Tuesday, January 2, 2007

just a poem....anyone who reads it...tell me what you honestly think of it.

They Way We Look At Ourselves

why is it that we look down at ourselves
we only see our flaws
we only see inperfection
nothings ever right with us
always problems
happiness never lasts long
'i love you' is always over used
we see ourselves as useless and pathetic
when someone gives us a compliment
we think its a joke, yet we say 'thanks'
we've grown to be fake
its seems as if no ones real
like this is some show on tv
and you pick your own role
one that you have to own up too
why is it that we don't like ourselves
the only real people
that arent afraid of who they are...
they seem hidden
like theres a big shadow casting over them
the shadow.....
is everyone else
why is this the way we look at ourselves?
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no concentration
hey.well today at school i was having a real tough time trying to concentrate...cuz my mind was just wandering off..more than it usually does. lets see in spanish me and my friend were talking about alcoholic drinks and we found out that in spain they sell beer in vending machines so we were like 'im goin to spain!' lol. oh and at lunch me and my friend were so bored that we made a clementine slice sit and roll over...don't even ask how thats possible...it was magical! lmao. oh and it played dead too!! hahaha woow...i have no life.anyways at gym my friend overheard me say that my dad thought i was high when he called me yesterday...but i really wasn't. so she was like 'what?i told you not to get high...but did u listen nooo!' nd stuff like that.but just to clear things up if no one gets i am NOT on drugs i dont do that stuff okay. yeah anyways so uhm why am i posting when no one really cares?i actually don't know...but w/e. yeah so uhm anyways...i guess i'll just go and post a poem up.hope anyone who actually reads this or w/e has a good day =) 'till next time.
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Monday, January 1, 2007

Guess What
hey everone.Guess what! i don't know if anyone here heard but there was a baby that was born @ 12:00am last night. uhmm riight so now i guess i'll just post a poem...and i hope you all have a great day =)

New Year:2007

a new year
a new beginning
getting to start over
new memories
new lessons learned
new drama
its a new chapter in my life
and i hope i don't fuck it up
then again i always do
maybe this year
will be one i actually enjoy
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Happy New Years!
Happy New Years everyone! finally 2006 is over =) not that it was all bad...just the summer and part of the school year sucked the most. but anyways wow 2007 is finally here =) i hope this year is way better than 2006. well i hope all of you have a good day =)
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Sunday, December 31, 2006

Happy New Years Eve!!
Happy New Years Eve Everybody!! i hope 2007 is going to be a better year than 2006 was. =) well hope you all have a great day =)
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Saturday, December 30, 2006

trust.
why is it that everyone works so hard to gain trust? i mean it can be so easily broken yet everyone wants someone they can trust. and how do you know if your trusting the right person? who do you trust? how do you know your friend isn't talking behind your back. how do you know if there lying or not? maybe it's just better to trust ourselves...but then again we need trust because if we keep everything bottled up inside we're bound to explode one day. so trust is a difficult thing. i don't know i was just thinking about this today. actually i think about this often and im always wondering if i trust the right people and whatnot. but i guess the truth is...i get along better with people that are kinda older than me or people that don't live by me or something. i mean on my other site i made friends there...but i don't have any problems with them. hopefully i'll makes friends on this site to and not have any problems. but the friends i have here where i live...it seems like its just problem after problem. see i used to live in the south part of the town i live in and it used to be great and i never wanted to leave. then i moved to the north part of town and everything completetly changed. my friends[in the south part of town] i guess started showing there true colors or something cuz we started spliting apart when they said that we'd always be friends and whatnot. i knew we'd split they tried convincing me and they succeded. then later on it was like my friends just kept dropping and dropping. and now i don't like that part of town i don't want to go back i want to stay where i am. and i only like a few select people where i used to live. i can't belive i trusted them yet i can believe it. i don't know i can't make up my mind i never can. this post is just supposed to simply ask what is trust to you. and how do you know who you should trust. anywho i hope whoever actually reads all this comments me...otherwise i hope you all have a great day =)
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Friday, December 29, 2006

always the one stuck.
hey. i know i havent signed anyones guestbook yet or anything so maybe i'll do that after this post or sumthing. well im just a little stuck right now. you see i made this site because i didn't want anyone to know who i really was. as in my real name. and i didn't want anyone who knew me to find out some thoughts that go through my head. see im complicated yet simple. and i don't want anyone figuring me out becuase then they'll know what makes me tick what makes me cry ya know stuff like that. so this is like an escape of mine. anyways today things went wrong. everyone eventually gets tired of me.today just happened to be the day that and me and my friend got in a fight. and when im mad i don't stand back. i fight back and say things i know i'll regret. and now well now i don't know. i'm at the point right now where i guess i'm just confused. and i just want to be somewhere i belong. somewhere i can stay.somewhere i feel safe. i know this feeling will stay in the back of my head when things are okay in my life. but right now its a semi-strong feeling. thing is i don't want anyone knowing this. so why am i typing it on otaku? simple...because no one knows my real name and i didn't tell any of my friends about this site. so they won't know its me. and it kinda helps me out. i guess i just don't like telling people my problems cuz i know they have there own. i know no one cares right? well thats okay because this is something i just feel like i needed to write. because i find im always the one stuck and i want to get out of this hole. anyways enough boring anyone who reads this. i hope your day is better than mine. 'till next time.
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Thursday, December 28, 2006

Just Me & Mistakes

Just Me

I'm going to act like im fine
Act like nothings wrong
Smile like everything's great
And not show my tears and scars
Cuz thats just who I am

Mistakes

Mistakes are a part of life
You just have to deal with
No matter how big or small
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hey =]
hey =] well i'd like to start off by saying im not new to this site. im just using this mostly for my poems and quotes =] well i hope you all have a great day ^-^ and i hope to make tons of friends on this site like i have on my other one =]
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