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myOtaku.com: Shiro Kageryu


Thursday, May 11, 2006

Feeling down
Yeah...I really havn't been too cheerful lately. I remembered that it was the 10th of May...that could've been the reason...but I doubt it since I've been feeling like this for quite a while now. Basically the 10th of May is: my father's birthday. I usually don't find b-days a big deal (especially mine) but...it was just the fact that I havn't spoken to him in a long while. He probably thinks that I hate him right now...for all I know...he could be right...the relationship we have is strange...I have no idea how to describe it...at times I care for him...and others I really couldn't care less.

*sigh*...this is weird...I was talking (ok, more like...she was talking and I was quiet) to Jasmine and she said that I was the best thing to have happened to her. When I asked how so, she said that she couldn't explain it. Also she said she hates it when I'm feeling down becuase it makes her sad...yeah.

According to her, she still loves me...but...I just don't really return the feeling. It's not just to her...but...it's happened before...I guess I just feel incapable of loving someone...perhaps, I'm really not sure. Usually it's 1) I'm too shy and fear rejection and/or 2) if miraculously a girl does like me and tell me...I don't return the feeling...at least this is what's happened so far in my life.

I'm all f**ked up...

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