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myOtaku.com: Shiro Kageryu
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
a nice discussion with a friend
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12:26 PM
Monday night I had a conversation with my friend Chris through AIM. He lives in Austin so it's easier to talk through internet.
Well, we talked about our jobs. He thinks that I should leave my current job. I'm actually starting to consider that. Even though I've only been employed there for a year and that I'm still young when it comes to employment I feel as though I'm stuck at where I currently am.
When I returned to work I found out that I didn't get the projectionist position that I was hoping for. I got a bit disapointed and then found out that management will be looking for new supervisors. The current rumor is that they're looking for 3 new supervisors. I highly doubt that I'll get that position, though my supervisor Josh told me that he believes that I could handle the position.
I really don't mind leaving, even though it means leaving a few of my co-workers. I really don't care, and I doubt they'd care. Besides, it's a job. Relationships really have nothing to do with that world.
Chris also said that he's been having some problems with his girlfriend. It's bad enough for him that she lives in Dallas, but she'll studying in China for a year so that makes things a bit worse for him.
He then asked if I had a girlfriend yet. I told him that I'm still single and starting to believe that there's no point in me even attempting. I told him that women would have nothing to want with me. Unfortunately I easily get discouraged when it comes to women. He told me that I was wrong and mentioned that while at A-Kon there were a bunch of girls checking me out. He was probably just trying to cheer me up. I stongly believe that I'm not attractive.
Chris believes that our problem is that we never realize if a girl is interested in us unless they flat out tell us. That's very true in my case. My low self esteem blinds me, always telling me "You'd never have a chance. Don't even bother. It'll all end in heartache." And by the time I find out, it's too late and the pain sucks.
He asked me if I believe that my "dream girl" is out there. That one girl that understands me and acknowledges me for who I am. If anything I'd love for that to be a reality. It's a comforting thought, thinking that somewhere out there is the perfect person for you. But it's only a thought, nothing more.
Chris strongly believes in that, the "girl of your dreams." I just find it comforting to think of every now and then whenever I feel down.
Well, enough depressing shit for now. |
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