Friday, December 30, 2005

*sigh* v,v

2:34 AM So yeah, I'm really getting annoyed at work with this past week. We've been understaffed and many people have called in due to being sick >,< Well, this previous shift was ok I guess. After work I was offered a ride home by my co-worker Lauren. She insisted that I go with her, so I did. I'll be honest, she would annoy me when I used to work with her but tonight was a bit different. I really enjoyed talking with her in the car. Even when we reached my apartment we still stayed in the car and talked a bit more. Well, we were in there for quite some time so I gave her a hug and wished her goodnight. Lesse, going before that. Wednesday was Matt's b-day. So the majority of the Smash Crew hung out at his house. Before going to Matt's though, we went to our friend Chris' house. There we played Smash and Naruto 4. I also played on his acoustic guitar. Wednesday was pretty fun. Unfortunately at 2 in the morning on Wednesday, my mother woke me up yelling at me to call EMS. She had a pain in her chest and was having trouble breathing. Also she couldn't move her left arm. For a moment I thought that she was either having a stroke again like when I was in 3rd grade or that she was having a heart attack. After she got to the hospital it turned out that she has high blood pressure. So she's gonna have to start taking better care of herself (which I wish she would do in the first place). But at least she's ok right now. Well, I think later I'll play my guitar and maybe play some Mario Kart DS. Ja ne.

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

I'm broke...but the wallscroll was worth it!

11:57 PM Ok, hellish day at work today, but I'm gonna talk about meh time at the mall with Kazuo. *ahem* ok, While at this store in the mall Kazuo and I were looking at wallscrolls and cds. I turned around and saw a wallscroll of 5 people that looked really familiar. Kazuo and I were both sure that it was Dir en grey, but we weren't really sure becuase they weren't wearing any make-up...except for Shinya of course. Then we asked some random girls and they were like "yup, that's Dir en grey" but they were in a rush, so I wasn't really too sure. Though the more I looked at it I came up with this: obvious Shinya style lead singer w/blond hair and many piercings Koaru's cheekbones...That's what did it! I was positive that it was Diru and went to buy the wallscroll with meh last $25 till Friday. Kazuo gave me $1.81 to try to cover it, but it came out to $26.99. So I was short about 18 cents. So I started desperately questioning if Kazuo had an extra dollar or something...it was quite the scene...the people there probably think I'm crazy, BUT HEY! it was for Dir en grey! @_@ Luckily this guy that we met at that store gave me some spare change *THANK YOU GOOD SAMARITAN! MAY WE MEET AGAIN SOMEDAY!*. The guy was pretty cool. He's half Japenese and goes to a lot of cons in Florida. I'm not sure if he goes to the ones here in Texas though. Also he goes to Japan quite a bit 'cause he has family there. He said he's going to Full Sail in Florida, so who knows, maybe I'll meet him again and I'll be like "Hey man! Remember me! I'm the fool that went psychotic for a Dir en grey wallscroll!" Though Kazuo and I got along with him pretty well. Well, that's the adventure of my fortunate meeting with my wallscroll. Though I have to pick it up from Kazuo's house Tuesday night T_T Ja ne. Here's a lil something for you guys FF7 AC "Kodou" - Dir en grey

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

Why isn't there a XXX-mas?

1:20 PM Bah humbug yo! So yeah, last night was really boring for meh. The whole family (excluding myself of course) spends the night talking to each other about days of old and what-not. And my mother annoys me this time of year by always saying "You always smiled as a little boy. Why don't you ever smile anymore?" I just sit quietly and don't respond. Throughout all that I'm in a completly different room, solitary, trying to frickin' get some sleep...which never happened, but I ended up thinking a lot. Though I did discuss plans for Ushicon with mi Tio y mi madre, unfortunatly my stupid cousin kept butting in the conversation where he has no place or right in it -,- ever since he became 18 he's gotten arrogant and it annoys the shit out of me 'cause he's retarded like that. Well, I guess for the hell of it I'll list meh gifts. three DVDs: Ice Age LOTR: Return of the King (Fullscreen, ewww >,< ) SW: Epi III (Widescreen, yay! ^,^ ) a black shirt with a skull that says "cookui" (it's a Mexican thing, really funny though) a Pulp Fiction poster b^^ a gift card to Best Buy which I have no idea how much for a Star Wars calendar (now I have a Hellsing one and a SW one, goddammit!...Hellsing's better ^,^ ) some little 20 questions game...kinda reminded me of a Darth Vader one I played online sixty-five dollars (Ushicon money!) and a dragon necklace from Seth that I wear all day b^^ Last night/this morning Ashley called and we talked quite a bit as usual. She was telling me about her X-mas so far and some plans of ours for Ushicon. Later we got into a stupid arguement about Fullscreen and Widescreen. It was pretty stupid now that I think about it. I was like "Ashley, I love you but you're driving me crazy! lol" We made plans to compare the two and see whose right. If there's one thing I know is never to argue with a girl becuase they're stubborn...but it's fun and I think it's cute when they're stubborn sometimes ^,^ Well, I guess I'll be going now. Tae-Kwon-Dodos! Attack! lol Ice Age is funny. Ja ne.

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Friday, December 23, 2005

I'm gonna get hit by a car one of these days... -,-

9:14 AM Actually had somewhat decent sleep last night. Excluding my mother waking me in the middle of the night just to say that she and my step-dad were leaving to the store...>,< Anyways, last night after work I took a crash course in Wrapping 101 with Seth's gift for X-Mas. I've noticed that days that involve Seth also tend to involve me almost getting hit by a car. Right as I started to cross a street, the light immediatly turned yellow, then red, needless to say people are stupid and don't respect pedestrians...so yeah...I had to run really fast... I also got a gift from Seth, though I wasn't expecting it. If you're reading this Seth, I love the necklace! Afterwards I took the uber backroads to Matt's house. I went ditching and then jumped the fence into his backyard. Heh, me wearing all black in night jumping fences...I'm surprised no one called the cops on meh, but I'm a ninja >,> <,< So yeah, played Smash, ordered chinese. Typical night. At least I didn't have to put up with Kai last night, and hopefully not today either. Though Ashley was a little upset with me about something that I kinda did....>,> I'm not gonna mention it... Ja ne.

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

I'm kinda pissed...

12:24 AM Right now some shit is going on with my friend Kai and it's starting to piss me off. He's crying, saying that he wants to kill himself. I'm telling him not to be stupid, but he keeps thinking as if his life now has no meaning anymore, so his existence is meaningless. I've had suicidal tendencies all my life, and even I think that this is pathetic.

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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

weird night last night

10:34 PM *sigh* Last night was weird for me. I had a case of insomnia. I couldn't sleep for hours. Not only that, but for some reason I felt like I wanted to die. Randomly out of nowhere I was depressed. I hate it when that happens...so yeah....it sucked. But I'm ok right now. 4 days left till Christmas. *sigh* holidays....whatever. Ja ne.

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

My all time favorite song!

I love Oasis so much, that even in a "Which Gackt are you?" quiz my result was Oasis Gackt. Which Gackt are you most like? quiz by mcvarmazi "You are Gackt in a baggy brown rag. Gackt's hard rock never sounded as coolly mysterious as it did in "Oasis". His guitar lines lack a sterotypical hard rock sound, but somehow they retain the rock quality. The many exotic sounds that Gackt incorporated into this song just add to its appeal. Gackt plays off this songs exoticism in his performances of "Oasis". He and his band, dressed in similar baggy, ripped "robes" move their a arms in a circular motion as pyrotechnics ignite around them in perfect time." I've loved this song for over a year now since I first heard it in Gackt's cd The Sixth Day, which is a collection of his famous singles. The Music Video The Live Performance from the Sixth Day and Seventh Night tour The Lyrics "Oasis" by: Gackt Camui Translated by: Mina-P yukkuri to yo ga akeru made kimi o dakishimeteta nanimokamo ushinau made kizukazu ni yasuragi ni oboreteta Until the night slowly ended, I was embracing you Until I lose everything, without noticing I was being drowned in silence "itaisa..." izen no jibun nara kutsuu ni kao o yugamaseteta ima nara kono itami ni sae yasashisa o oboeru "It's painful... " If it had been my former self, my face would have been distorted in agony If it's now, even this pain remembers kindness eien ni maboroshi ni dakareru yori hitotoki de mo jiyuu o erabu More than eternally embracing an illusion In a moment I'd choose freedom tsubasa o hiroge sora e habataite yakareru mae ni taiyou ni nare kaze yo fuke... sora e michibiite kimi no subete o ubawareru mae ni Unfold your wings and take off into the sky Before you're burned, become the sun Blow, oh wind... It guides you into the sky Before your whole self is taken away tooi kako ni ikitsuzukeru utsuroge na kimi ga iru itsumademo ugokanai no nara kirisakarereba ii Continuing to live in the far off past is your hollow self If you're forever unmoved, you should be torn to pieces sashinoberu kono ude o tsukameru nara hitorikiri demo kimi wa mada waraeru If you can seize my outstretched arms, then even if you're alone You can still smile kousa o abite sora e maiagare tsuyoku kagayaku taiyou ni nare kaze ni nore... ryoute o hirogete kimi no subete o kowasaru mae ni Bask in the golden sands and soar into the sky Become the brilliantly shining sun Ride the wind... Spread both of your hands Before you're entirely broken down furueru kimi dare no tame ni ikiru no? "mitsukeru tame..." subete o shinjite You're shivering Who do you live for? "In order to discover..." Believe in everything tsubasa o hiroge sora e habataite yakareru mae ni taiyou ni nare kaze yo fuke... sora e michibiite kimi no subete o ubawareru mae ni Unfold your wings and take off into the sky Before you're burned, become the sun Blow, oh wind... It guides you into the sky Before your whole self is taken away kousa o abite sora e maiagare tsuyoku kagayaku taiyou ni nare kaze ni nore... ryoute o hirogete kimi no subete o te ni ireru tame ni Bask in the golden sands and soar into the sky Become the brilliantly shining sun Ride the wind... Spread both of your hands In order to entirely find yourself Perhaps the reason I love this song so much is becuase of all the energy that is in it. I love that guitar solo. Also, the live performance is really enjoyable to watch. I remember when I was watching Kazuo's Live MARS DVD at his house, I kept going back to Oasis saying "WE MUST WATCH IT AGAIN!" This is one of the few songs that I can sing from memory Hope you guys enjoy this song as much as I do, or at least enjoy it a bit XP. b^^ Though I prefer the single version of it over the MARS version any day. So now you know a little bit more about meh. Ja ne.

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Monday, December 19, 2005

6:46 PM *sigh* I'm really bored right now. No one's online and I had a stressing day at work today. Right now I feel as if i'm moving no where in life. As if everything is a standstill. No change, no improvement. It seems like i'm just "me" and will stay that way...>,> man i'm bored. Well, I'm planning on making my next post a little "Know me More" thing with a theme that involves my all time favorite song from one of my favorite musicians. For those who want to: Feel free to take a guess of what my favorite song is and who it's written by. I'm hoping on making the post tomorrow since I'm off. *HINT: it involves J-Rock* Ja ne.

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Saturday, December 17, 2005

T_T I dun' wanna go tah work!

5:12 PM yeah, soon I got to head off to work tonight. I'll be gettin' off around after 3 AM DX. I'm a bit confused 'cause of meh friends on AIM asked if I would be online tonight around 8PM. I said I'd have to be at work and she immediatly puts her away message. So yeah, I'm like "Da FUck?!" and i'm confused as to the reason why. So another reason I don't wanna go to work. Though all in all, I'm just lazy. The main reason I don't wanna go. v,v *sigh* Ja ne.

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*sigh* So tired...

12:02 AM Ok, so I'm on the comp chatting with some friends o' mine and listening to Gackt. yeah, it's pretty relaxing right now. Really tiring day at work earlier. I kept getting bugged about breaks...during rushes. So yeah, no break for them >=) Here's something random and funny that I did today: I went up to Eric, one of the supervisors, and told him "Dude, imagine if there was an RPG game and there was a switchblade as a weapon. And when you equip it, it gives you +5 Vatoness!" Yeah, he became all quiet and has this really funny expression on his face that's difficult to describe, but it's really funny. I started cracking up laughing and he said that I'm an "uber nerd". Hey, at least I don't have an orgy in my pants when I see the X-Men 3 trailor so XP nya! to you Eric lol. Currently, in meh personal life, I'm pretty confused when it comes to certain people. There's stuff going around with people at work and around people that I know. Yeah, I really don't feel like being very descriptive. Next wednesday is the christmas party at the theatre. I'm not sure if I'm going to go or not, but one of my co-workers wants me to go. I guess I could go if she wants me to, but I dunno *shrugs* *sigh* I kinda hate holidays 'cause I get pretty depressed. Mostly becuase I've always felt a loner throughout my life and I still do at times. v,v oh well. Ja ne.

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