Sunday, July 31, 2005

I feel like a kinda bad person...

Whatever, she's the one who chose to get all that stuff. I just said that I would get a fridge that's it. She'll have to deal.

I miss people, NJ and everything.
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

   tattoo?
So yeah, we moved. It's kind of--well really--boring up here. Nobody to talk to/hang out with except my sister and family. Whatever...

Kent's coming up on Tuesday. He's been backpacking with his friend and is stopping by for one night. To use our shower. Jerk. heh. It'll be good to see someone though, even if it only for one night. One month from today, and I will be in college. I'm taking 17 credits. I don't know how it'll go, but I'm looking forward to it. I'm taking three classes for my major and 3 general/BA required classes. Astronomy should be fun.

Tomorrow, I'm going to draw some more and I'm going to finally do the stupid iPod things I've planning to do for a week. It'll get Corrie happy. She can have her cds back. Maybe I'll watch Pride and Prejudice too.

I don't know if I really miss those guys or not...I mean I love talking to them and would love to see them, but it's kind of like I've already pulled away from them mentally. That makes me sad. They've been my best friends for 4 years or longer (depending on who I'm talking about) and I leave them pretty casually....

I can't wait to get my tattoo. It's going to be angel wings on my shoulder blades with a feather falling from one of them. I hope that I actually go through with this instead of just wimping out like I usually do. *sigh*
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Thursday, July 14, 2005

   And we have 4 days till moving time. O goodness.


meh.
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

   mes amis je suis enchante!
Make it go away. I hate headaches.


The good news is that she isn'y moving back there right away. She'll go back for a couple of months, then come back here and go to college. But that doesn't change the fact that she is getting kind of obnoxious. Whatev.

*sigh*
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Saturday, June 25, 2005

   Je suis fatigue and despondent
I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. And to stop distancing myself. And while I may only talk to a few people after I go to college, I still need to be friends to the people who are here now because they have been good friends to me.

She is getting on my nerves, and I don't know why. It's [probably] because she needs to grow up! The girl frickin doesn't think about anything and can be incredibly selfish. I donno. I just kinda got bored of her today. And I know that sounds horible, but its true. I'm just...*sigh*...I guess I'm just ready to move on. And I want to, but I don't at the same time.

People need to get over certain things. The more that I think about it, the more I feel blah. She has been really mean to me sometimes. [read: a lot.] The only people I really want to talk to after this are Rachelle, Kent and maybe Marga. I just stopped caring about pretty much everyone else.

Need more self confidence. Anyway, ganna go now. bai bai!
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

   I'm so happy! I got to see my family! I *heart* them. I kinda feel unloved right now tho...donno why...

...tears within


Who Are You From Within? (Anime Images used)
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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,
source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../
images/fallen_angel.jpg


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Thursday, June 16, 2005

   Blah. I'm in emo mode again. Snap me out of it. I hate depression. So I'm going to college soon...yea? I donno. But on the good side of things I saw the Princess Bride today.(for what, the 100th time?)

Enough of this. I will not allow myslef to continue being the people pleaser I used to be. I WILL NOT BE CAGED!!! I WILL BE MYSELF!!!

I need to stop pretending things so that I don't offend people. Yes, I'm bi. Get over it people.


Look, I'm nervous as I type that...maybe I'll sensor it until I'm away from home. My parents probably still go to my websites to "check up on me"...

Why can't everything be easy again?
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Wednesday, June 1, 2005

I just don't get it...what the fsck am I nervous about? Prom? College? anything? Idk...more later.
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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Stop talking about sex and drugs kids. I don't want to know.
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Saturday, May 21, 2005

HK's VN family is being a bunch of butts...they lied and basically stole 3000 dong in her name. grr....


here's why i love kent:
raging apathy 17: might be coming close though
tayla87: what, the making out or illegal thing?
raging apathy 17: the first
tayla87: do we like this girl we went with?
raging apathy 17: much!
raging apathy 17: which is a problem if it doesn't work out
tayla87: what does she look like?
raging apathy 17: blonde, beautiful
tayla87: it'll work out cuz I'll make it work out darn it.
tayla87: I'll beat her up if she is mean to you.
raging apathy 17: heh
tayla87: <3
raging apathy 17: should i call her today or tomorrow?
tayla87: today. it's best not to wait for these things.
raging apathy 17: maybe
tayla87: did she give a hint as to when you should call?
raging apathy 17: she sounded like today might be good
tayla87: then call her today
raging apathy 17: but i'm tired and stupid sounding right now
tayla87: hmm...
tayla87: maybe call her a little later?
raging apathy 17: yeah
raging apathy 17: maybe i'll go sleep some more and then call her after dinner
tayla87: that'll be good.

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