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...still alive after all the suicidal moments and attempts...um...but I did place 3rd in my first Guilty Gear tourny o_O
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When I was eight I used to watch Samurai Pizza Cats, Speed Racer, and one really kickass show that I can't remember the name to.
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myOtaku.com: Shiro Kageryu
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Depression
Well, it seems to be the time for my monthly period of depression. So while cursing my existence I made a list.
Name:Joshua Aaron Shaffer
do you like your name:not really
when were you born: Aug 14th, 1987
birthplace:San Antonio, TX
how your parents describe your birth:my mother says that I was an unexpected miracle
any siblings:I would've had an older brother, but he died before birth
your parents:father-Larry Dean Shaffer; mother-Christina Mata-Cardenas
describe your father:caring, loving. Now for the dark side; schizophrenic, once threatened to kill my mother
describe your mother:bad memory, stubborn, overprotective, jumps to conclusions
who do you live with:mother, step-father, two step-brothers
when did your parents divorce:before I was born. I'm a bastard
how would you rank yourself in your family:the black sheep
why:none of my family members really know the real me and never took an interest in it
have any members of your family died:not close ones, but my mother and grand-father have almost died a few times
how do you view death for yourself:I don't fear it and at times I welcome it
have you had close encounters with death:as an infant I was in a terrible car crash and got injured by numerous shards of glass, I once had my skull busted open from a fall, almost got poisoned to death, could've gotten hit by numerous cars when I ran into a busy street as a baby, almost drowned as a kid
are you ever suicidal:yeah
how many times have you considered suicide:I lost count
how long have you been suicidal:as long as I can remember
have you ever injured yourself:I once slashed my wrist
what do you think will happen in your death:nothing
do you feel that anyone will mourn your death:probably just my family; other than that, no.
so if you died no one would care:sounds about right
have you ever been loved:I doubt it
what do you think of love:it hurts
have you dreamt of love:I have my dreams, but that's all they are
have you ever been in love:yeah
did it make you cry:...yeah
what else did you tell her:that I would rather have her be happy with someone else rather than to be sad
do you still stand by those words:yeah, I guess
do you currently love someone:I try not to
why do you try not to love:to avoid the pain of rejection
so fear keeps you from loving:I guess
are you a virgin:yes
have you ever had a girlfriend:no
would you like a relationship with a girl:It'd probably be nice
under what circumstances:that we love each other
what do you look for in a girl:my friends would think that boobs are all I care about, but truthfully it would be a great personality. One who'd understand me and make me feel happy when I'm with her
do girls find you attractive:I highly doubt it
do you think you're attractive:hell no
why would you want a relationship:for love
so you wouldn't want a girlfriend for the hell of it:no
how would you describe yourself:quiet, distant
has anyone told you anything different:a girl once said I was "a sweet person"
did you believe her:no
do you still think that:I guess
what do you like to find beauty in:I mostly like to find beauty in the dark sides of life
do you like vampires:yes
why:basically the whole romance of them, the theme of eternal love in death
how about demons:yes, but I tend to favor half-demons
what about angels:yes, one always has to find their light
if you were offered the powers of darkness, would you take it:yes
how would you use them:the way I see fit
do you believe you're going to heaven or hell:most likely hell
do you believe in a god:yeah
what's your religion:I don't have one
what's your opinion on religion:it's ok, everyone has a right to believe what they want to, but it annoys me when people hide behind religion and never face the truth of the world
do you have any spritual guardians:so far just one
what characters do you feel you relate to and why:
Uchiha Sasuke:I wish to be stonger.
Ikari Shinji:I feel that I am hated.
Inuyasha:as a child I was picked on for being a half-breed.
Squall Leonheart:I'm a loner.
Lestat de Lioncourt:I would help those who are important to me as much as I could.
Van:at times I wish for peace in death.
what do hate about yourself:I'm pathetic |
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