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Gender
• Female
Location
• U.S.
Member Since
• 2005-02-06
Occupation
• Student
Real Name
• Bob

Personal

Achievements
• I'm always striving to do my best at everything, so I'm not really sure I've any personal achievements.
Anime Fan Since
• ... age twelve, I think... but even then, there were classics that appealed to me.
Favorite Anime
• Trigun, Fruits Basket, Ouran High School Host Club
Goals
• ...To get straight A's...
Hobbies
• I spend most of my time on the computer, with music blasting my ear drums to oblivian, and drawing something. I also RP at night to kill time and relieve stress.
Talents
• drawing, painting, printing, bellydancing, singing, I'm pretty good at anything I try, though I do tend to need practice in some areas.

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

The Green Candle
For a while I haven't been communicating with anyone save Jes.. since she calls me all the time ^^
Felix had been sick for about.. 4 days.
We finally took her to the vet and she had a heart attack before they could help her.

That wasn't suppose to happen...
It couldn't have happened.. but... There was nothing to be done. She was put to sleep, and she... she's gone. Now the house feels so empty and I feel alone.. I wanted to hold her close to me and hear her purr... Just one last time.. peer into those great, golden, blue green eyes.. and tell her how much I loved her.. How much she meant to me.. But now.. She's gone... My best friend.. is gone.

...

Rituals wouldn't help. Raiki.. Crystal bowls.. tuning forks.. medication... nothing.. Her system was so poisoned.. she had been sick for the longest time and not shown it... but... The night before she left, I was lying next to her on the living room floor while Jes was over, crying my soul out to that cat...
I keep seeing her out the corner of my eyes.... walking by.. lying in the usual spots.. I hear her meow at the middle of the night...

She's gone now.. and it finally rained over here...

I'm disgusted and so happy.. I don't have to hear her cry in pain anymore.. but I miss her so much. There's this big empty whole in my heart that won't go away... And I just want to fade out...

So if anyone is wondering why I haven't been communicating much... that's why. I'll try and act happy. I'll try and act as though I'm over it. Hopefully, I can. But... Not yet... It's still a fresh wound..

The healing candle our family lit for her is still going, now trying to help us heal ourselves after this terrible ordeal...
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