Sunday, December 16, 2007

december 16 2oo7
aka: nine more days until I get to watch fight club!

current mood:
shitty. shitty. shitty..

haha.

My family hates me. I'm pretty damn sure. My grandma, last night, said she was fine with me being bi-sexual but turned around this morning and was like, "I hope you'll change your mind..." and "you have to tell your grandpa." -snorts.- Like I'M ever going to tell my grandpa. And why the hell would I fucking change my mind?! If I could, wouldn't you think I would have by now?! >/

And my mom found out about my girlfriend. Because she was looking through my shit. And we had a huge, huge, HUGE blowout which ended with me crying myself to sleep then getting kicked out of the house to go over to my grandmas. >/ I said some mean things to my mom that I kinda regret. Why should I regret it, though? I'm not in the wrong here, she is! She was like "you're not allowed to see her. ever again. you're not spending the night over there, you're not talking to her on the phone. no, you're done seeing her." That's what she thinks. And then she expected me to go shopping with her after that. Wtf?! I told her I'd go but then she was like "are you going to get my present?" "No, you don't deserve a Christmas present." Ha ha. I feel bad for it because she looked a bit sad buuuut..

And then I went to bed and my grandma came over. And I confessed to her and she was like "I just want you to be happy.. even if that means having a girlfriend." (now she wants me to change my mind). And we had a little intervention with my mom and she was like "stop being such a drama queen, Tori." Yep. Yeeeep. Me, the drama queen. What the fuck am I supposed to do?! It's not my fault she's in denial. I bet she went out last night and got shit faced drunk to forget all that happened.

Aaaah, but she did get me a cell phone. Which made me really happy. For a few hours anyways. Now I'm angsting again and feeling sick and ugh...

What am I going to do? My mom never really liked Birt before but now she absolutely hates her. AND THINKS WE FUCKED. Wth?! And if she doesn't warm up to the fact that I have a g/f, she won't let me see her outside of school. Which may... lead to our breakup. I don't want that and I'm willing to work on the relationship....

as long as she is....

If you guys don't see me on for a while, it's probably because I'm hiding in my room from my mom. Call my cellphone if you have the number.
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