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Monday, May 16, 2005
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Gomen ne minna-san. I’m sorry, but I kinda need to get some stuff out, so I thought I could write it here… Maybe someone will find it poetic… ::shrugs::
I wanna go inside my dreams for a while—get out of this world. I hate the world I live in now, and I’m not sure how I’m gonna deal with living in it. Maybe it’s not the world… no, the world itself is fine. But people—do I wanna escape from people? Maybe that’s it. But my dreams are different, you know. They’re not the world. They are either happy—making me happier than I’ve ever been because wishes come true—or scary or sad. But they never *hurt* like this. I mean, even when I get killed in my dreams, it doesn’t hurt…It doesn’t feel like my heart is being torn to shreds…
Gyaa! I hate life sometimes! I suppose I should find out what God wants me to do now. I’ve been listening to music—mostly Relient K (yes, that is “ent” not “ant”…Relient K is kinda like Christian punk) a bit. Couple of their songs are fitting. Also, there’s this video we’ve been watching in youth group to prepare for our mission trip. “Amazing.” But anyway, the word “elevate” is hugely significant. Just a while ago, I was reading a magazine and the word “elevate” was written in big letters. D’ya think He’s trying to tell me something? ::sigh:: What’s wrong with me?
Well, I’ll stop now. I’m feeling a little better after writing that. But still, does anyone know of a good way to numb yourself from all emotion and feeling that (a) isn’t illegal (I’m under 21) and (b) doesn’t cause injury or death? I’m considering a shoujo marathon of something or another, but I can’t find the time to watch. Goodness, I need a laugh right now....
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