Saturday, March 19, 2005

Blargh...

I need to learn to control my anger.
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Friday, March 18, 2005

I have never in my life seen someone act like such a freaking three-year-old. What is this, be a whiny crybaby day? Lord, all I said was that a had a bloody headache and I didn't care about it enough to take something for it, and all of a sudden he takes it as the equivalent of me screaming at him to get out of the house. Sometimes, and in fact a lot of time, I just need my space. I like to breathe, and right now especially, since getting close to people is especially uncomfortable when you're constantly reminded of the asshole you gave everything to and then he just dropped you as an unneeded accessory to his life... And so now he's going and moping and arguing with me saying it's best he should go home, when it's obviously NOT, the retard, and, unlike him, when I say something is okay, it's really okay, or in any case I can deal with it. It really hurts when I put forth the effort to be honest and then it's brushed off as an obvious lie, as if I'm always lying through my teeth about everything. And he assumes that because I'm not feeling well, I'm gonna make him go home, and he'll sort of "take on" that "burden", all this implying that I'm some kind of selfish person who chases people off when I'm not feeling too hot. Because I take that personally, since it's act like a whiny crybaby day. If he's going to be childish, so am I, and maybe he'll have the sense to start acting mature, like the 17-year-old math genius he is.
Idiot.
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Saturday, March 12, 2005

I'm sick again... *cough, cough* It's kind of a bummer. But whatever. *crosses fingers it's gone by Monday*
I took an online inkblot test and here we are:

Your subconscious mind is driven most by Peace

You are driven by a higher purpose than most people. You have a deeply-rooted desire to facilitate peacefulness in the world. Whether through subtle interactions with love ones, or through getting involved in social causes, it is important to you to influence the world.

You are driven by a desire to encourage others to think about the positive side of things instead of focusing on the negative. The reason your unconscious is consumed by this might stem from an innate fear of war and turmoil. Thus, to avoid that uncomfortable place for you, your unconscious seeks out the peace in your environment.

Usually, the thing that underlies this unconscious drive is a deep respect for humankind. You care about the future of the world, even beyond your own involvement in it. As a result, your personal integrity acts as a surrogate for your deeper drive toward peace and guides you in daily life towards decisions that are respectful toward yourself and others.

Makes me think twice about some things...
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Tuesday, March 8, 2005

"Can you believe 16 years old
Japanese boy had about 100 CDs of all 50's to 60's American best hit oldie's songs and sung songs from Elvis, Eddie Cochran, Little Richard, Buddy Holly, to Stray Cats at his school festival in small rural town in Japan?!"
Somehow, yes...
That's from my mom's friend Hide-san, by the way. He's cool. ^-^

Health test today. Easier than I expected. Finished up my watercolor nicely (huzzah!). Translated an entire Endlish into Japanese (not perfectly, but well enough to understand). History test tomorrow, save meeeeeee...

Oh, blob. *sigh*
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Monday, March 7, 2005

Oh, blah... My life isn't really very interesting anymore. But then again, it's March, so it's not supposed to be. Only a couple more months of school...
Heh heh, watched some old Speed Racer cartoons a while ago. The dubbing is so bad. The animation I can forgive considering the time period, but wow... Three people did the voices for the entire show.
And now I run off to my friend's house, ole'!
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Wednesday, March 2, 2005

*deep sigh*
Boy, do I wish I could tell you that great things have been happening since the last time I bothered to post, but, sadly, it would seem that is not a possibility.
To start off, my cousin's dog, whom she dearly loved, died of old age (I assume) over the weekend. She was a black lab named Zoot. I would really appreciate a moment of silence for her.



To continue in this dark strain, classes are rushed now to catch up after an unexpected five-day weekend. I've got one more class period to finish my watercolor landscape. Wish me luck.
Also, I've just discovered today that a large number of my good friends are pro-choice. I'm pro-life, in case you didn't already know, and very strongly believe that abortion is wrong (though there are fuzzy cases in which the specifics are really needed to decide upon the moral path). These are people whose opinions and decisions I respect and support, but now there is a rather large gap between us. Mostly I'm afraid of the disputes it could cause. It's been ages since I really argued with a loved one, and I'd like it if the length of time would ony grow.
And, to end on a note of frustrated melancholy, I've been getting one or two emails a day from someone apparently named "Surprising I Apologetic" (tip for parents: don't even think about it) who would really like me to know how to have the "best sex humanly possible". Or maybe the message is in the two dozen or so random sayings in the body of the email? I don't know. All I have to say is, Comcast, you are doing one shitty job of keeping out spam, you bastards (these are the same people who provide a superfast internet service but whose homepage takes two minutes+ to come up, and whose email service stopped working, forcing me to use Outlook instead).
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Sunday, February 27, 2005

Wow, we're just getting buried in snow lately... With any luck tomorrow will be off, giving us a five-day weekend--so far. I should use this time to A) do my homework and B) work on my fanfic (untouched since exams), but meh..

I've been using the a), b), etc. method a lot... I don't really know why. Hopefully it's just a phase: I don't like to be repetitive or sound like I'm too lazy to be original.

I've figured out how to play the refrain of "Tell Me Something True" on my recorder. It doesn't have any flats or sharps or notes above middle C, so I'm happy. It's something nice and simple to play when I'm bored. Also, that's my favorite song right now. It's sad and it makes me depressed, but it's just so pretty...
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Thursday, February 24, 2005

*growls* I somehow managed to erase my post... dammit...

Well, here's the news (again, argh!):
I got new DDR pads and DDR Max2 because the old pads slipped and DDR Max didn't have a Beginner's mode (or at least not one that I could see).
I've started reading scanlations of various doujins and unlicensed manga. My favorites right now are Boys Next Door (by Kaori Yuki, who is well-known for Angel Sanctuary ^.^) and Younen No Natsu (a short, random little doujin), even though they both broke my heart... Especially Boys Next Door. If you get a hold of it (google), be forewarned--it's REALLY sad, and kinda gory.

I also picked up Gakuen Heaven (a shounen-ai dating RPG)--(okay, so it was an illegal download, but my justification follows) but I've decided that I actually cannot stand it. It's not just that it's completely in Japanese, which is to be accepted, and it's not just that there are no walkthroughs for it as far as I can tell, but nothing is spoken. Everything is written. So I not only don't know what I'm saying, I don't know what people are saying back to me. Harumph. My solution:
SOME NICE AMERICAN GAME COMPANY--LICENSE IT AND TRANSLATE IT AND GIVE IT HERE!! I'd pay, of course. Hell, translating is hard work, I know from experience.

*sigh* And that is all.
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Aaahhh, server migration. Okies, so my computer isn't possessed by some hellish beast intent on destroying what's left of my sanity. Good to know.
I remember when Valentine's Day was a good thing. We got to party half the day in 1st through 4th, chocolates all around 5th through 8th... Now all I get is a lousy "Wear a pink or red shirt instead of your uniform shirt!" and some chocolates from a particularly thoughtful friend. I would Valentine's Day, if it weren't for one simple thing: FOOD. My mom always cooks a special dinner for holidays like this. The other night it was filet mignon and strawberries in chocolate fondue. Oh, it was heavenly. Oh, and I got 13 red roses... Hee.
Well, that be all for now. Gotta go do my religion homework. The day it's due. At 7AM. *cough*
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Sunday, February 13, 2005

Man, and nobody even worried about whether or not I was alive...
Yeah, my compy was being weird and not bringing up myO or any related sites (theO, FounderWeb). It's all good now.

I went to winter formals tonight (last night? it's 12:03...). It was so much fun. ^_^ I discovered the hilarity of slapping guys' butts when walking past... I have interesting friends. Aherm. Yes.

I got screentones and FAKE vol. 7 and DDR pads and the Fullmetal Alchemist game over the "break". FAKE is so lovely... The guys actually look like guys! It's great! *swoons at last few pages*
I've been kind of sex-obsessed recently... I'm weird... But that's okay. ^-^
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