Friday, December 16, 2005

ima ha, nando mo kimi no na wo sakebitsuketa

10:47 AM Last night I felt really nostalgic. So after listening to meh Gackt songs on my X Box *I kinda find it sad that I use my X Box for music more than games...same thing with meh friend Matt* I unearthed my Super NES and N64 and played Zelda Link to the Past and Ocarina of Time. Unfortunately I didn't play for long becuase my 64 decided to crap out on me and it wouldn't work for an hour or so T_T and the D-pad on my SNES controller was annoying me...so yeah. *ahem* really great games though. Oh yeah, during meh boredom I put down the AIM names of the people on MyOtaku that are on my friends list onto my AIM buddy list. So if ya have AIM feel free to IM meh ok b^^ Also in meh boredom I decided to put up another song lyric. For those wondering, the song that I've posted on here have all been Japenese. I listen to J-Rock a lot. So here it is: Metamorphoze by: Gackt Camui translation: Mina-P yureru kodou ga boku wo shibaritsukeru kimi no kakera ga fukai yami ni ochita The wavering vibrations tied me down As the fragments of you fell into the deep darkness nigeru koto sae yurusarenai sekai de kimi no koto dake ha mamoritakatta no ni In a world where not even running is allowed I only wanted to protect you ima mo... ima demo dareka no yasashii kotoba yori kimi no, kimi dake no kuchibiru ni sotto furetai And now... Even now, more than anyone else's kind words I want to softly touch your lips, only yours hateshinai kono sora mo itsuka ha owari wo tsugeru kono me ni yakitsuita kimi wo wasure ha shinai Even this neverending sky will one day reach its end I will never forget you, your image burned in my eyes kimi no kioku ga donna ni yasashii kotoba yori dare mo kesenai boku no itami wo keshitekureru More than anyone else's kind words, it is your memory That heals the pain that no one else could erase ima ha, nando mo kimi no na wo sakebitsuketa Now, I call you name over and over again bokura ha nando mo ayamachi wo kurikaesu keredo kimi to no kawashita yakusoku dake ha mamoritai We make mistakes over and over again, but The only thing I want to protect is the promise I made to you ima mo... ima demo dareka no yasashii kotoba yori kimi wo kono ude de mou ichido dakishimetai And now... Even now, more than anyone else's kind words I want to hold you in my arms once more ima mo kimi no tame boku ha tatakaitsuzukeru yo kimi to mou ichido, waraiaeru sono hi made Even now I keep on fighting for you Until the day that I can smile at you once more In the music video for this song Gackt is a Gundam pilot *yes that's right, he's a Gundam pilot* and very sadly he dies at the end T_T fighting for the one he loves. Yes, truly sad indeed. This song is in the DIABOLOS cd and is also the theme to the movie "Gundam Z", hence why he's a Gundam pilot. I'd post the lyrics for the song "Dispar" but I can't find any. It's a really good song. If I ever make a Marth Smash Vid I'm going to use that song. Oh yeah, this may sound a bit cruel but...my step-brothers are leaving to Austin for the holidays HAHAHAHAH!!!! *ahem* Well, ja ne minna.

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Thursday, December 15, 2005

soba de warau...kimi ga iru

4:35 PM Lately this song has been stuck on me for a while. It started when it popped in my head while I was at work. Check it out if you ever get the chance. It's a nice song. "Saikai ~Story~" by: Gackt Camui translated by: Mina-P kasuka na hikari ni yobi samasarete hakanai yume no kioku to kiesou na koe A faint light calls me awake The memory of a transient dream and a vanishing voice toozakaru kako no zawameki wa ima de wa mienai ano keshiki o utsushidashite yuku Projecting that scene of the commotion Of a receding past that's now lost soba de warau... kimi ga iru Nearby smiling... You are here sou... marude kinoo no koto no you ni oboeteiru yo dare yori mo fukaku boku ni fureta sono manazashi o Yes... I completely remember it as if it were yesterday That look that touched me more deeply than anyone else wakachiau koto no yorokobi mo kiseki no you na ano deai mo... futari no omokage sae mo okizari ni shite kieteyuku And the pleasure of shared things And that encounter that was like a miracle... And only our image is deserted and disappearing usureteyuku kioku no naka de mou ichido dake dakishimetakute setsunai kurai sakebitsuzukeru kimi no na o koe ga nakunaru made Inside of the fading memory I want to hold you just one more time Nearly painfully, I continue to shout your name Until my voice is lost utsumuite furueru kimi o kono ude de dakishimetakute kono sekai no dare yori mo kimi o mamoritai to kizuita kara You're hanging your head and trembling I want to hold you in my arms Because more than anyone else in this world I realized I wanted to protect you mou sukoshi de boku wa kieru kedo... soredemo kimi dake wa hanashitaku wa nai setsunai kurai kimi ni tsutsumareta ano hibi o boku wa wasurenai In a little while longer I'll disappear but... Still I never want to let you go Nearly painfully, I won't forget the days That I enveloped you So yeah, it's a really nice song. Still not sure why it randomly popped in my head, but I can't seem to get enough of it. Well, yeah today was a short, slow and tiring day at work. They sent me home early v,v so I got less hours today...yeah it kinda sucks. Well, ja ne minna.

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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

visited the school again

7:38 PM Kazuo (Daniel) and I visited the school this morning. I suggested to Kazuo that we visit this week since it's the last week before the holiday vacation. It was nice seeing everyone again. heh, many people kept looking at me as if I was different...gee I wonder why? >,> (the lip ring was really a clip on, though I'm planning on really gettin' a lip piercing when I move out, but I like wearing it even though it hurts) While I was talking to Mike and Noel about the hotel situation for Ushicon some girl walked up to us and she kept staring at me while I was talking. It made me feel pretty weird, plus I think I had her for a class last year. Ugh, I hate being stared at. Makes me think that I'm hated or did something wrong...*shudders* I saw Sam this morning and we hugged. I told her that I would try to visit again when I could. She seemed happy to see meh again. Before she left we hugged again and I groped her b00b XP what's funny is that she has a boyfriend but she's cool with me doing that. Though personally I really don't like her boyfriend *shrugs*. (crap, that reminds meh. I gotta find out her phone number again so I can put it in meh replacement phone) Well, afterwards Kazuo and I headed out to the mall like we usually do once a week. I bought Gackt's new cd DIABOLOS. It's such a good cd. And Kazuo bought a Legend of Zelda cd that contains music from the NES Zelda games to Windwaker on Gamecube. Then we pretty much spent the rest of the day playing Naruto 4. Well, hope everyone is doing well. Ja ne minna.

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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

mmm, yeah baby...stick in that spoon...lemme lick off...that peanut butter...mmm

2:37 PM >,< what? I like peanut butter...and i'm snackin' on some right now! mmm the delicious succulance of the peanutty goodness as it embraces my tongue and melts in my mouth...and mhf! ish shoo gofd! ifh ohnly i hafd shome mihk! uh oh! Ro mihk!! *ahem* anyways, here's a random quiz I took. You represent... anger. Mad at the world, eh? You have a tendency to... freak out easily. Overly emotional about everything, you're most prone to bouts of cruelty and moodiness. Other people may be afraid of the fact that you explode so easily, but at least you're honest... even if you're honest about not liking anything. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla now a question to those who know me: Is this true? Do you really think this is accurate of me? Well, gonna snack on mas peanut butter. Ja ne.

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Monday, December 12, 2005

And so we ventured out...TO APPLEBEES!!

9:07 PM Earlier tonight we had a Supervisor's Night Out at Applebees with some of the members of management. FREE FOOD!! So yeah, of course I went. Also it was my only meal of the day. Though one of meh co-workers was gettin' on meh nerves. He kept on talking all the time and he speaks pretty highly of himself. Sure, I'll admit he's a funny guy. But we were all trying to eat and he would hardly shut up. Even one of the other supervisors pointed it out. So I started doin' what I do best when I'm constantly quiet: unexpectedly strike back. So I started kinda mocking how he talks so much and some others were laughing and he shut up for a while. It was pretty funny, but I still felt pretty bad...at least I got to eat in some quietness for a while. Well, despite what happened, we all had a fun time at dinner. So I guess that's what's most important. Though one of my managers was taking pics of the group and I constantly covered meh ugly face. She grabbed my shoulder and said "You meanie!" I just agreed and kept eating meh cajun steak mmm. Well, yeah all in all fun dinner. Ja ne.

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Sunday, December 11, 2005

Stressful Saturday

10:16 AM Ok, last night was really stressful for me. It was my second night as a supervisor and it's a REALLY FUCKIN' STRESSFUL JOB!!! AAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!! @_@...ok...got that out. Ugh, so much crap happened yesterday. My phone broke, some ass hole customer decides to play hero and evacuate a theatre in a FALSE ALARM FIRE THAT DIDN'T EXIST!!, and management kinda got on my ass about the way I was poorly running things...>,>...*sigh* v,v...T_T Truthfully....I don't think I'm cut out to be a supervisor...I never thought that I was to begin with...but now that I am I have to prove myself. I've got quite a number of people that depended on me...and I'm really thankful for their support and I've gotta shape up to return the favor. *sigh* I just don't want to be an asshole supervisor... Well, after work I watched Narnia with some of my friends. Matt, Zach, Jasmine, Lily, and some other of their friends were there. Of course Matt and I couldn't shut up during the movie...he demanded that I comment along with him *sigh* oh well, it cheered me up a bit, making fun of some stuff and all. Really good movie though. When it was over I went to get my stuff that I left and I saw my co-worker Ashley. She told me that she was looking for me and that everyone said I left *O_O le gasp! a girl...looking for me?! is it Armegeddon yet?* She said that we could've watched a movie together but instead she saw Pride & Prejudice by herself. I felt really bad about that. We talked and stuff...when we didn't though we just kinda stood there looking at each other...>,>....*ahem* anyways, after getting my stuff, Matt told me that we were leaving soon. So I gave Ashley a hug...a really long hug...hmm, we tend to have really long hugs a lot...*shrugs* and so I said good-bye and went back with my friends. I started telling Matt and Zach "Man, I could've been with a hot chick, but instead I hung out with you losers!" and Zach laughed and was like "Hah, you just skipped out on a date!" Matt was like "dude that sucks, but you didn't know." He thinks that I should ask her out...>,> ummm....*cough* He's like "She seems to like you. You guys held each other for a long time." *ahem* WELL ANYWAYS! That's pretty much all I have to say for today. Most likely I'll hang out at Matt's and try to get a new phone today...thank god I have insurance....at least I better >,< I'll try hard to become a better supervisor. Ja ne.

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Thursday, December 8, 2005

And so I voyaged...to the booth!

11:20 PM Ok, starting off. I was rudely awakened by my mother telling me that we were going to eat at Tacos Martinez, a little restaurant in the west side of town. So my mother, step-father, step-brother and I went to go eat breakfast. Being in the west side always brings me memories of my childhood becuase I grew up in the south side and it's similar to the west side. Ok, well then, lemme tell of my first night as supervisor. I was pretty much supervising nothing becuase it was a freakin' Wednesday night and there's hardly anything to do. Lots of people were congratulating me and making jokes about how they have to listen to me now. Well, after the concession stand was closed I had to stay until all the movie breaks were over and everyone left the theatre. Unfortunately there were 2, count 'em 2! people in the 10:20 Harry Potter so that meant that I had to stay close to 1 AM D: but to pass the time I helped Ryan, one of the projectionists, move some prints around. He was getting some stuff ready for Narnia this weekend and it was really cool being up in the booth again. That was the third time I've been up there and I think it'd be really cool to be a projectionist. Ryan and I were talking about our jobs and how we get tired of working there, but at least we somewhat have job security becuase we know that if we can't find another job we can come back to the theatre. I also saw the digital projector that we have for the 3-D Chicken Little movie. It's really cool! All you have to do is program the show times and build up the trailors and what not, and you're set for the day. You'll hardly ever touch that thing for the rest of the day. What's pretty cool is that we're the only theatre in San Antonio that has a digital projector. Ah, what the future has in store for movies. Heh, if formatted properly we could even play Advent Children on that thing XD Well, that's all for now. Ja ne.

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Wednesday, December 7, 2005

That's Mr. Shiro to you

11:22 PM Last night something happened at work that will change things quite a bit. Everyone was anxious to see the new schedules becuase they had the names of the newly announced supervisors. I was a bit anxious too becuase I've been told that I was one of the candidates for new supervisors. Well, while working in concession, one of the senior staff members Levi came up to me with a sheet of paper. As he handed it to me he says, "Here you go Mr. Supervisor. Make sure you get a black neck tie by Friday." I was a bit shocked as I saw my name in the supervisor's area. Throughout the rest of the night many co-workers were congratulating me for my promotion. Eric, one of the supervisors, even came up and shook my hand asking if I was excited. I told him that I probably would if I wasn't sick. heh. So today I get to come in with a black tie rather than the dreaded red bowtie. Also I have to go to my first Supervisor meeting on Thursday (assuming that they didn't cancel it and change it to Monday). P.S. My ear still hurts lol Ja ne, I'll make sure not to become too power hungry =)

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Tuesday, December 6, 2005

realization

1:04 PM Well, right now my ear kinda hurts. I had to struggle with a new earring and what not...14 gauge. Thicker than what I had before. Anyways! on to the main thingie! I've come to the realization about a difference of being young and being more mature. Those who are young tend to not look at what they have in front of them or around them. They take many things for granted, not knowing that these things will not always be there for them or with them. Those who are older pay more attention to what they have and will cherish them more. They know that those things will not be with them for the remainder of their life and will make the best out of the time that they currently have. When I say this, I don't mean the physical age of a person. I mostly take into account the mental age of an individual considering that all people age differently in that state. These thoughts came to me last night as I was walking home and a little bit this morning while I was walking around. Ja ne minna.

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Sunday, December 4, 2005

I was pissed, but I'm ok now

9:58 PM About maybe 2-3 weeks ago I heard from a source *a friend of mine by the name of Chris* that someone by have a "terminal illness". By the description that he used my first though was his ex-g/f Ashley. My instinct was correct and it was her that he was mentioning about. I immediately got worried and pissed at the same time. Mostly worried and scared, but still a bit pissed. I think i've gotten pretty close to Ashley and I consider her a good friend. So of course I was worried becuase a friend of mine could be extremely ill. As to why I was pissed, I kept feeling wondering why no one informed me of this. Why didn't Chris tell me that it was Ashley, why didn't she even tell me herself?! Am I not a good enough friend or something?! Am I just insignificant?! I kept messaging her asking what was going on and she didn't explain in any of the responses. So today I straight up asked what the hell was going on when I caught her on AIM earlier today. *sigh* Well, fortunately it turns out that she does not have an illness. It wasn't a joke, more like a precaution due to something else. Apparantly Chris jumped to the conclusion that she had cancer...there goes Chris again jumping to conclusions. >,< When I talked to her she said that she was surprised that I worried for her and didn't want me to be worried in the first place. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. But yeah, due to that I lost some sleep during the weeks and even shed some tears a few minutes ago (fuck, i'll admit it. I cry at times. I hate it, but I do it). I think what mostly got to me was: if something really bad did happen to anyone of my friends, would they inform me about it?...I'm not even fully sure if I would.

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