myOtaku.com: Shiro Kageryu

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Vitals

Gender
• Male
Location
• San Antonio, TX
Member Since
• 2005-06-18
Occupation
• ~~part-time boob ninja~~
Real Name
• ...that is none of your concern...

Personal

Achievements
• ...still alive after all the suicidal moments and attempts...um...but I did place 3rd in my first Guilty Gear tourny o_O
Anime Fan Since
• When I was eight I used to watch Samurai Pizza Cats, Speed Racer, and one really kickass show that I can't remember the name to.
Favorite Anime
• Naruto, Gundam Wing, Hellsing, Bleach, Macross (Robotech), X/1999, Fruits Basket
Goals
• ...to find happiness...
Hobbies
• GUILTY GEAR, anime, manga, movies, books, drawing, writing (when I can), video games, listening to music, playing DDR,
Talents
• ...I guess pulling off "Sasuke"s (learning things and getting good at them really fast) ...and maybe being depressing?

myOtaku.com: Shiro Kageryu

Sunday, January 15, 2006

long time no post

3:35 AM
Hey guys! *insert cricket chirps*...>,>...T_T *ahem!*
Well, sorry for not posting in a while. I do have reasonable excuses though. First off, my comp got a nasty virus and had to be reformatted. Second, I've been feeling a bit depressed lately.
My mother's health is still bad and it doesn't help when my aunt lectures me on how to live my life and how my mother should live hers. She acts as if my mother will die any second. I know she's doing bad, but not that bad. Even during work a co-worker (Lauren) asked me what was wrong. I told her it was nothing, but she started saying that she could see in my eyes that something was troubling me and when her friends are sad, she gets sad (her words, not mine). I just looked at her and said "since when was I your friend?" I know it sounds a bit harsh...but I felt I had reason to ask it. So she replies with something similar to "of course i consider you a friend. why else would I give you rides home from work and pick you up randomly in the street." (that really happened too) Lauren also told me that I shouldn't waste my life being sad...even though it's only for a little while, that I should be happy. Well, later on I talked some to her and when she left we hugged each other for a while and I said to her "Thanks for trying to cheer me up", it really did mean a lot to me... She then made me promise that I would smile for the rest of the day. I told her that I'd try and she demanded that I would...I don't even remember if I did or not *shrugs*
Even earlier during work I still felt a bit down...and I ended up doing some stuff that I shouldn't have done...>,> but one of my fellow supervisors said that she wouldn't tell anyone what I did. The last thing I need is for people to think that I'm going psycho. Though unfortunately it created a bit of a scene and I really wanted everyone to leave but they stayed and started saying stuff. I just joked around and said it was nothing and that I was just being retarded...>,> *sigh*
...well...hopefully I'll start to feel better soon...preferably by the time Ushicon arrives...
...Do you ever wish that you could just fade away from everything and everyone?...Would life be better that way?...
...Ja ne...

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