Tuesday, November 15, 2005

12:07 PM Yesterday my friend Daniel and I visited our old school. We met some of our old friends and chatted with some that we still hang out with. We got quite a bit of a welcoming crowd, though of course Daniel got the bigger one. eh, He's a popular guy, so what. I saw Seth, Samantha, Ashley, Phil, Vivian, and some others. I basically said "Hi" and hugged some. Seth was excited when she saw Daniel and she held on to him the entire time...it was good to see her so happy. I guess it was a good thing that I invited Daniel to come with me that morning. I think it's important for the people that I really care about to be most happy...that's probably why I feel I get the short stick. I kinda wanted to talk to her something...but after seeing how happy she was I don't think I could or even should. What's most important is that she is happy.

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Sunday, November 13, 2005

10:10 PM This is mostly just gonna be about some stuff that I feel right now. I'm feeling a bit nostalgic right now and my eyes are a bit watery as I type this. I'm remembering the day that for once I did not wish to die. I felt as if there was something to live for. I spent a day at the arcade talking to her. It was the best day of my life that I can remember. I felt proud to be alive, I wanted to look forward to the next day. I was a bit scared on the walk home becuase I almost got hit by a car as it was turning fast. Then later things became crappy and I tried to get over her...but it's still there. I can still feel it at times. No matter how much I've tried to remove my emotions they somehow still bite me in the ass. Perhaps my friend Chris was right. Maybe it's just me being a coward. I've always felt that I always got the short stick in life. I've helped those who are important to me yet I still am left with nothing. Selfish thoughts..yet they haunt me. I wish to remove my selfishness, yet there's a part of me that wishes to go out and grab what I want. I think I'd rather wish to be selfless more than anything. I want to be a caring person in life. Someone that will help and not ask for anything in return. I don't believe tonight will be easy for me.

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Thursday, November 10, 2005

9:56 PM Ok, so basically today was a boring day at work. I basically read mangas, played Castlevania DS, and sold tickets. Talking to Ashley right now. Haven't talked to her in a while, so it's fun talking to her again. Right now she's trying to say goodbye, but I keep resonding "NOOOO!! I WON'T LET GOOOO!!!" and she's threatening me that if I won't let go she won't do her sexy breathing again and that makes me sad. Well, ja ne...btw...I still havn't hung up with her yet XD

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11:01 PM Ok, so basically all I did today was hang out with Daniel at the mall and at his house. We didn't get lost in the mall again thankfully. We played a lot of Smash and according to Daniel, I'm getting a lot better. I beat his C. Falcon and his Link at least once today. Currently Daniel is the top ranked in our Smash Crew. Later Daniel and I went to Mike's house and...played more Smash with Mike and Matt. Also we played the old school Smash on N64. Later we went to Matt's house and played Halo 2. Man I suck at FPS's. I'm more of the Fighter type of guy. (Guilty Gear and Smash pwns!) Daniel had to leave after a while, so Matt, Mike and I continued playing Halo. And they kept killing me. Mike is the best in our group when it comes to Halo. He's the only one that plays Live. He tried givin' me some pointers...but like I said...I suck at FPS's. Afterwards Matt played Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind since I lent it to him. It was funny watching him get killed by lame monsters. I'm a bit pissed 'cause I started up MySpace and I have no frickin' idea how to work that damn thing. Since it supports videos I'm hoping to use it for posting Smash vids of myself and others in the Crew. Trouble is...MySpace is retarded. I tried to change the font to red...and it came out green! WTF?! Well, hopefully I'll be able to use it for Smash vids. I'll still be using MyOtaku for my main stuff. Ja ne minna.

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Monday, November 7, 2005

"Damn your eyes!"

12:26 AM apparantly Nabeshin is one of my new nicknames. Ok well, first off, my eyes are killing me right now -,- Today was pretty much nothing but walking and walking...maybe some resting...and then more walking. I'd love to explain in detail about the events that happened today...or yesterday...whatever. But I'm pretty tired and my mind is slowly losing control right now. Pretty much it started with Mike, Steven, and I helping with Matt and Jasmine's commercial thingy for their economics class. It was pretty funny becuase of some random stuff. And after that we did more random stuff involving recording with a video camera. Also I saw some stuff that Matt, Mike, and Jasmine recorded last night..or two nights ago...I dunno. LOL "It's the Black Monster! Mike! Where's the map?!" "It's in the river! AHHH!!" Later we hung out with Amy and Zach along with some guy whose name I still don't know. I finally got my Castlevania Dawn of Sorrow game back from Matt, so now I get to play it. MWAHAHAHAAHAH very good game. Though it's strange how Soma Cruz took a "Bad Ass Pill" in DS. He was pretty annoying in Aria of Sorrow. He must've contacted Cloud (FFVII) about getting a "Bad Ass Pill" Soma: "Hey Cloud, where do you get those Bad Ass Pills? I know you took some right before you did Advent Children" Cloud: "I got them from Dante. Man, he's so badass." Soma: "Yeah, Dante is badass. I wish I was as badass as him." Cloud: "Well, with those pills you'll be pretty badass, just not as much as Dante. Man, I wish I was as badass as he is." Yes...Dante is bad ass. Man, I hate how I don't get to hang out with the majority of people that I did with last year. I kinda miss that T_T Well, ja ne. Till we meet again.

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Saturday, November 5, 2005

So,...

12:19 AM Ok, not much went on today...or yesterday...whatever. During work I kinda got some info that there's a chance that I may be promoted. One of my supervisors seems quite confident that I will get the promotion; however, one time a certain co-worker told me that I was good for a projectionist position...and yeah >,> Moving on, today was hell due to the new kid's movie Chicken Little. We have it in 3D (the only theatre that has it in 3D in S.A.) and it was early release for middle and elementary schools...stupid school district. Funny moment: when I left after 5 I had to leave the walkie to one of my other co-workers. As I handed it to her I was saying good-bye and hoping that she have a good day, she told me something similar as well and we hugged...for a while. Then a girl, most likey an adolescent, said "Um..excuse me?" and we let go and I turned around and she had this funny expression as she said "Sorry for interupting...but where's the 7:00 3D Chicken Little going to be in?" and I quickly told her that it was in the 6th auditorium. I just thought it was funny and I said good-bye again and then I left. Well, after work I cashed my check and went to Matt's. Mike and Jasmine were there and Matt was playing Katamari Damacy. Weird game. Later on some friends of Jasmine came over and we all watched SAW on DVD. Really good movie, but I believe the 2nd one is better. There's a Smash tourny at Northwest Vista College tomorrow...or today...and Noel wants me to go. Trouble is that the tourny lasts from 2-5 and I work 6-CL. He suggests that I call in, but considering what may happen I don't want to risk it. Also I'm out of practice, 'cause I was doing crappier than I usually do when I was playing Daniel yesterday...or two days ago...whatever. Well,...can't really think of much more to say. Ja ne. Till next time. On a side note: I was watching Nightmare Before Christmas the other day and I decided to dub the song "What's This?!" into the "ADD Song". As I was watching the movie, it seemed that Jack had ADD and the song just emphasized the fact that he couldn't pay attention...>,> don't get me wrong, I love that movie and I think it's better than Corpse Bride...please don't hate me...<,< ...Tim Burton is awesome...he did frickin' Batman...

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Thursday, November 3, 2005

Today...

6:05 PM Well, my father is still alive. The police found him downtown and took him in. The place where he stayed are being assholes becuase they said he took all his stuff (which he didn't) and they still have his money. There's a chance that he may be commited to a mental ward, but that's kind of in the air at the moment. On a happier note, I spent the day at Daniel's house and we played Soul Calibur III, Smash, and Guilty Gear X. I'm really out of practice in Smash. I did horrible today. Guilty Gear X, I still pretty much have it even though it's different compared to XX. It was funny when I moved from Ky to Chipp and said "I think I'll use my better character." Daniel's reaction was "Your Chipp is better?!" Daniel is a really good Johnny user though. And for SCIII, let's just say the competition was pretty fair. I'm a lot better at 2D fighters than I am with 3D ones. Well, ja ne...and even though it may not seem like it, I care deeply for everyone I know well.

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Wednesday, November 2, 2005

Continuation of earlier

8:26 PM Alright, well I found out that it's not my father's asthma. What happened is that he went to my grandmother's house and told her that he got kicked out of the place that he was staying at. My mother and aunt were worried becuase they're weren't sure if he's been taking his meds lately. Though my grandmother said that he wasn't being aggresive, so that's pretty good. Trouble is: now we have no idea where he's at. No one has had contact from him since he left my grandmother's house. My mother called the place where he stayed at and they said that "he moved out" they told my aunt that he just "wasn't there". Also they have his social security check. So my father is out somewhere in the city with no money and no place to stay. My mother says that we'll just leave it "in God's hands"...like that'll do anything.

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Something bad...

1:00 PM To add on the shit list, I just recieved a phone call from my aunt a few minutes ago. She asked for the number to one of my father's relatives. The tone of her voice was serious so I'm thinking something bad is going on with my father. First thing I'm thinking is that his asthma from his lung cancer may be getting worse.

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Someone hates me...

12:21 PM Yesterday I finally got my order of Guilty Gear X for the PS2. When I put the game in my system it started making this annoying loud noise and kept saying "Disc Read Error". So I'm pissed becuase my PS2 sucks now. I know it's the PS2 becuase it worked on my step-brother's system. Last time my PS2 crapped out on me was when I finally got Devil May Cry 3. So now I have to get it repaird yet again and I don't have any money until this Friday. Also I can't return the game becuase yahoo is crapping out on me and I can't email Gamestop to get a damn return order number. *sigh* Oh well. I guess I'll just have to get it repaired again when I get the money. Until then I still have Guilty Gear XX for my X Box and not to mention Soul Calibur III. And Smash isn't very fun to play solo. Hopefully things will get better. Ja ne.

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