...Well...so far things have been...quiet. I've mostly spent the day by myself...As for the situation with Ashley...she says that I don't need to be forgiven...just that she wishes I would talk more to her about anything that may trouble me and other things of the sort...
It also makes me wonder...how we form friendships with people...and they can just...end...it's a thought that scares me at times...but has happened quite a few times...I wonder...is it because of me?...
Right now I'm listening to "hotarubi"...it's a really comforting song by Dir en grey...it's probably one of my favorite songs of theirs from their MACABRE album and I have the MIDI of it here on this site...Here's the lyrics...translation is in italics
"hotarubi"
"firefly's light"
Lyrics - Kyo
Music - Shinya
furu boketa shashin dake ga
hi wo kasane yuku
hi wo tomoshi kazaguruma de
ayashi namida ga
only old faded photographs
the days piling up on one another
fire lights up with a pinwheel
calmed the tears
kago ni yurayura yureteta
akago waratte
in a basket, shivered, swayed
the baby laughs
ra ra sayonara
ra ra yoru ga fuke
la la goodbye
la la the evening grows late
anata aishita kono ko ni
anata kasanete
anata ima soba ni yuku wa
kono ko to futari
this child you loved
you build up
now, by your side, go
with this child, the two of you
ra ra sayonara
ra ra yoru ga ake
la la goodbye
la la the evening opens
minamo ni ukabu anata dake senjou no naka utsushidasu
on the water's surface, only you float, reflecting the middle of a battlefield
kaze ni naru kamikaze wa
yami no naka e kiete
saikai no yoru ni saku
hotaru no hikari
become the wind, the divine wind
and into the darkness disappear
bloom in the evening of our reunion
the glow of the firefly
kaze ni naru kamikaze wa
yami no naka e kiete
saikai no yoru ni saku
yuritachi no sugata
become the wind, the divine wind
and into the darkness disappear
bloom in the evening of our reunion
the shape of the lilies
kaze ni naru kamikaze wa
saikai no yoru ni saku
hotarubi to yuri no hana
become the wind, the divine wind
bloom in the evening of our reunion
firefly's light and the flower of the lily
lyrics were taken from: http://www.crysania.com/tattered/
...ja ne...
