Monday, September 22, 2008

It's meeeeeee. Haha. The picture doesn't really show my hair cut very well and it also makes my hair look short (because of the way I styled it) but~ I love it so. :P Haha.

Well... xD All I can really say is that Pointfest was FREAKING awesome. Tuh huh. I stood for four hours in the very front of the Jaigermeister White stage for Ludo. ; o; The drummer is so cute. And he waved at me and smiled and uidghibn it made me so happy. He's so adorable, omg. I luffles him. And, of course, they rocked my socks off. I also saw Sick Puppies, Saving Abel, Black Tide, Brookroyal, and Miser(mizer?) on that stage (or the stage next to it) too~ The lead singer of Brookroyal saved my life and gave me a free bottle of water then signed it and signed my shoe. The awesome guitarist gave me a hug and we talked for a bit and kept waving to each other during the show. Lulz. He signed my bottle too. So, then, I bought a c.d. and became a forever fan because of how awesome they were.

And the guitarist of Black Tide had this HUGE fro. And he winked at me when I grinned at him. Haha. I'm such a pimp. He was pretty cute too~ :P

On the main stage, I saw everyone but Seether because Brad wanted to leave because we were looking out at the sea of cars and he flipped out because we had no idea where we parked. And we didn't want to walk around trying to find it while all the drunks were about. Yeah... that wouldn't be very fun.

I was so cooooold after the sun went down. D; I had to spoon between Brad and AC on the ground for warmth and some guy thought me and Brad were dating and he was all, "YEAH! You know it's a fun time when you're fucking your girlfriend." Wtf? I lol'd. And then pushed Brad away from me. Haha. I'm so mean.

Then we went hunting for his car. Once found, we drove to the Kitchen to get something to eat and god. I couldn't stop laughing. Me, AC, and Brad both couldn't. Brad was trying to say something about this waitress we had because we were trying to figure out why an old lady was working so late and he just started laughing really hard. So he, AC, and I laughed for a good twenty minutes straight. Later on I found out that Brad was trying to say, "She works late because her cats are gonna try to eat her! She knows what time it is! 'Oh lawds, it's night time! I need to hurry up and go to work before those damn devil cats eat me!'" Haha. He's such a dork.

Today's my last day of smoking... apparently. Haha. :c I'm kinda half and half on wanting to stop. Eeeeh. Oh well.

And... HERE'S MY ART PROJECT that took me two weeks to do. It's kinda crappy looking because of my camera but it looks SO much better than it does in this pic. I'd try to scan it but... it's to big. Haha.

Feeling: Hungry.
Tunes: All the Same - Sick Puppies
Drinking: Nothing.
Eating: Nothing.
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Friday, September 19, 2008

Tee hee. An old icon I made. :B I need to make some more... One day~ -looks to the far away sunset, eyes sparkling.- One day... -whispers dramatically, curling fist in determination.-

Ahahaha. Any ways.


I'm so glad today is over~ It makes me happy. Because tomorrow is POOOOOINTFEEEEEST! D: I have to wake up at seven-thirty in the freaking morning, however, and I won't be back until eleven or twelve my time.

Oh, and, the cream on my fucking cookie is I started my period. Today. I knew I would! I knew I'd start before pointfest, it always happens. GWAAAAR! BVFUIBGFBUIHGNBGNCXJNZLYROFUYBGN KEYBOARD SMASH!!!

Shoop. I'm almost done with my art project though. Yay? Haha. I have an F in drawing because I'm so far behind. :| Because of that drawing. But, whatever. I hate Mr. Zimmer.

It's also National Talk Like a Pirate Day. Arrr. I've been doing it some much that my throat hurts and I had to stop. Haha.

Any ways... I had to take a personality test in sociology class. I dunno why I had to take it in sociology but. Heh. It's me to a T. It makes me sad faise. :c

-You have a great need for other people to like and admire you.
-You have a great deal of unused capacity which you have not turned to your advantage.
-Disciplined and self-controlled outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure inside.
-You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations.
-You pride yourself as an independent thinker and do not accept others statements without satisfactory proof.
-You have a tendency to be critical of yourself.
-At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing.
-At times you are extroverted, sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, reserved.
-While you have some personality weaknesses, you are generally able to compensate for them.

Take Test Here

Haha. So, any ways. My ex and I made up. Again, I guess. But this time is for keepsies? Haha. I dunno. The first two times she said she wanted to be friends again that said she hated me and told other people that she hated me and that I was her enemy. But, now we're writing notes back and fourth. It's kinda... I dunno. She hung out today in art with me and Brad because he and Kim always go in there and what not. I was talking like a pirate and she was cracking up. Sooo... I guess that's good? But, she still seemed kinda reluctant and I guess it's because it was awkward. We haven't talked to each other for more than half a year. :/

Nyeh. Well. As long as all the drama is done. I don't mind having her as my friend again. :B

"LET'S GO PLAY YU GI OH ON MOTORCYCLES! ....Well... it sounded like a good idea to me..."

Feeling: Excited!
Tunes: The cricket. Which sounds extremely close to my room... And the t.v.
Drinking: Mountain Dew.
Eating: Nothing.
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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

iuighn

God dammit!! I'm extremely sick. Like, bronchitis sick. Jaysus, that's my luck. But, yeah, I missed Monday and today.. We have tomorrow off, though.. And I'm pretty much hoping that I'll be all better on Saturday. Because that's Pointfest and I really don't want to have to carry around an inhaler and a pack of cigarettes.

Because, how horrible would that look?

"You have asthma and you smoke? JESUS CHRIST, CHILD."

Aha.

At least I haven't had the craving to smoke one in a really long time. Since Sunday, I guess. I had half of one today and now I just have one left in this pack. And then I gotta switch out my soft pack... blah blah blah. Why am I talking about this? I don't even know.

I keep saying I need to stop smoking and I really kinda do.

Oogh. I look so horrible. I felt horrible, too, until I took a shower and was all, "Woo. I feel betttteeeerrrr."

Aha. I think I missed four or five days of school already. That's really bad. We can only miss eight a semester. But, psh... I'm sick.

The other times, though, I just didn't want to go.

I need to turn in my application to McDonalds... I think I'm going to refill the blank one (since I had to use white out on my other one) I brought home then turn it in on Sunday or something. If I'm not a zombie on Sunday.

Because Pointfest is an all day thing. I'm already planning on taking naps out on the hill but, really, I know I won't be napping. I'm going to try to see as many bands as I can. Just to add to all the ones I've already seen.

Jeez.. I'm only sixteen and I've already seen over thirty bands in my life, I think... Yeah. Haha. I totally just beat my parents. Do I win?

My boyfriend suddenly got into Nirvana. He used to hate them. And now he likes them..? And he says it has nothing to do with me.

Uh huh.

Because NIN and Nirvana are my top favorite bands evar. Seriously, I cannot choose between them. Aha..

Huh. This was a pointless update.

I think I'm going to draw this...

And, you kids... Start wearing something when you go to bed. What if your house caught on fire or someone robbed your house? Geez. Lol.

Feeling: So so.
Tunes: Nothing -- I'm watching the t.v.
Drinking: Tea.
Eating: Nothing.
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Thursday, September 11, 2008

It's bed time in the household. Haha. Not for me, but, I still get dressed and clean off my make-up for it and what not. So, I decided I'd snap a pic or two of what I wear to bed and sleep in.

If there aren't any beaters, I usually wear the shirt I wore that day and a pair of shorts. And, lately, I've been sleeping with my Hello Kitty plushie to get sleep. It's helped. I dunno why.

Any hoo. Pointless post. I just wanted to throw a random, not so good picture of me at Cota before I went and took akshual pictures of me for my wife. xD TOMORROW, BBY, TOMORROW. Haha.

PARTY TIEM
Cupcake/Bby/Cota Haha. I forgot to tell you how adorable your voice is on the phone. Mine is all blaaaah.

But, oh yeah. It's stupid how they expect us to pay that much. And the sad part is, the tuition of the college I want to get into is considered cheap. @__@ I was like, "Whaaa..?" How is that even remotely cheap? Curses!

I definitely don't want to be a teacher though. xD I dunno if I ever told you before?

And, yeah. I really hate how schools push you into that. It's like, basically, if you don't get into college, a good college at that, you'll never make it far in life and blah blah blah. If I ever become a famous author, I'ma prove my school wrong! >/ FUFUFU.

Charlie
Haha, you didn't sound creepy at all. You just wanted to chill and listen, that's all~ I'd totally do the same thing.

And, no, community colleges aren't bad at all! I'm actually starting my two years off at one (I think I said that though...? Redundancy!)~ I'm going there in the hopes that I can find a major for me. xD I dunno if the one I want to go to offers any good art classes though. T___T I'm in serious need to fine tune my skills. Blah.

And, are there seriously counselors at college that can do that? I know that you can talk to representatives from colleges and go to college fairs and what not, but I was never told about that. =__= My school always holds out on me!

Buddy~
Yeah, I know, I definitely had a plan to move to Chicago but now I'm not so sure. Because I love it here, too, and the idea of living far away from my family, now, in the city scares me. And the cost of living there, freaking a. It's expensive!

But, like Mrs. Esparza said, go to a college that you want to go to. Not one that a friend wants to go to. If you wanna go to Mineral Area, that's cool with me~ :B But, if not, it's cool too. I mean, it's your future, not our future. ; o; I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER THOUGH, BBY.

And, you shouldn't feel bad!! Ahaha. It's totally fine, you're not rubbing it in at all or anything, so. D; And I've known you for so long that I've grown used to it. I dunno... you don't act like a rich person(?). xD So...

Feeling: Better~
Tunes: Checkout - The Chalets
Drinking: Nothing.
Eating: Nothing.

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Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Sometimes, I wish I was a little kid again. I was walking outside to feed and water my dog and I looked down at my drive way (which is half gravel, half a field of clovers. srsly) and just wanted to sit down and look for a four leaf clover. Instead, I walked back inside to call my mom and tell her about the college I was looking into.

Speaking of which, our counselor came into English today to talk to us about colleges and blah blah blah. It's just so... soon. Like, I'm sixteen. I don't want to be stressing over a college. I need to be stressing over a job (which I'm going to apply at Mickey D's. Hopefully Brad won't forget to pick me up~) and homework. I hate how early this is pushed onto us.

It's like they're taunting me, really. Because I know I'll only be able to go to a community college for my first two years then afterward...? I'm probably going to go to Mineral Area College down the highway in Hilsboro. It's by a Thai restaurant, so, lol, I think that's why I'm going. And, I don't want to go to Jeff Co. Everyone is going to go to Jeff Co. I also heard they fail and transferring credits and what not.

But, back to the four year college I was looking into. Truman College. :o It's in Kirksville, which, as my mom so kindly put it, "way, way, way far away from here." And I was all, "OH GOOD~" Ha ha. But, I have to stay in state to go to college. And it's the ONLY college that is offering decent art and English classes. And they're not even offering that many art classes. Ugh. Tuition, off the top of my head, is six-thousand two hundred and room-and-board is like... five-thousand eight-hundred? Per year.

Why is college so expensive, dear god?

I don't even know what I want to be yet. We need a career counselor. We need actual counselors who will bring you in one by one to talk to you about a plan, but, alas... We don't. I'm looking into journalism since that's the only decent job that I know of (besides the obvious English teacher) that I can use my English major on. We all know I want to be an author, but I have to have a job to fall back onto, unfortunately. I'm also looking into the animation field. Cartoons and the like. Haha. I think it'd be fun to work on a cartoon.

The only problem with going to Truman is I have to have two language credits. I took French my freshman year, but I don't remember if I passed with a D or not. I should check that out. Otherwise, will I not be able to get in...? And, what about portfolios? The book didn't say it was required, but.. Nn.

I could go on and on about this. Seriously. I have so many questions and, unfortunately, Mrs. Esparza went on this fifteen minute rant about how students are annoying her and wasting our time and blah.

I was in a bad mood today.

My sociology class was really annoying me. Like, there's these two girls, Kanese and Tabitha, who talk way, way, way too much. Kanese just says stupid shit and Tabitha goes on and on and on about nothing. And we were watching Freaks and Geeks today, filling out a work sheet, and through out the whole episode I heard those two. It was so annoying. Blaaaah.

Okay.

That was my day.

I'm going to Mickey D's around six-ish to fill out an application. I'm pretty much guaranteed a job there, apparently. I want to go work at the one across town where NONE of the kids from my school work at yet Ryan Cheney convinced me to put in an application at the McDonald's he and everyone else works at. He says it's, surprisingly, really fun. And we barely even know each other.

That crazy kid. I hope he makes it big. His band just got signed... any ways.

Feeling: Okay.
Tunes: Replace Me - Family Force 5
Drinking: Mountain Dew.
Eating: Nothing.
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Sunday, September 7, 2008

Yesterday was my step-mama's birthday, yeah? She turned fourty-two and what not. So, for the celebration, my dad barbecued and threw a "feast" of sorts. And Heather, the step-sister-thing, came over and she brought sooooo much alcohol with her.

Jesus.

I have a headache thinking about it.

My dad made us go out and get Jose Quervo(sp?) -- the lime margaritas. He gave me the option of drinking. And, I suppose I shouldn't have taken it, but I did. I had a wine glass of margarita, but the bulb of the glass was HUGE, like.. I don't know what to compare it to.. It was too much. And I had it on the rocks, so it was even more intense then it should have been, apparently.

Then I had a Bacardi Razz. Yum yum. It tastes just like soda.

But, any ways, I ended up with a headache around two in the morning and I was like, "I think I'm just going to lay down." It definitely didn't go away in the morning, but it's definitely better now that I'm home. Haha. I don't think I'll be drinking again any time soon. It wasn't like I got drunk or I had a huge hang-over, but I was definitely buzzing.

I feel so weird talking about that. But... anyways.

I was playing Poke'mon aaaaalllll day yesterday. And I found out that I missed both chances to catch a Snorlax. ; o; My Snorlax named Cota. Now I have to go back into the Safari Zone and catch a Kangaskhan and name it Cota. lolz. >___> But, now I'm stuck in the caves with an almost dead Pikachu.

BUT THE GOOD NEWS IS MY IVYSAUR, OPIUM, FREAKING LEVELED UP TO A VENASAUR! Now I just have to get Cicada, my charmeleon, and Bridgette, my wartortle, to level up and I'll be happy. I also have to go get a Zapdos and Artacuno.

That stupid Artacuno.

I definitely need to get a job. I'm tired of just... not having money. There's so many things I want and need. There's so many bands coming in the fall that I want to go see. Like PATD, Family Force 5, Play Radio Play!, The Maine. SOMEONE. HIRE ME. FOR THE LOVE ALL THINGS AMAZING.

Guh.

I'm gonna go take a nap. Because Lazarus/mom's boyfriend is coming over around five. For food.

PARTY TIEM
Charlie Bridgette doesn't like 'Stasia. I suppose that's not obvious though, haha.

And, nothing was wrong with her nails. They were painted red and she mentioned that something on her hand was sparkly earlier, but I was too blind to see the ring. But, she deliberately wanted me to see it, so that's why she put her hand on my desk, I guess..?

And, I know. >:| He's pretty cool sometimes but, he used to be this uber skinny jock and now he's huuuuge and... idk.

Bridgette SHUSH GIRL, SHUT YO LIPS. AND DO THE HELEN KELLER - TALK WITH YO HIPS.


P.S. YOU GAIZ LIKE MY NEW SONG?!

Feeling: the need to dance. And nap.
Tunes: Whatcha Gonna Do With It - Family Force 5
Drinking: Mountain Dew.
Eating: Nothing.
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Thursday, September 4, 2008

i am here t o o
I'm really tired. Worn out. Old.

Hah.

I was sitting in algebra today and there's this girl, Ariel, who is in my group and she's pretty rad. Really hyper in the morning but, hey, it's a nice balance to my sluggish, tired-faise, yeah? So, our teacher sends her on an errand and as soon as she leaves the room, he turns to me and goes, "She's a little weird isn't she?"
So, I stare then ask, "Huh?"
"Yanno... weird...?"
"I... don't...know...?"
"Well, is she weirder then you?"
"I'm weird?"
"Is that a bad thing?"
"No, it's better than conforming. At least I'm unique."

What an asshole. It made me smile.

And then I was sitting in speech and drama, and my friend, 'Stasia, set her hand down on my desk and I was looking at her nails and was getting ready to comment on them when I saw an engagement ring... On her left hand. I was like...
"You got ENGAGED?!?!"
She got all flustered but told me what happened. The sad part is, her and her boyfriend have only been dating for four months. And, yanno... she's... I dunno. It's kinda sickening that way girls get into guys.
I mean, she writes him notes.
And he's in college.
And it's like... "wtf? He's not gonna write you back."

Any ways...

I didn't go to school again yesterday. Eh. When I asked my mom to call in for me, she yelled at me that I was going to be a high school drop out and I just snapped back, "You aren't in charge of my future, I am. I fucking love your confidence in me, you college drop out."
Oh, but, she didn't even go to college.
She just likes to lie and says she did.

Heh. I have to redraw a project for art because my teacher already lost it. I'm so thrilled. Booo.

I don't feel like replying to any comments. But, haha, thanks you guys. :B You're making me feel loved and not "weird". xD


Feeling: Tired.
Tunes: No Excuses - Alice in Chains
Drinking: Water.
Eating: Crackers.
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Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Sometimes I wonder, "How can people not think I'm strange or boring?"

Because, honestly, I have to be one of the strangest people I know. Or, so it seems that way. I was talking to Charlie, Cota, and Bridgette in one huge beautiful chat and.. hah. I'm sorry if I freaked you guys out or anything. But, I thought about that after I logged off because I think that's the first time Cota and I ever spoke and... it's been a while since Charlie and I talked on msn, soz.

I was pondering that. Then, I just think I'm boring just because I am. I dunno.. it's because I grew up in a small town where there's nothing to do but party or lurk on the internet and, well, I choose the latter. Because I'm not into partying so much.

Any ways. I'm looking for a job because I definitely need the money. I'm going as Yami Bakura from Yu Gi Oh (along with Misty. But I have her whole outfit except for the red chucks) and I still need so much. Ugh.

My MSN isn't working...

I already hate school. It's only the third week but I feel as if I never left. Like, I was only gone for a day or so. I'm already wanting to skip, to drop out, but I won't. I especially hate art, but, really, I just hate the teacher. The upside is that the school got a salad bar and that's ALL I've been eating for the past week and a half. I think I'm losing weight. Huh.


I didn't draw it.

It still makes me really happy. Like a dork.

PARTY TIEM
Charlie: I think I said this before but.. STOP FAILING AND GET SOUND. Kidding. Listen to it on Cota's mp3 player. ;D xD And, I have no idea why she's still singing. She doesn't sound so bad once you get used to her... I mean, she sounds like a five year old, but...xD

Cota: THAT'S EXACTLY WHY I POSTED THAT VIDEO, BBY.

Bridgette: Paris Hilton.
Feeling: Content.
Tunes: Tease - The Medic Droid (I'm sorry, Cota and Charlie. FORGIVE ME).
Eating: Air. It's nutritious.
Drinking: Mountain Dew
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Sunday, August 31, 2008

Zydrate comes in a little glass vial...



Um, so. I'm pretty much going to see this musical. Repot! The Genetic Opera! I found out about it on Friday and giubsuhbv :| I've been listening to songs from it and watching sneak peek videos too.

It looks amaaaaazzzzziiiiiingggggg.

So, November 7th. That's where I'm going, pretty much. BRIDGETTE. LET'S GO SEE IT TOGETHA, OKAY?! PLZ. KTHX.

The only essential problem I had with it is that Paris Hilton is in it and she can't sing but I... have overlooked this. xD

Graverobber = My favorite. Oh god. He's hot secks on a stick. And total want. Maybe it's because of the way he just throws Amber Sweet against the wall and ifhgvhb hooooot. Because, I mean, I like rough stuff. xDD Haha. -shot.- But, no, he looks pretty cool and sounds interesting enough.

And my favorite song so far~ It's so damn catchy.



And that was my pointless post of the day~ :B
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Friday, August 29, 2008

HAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA.

...AAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Oh. My. God.

I promise you this is probably... the best highlight of my crap-tastic day.

Alright, so, we're pulling into my dad's drive way and we see Brenden(dad's girlfriend's son)'s friends out and about getting the mail because my dad and his family live in a trailer park and all the mailboxes are on the end of the drive. We're the very last house on the end of the drive.

So, one of the kids come up to me as we're getting out of the car, walking to the house. I recognize the other Brenden, we call him long-haired Brenden, but not the kid approaching me.

He goes, "One of my friends thinks your hot... He'd like to date you. Actually, we all think your hot. We'd all like to date you." being dead serious.

I do not lie. I, seriously, cannot make this shit up.

I just giggled and thanked him while my dad was like, "SHE CAN'T DATE!"

And the kid is all, "My name's Allen."
And I'm like, "Hi, Allen... -giggle.- I'm Tori. It's nice to meet you." then ducked inside. I'm surprised I didn't blush or anything.

Gaiz. I'm hot. Apparently.

I had a like... serious point to this pointless post but I forgot it. I just... my mind blanked after that happened. I couldn't stop laughing. It was so bad that I had to call my mom and tell her. She was just like, "BAAAAW. THAT'S SO CUTE."

....-snickers.-

Party Tiem

Charlie Smeyer is a nickname that a buncha Twilight haters (yet semi-fans, like myself) gave Stephanie Meyer. It stuck. I seriously cannot call her anything else. I stutter every time I try.
And, oh yeah~! They next time we're on MSN, just IM me and I'll help you out. I think I've gotten the hang of it. I still haven't gotten the whole "make your own layout" thing, but...
And, as for my icon, I found a larger picture (I can give it to you if you want it) on 4chan (surprise!) then resized it, cropped it, and shooped it. -nods.-
Lastly: :O Orly? I dunno your number. Here's mine ;D I seriously do not get service in the room I'm staying in, so if you text me anytime this weekend, my texts might be delayed.

Teh Buddie YOUR FACE IS FAIL. No, kidding. I do too! We should try to go to like... -wriggles fingers.- Fright Fest. Heck yes, plz.

CotaLULZ. So! You sound like a pre-teen girl, hmmmm? Cota, why do you fail? Kidding~

Not.Like.You. I'll try. Haha. And thank you!
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