you dont realize it until its to late. Or even worse you realize it as soon as it starts and you didnt do anything...that seems to be the case..this time.-_-

How have you people been? Make my button before I hunt you down Amber!

I beat Resident evil and im playing it over with all the guns. Man, its so fun because they have no chance in victory against you..its more amusing that fun though..

I wish I had FF11. Then maybe I wouldnt feel this way. That game made me feel better than pretty much anything....hell. That game is better than sex! Thats saying alot..

Well, I must go for not, too many eyes around me and im in school...peace..

I am one I am all I am above and beyond.''
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