Tuesday, August 23, 2005

   Another one bites the dust!
Well, it's official. I'm going out of my mind. I spoke to Jeff today and needless to say it didn't go so well. And I'm NOT (in the least bit) happy. He started up some trouble in the league again the other day and pissed a bunch of people off, and he left again. Everyone, but me, was happy to see that happen. Well, he brought it up to me yesterday and I sorta spoke to the other individual involved, but that didn't help any. It just got me even more frustrated and aggravated with the situation. I got two completely different stories from both of them. So I don't know who to believe. And I told Jeff that but he didn't like it too much. He swore up and down that he wasn't lying to me. But I have reason to believe otherwise. He said he saved the conversation that was between him and this other person (in message archive) but it was completely different then what the other person gave me when I asked and she, too, had it saved in message archive. So I don't know what to do or to think right now. I have reason to believe that he was deleting and/or adding things in when he used message archive to show what was supposedly said. In any case, I got really mad at that other person, whom is in the league as well, and I decided I've had enough of the drama and I withdrew from the league. I, then, sent messages to everyone asking them if I should keep them on my messenger list or remove them since I left, but so far I have had all the people that actually have responded tell me to keep them on my list. I, too, told the other person in the league that was involved that I had withdrew and she wasn't too happy about that. But that's okay. So when I told Jeff about how I spoke to her about it and everything, he told me that if I didn't believe him it was over and that I should send the ring back to him. At that point, my mouth just dropped. I couldn't believe what I had just read. Could it be real? Could it be true? He meant every word of it. So if I wanted to keep it together, I had to believe him. Granted, to this very second, I'm still not sure that I do believe him. And, one more thing, according to a few people in the league, he's supposedly been flirting with other women that are in there. So when I heard that, I wasn't happy... Of course... But, naturally, he denied it. Go figure! I SO knew that was coming. But one thing's for sure on that... I don't believe for a single second that he WASN'T flirting with other women. He's done it before. Granted, at that time, we were sorta separated. So I guess that was okay. But now we're engaged so, it's a totally different story. I'm so confused. Don't know what to think. Don't know who to believe. AHH! I'm going out of my mind. Need to stop and get my mind off of all of this.
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