woo
xD; Sorry I went away for so long~! I came on her periodically to check things but I never commented on stuff..so..
Yeah..
It's been a pretty stressful weekend - besides Birt's! Birt's was so much fun!! But, when I got picked up by my mom..omg..D: My cousin told her mom that I was an athiest! So Angie (cousins mom) called mah mom.. Omg. You can only guess how that went down. My mom is really upset with me. It's a very uptight feeling.
And other crap happened that I don't wanna talk about..
So, I'mma learn how to sew. My grandma is gonna teach me so I can start on my Link costume. I think I might start making dolls too.. D; Birt has inspired me. I wanted to go to JoAnn's but my mom was like "IT'S CLOSED!" liar..
Soz, like.. I'mma go check everybodies stuffs..
CIAO!
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And now to bitch some more..
My boyfriend (he's a net boyfriend because I love him dearly and there are no boys I like here) is moving and he never even bothered to tell me.
Why does that piss me off?
I'm really worried too.. What if he finds somebody else? I guess I could understand but..
What am I going to do? We.. dated on and off for two years.. I..fuck.. Now I'm really worried. Comments (0) |
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Monday, April 23, 2007
OH MY UTTERLY DELICIOUS GOD! PT. DEUX
I cannot stop grinning!! HERE IS MY VIDEO!! FINALLY! Forgive me, the lighting sucks hardcore but I'm just glad I got it on video!!
OH MY UTTERLY DELICIOUS GOD!
The anime convention WAS SO MUCH FUN!! =3 Vic Mignogna sang happy birthday to me IN HIS ED VOICE! -squeals.- I got it all on video.. but, it's towards the end (the video is eleven minutes..>_> I'mma have to cut some of it before I post it on youtube) but it was so sweet! I am so thankful to Bridgette. <3 I hope my camera picked it up. He was singing softly.
There's so much that happened.. omg.. I mean, there wasn't as much to do in this one but.. xD W/e. And then people kept coming up to me and were like 'Omg, Vic Mignogna sang to YEW!' xDD I was like ':'D Yes...' =33 And then I had fangirls!! <33 And one sat on my lap when my mom was there.. o__o my poor mom. xD We had this little techno party but there was no techno. They played MCR and I started the "get down on your knee's and sing dramatically" xDD people kept doing it after I did it. then this professional guy kept taking pictures of me..
And then we (my group and I) wanted pocky, so we started parading around with a sign that said 'WILL DO YAOI FOR FOOD!' xDD and people slowly started merging with our group. It was so funny!! I did bondage pics with AC for one girl and kissed Birt for another. I kissed another L's chick for some girl.. Yep..
AND THEN THEY HAD THIS BISHIE AUCTION! And I bid up to about 75 dollars for a wicked awesome Saga cosplayer - MY FAVORITE GUY FROM ALICE NINE! And then this girl beat me. ;~; But, like, when I first found him and asked if he was Saga, he was like 'o-o Yes..' then I freaked out and glomped him. xD; I love Saga..<33
OMG AND I JUST WATCHED THE VIDEO AND HIS VOICE PICKED UP!!! But he was like 'Happy birthday Win-I mean Tori' I was like 'aaaaaw' xDD But it was so cute! It's really shakey because people kept moving around me but like.. it gets insane when Bridgette asks him to sing to me.. xDD I HOPE YOU CAN BARE WITH ME!!
Yanno... I'm morbid
I feel so good. I feel relieved. I feel so awesome. This is the best I've felt all year!! It's morbid because.. after I went to Jon's funeral, after I cried hardcore, after I hugged people and bonded with people I didn't know, after I gave Jon two roses, after I kissed my hand and touched his forehead(woo..it was hard!), after seeing him and after hearing little excerpts of his suicide letter, I felt amazing. I felt as if I could move on. And I know he would want that for me.
Because of Jon, I've decided to take a vow. I am going to be nice to everyone and I am not going to judge anyone. I am no longer holding any grudges. I'm even going to write a letter to my enemy, Kim! And appologize!! Jon is amazing.. he's an inspiration. The pastor that read said that Jon, whenever he was anywhere and saw someone alone, he would excuse himself and go talk to them..
How amazing is that? I'm going to start doing that.. Even though it could be dangerous since I'm a girl. -laughs.-
I went to Shogun's, a Japanese resteraunt and they made me get up and dance since it was my birthday. =33 They gave this little headband and a crown-like thing of chopsticks. -laughs.- I'm cool!
I'M FINALLY FIFTEEN!
I started a story too. There's two versions. (Like, one version is in a 'you' type. Example of a 'you' type: You sat and waited patiently for your friends.../end example. The other type is the first person sort of a veiw. I'm posting the 'you' type on quizilla. Will give linkage when done!) Comments (1) |
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Sunday, April 15, 2007
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Jon's funeral is tommorow.. fucking tommorow.. My birthday is tommorow... I don't want to go to school but my mom says I have to since the funeral is at six. But.. I just want to stay home. I kept all my tears in until last night because it hit me that his funeral was on my birthday.. I forgot my birthday was Monday.. And I couldn't keep them in any longer. I was sad before I even thought of that because I asked my tarot cards to see how he was. He was happy, relieved, yet very lonely.. I miss him so much. It's so hard to write out this post 'cause I keep wanting to cry.
It's like I'll wake up tommorow, get on the bus, and see him there.. I want to see him. I want to know if he's okay. I won't see his smiles anymore, I won't hear his fabulous stories, I won't.. -smiles sheepishly.- I won't hear 'TORI'S A READ HEADED LESBIAN!' anymore. Why is it so hard? Why..? Why do people have to be such ass holes to people? Jon was gay, yeah.. but.. that doesn't mean you have a right to be an utter asshole to him..
This kid named Trey Higgins, who is an utter FUCKING DOUCHE, was mentioned in Jon's suicide letters...
His favorite flowers were roses.. I'm getting him roses..
I just got this odd feeling. I can feel the air pressure change, which may be odd.. and it just changed suddenly, as if someone entered. When I turned around, no one was there.
...
One of my best friends committed suicide last night.. When they announced it over the intercom, it took a few seconds to register then it hit me like a painful blow. I started crying immeadetley. Apparently I was hysterical but I don't even remember..
I was escorted to the library where other people eventually filed in and were crying.. I'm still in schock. It's like one bad dream and I'm hoping to wake up from it. They say death comes in threes yet I only know two people who were very close to me who have died. I'm so scared... oh my god, I can't stop shaking..
What a wonderful way to start off my trip to Chicago..
I checked everyones myO that updated and commented. It was very troublesome, considering I am super squeezed for time. In the midst of reading all the journals, I uploaded a vew icon-piccys of me looking SOMEWHAT like a guy. I didn't feel like uploading big pictures of myself because I'm lazy.
I have everything ready. Now I just need for it to get packed.. 'cept I need my band uniform thingy. Blah. It's so annoying how we have to share luggage! I'mma be anime deprived while I'm up there.. OH NO!! ;~;
I'll be in Chicago until late sunday night. I'll miss you guys so much!! Wish me luck! And hope that I don't get keeled! lol.
I made this random one lined poem thing. It's really pretty!
"l a l a `
the sugar coated melody that sings of suicide"
NO STEALING!
Kay, so, random questions of the day! (I'mma start out with five then yanno, do two each day..)
1. what's your name?
2. How old are yew?
3. are yew a chick or a dude?
4. What's your favorite anime?
5. Who is your favorite anime character?
I'm scared ;~;
My mom made me stay home today even though we had these huge tests to do! I dunno if I can make them up or not..x.x I was coughing so hard that I puked and I had to do three breathing treatments..D; I was fine! Really!!
My easter was pretty uneventful. I found out my friend could go to the anime convention though! YEY! WE HAVE A MISA~!
I'm getting my computer fixed. Apparently they wipe your whole harddrive and I'm really scared. All the stuff I collected over the years (MY GOD! ALL MY MUSIC!) is gone. gone gone gone.. all my stories...x.x And apparently I can't put my stuff onto a floppy disk because whatever I have will transfer over onto the disk.. I'm kinda weary sending attatchments by e-mail and stuff. Why do I have horrible luck with computers?!
Six more days 'til my birthday!
Three more days 'til Chicago!!
Eleven more days 'til the anime convention!!! Comments (3) |
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