Saturday, August 5, 2006

   Bored Crazy

Man, I've had the WORST writer's block for my evil rapist Marik story, I can't even get past the first chapter. T_T I keep starting over having disliked anything I've begun. I just reread the story that inspired it so hopefully I can continue writing... I think I've Marik too kind for an evil killer... ^_^ I went for a walk tonight. It was all dark (duh) and it was about to storm. My sister wanted to stay out, but I'm highly paranoid we were probably only out for half an hour; not even... Evil insects keep finding their way into my room. I saw a huge spider about two days ago. *shivers* I killed one today and my sister says she found two others in the laundry room, which is near my room. I'm afraid to put my damn feet on the floor. -_-; I have yet to upload any drawings, and the pile continues to mount. I should really post them. Heh. I have a mounting obsession with South Park. O_o; It's upsetting my mom because it's "crude" and I happen to end up watching three episodes of it a day. ^~^ Yeah, overboard... that's how I get with obsessions... that's why I'm on the internet several hours reding Yugioh! fan fiction. *_* fuel for my addiction. *gurgle* I've decided to take up attempting the romance writing course. I was stuck between it and the novel course. It's hard because not everything I write is romance, but most of it is, and most of it is novel length but some isn't... *shrugs* I hope I picked the right one... O_o Plus, I might have to write straight pairings in my stories to these people... T_T Oh, my darling Yaoi! *cough* Well, it won't be that hard. I'll just pretend they're both men, yeah... *drool*

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Thursday, August 3, 2006

   Tag Thing!

1. Do you like animals? YES! I have a cute little kitty whom I love, but he doesn't love me. T_T 2. Have you ever met an online friend in person? Well not a friend, no, but I did meet my friend's online boyfriend. The entire hour he was at my house I sat there stiff trying to relax and think of somthing to say... I failed on both... 3. Are you athletic? Heh, hardly. Though I used to run a lot... now I sit before my lovely computer. ^_^ 4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc: *sarcastic* I'm SO TOTALLY athletically built! *cough* Uh... really, I'm average. 5. How much do you weigh? O_o; I tend to stay away from the scale so I really have no clue. 6. What's your height? 5 foot something... 6? I haven't measured my height in ages... 7. Shoe size? Uh... 9, I think 8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc? It's hard to tell, I'm never one thing. Sometimes I'm tomboyish and sometime's I whip out my makeup. The best thing is to say that I'm me. 9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish? *sigh* I could only wish... O_O; Ugh... <.<>.> 10. How old are you? 17, two months and I am 18! YEAH! 11. When's your birthday? September, 29th, 1988. 12. Do you like to receive giftart? Yes, it makes me happy, but then I feel I have to give something back. 13. Are you sociable? At first I'm shy and then I sort of let down all boundaries and fully attack with my weirdness... but that's only for girls. With guys I'm shy and horribly oblivious to come-ons. -_-; It's horrible. 14. Do you have many friends? Hah! That's a laugh... well I guess I've got lots of internet friends. If they didn't count I'd only have four... though I'm betting half of them I won't really talk to again. 15. What's your race? ... -_-; I haven't a clue, really. I'm mostly Ukraine but both of my grandpas had a whole slew of different races to them. I think German was then next largest... 16. Do you like to talk on the phone? No, I absolutely do not. Not even if I'm talking to a close friend. I'm very phone shy... though I am a little better if someone calls me to talk. 17. Are you single or taken? Single, and I hope to remain so. 18. Do you eat meat? Yes, if I don't eat all that I can I'll probably become anerexic and die. 19. Are you paranoid? Only when I'm alone; mostly at night and around strangers. 20. Do you read a lot? I read heaps of fan fictions and I also read manga, though I don't really consider that reading. Sometimes I read actual books, but hardly. 21. Do you listen to music, what kind? I used to listen to Country a lot, but I don't like the songs anymore. Now the only music I listen to would be the opening themes to TV shows. 22. Do you play any instruments? Well, it depends what the word "instrument" means to you. *giggles* Seriously, I don't. I played the recorder when I was in grade four, does that count? 23. How long have you been drawing? Six years? Though only four for anime/manga. 24. What’s the meaning of life? To bring pain and suffering to idiots who enjoy mental and verbal torture to fellow man. If only murder wasn't illegal... *cough* In all honesty, I haven't the faintest clue. 25. Now tag five of your friends! Five? -_-; What friends? WOAH! Am I ever being cynical...

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Monday, July 31, 2006

   Crazy, the Vampire???

Well, I know it's only been a few days, but I ACTUALLY did some things... not much though... On Saturday I went to the city with my dad and my sister. We were looking for swimsuits in her size. She's not an overly big girl but she has overly big boobs. It's hard for her to find anything at all to wear that will look good on her too. We couldn't find anything but I'm making her a swimsuit now, I've got the materials all I need is a cleared off sewing machine... and a plan of action! (Yay! This will dwindle my urge to sew!) Aside from that, we went to a chocolate shop and we bought some yummy chocolate! ^_^ I haven't completely finished it yet (savour the goodness) and it's sitting in the fridge silently tempting everyone, yet only I can have it! MUHAHAHAHAHA! *cough* Well, that's not true I just felt like seeming evil. I also learned that my dad is completely dense when it comes to girls hitting on him. He told us that one time (obviously in teenage years) he was at a girls house, all alone, and they were listening to music. She wanted the lights off and my dad figured that she just had sore eyes; so they sat for half an hour in the dark with nothing happening. Five years later he finally realized that she was probably hopping for him to do something. *giggles* I'm probably just as dense, though I haven't really had much experience with guys to know. O_o; I've been drawing a lot lately! All drawings are of Ryou in his clothes from the story I've mentioned twice (with evil rapist/murder Marik). I've drawn about three and I have an itching to draw more. Maybe I'll actually post them on here... *cough* Maybe... I keep getting angry at my drawings, they're all never how I picture them to be. Aside from hands and feet I REALLY hate arms. I can draw legs, but not arms... well I can draw arms but not like I want to. *shrugs* ^_^ Guess what I'm doing! I'm going to be staying up as late as I possibly can tonight. I've been trying for the last three weeks to slowly wake up earlier and it's failing miserably. It doesn't sound like it will work, but it worked for me back at spring break T_T I was up until Nine watching "Uptown Girls" (or whatever) and ".Hack//Sign" I was nearly DEAD by then. I'm just getting my mom to get me up at two or three... hopefully this won't majorly mess things up... O_o; I might never awaken to daylight ever again then I'll become a vampire and the light will burn! T_T Oh, the night life is so lonely... wait! No it's not... *shrugs* I'm sorry, my thoughts are steadily becoming more sparse... I can't think straight and I keep messing up the stupid letter. (I just spelt 'striagt'... and before: 'somthing' -_-;) I hate it when I make stupid, horrid mistakes like that. It bugs the heck out of me. *cough* I'll stop now...

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Saturday, July 29, 2006

   Cleanliness is healthy.

I cleaned my room today... sort of. I haven't touched it in the last two years so I decided to... with a little help from my good pal, HUGE F*CKING BUG! *cough* Yeah... I was attempting to go to sleep a few days ago when I saw this huge beetle running around on my floor; it scared me to death and it was moving to fast for any chance of death or capture. I had to spend another hour playing my gameboy to distract myself. Then, yesterday I saw it again and I was STILL too late to catch it. I even spent some time looking for it under my many piles of papers. So, finally, I decided to clean my room. *cough* It's still a pig's sty, but I'm getting there. Afterall, it was 10:00 when I started and 12:30 when I gave up (I took a break to watch South Park though. Anyhow, there is a path around my bed now. ^_^ I also got off my lazy ass and went to see my friend, that's a big accomplishment for me. She's writing this cool story about this girl named Anne who's sister goes insane. I'd tell you more, but she plans to publish it. I think she's way better at writing than me, she's more creative and she has better word usage. I saw a kitten the other day! I was going for a walk with my sister and it was sitting in the road being all cute and orange! I want a kitty... *looks at her kitty* ... ANOTHER kitty! ^_^ ARGH! I'm very angry at my story, the one with evil rapist Marik, I had managed to make it to chapter three; but an unfortunate circumstance caused me to lose chapter two; the large gaping hole wasn't healthy. I decided to start over but I can't seem to get it right and I've tried again for the thrid time. The one I started today was ok though. Since I'm on the topic of writing stuff, I'm taking an on-line writing course, there's one step toward my future! Now all I have to do is get a job and ACTUALLY get my driver's licence. *curses self* I have an urge to sew, I blame it on my friend. She and I were talking about the dress of her character and it led to talking about how we think that dresses should be more common; I'd wear a dress more often if I wouldn't be the only one in the freaking town. I already get enough people yelling random things at me as they drive by...

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

   More random crap about my boring life.

>XP Today I got up to go to the dentist so they could take an impression of my teeth. >_< It was so awful! Turns out a can't breathe through my nose when my mouth is open and that was NOT helpful. The oddest thing happened to me. The other day I was reading this fan fiction and an author's note at the end explained that the idea came from a dream she had after she had been eating dark chocolate and flavored tea. Well, as I was reading that I was eating dark choclate. Jokingly I thought, 'Now all I'm missing is the tea...' O_o; Well that night I had a really creepy dream that was sort of nightmare-ish but not really. First I was being raped by this woman/man (It was hard to tell, really) then I became the outside view and the woman/man dragged me off, I was killed, though I didn't see it. Then this guy came in and they went about normal morning life until this little boy and girl came for the dead me and they got killed too (still didn't see). I became the kid's mother then and I went into the house to say bye to my kids and discovered they were dead and called the police... while the killers were staring at me. >.> Apparently it wasn't a nightmare, though it sounds pretty scary, I didn't wake up with my heart pounding or fear or anything... I wonder why that was? I drew today, I was looking at my collection of Yaoi and I said: "I should draw." and so I did. But my sister was on the computer with the scanner when I finished so I can't post it until tomorrow... if I even decide to. I might just throw it out or something. Ryou looks pretty imaciated and that wasn't my intent at all. I did redraw it, but it just looks worse... T_T ~an hour or so later (since I'd hate to start a new post on the same day)~ ARGH! T_T OH WOE IS ME! WOE IS ME! WOE IS MEEEEE! *sob, sob* Ok, enough of the drama. I'm very upset that the idiots at my dad's work decided that now was a good time to block my precious www.adultfanfiction.net T_T I've been using it for the last two months and now they're all: "O_o; Duh, I'm going to block this now. *drools all over his/her pants so it looks like s/he p*ssed him/herself*" T_T I was right in the middle of reading something too! *sobs more* Oh well, I might be getting not f*cked up internet for my birthday in two months so I'll just have to haul my butt off to the library and send myself e-mails containing my precious Yaoi until then... *drools not unlike previously mentioned idiots* Yaoi... *gurgle* Anyhow, I'm finished my angry ranting.

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

   LA LA LA I'm CRAZY!

*giggles* I wasn't feeling crazy until two seconds ago (litteraly) BUT NOW I'M WILD! *giggles* >.> I have a pretty good guess as to why but I'm not sure, so I'm not going to give a possibly incorrect guess! Let's see, what has gone on this week? Uh... I "built" myself a new computer... in reality I just unscrewed screws and then unplugged the dealies where they belong... with my dad's guidance, of course. Then I watched him get frustrated over the attachment of a fan to the computer. It's both frightening and funny when he works with computers. I spent the next two days reinstalling programs that I need to survive like my Japanese Learning program thing (which I can finally use now that my computer doesn't turn itself off every five seconds) and also the ever adored Word and Front Page. Just what would I do if I couldn't do pointless HTML and equally poinless stories? I've been using my dad's Palm thingy and I SO enjoy using it. So naturally I'm going to get my own instead of hogging my dad's. I have a brand new one that I'm *cough* "testing" *cough* and it cost $180, Canadian of course. >.> I could afford it, but I promised myself that I wasn't going to go shop happy with my grad present money. It's going back when I'm good and ready... or when I have to return it. I have to get a cheaper one. *sigh* It's so nifty though. OMG! I also came up with the MOST AWESOME story idea EVER! OH! This will so top my beloved Treachery! ^_~ Marik is an evil rapist and murder and I bet you can't guess who his victim is. >.> It's pretty obvious, especially if you know me... though Marik never does kill him. *cough*It's Ryou.*cough* ANYHOW! I'm off to write it, ^_~ I'm getting to the rape scene! *giggles evily* (Notice how utterly eventless my week was?)

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Thursday, July 6, 2006

   Phone Manners

Well, today went as boring as usual. I got a slash book from my mom with lots of dirty vapiric things ^_~. >.> You know, most moms want to keep thier kids from that kind of thing. *shrugs* It doesn't bug me! I get to read SWEET MAN-LOVING! YEAH! *giggles* Anyhow, earlier I was sitting around minding my own business when the phone rang. Being the only one able I picked up the phone to meet with the rudest little B**** I've ever spoken too... >.> Or at least the rudest girl (not including family...). I was asked for "Merissa" and upon replying that I knew no Merissa she got all offensive and relayed to me the last four numbers she was trying to dial, which were the same as my own number. Unfortunately, I'm pretty slow so I didn't think to offer that she might have miss punched the first three... She proceeded to tell me that she wanted Merissa and that "this isn't funny". Was I laughing? No. I kept telling her I knew no Merissa and she said, "So you're telling me that the number I've been calling to reach Merissa for years is wrong?" YES YOU FAT BIMBO! *cough* Well, I didn't say that... I just thought it. Finally we just hung up on each other. I can't understand why she couldn't have just realized her mistake in the first place instead of attacking me. People are just so rude, that's one of the reasons that I want to just crawl into a hole and never EVER talk to anyone... at least verbally. I'd have a great life, all I really need is food, water, and my computer. -_-; God, some people make me sick. (I know I'm being overly dramatic, but I don't just get annoying calls from idiots like her. People from my school have actually called, asked for me, just to be a** holes and then there's the actual trips to school thank F*CK I don't actually have to go EVER AGAIN! *sighs happily*) Anyhow, I'm going to stop before I get out of control and write an eight page rant on exactly how much I hate those f*ckers and why it's so.

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Sunday, July 2, 2006

   WEEEE! HAPPY!

Let's see! Lots of stuff happened this week. On Sunday, as I mentioned, I went to my friend's house for a barbeque and I played Croquette (or however it's spelled) I came in second place! *cough*If we were playing backwards.*cough* And then we played some other game where you throw this white ball and try to throw your color of the ball as close to the white one as possible... Sometimes I won, sometimes I didn't... *shrugs* THEN the food was brought out. I didn't really eat that much but I got so full so fast. Then her mom brought out cake and it just looked so good I HAD to have some. -_-; And then there was the watermellon >.> Well I had about eight pieces of that because I was thirsty. >_< I swear I must be STILL trying to digest that. >.> On Monday my other friend (I'll just call her Courtney because It's easier) brought over her boyfriend. Well, Kenji doesn't seem so bad... at least he wasn't sitting there molesting her like a certain guy that I was with... thought that doesn't mean something can't happen to her... but I've learned from watching lots of crime shows (etc.) where people get into trouble and right before they just "feel" that something's wrong with that person. Well I didn't feel anything like that when I saw him and Courtney does seem happy... though it's not like we said much... *shrugs* Like I said before, there's nothing I can do. I tried to tell her countless times that she shouldn't get attached to him, she shouldn't get together with him; naturally, I was ignored. Hopefully, he isn't like those guys we're all warned about. Argh... my poor younger sister. T_T she and the even younger sister are fighting. Naturally, this is something that could be fixed if the youngest could just realize how much her actions are hurting her elder. *sigh* I'm not going to go into strong details, but the youngest has basically STOLEN her elder's friend and she doesn't even realize how cruel she's being to her. She can't even keep to an agreement of not bringing the former friend into the house. It's aggrivating for all of us. *sigh* Yesterday (Friday) me and my younger sister (not the youngest) went out for a walk at about 11:00, which is highly unlikely for us. We went to Subway for cookies and we saw drunk people and I think we're planning to do the same next Friday. Nothing happened today, I was going to see the Canada day fire works, but because of the fude the younger didn't want to go with the youngest so I stayed home... It's just no fun without her (she's practically my twin, we've been called twins a lot actually... >.> we aren't though. She's two years younger...) So instead we watched the South Park DVD with our dad that we got him for father's day. YAY! *giggles* And so ends my pitiful week... Happy Canada Day and, since I probably won't post in the next two days, Happy July Fourth! <3

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

   Grad! (Saturday)

Well... I'm sleepy because I woke up at 9:30 so I could have a shower, my hair had to be dry by the time I went to get my hair done. It was pretty and curly! I looked cute -_-; It just took an hour to do so I didn't have time to eat before the ceremony. T_T I was there for two HOURS! Two of the most pointless hours of my life... all that was really necessary was the first half hour... *shrugs* I got a highest achievement award in my Advanced Computer class. 91% *giggles* It all just came so easily to me. >.> Though, I bet the internet had to play a part in everyone else's lower marks. They spent a good 60% of that class doing nothing. I at least tried to balance the two... :D Or maybe I'm just trying to make excuses for them... Anyhow, my brain died half way through the ceremony and I wanted to shove a sharp knife into my neck... then I took pictures with my friend and I went home. Immediately I ran down stairs to my beloved computer and we made sweet love! ... Ok... >.> It was thunder storming so I had to save a bunch of crap that I had up on my computer. ^_^ For some reason the block on adultfanfiction.net is down so I've been finding finished stories and opening them all up just in case it suddenly gets blocked again... then I read and save them so I can read them over and over! Hee Hee. *is obsessive* After that I took a nice trip to the city to paint rainbows and eat kittens... the kittens tasted like chicken, pasta, soup, and fries. I painted 220 rainbows! I wanted to use them to buy manga but I didn't want to annoy my family so I went home. Then I washed those, by now, horrid curls from my hair and here I am! I just finished uploading two original anime. I'm coloring one of them... but I horribly suck at color... Tomorrow (Sunday) I get to go to my friend's house for a barbeque. ^_^ Maybe I can go to my other friend's house too. Her boyfriend was supposed to come to grad, but I didn't see either (she was there according to her step dad... O_o;). I'm kind of worried, she DID meet him over the internet and I've been taught that that can't end well... *shrugs* There's nothing I can do, she's pretty insistant on her love for him. *sigh*

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

   Sick and in pain... T_T

*whimpers like a kicked puppy* My teeth hurt... I went to the dentist today and she did her regular tooth thing... It hurts to eat... but I'm a wussy anyhow so it's my fault. My poor adoreable kitty Twilight somehow got hurt... he has a large scab on his back and it bugs the hell out of him. I've been helping to rid him of it since it's falling off and seems pretty old. Poor kitty. He has to go to the vet soon anyhow so we'll know of any serious problems when he goes... I woke up this morning with a really dry throat and I couldn't talk properly. Everytime I tried to eat I could only take small amounts so it was a heck of a lot worse after I went to the dentist. Which somehow reminds me of the fact that I actually wrote some of my fan fiction "Treacher" I've had lemon writer's block. *pouts* And... *gasp* I have a new favorite pairing that I actually contemplated writing for! YamixSeto I could just see them fighting over who gets to be seme... *giggles* I probably won't write for them though, just because I've only read one fic with them in it as a pairing... and I probably only got attached to the because it was the only pairing that the characters actually weren't torn apart. *glares at Pegasus* I blame him and his evil kidnapping ways* Pegasus: *is already dead* He was in need of torture for all the torture he himself dealt to my poor innocent Ryou... that's the weird thing about me. I love Ryou when he's tortured... but there are only a few people who I can actually stand him being tortured by... mainly : Bakura, Marik, Malik, and Yami (as long as Yami doesn't go too psychotic). Anyone else deserves an early grave if they even think about it. That's only the Yugioh! characters though... I, and any other fangirl, can torture him. Therefore, I must bring Pegasus back to life to torture again and again and again and again until I'm satisfied enough that he will never tough Ryou again! Ahem... Yeah, I'm freaking out over something stupid... *rolls eyes* I get too passionate when I have a strong hate for somthing... On Wednesday I get to go and shop around for my Grad things... I wonder if I should do my hair at all... I don't like to but perhaps I should. I could actually do my makeup too...

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