Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Working on my site and a conversation

12:29 PM Last night I spent the time by working some more on this site. Not sure why but I'm getting interested in Webmastering. I just think it's kinda fun. While searching for pics to put on the site I was talking to my friend Chris. He was telling me that I shouldn't give up on love and what not (he read my post about Sunday where I said that I'm staying away from love). Here's some of the conversation: kaiyumori: Also josh, when it comes to relationships I have derived the conclusion that Love is most definitley acquired through enduring trials and staying faithful and loyal to one another- kaiyumori: None of the love at first sight stuff- kaiyumori: That would be lust- kaiyumori: would u not agree? Shiro887: I think I just shouldn't associated myself with it at all Shiro887: associate* kaiyumori: Whoa, Hey man, dont go that far- I told yah I would make sure I helped you find a girl you can really like And I still shall- kaiyumori: Dont lose hope my friend... Shiro887: you don't have to help me man. it'll be a waste of time kaiyumori: NO it wont- kaiyumori: Trust me, You would do really well to find you're dream girl- kaiyumori: I know you man- kaiyumori: It would totally make you feel better about everything- kaiyumori: So yeah- Dont worry about it- Shiro887: currently not concerning myself with any of that stuff has made me feel better. I havn't had a major case of depression since kaiyumori: Really? Dont think about it than, just let it befall u- kaiyumori: Dont completely dismiss the emotion though- Shiro887: i practically have by now kaiyumori: Thats not the right way to look at things... The problem with you and me, which I believe to be true is that we dont know if a girl likes us unless they blantantly tell us- kaiyumori: So most likely we just constantly miss chances for the best relationships... kaiyumori: The way you probably felt before could also very well be the same emotion felt by the girl who liked you and never said anything... kaiyumori: But as I said... I shall insure that you date a cute girl with smiliar intrests who is cool and accepts you for who you are- kaiyumori: I just have to find her for yah- Shiro887: you don't have to man kaiyumori: Dont worry about it- kaiyumori: It would be totally uncool If I met the girl and didn't help u guys get 2gether- Shiro887: hmph, well all that matters to me right now is that I havn't felt pain in a while kaiyumori: Yeah, So don't necesarily think about the things that depress you but also do not exclude them, that is all I am trying to tell you for the time being... And in the end I wil make sure that U find you're dream girl even be4 myself, I mean thats what friends should do, and I am sure that mike and matt would agree if they ever talked seriously for 5 minutes- LOL, those guys are still awesome though- yeah so that's my way of living right now:not concerning myself with that emotion. So far I've been ok and havn't had a bad case of depression like I usually do. Truthfully I once slashed my wrist =( I feel like an idiot now that I think back on it. To anyone reading this, I want to ask: Am I doing the right thing? It seems that all I care about is that I don't feel pain, but that seems a bit both selfish and cowardly.

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