Thursday, December 28, 2006

OH MY EFFING GOD!!!!!!

I'm probably taking a HUGE risk, posting this online, but...I have an impetuous personality, and I need to vent. I received a summons in the mail, yesterday. I didn't know a summons could be delivered via mail. I thought they had to be either hand-deliverd or sent by certified letter, but I guess not. Anyway, the father of my children has decided to send me to court over a "felony" matter: interference with custody. If I don't show up in Green Bay, WI on Jan. 4th at eight-thirty a.m.... A warrant will be issued for my arrest. Oh, well. ON the bright side: my life is no longer BORING!!! Let them issue their warrant. Actually, I'm kind of bemused, right now. The summons noted HIS side of the story: according to him, I'm suicidal, and he never left me--I KICKED him out and he was forced to go live with a "friend". Welp. It didn't happen like that. First of all, I am SOOO not suicidal. Second of all, I didn't kick him out; he left of his own accord--while I was still recovering from major surgery, I might add--and his "friend" is really his GIRLFRIEND--whom he was cheating on me with in the first place. But only--according to him--because I was cheating on him, first. What a crock of shit. And at least he could have cheated on me with a CUTE chick. HE wouldn't even allow me THAT dignity. I was betrayed for a MANLY skank...*sob* Oh, well, not that it's a big loss or anything...but ... Here's an example: even on the summons, it states that Loser-Boy Sperm Donor had to borrow a car and a cellphone and 200 dollars the last time he tried to locate me and my children. Well, I'm not getting any child-support, and he lives with his girlfriend. Where is his money going? Is pot getting that expensive these days, or has he graduated to something more pricey? I support our two kids on less money than he makes, and I pay ALL the bills,--not just HALF of the bills (if that), like he does. We have a horrible history...drug abuse, general abuse, child neglect, and other wonderful lil' tidbits that I think I'll leave out, here. And he'll have the home court advantage in his attempt at CRUCIFYING me in court with his absurdly concocted version of Reality. Well, two can play this game--heh heh heh, and I have a sick sense of humor...and many friends who are already arranging to take time off of work that morning to come witness the soon-to-legendary sideshow antics. Moron.

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Meaningless Babble...

…and stuffs. Gawds, ‘da sikaurai is exhausted. And how was everyone’s holiday? Was it loverly? Was it everything that you anticipated? Mine was obnoxious, and I’m glad it’s over… Last night, I had a couple interesting conversations. One was with Ebony…and…I was exhausted then, too. Babbling incoherently, I dare say. And…can you believe it, she was actually trying to read my chapters on dA at the same time? I think the actual conversation might have gone something like this: Sikaurai: babble, babble, babble, meaningless irrelevance, randomness, babble…*descending into idiocy*… Ebony: *gritting teeth* …thinking: shut up, shut up, shut up! The joy didn’t end there. Yaoikiss101 honed in on me at three in the morning. Twenty minutes later, he told me to go to bed because I lost the ability to type. I haven’t slept yet…and… I think I have my second wind. So…you know me. Sleep and I are not good bedfellows, heh. Anyway, a pic up on dA that I can’t post here: It’s my Orchid Lord, and he’s NEKKID. Gah, okay, everyone have a good day…I’m gonna go raid my coffee pantry now…

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Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas To Me...

*sob* My entire account at deviantart has been wiped out, I think. Nobody can access my work, and I can't log in. It tells me I don't have permission. *sob* I'm so upset. That account held all my artwork...I didn't keep the hard copies. Everything...destroyed. All my hard work. God, I'm so upset. By the end of the day, I will delete my otaku account, also. I'll be spending the evening saving my portfolio to my hard-drive before I eradicate everything. So...fuck. FUCK FUCK FUCK. I can't stop crying. 'kay...edit: Admin must have received my panicked email. I'm fixed and back online. Yay. So...I have off tomorrow, so I'll start visiting sites again. But...first, more dA love. And in relief, I submitted some art to my otaku gallery as a back-up.

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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

'Kay, this is why deviantART rulz...the pic below got 21 views within five minutes of being submitted... And ever since I stopped coloring my art, my portfolio on the OTAKU gets NO LOVE!!!!...(well, okay, a LITTLE love...) You know what I say to that??? PFFFFFFFFFFT!!!! Heh. Everybody have a great day!

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Sunday, December 17, 2006

ART!!! WOOT!!!!...And Messenger Madness...

Well, happy Sunday, everyone! ‘da sikaurai hopes that everyone is well! Okay, as far as MESSENGER is concerned, I’ve been undergoing something that resembles complete and utter chaos!! Thanks to the otaku and dA, I now have twenty-three contacts…and my system has a glitch, somewhere. I’ve noticed that a majority of my contacts appear to be ALWAYS offline. I can only see the status of two or three members…Lovelife7 being one of them. I never know who’s online until they’re on top of me, hailing me and whatnot. I’ve had hour-long conversations with people who are consistently listed as OFFLINE. *shrug* It’s never been an issue, before, but now...with so many people on my list, it’s becoming something of a nuisance. Does anybody know why it would do this? I don’t have this problem with YAHOO. By the way, a fellow otakuite just recently added me to her YAHOO list…but keeps herself on invisible…hmmmm. You know who you are…*cough cough*. ANYWHO, let’s get to what’s really important. I have some more art to promote. Let’s talk about an artist that used to have an account on the otaku under the name of ANIMI. I’ve been given permission to keep in touch and violate her photobucket account, so I found some stuff that I thought deserved some props… That’s her version of Sascha. Pretty coo’, huh? And: UKYYYYOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! XD XD XD!!!!!! I thought her stuff deserved some love…so …there ya go. Also, I, myself, recently did some more art. Feel free to check it out. OKAY, everybody have a fantabulous day!!!! I’m getting back to my Icon of Coil…

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

A SAD LITTLE CONVERSATION

Ah, memories. ‘Da sikaurai is slightly hung-over and waxing nostalgic. Heh. OMIGOD. The insurance job. YES. I used to work for a Blue Cross Blue Shield insurance program, operating as a first-level medical claims adjuster. Yaoikiss101 and I laughed ourselves sick on IM last night, reminiscing over one particular memory during our days together, chained to our cubicles… The following conversation revolves around what REALLY happens at the call center while your doctor is inquiring on your bill for your last stay in the hospital… YK101: *breezes into room holding tray filled with Starbuck’s lattes* Good morning, ladies, how was everyone’s evening? *motions to neighbor* What are you reading, dearie? Andrea: Fruits Basket. It’s really cute. YK101: *rolls eyes* Aren’t you a little old for that sort of thing? Andrea: No….ha, look. *holds up paperback* It’s all about these people that turn into animals whenever they’re hugged by the opposite gender…and then, when they turn back into their human selves, they’re NAKED! YK101: Oh, god, darlin’, that sounds positively scandalous. Andrea: It’s cute. Sikaurai: Speaking of naked, where’s my last page? That manga I’m working on? Andrea: *face once again in book* Last time I saw it, it was making its way through Blue Cross Alabama… Sikaurai: That’s down the hall! I’ll never get it back at this rate. YK101: Honey, you better make sure administration doesn’t catch you with pornographic material on the property. *neighboring co-worker*: pornographic? Who’s got porn up in this joint? Andrea: *sikaurai*’s making a dirty manga *neighboring co-worker*: Sweet! Can I see it? Sikaurai: Hell, yeah. I made copies…*rifles through papers on desk* UH OH. YK101: *sing-song* What’s wrong, darling? Sikaurai: I don’t have the original. Oh, god… *everyone looks up at copier across the room* Sikaurai: Shit, it’s still in the copying machine. YK101: OH GOD, the receptionist is pulling something out of the machine! *everyone bursts into horrified giggles* YK101: Thank you for calling Horizon Blue Cross Blue Shield….please hold…*slaps the mute button* You are never getting that page back, dearie. Sikaurai: I hope I didn’t put my name on that… shit. I better get those other copies back. *nearest supervisor*: *YK101*! You’re on hold for three minutes! Check back, now! YK101: *mutters* Cram it, douchebag. *louder now* I swear to god, someday, I’m just going to go horrifically postal if I have to work here too much longer… Andrea: *YK101*, do you know you took your finger off the mute button? That day, I was written up and Yaoikiss101 was hauled into the administrative office for a monitored call that had gone bad…yeah, THAT one. Lucky bastard. Heh heh. Okay, well, I’m off to my deviantART account to spread some more perversion. And by the way, I have some more art that needs some love. Everybody have a fantabulous day!

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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

LATE Night Entry

Goddamn it, I'm sick AGAIN. (And possibly feeling the effects of an oncoming hangover. AGAIN.) I had a drunken rant on dA last night...I'm sobering up and looking at my entry....gooooooood. Nothing like a little outrageous emotion pasted where everybody can see it to make the week go more smoothly. Gods, my head is just spinning, and I have a DAMN sore throat. I dropped five more pounds? Since last week. ANYWAY, I think I'll go with Yensid's advice--thank you, by the way! I'm a-gonna try those colorless blenders and the micron pens and whatnot. I have the list written down...somewhere. I'm just having an issue with my art, lately--or maybe I'm just pouting because Animi dropped off both networks. I dunno. Um...anyway. I found some Melotron on YouTube. Like most synthpop groups, they sound much better with the studio effects. Buuuuuut, oh well. Who am I to complain? (Emily likes this group, too...I found a female version of REZ, I think.) Oh, gods, that sounded weird...

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Monday, December 11, 2006

BACK...WITH A VENGEANCE...

LOTS OF CHANGES since last I visited…. I had to dye my hair back to a normal color…I am currently looking for a new job, so I need to look somewhat respectable. I bleached out the purple, and now it’s kind of a muted red…and ah, I killed my roots. Oh, well. Still wearing the baby barrettes, though, cuz… I’m weird, what can I say? Um…and as I said yesterday, I’m in a relationship, again. We’re not ready to co-habitate, or anything—cuz I don’t think I’ll ever make that same mistake again. Emily likes the same kind of music I do—ooh, ooh! And I’m currently on a big MELOTRON kick…I love those industrial groups. We spent our first date going through each other’s music libraries…and um, other things. By the way, I don’t care one whit about IMAGE or celebrity status—the music should stand out based on the merit of its own SOUND, yo. OH, and Santa really does exist! And he really is a big dude with a grizzled beard and leather boots. Actually, Santa comes in the form of my old man, this year, who decided to place a rather timely phone call to me late last evening. I actually answered my phone, heh—which I tend to do more often these days with the addition of a girlfriend in my life. (My dad doesn’t know about Emily. He’s not too keen on the whole bisexuality concept…heh. I tried to discuss it with him one time, and he kinda implied that I was oversexed and need to see a shrink…and then blamed it on my mom. yeahhhhh. Big, bad biker dude doesn’t wanna admit his odd-ball dance-clubber daughter might be batting for the other team—WOOTness!) ANYWAY, yes. He called to inform me that he will be sending three hundred dollars to me next week, along with some cheese and salami and a gift basket. The girls will be getting presents this year, after all! I might be using fifty of that money to be myself some new art supplies—I’ve thinking of buying some paint, and expanding beyond my tired Crayolas. Emily kinda talked me into it—she’s all wicked impressed with my art, and ah…I admit it. I’m a feedback whore. Does anybody have any recommendations? I have a ton of ideas for my deviantART account—all mature-themed, of course, as is par for the course with sikaurai and her evil alter-ego, the Bowerydweller—and I’m antsy to get started with a new media technique! Everybody have a good day…

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Sneaking In...

Twenty-six visits. Thank you for taking the time to stop in, even though I've been too busy on my end to do site rounds. I appreciate the visits, and will respond in kind...shortly. I've been fairly busy lately, so I apologize for the seeming neglect. I want to say first off, Goodbye, Animi. You will be missed. But we'll still keep in touch. Second off, I have a new girlfriend, so I've been kinda racking my brain on how to manage my time with her and my kids and my writing. We've been corresponding together for the last month or so on IM, and we only just actually recently met, face to face. Things went swimmingly, needless to say, and I'm tickled pink. So, yeah, late post. THis will one will probably be missed, but oh, well. I wanted to post the good news, anyway. If you're reading this belatedly entered bit of joyness, have a good night.

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Sunday, December 3, 2006

Hmmm...Interesting

I learned something new about my illness. Apparently, I'm in a high-risk category... the category being women who have endured multiple pregnancies and/or who have suffered extreme and rapid weight loss. My first pregnancy was a miscarriage--I had a grand total of THREE. Since my hysterectomy, I lost a grand total of SIXTY pounds. That's right--sixty pounds within seven months time. Rapid? I should say so. DOH! ...I don't expect any responses to this. I'm just venting for anyone who cares to take the time. Ahhhh, I don't even know why I'm bothering. I'm just upset. Christmas is coming. Sperm Donor doesn't pay child support. I have no idea if Santa is visiting the girls this year. And Autumn's birthday is on Christmas day; Tia's is the day after. What a shitty holiday for them. I don't celebrate Christmas. I'm a converted Daoist. Good thing for me, huh? Random thought: damn, Covenant is a good group. I love those swedish electronic groups. Keep 'em coming, I guess.

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