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myOtaku.com: Shiro Kageryu


Sunday, November 13, 2005

10:10 PM

This is mostly just gonna be about some stuff that I feel right now.

I'm feeling a bit nostalgic right now and my eyes are a bit watery as I type this. I'm remembering the day that for once I did not wish to die. I felt as if there was something to live for. I spent a day at the arcade talking to her. It was the best day of my life that I can remember. I felt proud to be alive, I wanted to look forward to the next day. I was a bit scared on the walk home becuase I almost got hit by a car as it was turning fast.
Then later things became crappy and I tried to get over her...but it's still there. I can still feel it at times.

No matter how much I've tried to remove my emotions they somehow still bite me in the ass. Perhaps my friend Chris was right. Maybe it's just me being a coward.

I've always felt that I always got the short stick in life. I've helped those who are important to me yet I still am left with nothing. Selfish thoughts..yet they haunt me. I wish to remove my selfishness, yet there's a part of me that wishes to go out and grab what I want. I think I'd rather wish to be selfless more than anything. I want to be a caring person in life. Someone that will help and not ask for anything in return.

I don't believe tonight will be easy for me.

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