Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Pay


You live
You will pay
You breath, it will hurt.
You love, you will morn.
You "sleep", the "nightmare" haunts.
You smile, something bad will happen.
You grin, it wont be so funny later..
You believe, your faith will soon deminish.
You have hope....when there is no hope...
You see,......nothing.Titical
Ambitions,futile.
But....
You will cry, and you will feel.
And when You feel, you will burn.....


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Monday, January 24, 2005

I have decided to do something nice. If you visit my site then visit my friends site, Kuro Kitsune-chan. She has a good site but not that many guestbook entries. Please sign her guestbook if you get the chance. Also, i hear my friend Zan might be going to the prom with her. Congrats Zan... On another note. I was out of school today and so i went to the library. I saw my best friend two days ago and we played Naruto 3 all day on GC. Hm...all my friends seem to be hooking up with partners in some way or form.LOL.... I'm actually the one whos standing alone. Oh well, lonliness can take its toll, im use to it by now. Also, if you havent been to my friend Rin Synoske site, go to his aswell..he has a decent site. If you like my poems then tell me, ill add more. Until next time my local Demons..:: Fades::
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Friday, January 21, 2005

Me as an anime character

Gold! You have golden eyes. You tend to be quite
distant, and may come off as depressed. In
truth, you are, but once people get to know
you, a smile or a laugh breaks through your
emotion barrier every now and then!


What Color Are Your Anime Eyes?
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You are a Khaos angel. You are different from all
the rest. You are a special breed of angel,
prone to suffer in the world that you are in
now. No matter how much you try to believe that
your not special, you are. There is alot that
you want to do in this world. Khaos angels are
very dramatic, we tend to have the ability to
cheer people up no matter what the mood, and
hold in your emotions. You should be proud,
Khaos angels are very rare to find in this
world of ours... (and yes. you are a completely
different type. Hence the name


What Different Kind of Angel are you...? ( Anime-ish pics )
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You belong somewhere out in the world, exploring
and learning and spreading the knowledge that
you find. When you love, that love will join
you in your quest and believe as you do in a
world of spiritual energy that is stronger than
anything humanity could normally even conceive,
although you may be able to. Council those you
encounter, give them your wisdom, and stay true
to yourself.


Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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Your anime hair color is blue.


What is your anime hair color?
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What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
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Enigmatic. Abstract. Masochist. You are Kyo from
Dir en grey.


Which J-rocker are you?
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Depressed- You see the world in grey and are always
looking on the darker side of things.
Sometimes you just don't see the point anymore.


What's Your Personality Type? (With anime image results!)
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In your eyes, people see shards of ice
everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing
away people that love you and truely care for
you! You want to be able to reach out and love
them but... You can't for some reason... You're
just too.... You :P Underneath that cold
exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to
let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would
probably be anywhere up high where you can look
down on life below you, like the roof of an
apartment building... Your eyes resemble a
saddened, crestfallen person seeking out
attention, but doesn't know how to handle it.
However, you do find comfort from your friends,
they're always there for you, and they know the
REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather
cold, you can be very protective over something
you truely believe in or love. Let go of that
"tough" rep and just be you! It's
impossible to live life without some fun and
love ^-^


What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics)
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Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Master Force. You are among the elite demons,
skilled in ancient lore and focused on nothing
but consuming the world in your dark web.
You're deaf to kindness, numb to pain, and
blind to love. You essentially rule all other
demons. We bow to you.


Which Demon Force Rules You?
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These quizes were made for people to find out things about me just incase they wanted to know what type of person i am.

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Used


The mind.
Such a complex device.
Used for slaughter, for peace, for insecurity. Used for Destruction. The body.
A temple?
A joke. Used for lust, used as a shell.
The eyes.
Used to see. See fear, disturbance, beauty. Abused, not cherished.
The heart.
Used to feel pain. To feel warmth, security. Used to feel apathy.
The soul.
Use to drive. Used to keep forth, the storage of essence. Soul, used for all.

Begining,happiness,uninformed,secure,blind,desire, misinformed,beaten,diecieved, treachery,darkness,despair,depression,pain,true,pain.Cold,black,tamed,restricted,outbreak,sanity,insanity,fraud, confusion,illusion, clear,visable,informed,hope.Yet....remain happy.
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One bad day.


Today i didnt go to school. Me and my So called mom got into a fight. Police were there and everything. It was pretty bad. I almost cut her head off with my sword because people wouldnt let me hurt her with my bare hands.... If i could put her through pain, i would do the following.

1. Make her have endless suffucation. Always choking.
2.Make her afraid of molecules and matter. So afraid that you would scream every time she could see one or feel one. Her sight would be enhanced just so she could see the molecules in microscopic view.For eternity.
3. Lock her in a room with 4 question marks and nothing else for eternity.
4. Lock her in a room with my most angered side of me. Pain would become numb for eternity for her.She could not die. ( Think about what my most angered side would do to her..... )
5. Push her into a pit that was 800000000ft deep. Once she eventually gets back to the top, her hand slips and i grab her hand. I hold it, look her in the eyes, then drop her hand and then the pit seals itself with magets.She can not die.
6. Ram a pencil into her eardrum for a eternity. The pencil has venom on the tip. She cant become numb.She cant die.
7. I better stop before i think of worser things. On any note. How was your day?

''God will never put anything upon you that you can't handle.''
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Thursday, January 13, 2005

Secret Garden


My eyes that floated in glass were simply
Looking at you

The fragments of kindness are also missing
The repeating signals
Continue to speak of love only out of my lips
I take out the plugs running from my entire body
And with my own legs, just once more,
I looked at this sky

The world that expands inside of dreams is
the last secret garden
Inside of you I've already completely vanished, but only my name...
Will not forget

In a distorted loophole in time
The knife that stabbed me in the back gives me wings
And I keep looking at the sky
In order to burn up all of the memories
Running through my entire body
I only looked at you...

The world that expands inside of your arms is
the last secret garden
If inside of you I've already completely vanished, don't forget...
The things that you embraced

Softly close your eyes
It's okay if you're cut off from the light
If you want to see dreams

"But they've already noticed..."
Everything about you who raised your hand high

The world that expands inside of dreams is
the last secret garden
Inside of you I've already completely vanished, but just don't forget...
My name

The world that expands inside of your arms is
the last secret garden
I only looked at you

Only you



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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

   I've learned a valubale lesson. Dont click things that say dont click them.
I wouldn't click this

DO NOT CLICK ME!!!

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Monday, January 10, 2005

DespairsRAY is so serious. Ive went to quite a few good sites latley.Ive seen some sides of things i didnt even know where there. Very refreshing to know your not the only one alone. As for me, i havent been doing
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I HATE YOU ALL!!!! DIE !!!!
.....On another note....
Also my music on my site will be up soon once i get some things straightend out! ^_^ ( I have way to much hate in my blood. )

''Some peoples pain wont end until others begin....''
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Tuesday, January 4, 2005

   ( Dedication to all my past relationships and future/present bitch's of my life. )

I bleed so hard i cant see the blood anymore...
I'm so numb i can feel your thoughts.
I can see so clear that I am blind.
My hearing,keen, my hearing, deaf.
My understanding, perfect, your understanding, lacking.
My mind, humanly computerized.
Your existance, a mental Virus.
Smoke runs from my monitor
Harddrive hacked.
Have you anything to say?
I'll let your silence speak volumes.
I'll let your actions show ignorance and stupidity.
Angry? You should be.
Hate me. For every moment you do.
Your hating yourself.

You sicken me.....


I just wanted to say that any of you that question my sanity to put comments in right here..... o.o


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