Wednesday, February 25, 2009

:S
I hate being mad at Tony..

On the way up to the college visit I was trying my absolute hardest not to cry in the car... I just literally blasted perfume on my laptop with my headphones.

:S

But then I found something out last night and I am practically ready to just say here is my ring size tony!!! XD XD XD LOL

... yea
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Tuesday, February 24, 2009

hmmmm
I think I know what's goin on..

I think me and Tony have some unspoken problems here... and .. we need to work on them... or it's just me. lol

god.. I don't mind if he doesn't im me every minute or never comments on any of my stuff on facebook.. but... I told him yesterday on a text that I wanted to see him in the morning cus I wouldn't be able to. And countless times online and phone telling him about NICC and guess what happens today..
I call, nobody there. So I text. He said he wasn't there.. then I get a text saying he will see me... on his way to school..... .....

... nani????????????


.... -_-' I wanted to see you Tony.. probably at your house alone.. ya know.. no parents??? -_-' So he stops over here instead with like 10 minutes to spare.. -_-'

And then asks me if I will see him again and I tell him about NICC *sigh* and then he figures it out.. -_-' and then asks me on the day if I can go to the band concert... if I would have known, I would have asked the night off or something. (good thing I don't work) and have made plans earlier... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

... meh... since that night.. I am just openly mad at him now.. grrrrrrrrrrr!!! instead of holding it in and saying, wops another mistake we made. We won't do it again. HE KEEPS DOING IT!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

but KawaiiMelody is probably right.. and it has been proven, im's and texts are hard to comprehend 100% cus of.. stuff. lol We can easily get things acrost by talking.

... So yea... I'm just gonna have to TELL him instead of text and ask him stuffs... ... BUT I DID ABOUT THE MORNING!!! -_-'

I would bitch more but then I would cry cus I don't like talking bad about him.

The good stuff.

He would do anything for me.
He is sooooooooooo nice.
He cares about me.
... should I post this?

haha yea.
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Monday, February 23, 2009

   omg
For the 1st time in my life.. while dating Tony... I got mad at him... Normally I would get mad at the situation.. but no.. last night.. I was mad at him....

I tried soooooooooooooooooooooooo hard not to cry but I did anyway. Here is the text he sent me:

Tonight we can truly say together we're invincible

1st I was like aaaaaaaaaaaaawwwww. Then I thought wait.. ... what? Why tonight? Why not yesterday? What did I do today that makes you say tonight? Are we going to do something tonight?!?!? (this was at 10:50sh)

So I started flipping out and slooooooooooooooowly getting mad at 1st at the situation.

He kept on constantly texting me these sweet things like I want and *kisses* and stuff. And everytime he sent me a text I sent one back ending it with me slamming the cell phone down.

And I was thinking.. Why can't he just tell me exactly what he means!?!?!? Why did he have to tell me that in a way I can't understand it!!!!

Then he started to do some cyber sex with the phone and that was cool.

But.. I just was not in the mood.. I wanted to give him a bj so I just typed bj while he was typing a load of stuff...

then his texts stopped... and I was starting to get mad at him..

then I was thinking. Omg, he hardly ever chats with me online or stuff and when he does facebook notes it's well thought out. Wtf.

And shit like that...

Then I desided to say good night to him. I wasn't just gonna shut him down and be mean..

But holy crap.. ... I'm not that ready for marrage as he is..

Like if he proposed to me I would say yes but I want to feel 100% ready 2.

Like in his love note to me for v-day it sayed basicly he was 100% ready to marry me... I am... 90ish.. there are a few things that concern me.. and I'm not gonna give out my ring size untill I am 100 percent or 99..

or wtv.. just ready jees..

haha, I already I agreed I am almost ready to see his halahala. LOL XD

... enought rambling..

cool/wierd text

mixed emotions

this is the 411

peace

ps. KawaiiMelody, Yea, I spose I'll tell you the ring size. Just don't tell Jillian Erin, nobody. I didn't want to tell you this morning cus I just kinda got up.. I was still in that mood... :S


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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

   lol
omG!

On our aniversery... freaken... family guy plays having the show about lois and Peaters aniversery. *rolls eyes* GOD!

and on our 1st date, they had scrubs, the whole show, just talking about 1st dates. -_-'

Seriosly..
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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

   OMG!
Last night was hell... it was soooooooo stuiped!!!!

I CRIED! becaust I wasn't with Tony.... -_-'

and wining how we arn't married yet..

EVENTUALLY I convinced myself I am happy and lucky to have a boyfriend so awsome. And I went to sleep.

-_-'

Then again... I remember in highschool I wanted to see more and more of him and by the time I was home I held back my tears because I wanted to be with him but I couldn't because I was too shy. *sigh*

I should just (count my blessing) [funny saying lol].

yea....

oh yea, gotta post this somewhere so I will do it here.

Seen Tony yesterday. :D

he was being sleepy. lol

And then not so sleepy. lol lol :D

*sigh* but alas, he had to go to cross country.

And there is my post. ^_^

lol on shirefolk LOL THIS WAS MENT TO PRETEND I WAS FRODO'S WIFE AND STUFF! LOL XD

peace

ps. LOL I just remember, he made me laugh lots. lol XD
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