Thursday, July 12, 2007

A not so depressing update :D

OK! So let's start off with the drama crap, get that off my chest and then move on to more happier things shall we? So a few days ago I received a message from my ex Jasmine saying this: "I know things are better off this way. Without us talking. Just wanted to let you know I miss you and things with me have been ok. I still think about you a lot and even though you probably hate me you have still made an impression on my life. I hope you find someone that can make you happy. I wish the best for you. Sometimes I just wish you knew what all really happened but I know for me its a loss already so it's not even worth it to try to explain what has happened over the past few months between me and Ash. I hope you can find a better friend than her but I guess you got lucky cause you aren't here with her and don't get to see the real her. Not that you care or anything but I will be out of town for the next few days at nationals in Cali. Can't fight though I messed up my leg real bad and am probably gonna have to have surgry to fix it. =/ But it's still going to be fun. They have a Japantown. That'll be really neat. Anyways I have a plane to catch and I hope you're doing ok." I don't "hate" her...but perhaps things are better with us not talking to each other. As for the thing between her and Ashley..well I consider Ashley a good friend. Even though she and I don't get to hang out a lot I know that I can talk to her about almost anything (so long as I choose to talk to her about it. I have trust issues.) so of course I'll defend her. I'm just really tired of the crap that Jasmine's given me, so I'm really in no hurry to talk to her again. Also, she broke up with Tyshi sometime before she sent this. =/ Alright, got that outta the way. Now for the good stuff! Well as some of you may know, I've been wanting to move on and hopefully try to date again. So I've been talking to a few girls at work. Well, one of the girls whom I've had my eyes on for a while is usually a bit quiet towards me but I still try to talk to her. I know I can at least make her laugh haha ^^ Well, tonight she was way more talkative towards me. Even told me about this weird dream that she had and for some strange reason I was in it o_O She also asked for my phone number and email. So I'm hoping things will turn out pretty good. I think she's really attractive and she seems pretty smart too since she attends college at the University of the Incarnate Word...higher than where I go to lol ^_^; I had a pretty fun time with her at work. Only bad thing that happened was when she asked me a question about my father =/ I mentioned that my father was diagnosed with leukemia one time (conversation topic started when she said a friend of hers had that) but was doing better last I heard. She questioned about why I don't really talk to my father that much and I said it was mainly some "daddy issues" that were my fault and she asked what happened. I got quiet and very hesitant to answer and then told her that she had some customers (quite the scapegoat eh? lol) Afterwards she looked at me again and understood that I didn't really want to talk about it...which I didn't. If things go well then I'll explain it to her someday. I got a bit quiet for a while after that, but I was also tired so yeah =/ lol When she would ask if I was ok I would just put on a smile and say something retarded ^_^; Anyways...yeah..hopefully something good will happen. Laters :)

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Sunday, July 8, 2007

work and stuff

I'm glad to be back at the movie theatre, but some things get to me though. Since I'm a former supervisor, I tend to judge the current supervisors and quite a handful of them just get to me because I question how they ever got promoted. When I was working concessions I had this woman come up and tell me that she has heart problems and can't have salty foods and she wanted to exchange her popcorn for some unsalted popcorn. I say "NO problem, it'll take 5-10 minutes but I'll get right on it" and so I tell the supervisor and she stops me saying "uh, I don't think we can do that!" and I'm looking at her and want to yell "ARE YOU STUPID?! HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN ******* WORKING HERE?! HOW DA HELL DID YOU GET PROMOTED?!" but of course I didn't >_> but she called a manager asking if she could and of course he said "Well then make it unsalted." She wasted SO MUCH TIME for that because she was so stupid! She also did other stupid things throughout her shift and I was just angry the entire day. anyways...moving on. Not much goin' on outside of work. Hung out with some friends on Thursday. First Noel and I hung out at Matt's house. We played Pokemon while Matt was watching V for Vendetta. Then we picked up Mike from work, went to his place so he could get changed, picked up his girlfriend Maki, and then we went to Panda Buffet to eat. Since I already ate earlier I only got some water and played Pokemon the entire time :P But the stupid waitress charged me for a buffet >=( So we all had to convince her that I didn't eat and I'm sure that she didn't believe us because of the look she gave me. Then we went back to Matt's house and played DDR, then at 10 we all headed out to Shisha's but Maki had to be dropped off. We decided to try something new so we smoked some watermelon pomegranate hookah and we also got hot chocolates :) that was good lol. Afterwards at like 1am we went to Whataburger, ate and just talked about stuff. Sometimes Noel will come over and we'll play Street Fighter: Third Strike (3S) but other than that I haven't been having much of a social life lately. I kinda wanna get another girlfriend since I'm gettin' pretty lonely D; Been trying to talk to some girls at work since anyone else I talk to really aren't interested (well...no one in this city at least) Though...it's kinda difficult to talk to girls on the job since y'know...you gotta do your job and all. Not much time for socializing =/ Well...gonna go do something before I have to leave for work today. I'm off tomorrow and Tuesday. So it'll be nice to rest for a bit again. laters

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Monday, July 2, 2007

*sigh* v,v

Ok, so update goin' down. Ex-gf's been quite the bitch lately. Always stirring up drama and what not. But whatever, I'm done being patient with her. It's her fault that she can't learn to just get over it and quit being so emotionally self-destructive to herself. She wrote a pretty bad bulletin on MySpace towards my friend Ashley and I. She made sure to delete her and I off her friends list when she posted it, but she didn't bother to delete my BS music profile that I had. The message is as follows: "Where friends don't stab you in the back and bfs aren't complete assholes!!! <3 it's amazing. I have a friend who actually cares about me and not just herself and who doesnt talk shit about me to everyone and pass flyers around school with crap about me written on them. Which everyone laughed at anyways! >.< It was pretty funny. It's like one of those lame things people do in middle schools on tv or something. pretty sad. And my bf is hot and athletic. Unlike josh. lol. Sorry but only me and your mom could only ever truly love that face. lol. Unless it's a pic that totally masks the real you. Not to mention your gaining weight again. My bf cares about me and actually wants to talk to me. Imagine that. Wow almost a forgien concept huh? Oh yeah and my friends don't stoop so low as to go talk to crap about me to my ex step dad. thats really lame. the dude left town. hes not here anymore. its not worth it. Oh and Josh 13 yr olds and 20 old yr olds are not legal. Just a hint. Its pretty disgusting actually but I guess you cant do much better than some desperate kid. I feel sorry for anyone else that has to put up with your crap. Yeah you're probably not gonna read this but for everyone who is friends with ashley or josh I really hope you realise what kind of people they are. And for everyone who was worried about me I am much better. My leg is healing, nationals are soon, i have amazing friends, and and amazing bf. I also have an amazing job. And my family is great. =) it's getting bigger everyday. We're getting new dogs and my mom is marrying again. but hes not gonna be our father. just our friend. there are almost no rules. we can do what we want. jessica may be moving in with us as soon as her parents move away. That will be cool. Anyways off to make cookies. Oh yeah and I'm finally gonna announce who my new bf is. It's Tyshi <333 He's so cute." hmmm...let's see. Here's my viewpoint on this piece by piece: ***WARNING! I'm going to be a real big jerk here!*** 1) Perhaps if you didn't always consider yourself #1 and took other people in consideration for a change, then perhaps you wouldn't have enemies. 2) Since you state that your current bf is "hot and athletic" then that states you're very shallow. Congrats. 3)Hmm....only you or my mother could truly love this face eh? Well, I may not consider myself quite the looker, but I have declined many girls before you and JUST FOR YOU! So remember that. I'm sure that I could get find another girl..and a better one at that too. 4) Yes, it's true that I've been gaining a bit of weight back again...but hmm...I still weigh less than you o_O lol 5) I've cared about you and did talk to you. Unfortunately long distance is difficult and I have my own life here as well. Sorry that it didn't work out and that I couldn't devote EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF MY TIME TO YOU! 6) I'm not 20 yet and I'm not trying to get with a 13 year old. First off, I didn't know she was 13, I randomly met her off Gaia. Also, this is coming from the girl who flirts with every guy she encounters and then complains about almost getting raped...gee I wonder why? and this is the girl that considers even hugging as flirting. So yeah, whatever. I'm not hitting on her. I'm not like you. 7) I can't do much better than a desperate kid? I guess so far that's true since YOU ARE ONE! Also as I stated previously, I have turned down other girls. Better girls as well. 8) And so after complaining about how shitty your family life is, you're now saying that it's great and you get to do whatever you want? Well have fun with that. I'm sure your sister is going to keep leaving the house at night and messing around with other boys. Also I'm sure that you'll keep flirting with every guy around you convincing them that they like you and then cry about them trying to rape you again. >=( 9) I just hope that you don't give Tyshi the same crap you gave me the entire time we were dating. And you better not cheat on him like you did with me. Sorry, but no matter how many times you try to re-word it, going out with someone for a night just so that you don't have to pay for anything won't take away the fact that YOU CHEATED! *sigh* v,v sorry..had to remove some stress. I know it's very mean towards her, but I'm seriously sick of all of it and don't care anymore. My patience for her is gone. Well, in other news. Apparantly I'm "grounded" now because I was out at my friend Mike's house with Noel and we were there till like 3am. My mother gave me this stupid lecture that I've heard many times about how irresponsible and immature I am. I've always called her before letting her know that I may be out late, but those never count until I fuck up. She always counts my mistakes and never the times that I've followed her rules. I'm almost 20 and I'm sick of it! She can't keep controlling me. If I had my own vehicle, then I wouldn't have to worry about getting a ride home and I could just leave whenever I need to, but that's not how it is. So she says that I'm not allowed to go out unless I ask permission. Whatever. I think I'll just leave the apartment whenever I please to. Yet again, I apologize because I'm in a pretty bad mood right now and need to get rid of some anger and stress.

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

Small Update

Just finished eating after getting off work. I was originally supposed to work 10am-6pm today, but it was so slow that I was sent home. Two other co-workers that were with me in box office didn't really like how management decided who to send home. Gloria, one of the managers, came in and asked who wanted to be sent home. I said that it didn't matter for me, and no one stated or asked if they could leave. So she then decided to draw names from a bowl...this upsetted the other two because they felt that was unfair...even though they didn't state that they wanted to go home they found it unfair to leave it to chance when they were there before me (I was a little late to work...overslept) But yeah, they had an opportunity and they didn't take it and so we leave it to chance. I'm good with that. Well I was the first name drawn so yeah, I got sent home at about 12:30 o_O Well, not much has been going on lately. Just working usually and doing whatever during my free time. Last night I mostly spent it talking to Yugi on AIM while playing Resident Evil 4 :) It's such a good game. I've never beaten it, but it's not mine lol I'm borrowing it from my step-brother while he's away in Austin for the summer. Even though I do have a lot of games I haven't beaten lol T_T Some of my friends have been complaining that I haven't been playing FFXI or Pokemon enough >_> it's true, but I have many other hobbies as well...Usually most of my time goes to either Guilty Gear or Final Fantasy XI :( sometimes I just need a break from both every now and then. I mean yeah, I LOVE Guilty Gear and it's fun to play, but when taking it to a competitive level it gets kinda stressing and sometimes a bit discouraging when you get stuck and feel that you're not improving much anymore, so that's when I have to take a break once in a while. And with FFXI, there's just SO MUCH to do in that game @_@ leveling up, finishing quests, unlocking jobs..it just gets crazy sometimes haha Yeah...I may play some more RE4 in a while. Then I'll probably get my ass in FFXI tonight if my internet is still working >_> been having some problems lately. I may also continue working on a new wallpaper that I've started. It's not Guilty Gear related though lol. I'm hoping to something a little more original and hopefully it'll come out looking good. Well, laters.

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Monday, June 18, 2007

when a guy calls you (bloggings at the end)

When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile _________________________________________________ When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you she wants you to hold her hand _________________________________________________ When she wants a hug she will just stand there _________________________________________________ When you break a girls heart she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later _________________________________________________ When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind _________________________________________________ When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply _________________________________________________ When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around _________________________________________________ When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine _________________________________________________ When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing these games _________________________________________________ When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever _________________________________________________ When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future _________________________________________________ When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that _________________________________________________ When a girl is mean to you after a break-up she wants you back, but shes scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever _________________________________________________ Guy Facts: When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you _________________________________________________ When a guy is quiet, He's listening to you _________________________________________________ When a guy is not arguing, He realizes he's wrong _________________________________________________ When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a few minutes he means it _________________________________________________ When a guy stares at you, he wishes you really care about him _________________________________________________ When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world _________________________________________________ When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday, he is in love _________________________________________________ When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it _________________________________________________ When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till youre done ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ When a guy says, "I miss you," he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else _________________________________________________ ok...I did post up a bigger blog thingy earlier, but then my comp lagged and i lost everything...SO TOO BAD!! D; 'cause I can't remember everything I put. anyways, first day off for the week. Yesterday I came home really tired and hungry. So I ate some leftover Chinese food that my parents ate earlier and then played some Shiina Ringo and took like a 2-3 hour nap. Listening to some Fort Minor and Eminem right now (yes I listen to rap) =O if ya don't know, Fort Minor is headed by Mike Shinoda of LP. Which explains why I thought that one song in the new Linkin Park album (my God it's horrible!!) sounded like FM o_O Kinda like how that newer Tool song sounds like A Perfect Circle lol :P Prolly gonna hang out with some friends today and I think my friend Tim is coming from Austin to play some Guilty Gear =O laters!

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Sunday, June 17, 2007

FFXI

lesse not much at work today. Pretty slow and I got let out early. Mainly I just helped out on floor and concession and of course acted retarded when I could :P I kept making one of the supervisors laugh o_O I don't know her well, so watev lol Mainly I've been getting back into FFXI since I never had much time to play during school and even then my previous job really used up a lot of my time. I recently did my first PvP (player vs player) and I had a blast. I feel that I've really learned more about the strengths and weakness of my Dragoon job class. haha My friend Ryan was mainly my target since his White Mage was quite an easy target and if not him, then it was the Ninja that was on his team >=D But the Blue Mage that they had was REALLY GOOD!! His evasion was crazy and I could hardly hit him (and the fact that he had shadows up made it even more annoying), plus his blue magic dealt so much damage...needless to say Stag (the Blue Mage) killed me quite a lot. But my team was doing fairly well after a while. I also had a Blue Mage in my party and Ryan's brother Chris also helped out as his Black Mage. haha it was great watching Stag run away from him as he killed him with a water spell >=P But later on I got my kills on Stag and everyone else. Unfortunately we lost the game :( but we were all good sports and had a lot of fun. Also I was really glad to have played Stag in Ballista since he used to be in my first ever Linkshell (think of it like a Guild) and I know him to be quite notorious in Ballista. I do feel pretty bad that I haven't been practicing at all in Guilty Gear lately...One thing that gets me down is that Accent Core isn't arcade perfect on the PS2. I love the new changes made to Ky (except for the fact that his Charge Stun Edge doesn't go full screen anymore) and he's fun to play. But the changes made to Sol and Millia are kinda making me avoid them =/ Also I've been messing around with Eddie. I guess whenever I get some free time I'll just dedicate it to working on my execution and combos :) I'm still very glad at the fact that I have improved quite a lot since I've started playing Guilty Gear competitively and I enjoy spending time with the people that I play with :) Anyways...I should go to bed now since I have work at 10am @_@ laters!

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Saturday, June 16, 2007

quite tired

Just got off work about an hour ago roughly. Worked in the box office selling tickets from 3-11. Though I was helping out a bit on floor for a while. Sonya wanted me to work on B side with her, but A side had fewer people since someone was a no call no show :( lol I did a weird dance for her though while I was in box and she was on tickets. Then she mentioned the Chippendales dance from SNL LMAO!! Still meeting a bunch of new people that now work there o_O so many different faces that I don't know of. Also, it's very weird that now we have to enforce a curfew law. So for movies past 10pm, we have to card people and make sure that no one younger than 17 is there without a parent or guardian O_o One girl was complaining about it, but oh well =/ eh, I think some girl was randomly flirting with me while I was working o_O she was asking me lots of questions and stuff and going "awww" when I would say something O_O like she said she was Jewish and I was like "yeah..i'm Jewish too" and she did that..but then I was like "yeah i'm not really Jewish" o_O oh mang, and then some random guy asked if he could have the My Little Pony plushy that was near my register (it's name is Rainbow Dash) and I was like "nah mang, it's my friend. The only thing that keeps me sane here" and he just laughed, but it's true. Rainbow Dash is such a pimp. If I can, I'll take a pic of it. Hmmm....saw the movie Ghost Rider last night on DVD. It was aight...some stuff was pretty bad *coughdialoguecough* and I thought it was too short for what they were trying to do. If they made a sequel I would watch it in hopes that it's better =/ I liked the concept since I love demons and what not (dragons are better though mwahahah) but they just executed the plot pretty bad :( anyways...LATERS

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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Can't sleep :(

ok...it's currently 5:56am CST...I have a drive at 8am today...and I CAN'T SLEEP!! D; My day was "eh" Mainly stayed home and played FFXI leveling up my Samurai >_> But I've been having internet problems and it's been pissing me off >=( Haven't made any new wallpapers..thinking about making some avis but not sure what of...obviously Guilty Gear will be the majority of them..maybe some other stuff. I'd like to try to make a few FFXI ones featuring my character =/ *sigh* No one comments on my wallpapers..they just download them >_> damn leechers T_T bleh...currently my exgf thinks that I hate her just because I don't call her o_O and when she tried to talk to me today on AIM I was playing FFXI and was too lazy to turn the program off..but of course she didn't believe me and just assumed that I was ignoring her and didn't like her. Here's a hint about me..I'm pretty lazy when it comes to calling people on the phone :( I have like 72 contacts on my phone and only regularly call like...5 >_> Though some of the entries are family and random gamers that I know either from here/forums/or randomly met at a tourney or con. Why am I lazy you say? Most likely because I'm shy and also never know a good time to call. Sometimes I call someone and they say they're busy soo yeah o_O But she should seriously chill out though. I talk to her on AIM when I can, but I just don't really get around to calling her. Anyways...i'm gonna lay down for a while and HOPEFULLY get some rest. laters

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Sunday, June 10, 2007

new wallpaper

aight, So I just came back from hanging out with some friends and now just finished making another Guilty Gear wallpaper. Ice Prince helped me choose one of the pics that I used for it. I just really hope it's good... >_> I may have put too much into it...i'm not sure. PLEASE COMMENT!!!

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Saturday, June 9, 2007

life

and so I am back..again. For how long I do now know. I'm working at the movie theatre again...It's not bad. New people and things...plus I'm not a supervisor anymore...I'll have to work my way back up.. Still trying to move on from my previous relationship. But...it's kinda hard because I'm afraid that I'm just going to fuck up again.... i dunno... Did see Seth at the theatre while I was leaving. That was nice. Really tired right now...I may get some rest after this..Plus I may make another wallpaper. I've been having an idea for a Millia vs Eddie one for a while. Ja ne

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