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I just need to talk this time in my next post i'll reply to comments from this post and the last one

I am so messed up today just stressed like hell.
1. Well now that physical therapy has finished its getting about time that I end this dang accident settlement but i have paper work to do and bills to find and send to them along with all my doctor information and medical insurance information and since i don't have a lawyer to represent me i have to do it myself i have to figure a dollar amount for my pain and suffering and the inconvenience all the stuff the lawyer does, but if i use my mom's lawyer he'll do that but he'll take roughly 33% -_- like i need that shit im trying to save 1000 dollars for college stuff right now which brings me to something else

2. My job sucks normally i get 8 to 10 hours a week which is barely enough but now i don't get to work my saturdays so i've been getting less money lately and its killing me this whole gas for the mini van and laptop pc payments are killing me i have no idea how im supposed to save up AND i still don't have a new car i don't even wanna talk about the 2405 dollars we got for that....i just don't....

3. My mom told me the other day (some of you know about this) that my credit was bad she found mail for me today and i found out i owe people 12.50 i have no idea how many other people i could possibly owe money to this one letter can't possibly be it i need to figure out how to get a credit report -_- no telling how many bills i could have possibly missed because of this malarky

4. And then there is financial aid with all the money that is supposed to be coming with all the taxes and settlements around here i have no idea whats going to happen with my financial aid for college the way i have all the money calculated could be totally screwed if that goes wrong and on top of that i still haven't gotten my W2's from work or i have and its more lost mail -_- *controls hand and stops it from jamming a pen in my eye* any waaaaaaay *glares at hand*

5. While i was trying to figure out what to do about alllll that other mess my family starts fighting, sibs and parents both and they keep coming to me with their freaking crap like i need to be involved in their stupid little quarrels

6. I keep trying to make people happy i try to make everyone happy on the net in reality every where everyone wants to talk and play and spend time with me i have to schedule times for people, future dates into separate months everyone expects me to go away to a college THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN ACCEPTED TO YET and do well and get a good job and make money and my aunt wants me to get a girl friend I-am-going-fucking-in-sane i just need people to back off and things to slow down i mean holy fucking shit give me a damn break just thinking about it all shortens my breath i just need time that no one wants to give me.

well if any of you actually finished that and read it all thanks i just needed to complain/rant/whatever