Thursday, February 22, 2007

finally it's almost the weekend
hey. its finally almost the weekend ^-^ no one has any idea as to how much i need this weekend. but then again no one really...nevermind.whatever. anyways gotta go finish my mountain load of homework. have a great day =)
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Wednesday, February 21, 2007

can anyone possibly help me?
hey.i have no time for anything anymore. im serious. all i have time for is school work and the damn stress it brings. well anyways i have this damn mythology project and i don't know when my group is going to present. anyways personally my teacher just ruined any interest i had in mythology. which is really saying something because honestly i used to like mythology it interested me for some unknown reason. now since my teacher gave me this project all of that has ended and had been buried and who knows if it'll ever interest me again.

anyways. does anyone know anything about Dionysus? i know his story is: that he was twice born.is the god of wine. son of Zeus and Semele or in other myths the son of Zeus and Persephone. he granted Midas the wish that he can turn whatever he touched into gold. he was raised by nymphs. he also took back Midas' wish when it proved to be an inconvenience. also that he wanted people to be happy. but what i need in this project is: the theme and lesson.

what i put down was: as the theme i put- happiness always comes at a price.
and as the lesson i put- happiness cannot always buy everything. too much happiness can leave you with nothing in the end.
we also had to put legend. so this was the legend i put: Dionysus is known not only for being the god of wine but also for being "twice born". He dies in winter and is reborn in spring.

sorry for wasting any of your time if i did. but can anyone please try to help me out? if you can't its okay. anyways i've been really stressed lately and busy with studying. i have 2 test tomorrow x_x but anyways yeah i should go now because i have reading and studying and plenty of damn school work to do. ....yaaay! i actually didn't curse as much in this post...usually when i get frusterated or something i tend to curse...a lot...haha yeah anyways have a great day ^^ and thanks for helping if you do
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Sunday, February 18, 2007

poems and such
hey everyone and anyone who decides to read this. how are you?im fine.uhmm well not much is going on right now..really. all day i've basically just watched movies that are on tv and just hung out around my house. i did have fun dip though ^^. oh and i changed my site..as you can probably already tell.lets see i don't have school tomorrow and i have to do at least some of my homework today.well im gunna go see what poems and quotes i can find on my computer that i've written and post some on here...k well here ya go:

maybe this is all leading up to something thats supposed to happen

because nothings ever as it seems

and if you can't even take me at my worst
tell me...how will you even be able to handle me at all

and maybe i make things complicated so you wont have to help

i could see it now
my funeral
it'll be empty
not a soul there
and why?
because no one will ever know

simling
a simplicity
i can fake so easily

k,well there they are. wow..uhm..haha...i can never write about anything happy i guess...no really though if anyone were to read all my poems and quotes i've written...none of them seem to be happy.oh well.anyways have a great day ^^ 'till next time.
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Thursday, February 15, 2007

hey...
hey everyone. well today i had a delayed opening..school was alright i guess...i've had better days. we got our report cards...mine was alright up until math. which i got a D in.and i know the real reason. and for anyone who gives a crap here it is: its not because i didn't get the material. its because i wasn't paying attention because at the time i was all messed up and couldn't even bother concentrating in anything.basically i was on the border of not being in my right state of mind. but yeah w/e. this time im trying to see if i could do much better and everything. the last thing i need right now is to fail math, and considering i have the most hardest math teacher for my grade and level that means that i'll have to try really hard. is it going to happen?
lie: sure i can try.
truth: nope. i'll just have to do my best. and if i fail the w.e i'll deal with it and suck it up.
other than that i'm doing good in all my other classes. i keep getting Bs in spanish and i've accepted the fact that thats the best i can do in that class considering i already know the teachers not very fond of me for whatever reason she may have.
but w/e time to stop being negative and start being positive. haha isn't it amazing how quickly i can change my mood? i find it amazing.anyways tomorrows finally friday. and i have off on monday so im happy. well anyways i better stop typing and start finishing up my homework. have a great day everyone and anyone who decides to actually take their time to read this. 'till next time.

as i grew i've learned how to control myself and my emotions
i've learned a lot that some just don't know
and it's all up to me on how i present myself to others
lets see which me you'll get
and lets see what you think of me -- silentears
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day
lets start with: Happy Valentine's Day ♥
yeah okay now that thats over with.[valentines day is just another regular day to me.] right so, i have NO SCHOOL today ^^ and that makes me really happy cuz i really needed a day off =) anyways what i plan to do today is nothing...yaaaay, XD. well anyways have a great day ^^ 'till next time
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Friday, February 9, 2007

some poems

well heres some poems just like i said.oh and none of them are titled and i wrote these like a while ago.uhm..is there anything else i need to say?right some of the ones i post arent about me. anyways yaaay its finally the weekend ^^

and to think you want to give up
just over some fight with your parents
your letting them get to you
why dont you try to prove them wrong
instead of proving them right

and i somehow found myself pulled into a situation where i am needed but cannot help.

you do realize what your doing right?
you've finally stepped into the real world
and now there is no escaping it
you've fallen
and hard
like we all do when we get here
now the rest is up to you
its your choice on what your going to do

and all i'll ever really need is myself
for im the only one who gets me
and if someone where to come along
who got me just fine
and actually understood me
i think i would run away
for fear they've figured me out
before i have

and maybe the reason for the confusion is because your not supposed to figure me out

they always say reach for the stars
but what if you finally manged to get there
and you find out..
it wasnt worth it

so tell me,
if i really matter all that much
then why do i feel like i don't?

and if i were to take my life away right now.
tell me would you care?
or even notice?

and i've come to realize
im not needed as much as i thought
so maybe the world will be better off without me
ha.not like anyone will notice.
and if someone actually does.
they'll get over it and forget me in time.

im being coldhearted
yes i know
but its only for a reason
that you will never understand
its only something that i will ever get

anyways like always tell me what you honestly think about my poems and such. have a great weekend ^^
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Thursday, February 8, 2007

...idk
lets get to the point instead of wasting time: its thursday which means tomorrows friday.which makes me happy. ^^ have a great day. 'till next time.
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Wednesday, February 7, 2007

can't wait till the weekend.
hey.well now that i got a load of the stress off of me im fine and back to normal...well acutally more like back to being myself. cuz really were not normal, were all weird. and i mean what is normal? everyone has there own definition on what 'normal' is i guess.

anyways in english were doing this mythology thing.it interests me, thing is...its a project..so there goes the upside coming down. and were gunna get quized on it after everyone presents..yaay fun[sarcasm of course]

i really can't wait till the weekend. so i can somewhat relax and then also worry about sludge..hahaha i just thought about that. so even when im out of school im in it..i don't expect anyone to really understand that. since today i've been causing some confusion with the way i word or say things..so yeah.

uhm..so not much is really going on with me cept for the same crap..i guess..uhm well maybe over the weekend or something i'll post some poems..haha i read over some of my stuff..and don't be surprised if theres any of my poems where i sound coldhearted..its just that i write my poems on impulse so yeah..anyways have a great day ^^
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Tuesday, February 6, 2007

what do you do in a situation such as this?
okay.so recently i heard that my exbestfriend isnt bestfriends with her bestfriend anymore. and now my exbestfriend is basically acting like how i was when me and her werent bestfriends anymore. the difference?in a way everyone kind of know how she's feeling. but when it happened to me i didnt really express it as much..because..well thats not important cuz this isnt about me. so anyways i've recently discovered that i can help others more than i can help myself. and now in this situation i can most likely be a lot of help, but i have decided that my commentary/help is not needed because me and my exbestfriend aren't friends anymore. but i guess since i know i can possibly be of some help in a way i want to, but in another way i don't. seeing as no one except for maybe one person understands why im being the way i am i'll just ask you what i should do. im sorry for any confusion i might have possibly caused during the reading of this post. well have a great day.
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stessed as shit
wow...so much work. so much stress..this really calls for a time for alcohol..but i cant and i wont. because 1 if i do that means later on the future thats probably what i'll keep doing. 2 i cant keep resorting to that. 3 im already stupid and i'll probably just forget w/e i did while i was drinking. 4 i only do that shit once in a while. ugh..right now i really want to collaspe..omg that sounds so awesome right now.but i cant i dont have the time to. i have so much work and wow...im just a mess right now. i'll be fine though so don't worry. just as long as tomorrow i do good on my s.s quarterly then it'll all be worth it. so yeah i hope everyone has a great day ^^
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