Sunday, May 6, 2007

it's been forever
hey. so its been forever and now im actually finally on...imagine that. anyways so my days okay so far im still upset that i didn't get to go to bamboozle but whatever. and as usual i've written a lot of poems and everything.....well this is most likely pointless or whatever but anyways i guess i'll just post like a poem or two...

and can't you see it?
this gap?
the drifting away again?
we're going seperate places
and your all headed in the same direction
while i'm on a different path



oh, let me take you away
and bring you into a world
where everything's fine
and it feels like a utopia
and you'll think your dreaming
and oh let me show you the colors
the ones you've never seen
yeah, let me take you into a world
a world like no other



yeah so thats it..anyways for whoever reads this/who ever cares or whatever have a great day ^^
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

why do i even bother?
heyy *waves* does anyone here watch heroes? [stupid question to ask when no one answers but whatever] and if anyone does did you watch it last night! hahaha yeahh anyways here goes me searching and posting my poems: *goes to find poems*

to go back to the beginning
is like seeing your end



take a good look
and tell me what you see
look into my eyes
and tell me what you find


and this place im led into
is the same
all around me
something familiar
all i see
is something colorful
and the flowers
grow and wilt
and the snow
falls and melts
and the bugs
live and die
and the murderers
caught and free
and the blood
flows and drops
and the dead
lived then died
and its all a cycle
of death and rebirth
and i think this place...
will work out fine for now


ha yeah thats it for today since 1.it just is. 2.i need to start some of my hwk since im gunna be up all night studying. haha yeahh alright anyways have a great day ^^
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Monday, April 23, 2007

something pointless like always.
hi *waves* ehh...just poems..

and i wish i didn't care
like a coldhearted bitch
like the cement on the road
like an inanimate object
but i can't help but to care
and as i think about it
it doesn't really matter anyways...
caring and not caring
seperates people i guess...
although the non-caring,coldhearted people
can eventually come to and care
so no matter what path i take...
i'll find myself caring...i just know it


and it seems all clear to me now
all we're good at is lying
and pretending is all the best
we fear the truth
because we know it'll just cause
more chaos and destruction to our lives


and just take life as it comes
something great might await you
or something horrible
but just remember
you can always go to someone
and no one will leave you behind
and though you feel theres no where to go
and no one to turn to
look and think again


whats the point? haha mood: undescribable. eh loads or homework and procrastination. comments can contain flames or whatever k 'till next time *waves*
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Saturday, April 21, 2007

just a simple question
hihi hello ^^ *waves* how's everyone doing? and how's your weekend?
my weekend: its okay. i was going to go to this musical/play @ my school but i couldn't find anyone to go with me or whatever so i didn't go...
i watched: Freedom Writers. Little Miss Sunshine. and tonight im planning on watching: Stranger Than Fiction.
about the subject title:well i was sending some poems to my friend[sakura tears] and apparently she thinks i have an ability to write good? well anyways i've posted some poems on here[feel free to go see some of them on my previous posts if you want] and stuff so uh in your opinion do you like my poems or think i have a good writing ability?

well anyways have a great day ^^ 'till next time *waves*
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Sunday, April 15, 2007

poems
hey ^^ so here are some poems of mine that i found ....yeahhh....XD

doesn't it seem weird
the way she acts
she pulls it all off
the smiles the laughs
she even made herself appear to be insane yet sane
yet no one knows what goes on inside her mind
they don't see what she sees
they don't understand
and mostly because she won't let them
why?
well thats a different story


and remember when we saw everything in color
and remember when we laughed so hard we almost cried
when we were actually all happy for once in our lives
when nothing but that moment mattered
and now look at everything
our world is duller
we only have a simple laugh
we cry tears of sadness
and we wish that we could live in that moment


leave me here
let me wilt like a dying flower
let me melt like the snow
kill me off like a bug
stab me like a caught murderer
slit me like you would your wrist
bury me like the dead
and in the end its the same result..
just pick which ever one is quicker


running everywhere
and anywhere
will only get you nowhere


hahaha okay now that im done posting some of my poems, feel free to flame em if you want too hahaha i honestly dont care what you think about em as long as your honest ^^ well have a great day *waves*
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Tuesday, April 3, 2007

another poem....
heres another poem....[i might post a lot of poems cuz i keep find em and stuffs...so yeahhh....]

and the silence isn't a golden one
it's just one thats killing me
and it's making me think
and it's making me realize
that we were never what we thought we were
no, we're just faking it all
and our differences are just too much
sorry for thinking you cared
i thought finally i could confide in someone
and that was my mistake
i should've known im just too much to handle
and i should've known that no one can handle me
'cause my problems are ones that are growing
and i just need to put them back in the bottle
and it's all growing and building up
oh, but don't worry i won't say a word
no i'm not coming to you
can't you see i can't go to nobody
it's all up to me
and i'm just too much to handle
and don't worry im taking myself out of the lie
i can see you already have
and i'll find another reason...
yeah, i'll find another reason to keep me going
and don't worry im not of your concern anymore
i'm just the distant memory you want back
oh, you just wanted to see what it would be like..
trying to build up the lie once again
and don't worry...
i'm not in it anymore
so you can go find someone else to fool
'cause like that line in the song says...
"the search is over, you've moved on"

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just thought i'd update......
hey *waves*. so yeah just thought i'd update...cuz...idk i just felt like it i guess..anyway here's just some poem i wrote...i might add to it but im not sure?...if you comment on it just be honest....

and don't worry as long as you need me
i'll be here
and i don't expect it to be long
no, cause it never ends up that way
you see what im trying to say
is that i'm just temporary
yeah, just a temporary person in your life
and i don't expect to be in your life long
no, cause it never ends up that way
and when it does
i can tell you i expect a change in the world



well anyways have a good day *waves*
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Friday, March 30, 2007

is it weird that....
hihi hello ^-^ its finally friday/spring break ^-^ and so far my days pretty good. anyways is it weird that i like getting my knees scrapped? i mean im not the only one my friend likes it too. see we always dive and go all over the place for the ball when were playing volleyball and stuff because we love volleyball but yeah anyways for some reason we just like getting our knees scrapped...is that weird?....well anyways yeah...i might post again later or something? anyways have a great day ^^
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Thursday, March 29, 2007

to anyone who cares?
hihi hello. hahaha anyways to anyone who cares i guess? yeahh so i didnt add any more insaneness to my already insane self...lucky for everyone cuz...yeah anyways, uhmm so i thought today was friday -_-' but! im not the only one! ^^ so i don't feel that stupid anymore....
right so i should really go[probably not gunna happen] cuz i have 2 essays and annoying math problems to finish which = me getting no sleep. *says scarcasticly: yaaay* but i guess it doesnt really matter since i usually mange to run on little sleep? idk anyways byebye *waves* and have a good day ^-^
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

...honestly....
i swear somethings wrong with me today....well actualy...ugh whatever. idk. i feel like fucking screaming, yelling,crying,singing,talking,dying idk idk idk!! i dont fucking know!!! everythings friggen getting to me lately and i swear im going to get out of control one of these days. im already insane enough as it so i don't really need to go and cause more insaneness to my already insane self. ....okay im calm now...no im not...idk why im even typing this? its just an impulse?
anyways now that im more calmer...okay so maybe i somewhat lied when i said i didnt know...i actually kinda do know...but yeah...idk...whatever okay anyways now i'll just leave....and i cant believe im actually going to post this..... *waves*
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