...yeah, really bored...so bored i feel like anything would exite meh...like even watching paint dry seems tempting right now...but alas i have no paint v,v
y'know what? Girls are confusing. Yup...I don't understand them. v,v I dunno if it's them, or if it's me..but yeah... for example: Ashley (the one that lives in Dallas that I had an arguement with a few days ago) says that we hardly talk anymore and that I'm throwing away our friendship. Well, my defense is that she doesn't contact me that much either. I'm not a very sociable person if you havn't noticed and I don't tend to like trying to contact people due to meh low self esteem...I always feel that I'm annoying people...especially when they hardly respond or don't even respond >,> When I try to tell her this she starts calling me "emo" >,> *sigh* perhaps I should stop being like that v,v for my own good...
well anyway, I decide to call her and see if i could try to have a decent conversation with her...well...most of the time it was just silence...dull...boring...silence...Why is it that she says I ignore her and try to throw away our friendship when she doesn't talk as well? Perhaps i should try to make more of an effort? Well, pretty much the only time we did have a decent conversation was when we were talking about Final Fantasy v,v ...yeah...sad. Now, she's not a person that I'd consider to have a relationship past being a friend, but what gets me down is that I feel like I just can't understand her and girls for that matter.
it's like that saying: "can't live with them, can't live without them" v,v
Well, time to change topic now. I may have to (yet again) start looking for another job. Apparantly there are rumors that the place is going to close down soon, so that'll suck 'cause I've only worked there for about a month now. I better get a damn good check today 'cause it's my first one (and perhaps only one)!! >,<
uh...in other news...currently meh oka-san is kinda lecturing meh becuase she found out about meh little nights where I drank. I don't find it that big a deal because I only drank a bottle of Smirnoff and a shot and a half of Scotch, not on the same night though. Yeah...stuff about how meh family history is full of alcohol problems...well whatever.
Ja ne!
