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Birthday
• 1990-06-13
Gender
• Female
Location
• MD, USA
Member Since
• 2003-08-03
Occupation
• DES's hikari
Real Name
• Tory (Dori, Tostito)

Personal

Achievements
• A lot, not that they matter. Anime Club President/Fuhrer till the end of this year.
Anime Fan Since
• (age 4) Tonari No Totoro
Favorite Anime
• Gravitation, Weiss Kreuz, Hagaren (FMA), Kino No Tabi, .hack, Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann
Goals
• To go on an insane shopping spree in Tokyo sometime soon. Gosurori...
Hobbies
• Drooling. Over many things.
Talents
• I make a mean ramen, mm!

myOtaku.com: shiroikarasu

Sunday, December 7, 2003

No more secrets
*sigh* I guess it's about time I fessed up. About my life problems and such. On Tuesday I cut again, and then again on Wednesday, really badly. I now have a total of 10 cuts and 3 scars. Amazing what one goddamned staple can do.

I didn't want to mention it because I didn't want you to be disappointed, but now I just feel guilty for not letting you know. I'm just a weak person (despite what anyone else believes, this is what I feel), and I don't want you fretting over me when I don't know if it's going to help anymore. Yes, I'm feeling very lost at the moment. I've felt like this for a while.

I should probably tell someone, true, but I freeze up just thinking about it. I'm starting to turn inward a lot these days, and I just can't be open to anyone about this. Besides, saying it out loud will make it too real. Maybe I can stop if I convince myself I didn't really do it and I'm just the same old happy person I used to be. Not likely, but almost worth a try.

Another bad thing happened today. I don't want to post it if Lisa wouldn't want me to though, seeing as it concerns her very much. So I'll try and deal with it on my own for now. We'll see.
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