9:58 PMAbout maybe 2-3 weeks ago I heard from a source *a friend of mine by the name of Chris* that someone by have a "terminal illness". By the description that he used my first though was his ex-g/f Ashley. My instinct was correct and it was her that he was mentioning about.
I immediately got worried and pissed at the same time. Mostly worried and scared, but still a bit pissed. I think i've gotten pretty close to Ashley and I consider her a good friend. So of course I was worried becuase a friend of mine could be extremely ill. As to why I was pissed, I kept feeling wondering why no one informed me of this. Why didn't Chris tell me that it was Ashley, why didn't she even tell me herself?! Am I not a good enough friend or something?! Am I just insignificant?!
I kept messaging her asking what was going on and she didn't explain in any of the responses. So today I straight up asked what the hell was going on when I caught her on AIM earlier today.
*sigh* Well, fortunately it turns out that she does not have an illness. It wasn't a joke, more like a precaution due to something else. Apparantly Chris jumped to the conclusion that she had cancer...there goes Chris again jumping to conclusions. >,<
When I talked to her she said that she was surprised that I worried for her and didn't want me to be worried in the first place. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. But yeah, due to that I lost some sleep during the weeks and even shed some tears a few minutes ago (fuck, i'll admit it. I cry at times. I hate it, but I do it).
I think what mostly got to me was: if something really bad did happen to anyone of my friends, would they inform me about it?...I'm not even fully sure if I would.
