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Friday, August 11, 2006

   Story Time! (gushy-romance haters beware!)
Hey folks. It's been..a long time. But I can, and will, explain, promise. ^_^ This'll be good, especially for all you saps out there.

You know, I've been on myO for more than a year now, and with all these posts I've put up, I've hardly told you guys anything about me, unless you're really insightful and you can figure things out that is. ^_^

Okay. So who wants to know what's up with Silence? for real? If anyone even visits me anymore. *grin* I wouldn't blame you guys, I pretty much fell off the face of the planet. But if you're here, I think this will be worth it.

Enough already, Silence. Stop blabbering and say what you came to say.

Well, it's not Saturday night, but this post is going to break tradition anyways so who cares?! :D

Alright, on with my story. (severly shortened, much to my sadness.)

Once upon a time..in a not so distant place in a not so unfamiliar world lived a girl.
On the outside, she was smiling and cheerful and happy, and her life looked enviable (at least I would envy it if I saw it! XD) She had great grades, great friends, a family, a nice house and a nifty dog. On the inside, she was depressed and felt alone in her world. She would put on a smiling face to fool the world, she told goofy jokes and wrote silly posts and used her insight to act like she was happy, and it worked most of the time. Sometimes, people who acted like they cared would move in and out of her life, but each time she thought someone understood her unhappiness, they would fall out of her life again. As a result, she trusted no one.
She was wrapped up in the world the internet had to offer, and a member of an online community called The Otaku (sound familiar? no? Get help.)She liked the way she could be who ever she wanted, and she could make friends without having to bare any part of herself in return. One day she was browsing in the fanart section and she came across something that caught her eye (deal with it pears I'm going to flatter you)and she looked at the drawing, and was impressed enough to find the artist and sign his guestbook.
He returned the favor, as all polite myotakians will, and the two of them started sending private messages back and fourth. One thing led to another, and when he asked her for her screen name (she trusts no one, remember?) she surprised herself and gave it to him. The two of them talked more and more, and she found she could really tell him about herself, and he listened, and responded, and for once it felt like someone really cared. He eventually asked for her name, and a picture, and she gave that too.
The months flew by, fall came, and faded into winter, and she wondered if she was losing her mind. Is it possible to have feelings for someone you've never met in person? She hadn't thought so, but her heart was telling her otherwise. More time passed, and eventually the two of them admitted to feelings for each other. More months, and she was happy, for the first time in her life she had something she really thought she could live for, someone to hold on to. But it wasn't perfect. They'd still never met in real life, he was in one state, she another. They satisfied themselves by exchanging videos of eachother, and sneaking numerous phone conversations.
They planned to meet within the year, but she worried that her overly-paranoid parents would cut all ties between them if she told them. But she did, with time. And they agreed to let the two meet.
After months of waiting, and wishing, the weekend finally came where he would arrive. She was nervous, of course. Would he be who she had thought he was for the last year of her life? What if she was just shaping him into what she needed him to be?
In the end, there was no cause for worry. The two met, and she found that she was happier with him than she'd ever been in her life. A year had passed, and he had pulled her through the worst depression of her life, giving her hope and something to reach for when it seemed easiest to just give up. He left in a few days, which seemed far too short, and the two promised to meet again as soon as time would allow, keeping the relationship in the meantime. How could she not? She loved him.

And that's my modern fairy tale. That girl is me, of course, and that other, that amazing artist who changed my life is known as Chaos Eidolon on this site. We'd been boyfriend and girlfriend in psuedo-secret for a while, and now I finally get to tell everyone the truth. I really could go on gushing about him and how great he is forever, but I don't think he'd like that. -_-'

Thank you, Chaos, (gosh it feels wierd to call you chaos!) if I havn't embarrassed you too much already. I'm sorry, I am a girl. ^_^ And a helpless romantic at that.

So, now you all know.

And for those of you who are wondering what happened to the Saturday Night Posts, I say, YOU HORRIBLE SHALLOW UNFEELING PERSON THERE IS A GORGEOUS LOVE STORY RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU AND YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT ELMO AND HIS PIT IN RADIO-ACTIVE WASTELAND?!?!?!?!

Well, he's fine, actually. A little green, but relatively unharmed.

And if that didn't answer your question about Saturday posts, well, they won't be every saturday, no, I don't need that anymore, but they'll come from time to time, even elmo needs some publicity, and the moldy toes need airing out once in a while.

If you guys read all that, hey, isn't it cool? If not, man, you're missing out, if you ask me. XP Not everyday you get to hear true stories like these. *sniffs*

Well, I've said what I wanted to say, and I don't see the point of dragging this on, who knows, maybe you'll hear from me on saturday. ^_-

For those of you who did, thanks for reading, and go pay chaos a visit if you want to hear the male-version of the story! I love him. ^-^

Till next time, says Silence, who goes to bed happy these days.
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Sunday, June 4, 2006

FREEEEEEDOOOOOOOMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dub this post as the freedom post. summer time for silence.

Oh, and would you all like an explanation for the lack of post last week? Well let me tell you.

Lean in close now.

I. Just. Didn't. Write. One.

*gasp* oh dear, silence is a very bad girl. XO

But yes! I'm free! YESSS NOO MOREEE BIOOOOO IT EATSS MY SOULLLLLLLLLL...now I shall have fun in the sun for all of eternity.

(or at least until September) Crap.

Well, that's practically eternity. pffffttt.

So how are you all, out of school? I hope so because I couldn't bear anymore. XD I totally didn't study for any of my finals, it was..amusing. But I did good anyways. *brushes some lint off shoulder* I bet you all didn't know I was an honors student eh?!

You probably think I'm some bum somewhere who doesn't even try in school. *sniffs* Well, it's actually typical of the anime crowd, I don't know why. *shrug*

And, apparently I am a skinny girl with black hair. I guess it works. Only I'm still kinda sulking about the whole unibrow thing. I really wanted one you know.

I always wanted a pony too but I never got that either.

Which is probably why I have an obsession with skinning people alive..

And maybe the root of my butter fantasies..

And possibly the reason I have a strange fascination with toenails.

But only possibly.

Far more likely because my great great great uncle's twice removed cousin's roommate's fat dog sherry got bit by a monkey and died.

In the jungle the mighty jungle the liooonnnn sleeps toonighhtttttt...oohhhh in the jungle the miighty jungleeee the lion sleepsss tonigghhtt..

awimbawah awimbawah awimbawah a weeeeeeee eeee eee eeee eeeee weeeombombowayyyyy...

*cool dance moves*

MUFASAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mufasa mufasa mufasaa!!!!!!

muffin!

I'm quite finished now. *coughs* I just had to get it out of my system. Does anybody here have a mole on the inside of their nose?

Dear god that was random.

but how would you know? How many of you ACTUALLY have looked inside your nose? You know I knew this guy once who's nosehairs were like a foot long I swear.

That was even more random..

He looked like a walrus. I really don't like walruses. I like seals though. And sometimes whales, occasionally snails. Slugs are definatly out, however sloths are appropriate. I don't do so well with pidgeons though.

Okay so it's time for my thing of the week to consider! (there's always something)

So, you all watched movies when you were a little kid, la la la, we all did correct? Well, I know I didn't just watch kids movies. I watched stuff like Grease and Young Frankenstein and lots of other fun stuff.

And I always thought they were funny movies, but man did half of the dialogue not make much sense. I was like 10.. Yeah. but then! you go back and watch those movies again and it's a whoollleeeee different movie. Like wow. Does that ever happen to you guys?

I was like DAD WHY DID YOU LET ME WATCH THIS?!?!

Dad: Well you didn't get any of it anyway so what does it matter?

Silence: DON'T YOU REALIZE I'M SCREWED UP FOR LIFE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY?!?!?!?

But you don't tell your parents things like that oh no. It's like when they ask you how school was. The answer is always "good" or "fine" that's all they get, and that's all their hearts could take if you ever went into any detail.

Most of this can be blamed on Tikia and Red, really, it's not my fault.

I'm just about the most innocent well-meaning girl on the face of the planet. How could I lie to you guys? I would never do annnyyyyyyyyyything to get in any sort of trouble or anything of the sort like that, really.

I promise.

*coughs*

you know I used to think I was an alien.

But that has nothing to do with all the promises I break.

Would you like to hear more about the alien bit?

Okay, well in 3rd grade I somehow got the notion in my head that I was from another planet. And there would be a mother ship that would come one day to take me and my fellow aliens away. I beleive it came every friday.

So anyways, I'm very impressionable and manipulative, and for some mysterious reason, the neighborhood girls my age soon thought they were aliens too.

That lasted about a month. XD

It's a true story I swear. *nod nod*

How many of you have seen monty python and the search for the holy grail?

Remember the part with the coconuts? and they pretended to have horses?

Well that was also me.

I am obviously very emotionally scarred from my childhood.

Now if you'll excuse me I need to go eat some wood.

*a few minutes go by*

You know I really don't have much to day tonight. Only that I really really really love my dog and I almost lost him this week and it was really really scary. *nod nod*

Would you guys like to know what seriously bugs me?

Okay, I REALLY hate it when people brag, just..brag, show off, all that stuff it makes me want to shove a chainsaw up their pants. Like, DO YOU REALLY THINK I CARE?!?!?! Is it that important to me what wonderful skills you have? grrrrr! XO

But school's out and I don't have to deal with it anymore.

Oh, and I ALSO really hate it when people stare at you, right? Well, normally if someone's looking at you and you notice them looking at you and your eyes will meet and they have to look away to be polite..well..it really creeps me out when the person meets your eye and keeps right on staring.

Has that ever happened to you guys?

I know I've done it to other people before (eheh) But that doesn't mean it should happen to me! XO

AND! I really really REALLLYYYYY hate it when people misspell everything just because they're lazy..english and bio are my things and grrrrr..argg..woof. I catch about every error and sometimes you want to let it go but then it gets worse and it's like, *cough* *eheh* look, periferal and PERPETUAL are two COMPLETLY different words you idiot! there's not even a T in periferal!!!! XO

And because I'm on a role, I also have bones to pick with the opposite gender, because of all of the above stated with vehemence. *growls*

Leave. Me. Alone. Please.

not you all! XO stay stay! I'm really just blabbering half-heartedly about school, but no more so forget that. :D

AND HAVE I SAID FREEDOM YET??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

FRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEDDOOOOOOOOOMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!

ahhaahahahaaaaaaaaaaaa..*bangs on head with frying pan to the tune of "to grandmother's house we go"*

Indeed. I should go now, and there might be something of slight interest here next week, Silence once again gives you her deepest apologies for being bipolar, touchy, phsycotic, random, wierd, and wanting a pony.

Forgive me, if you read all that..well.

I'm sorry. Omigosh you poor thing was that a waste of ten minutes of your life?

Go play outside!!! It's better that way!

I go now, freedom. peace. hippies. jo mamma and some whipped cream.

Ewww. that one didn't work.

Have a fantastic week everyone make the most of your summer I know I will be!

Till next time I get the urge to ramble about nothing!
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Sunday, May 21, 2006

I like to eat, eat, eat, apples and bananaaaassssssssss...
This is going to be long. I warn you now.

Hey guys!!!! ANOTHER WEEK (2) AND WE ALL SURVIVED!!!!!

I hope.

Although it was cutting it a little close for me. Cutting it. Yes that was my week. (I fell down. a lot.) HAHAHAHA I'm so funny!!!!

Just kidding.

Ahem.

My apologies for the lack of post last week. :P I was an idiot. So..I spent like 34 minutes (yes, 34 because I timed it because I am such a freak that I do things like that) writing this whole nice long post (actually I just made 34 up right off the top of my head) and I typed it all up and it was a good one (34 is a good number isn't it?) and so I had this post and (GET ON WITH IT SILENCE!)

Well I went to hit "add post" and I deleted it instead. the end. it was very sad and I never rewrote it.

You all can go ahead and hate me now. Really, I do understand. I'm a post-deleter. I can get up to 5 years for that actually. Yep yep. *nod nod* I'm a criminal.

So my week..hmmm..well it was really busy and my ass needs sitting on. how's that? I think I'll oblidge it tonight..poor thing..

But next week is going to be just as fun!!! :D I'm booked for the rest of my life at this rate. -_-

But at least school is almost out. (though between you all and me it's not the school that's making me want to pull all my hair out!)

^__- between you and me of course.
The whole school, I swear, thinks I'm naive, and stupid, and weak, above all. it really is sad.

I ought to take off my "nice" mask and decapitate someone this week eh Red?

Obviously things have not been going my way. -_-' sorry to contamintate this innocent post with bitterness..

It really never did anything to hurt me, only looked nice..and white..and clean..and begged me to write on it..just a little..

And now I'm here. -_-'

I like to oat..oat..oat..oaples and bononoooosss..

Did you guys sing that song a lot when you were little? I know I did..I also made faces in shaving cream and drew myself a unibrow with some eyeliner..

oh wait that was last week..hmmmm...

Oh well. same difference. people can grow up a lot in a week. XP

I looked really funny with a unibrow. in case any of you were wondering.

Just in case. (but I secretly bet you all were)

Okay I have a fun question!!!! For those of you who don't know me in person. those of you who do can't play because it would ruin it.

How do you guys picture me?

Oh gosh don't answer that.

WHAT DO YOU THINK I LOOK LIKE?!?!

Ignore me.

TELL ME OR I SHALL SUCK YOUR BRAINS!!!!!!!

oh god.

WITH BENDY STRAWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm just going to let myself go now. obviously I can't listen to me.

*crosses eyes* I'm from svveeedeennn..

Not really. I wish I was.

Or Ireland or something really fun like that.

But nope. I'm just a dumb American. with beer and football and pot-bellied balding 40 year old men.

That's disgusting. I mean, eww. Just. Eww.

Am I even really talking about anything at this point?

Do you even care?

Do you even think I care if you care?

That depends on who you are of course. ^_-I can be very caring if I like you. And if not..well..

We did talk about a chainsaw last post correct?

I want a parakeet. A nice pretty parakeet.

SOMEONE'S POSSESSED ME AND MADE ME TYPE THAT AHHHH WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*runs around screaming and ends up in a radioactive waste plant with elmo*

Elmo: AHHH ITS YOU!!!!!!!!

Oh..the memories..

We had so much..*sniffs* fun..here..it seems like..so many saturdays ago..I've actually had to shave my beard.

Oh, and by the way, I'm a guy!

Just kidding.

Did I fool anyone? (if not someone say yes and make me feel like I'm worth something in the world) But I do! Sometimes. I feel like my purpose is to be the person that other people dump their crap on when they can't or are too stupid to deal with. ^__^ Yay for me. Really. I'm the crap dumper who is also apparently weak and naive. Those don't mix..do they? Obviously everyone I know is full of it. No I mean it. You should see some of the stuff they think they're actually pulling over on me. Like I don't catch things, like I'm too stupid to see what's going on.

Yes of course. I really hate it when you have those days when you find out that maybe somebody really isn't your friend. Even though they claim to be. They wouldn't know a true friend if one fell out of the sky and threw up on their face.

But then you have the days where you figure out that some people really ARE your friends, and that's always nice. so really I shouldn't whine.

And I've said it before and I'll say it again. People are people. You grow up and you stop asking your parents whenever you watch a movie "is he a bad guy? is she a good guy?" Because unlike the disney movies there is no "good guy/bad guy"

It's just humans with human intentions and desires. So I guess I shouldn't hold it against people.

Who followsd that? And better yet, who flippin cared?! :D

Don't worry. Watch me say something funny now.

Pickles.

But wait!

Hairy pickles.

I bet at least one of you cracked a smile. Don't deny it. I bet you want to smile right now too. You can tell me no, but I know the truth. Your heart knows the truth. *sniffs*

Will you marry me..

I can't beleive it's not butter..?

You're just so smooth..and light..and..you melt..so easily..

And when I rub you over my toenails..I just feel so fufilled..

*snaps back to reality*

Woah you guys didn't just see that. forget it was ever there.

DON'T TELL ANYONE!!!! XO

IF my bio book knew I was having an affair he'd..he'd..*sobbing* I don't know what he'd do but it just..

*wails* WOULDN'T BE NATURAL!!!!!!!!!!

You know this post is really long. but I promised it would be *to certain individuals who seem to suck entertainment out of these michael jackson soothe their poor demented souls* because I didn't do one last week and I'm sure some of you just DIED from lack of wierdness.

I know I did. *finger crunches and falls off*

EeewwwWwwwwwWWWwwwwww..

It makes me kinda hungry. *eyeballs finger*

Angel on Silence's shoulder: Don't do it Silence..resist..you know what it would do to your teeth..

Demon on Silence's Shoulder: Oh but it's so tender..you know you want to..do it Silence..do it..

AHHH ENOUGH!!!! *throws herself in bucket of radioactive chemical waste*

I bet you all forgot I was still there EH?!?!?! SHAME SHAMEEE!!!!!

shammmeeeeeeee...shammeeeeeeeee..*moans and scrapes nails on the wall*

So I should stop rambling now. Even though you won't admit it I'm sure you all have better things to do than read the inner torments spilled onto a webpage of a frustrated pent up teenage girl..

I think I should go stomp on ants or something. ^_- Chaosalchemy says it's more fun if you tell them their sins first but I prefer to tell them about the digestive tract of my dog before I throw them in.

Just kidding. I've never done that before in my life. -_- Really, I'm nice *enough* and caring! XO

I AM NOT A LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just. misunderstood. unwell. yes. that's right. (today just blew guys gimme a break! XO)

No more typing. stop silence. stop now. *fingers type more*

...

Okay. right. ignore that. as a matter of fact, ignore this whole post! :D Yes, do that. It's for your own good.

Have a great week everyone smile and be happy and make the most of it because I'm a hypocrite!!!

*waves goodbye* till next time. ^_^ pardon my insanity.
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