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Achievements written two books, one of which is hopefully being published early next year ~ finished studying NVQ Level 3 Beauty Therapy ~ Run 3 Businesses Anime Fan Since November 05 Favorite Anime ~ PHD (phantasy Degree) ~ Bleach ~ .hack//SIGN ~ .hack//Legend of the Twilight Bracelet ~ Love Hina ~ Final FantasyVampire Knight Death Note
Goals businesses =) Hobbies travelling learning languages writing art and walking Talents walking.... writting, fashion, art
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You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry..
mood-PAIN song-a never ending dream-cascada
howdy everyone...dunno why i'm starting on a cheer note *laughs* it isn't how i feel realy..but hey ho pig's bum, face the world with the grin and it's a warmer place...or jsut don't ask...
thanks for hte comments ^^ *laughs* means everything to me...but i'm not gonna be able to comment anyone tonight as i have stingy parentsand time restrictions as usual...grr
so, why i am not in best of modds...i curreneyly have binoculars hidden up my jumper as dad is being wicked and trying to resad my conversations and what i am doing..but that's not what i was gonna say...
the thing is..."that time of month" is causing more problems thn ever...before, i could actualy stand up straight..now i cna't....the normal place is hurting....but on top of that, the pain is now also in my plevic region, further up into my ribs and chest and also a bit further down..so i did have an amusing run down the stairs..me...bent over just above hte stomache running down like acrab..haha tresant amusant...if that's right which it most likely won't be...
and htat made work a biatch as i have to stand up behind tills for five hours normally...thou i did overtime for two hours today as people cna't get to work due t flooding and that near killed me..and i';ve said i'll do six on thursday O.O not good. at all.
urm..so 'm gonna go now..and try and find a cheery disposition for next time...and i'll defo comment you all next time-promice!! ^^
ja ne!!
P-arry ptter is vair vair good to all those who read it...
PP-EMMAH I DEMANDS HALF AN EAR!!!! you can keep the mole tohugh...
song-aesthetics and identy-ishida/ichogo (bleach beat collection) mood-shocked
oooooookaay, i am cutting to the post this time...everything else cna take back seats this time around...*laughs*
you know how much i lvoe the rain?? it has got so damned and bad in this country that i have shocked emmah (who is now back in shire country) by saying `this f*ck*ng rain...`
urh...it's baaaaaaaaad, pershore (where i live) is cut off on all entrances...*counts*...that's seven roads...and only two of htem are actualy by rivers!!! so that's both me and emmah cut off..from the world and each other *cries* but on top o that it's really flooding houses...emmah's been given sandbags (well, her parents have0 and they've been moving stuff off hte ground levels and so on and there is worse weather to come!!!
and i have...for once in history-to sit ehre typing this with headphones in cause dad is having to use our antique style VAX hoover to suck up the water seeping into our storeroom before spin drying it and then starting again and we live on a hill!!!
so yes, for once in my life i am saying the immortal words- `i wish it would STOP raining` *looks out of windo* wooooooah, no chance it's f*ck*ng nasty out there!!!!
thwe plus side to this weather is we had a reall aweseom thunder/lightening storm for once..ok it was bad cause i've now heard htat a guy in eckington (village about five miles from us) died as a result of it 0.0 and there was a tree 2 miles from us just outside of town that got a full shock and the trees around it are slightly burnt and the other flash caught the abbey but that has a conducter thank god!
weather put asied...
it is now... less than seven hours until harry potter come outs!!! woooooooooooooooooooooo *major exitement attack* *laughs* yes i cna't wait, i only hope i get to read it all before going to work tomorow and some annoying b*st*rd to come ni and say `oh did you know that so and so dies?` *answer through gritted teeth* `no, i havn't READ it yet because i am WORKING`
lol, and oh yes, i have a job now ^^ in tescos with emmah *laughs* well, it's thanks to her i have it lol. so i work 3-10pm tomorow that i know of..not sure what hours i'm doing sunday yet though *laughs* training was fun though ^^
oh the joy, dad's got the hoover going once more, not good news.
and it now gets worse *cries* my mum cna't make it home tonight at all because pershore'c cut off and there is definatly no way around it and the rain's coming down steadily. so she's gonna stay in worcester..it's not too bad as she's working there tonight anyway (she works nights just to clarify things) but that means i won't have seen her at all today and probs won't see her tomorow!!!
ok..now i'll right half of yesturdays post *rolls eyes*
had a laughing fit which hasn't happened in sooooo long in the car with my mum becuase i'd baught some caribbean chicken crispbreads and they're nice and all..but also like prawn crackers or skips and stick to the roof of your mouth as you eat them..and anyway, mum tired one and somehoe managed to glue her tongue to the roof of her mouth and couldn't speak!!! lol..if i'd have known what she was attempting to say to me, i wouldn't have passed her the water... then got home and gaveone to dad to try and he he didn;t like them and he pulled an amazingly funny face!!
urh...ok...from two days ago now..or three even...i MIGHT with a very slim possably not chance...be getting a cat!! i really i hope i do because we used to have a cat and the house is all lonely now and...my cousin knows a familly that have just had a litter of kittens (the cat obviously, not the humans) and they're grey tabbies...at the moment, dad's saying no...but i'm hoping my cousin can see a way of getting me a cat for my birthday *laughs* and i've even said i'll pay for the bundle of expences if i can even have it!! *laughs* hmm..well, mor eon htat if i ever hear any more on it..
taken me half an hour to do this post and my arms are killing me!!!! soo...i shall reply to comments then leave you in peice ^^
mew mew ichigo, kaisap and dark forever: thanksfor the compliments on the poems ^^ though i'll have to apologise cause most of my poems are rather emo!!!!
kaisap: i don't know how i cna sleep in conditioner either really *laughs* jsut cna occasionaly!! i think this post is prove of what it's like with emmah than *laughs*
mew mew ichigo: yup, nightwish have a new singer and album due out!! you can hear snippets from their new stuff on their websight nightwish (i will laugh if i have that code right first time...lol and i got given the name of hte song by the girl who made it (the german song/amv)
and to everyoen, thanks a lot for all the comments!! i shall come and comment you now ^^ and then emails...
and i know i said i'd finish th epost, but i jsut rembered the fact that i really hated my blonde hair and tried to dye it esspresso brown..but somehow it went compeltpley wrong in a desirable way and i landed on my naturak colour again!!!! so the silver brown with blonde hints and red lights is back agani and defo staying for a while at least!!!
lol, finaly got my provisional liscence for driving `wooooooooo`
and my training for tescos..starts tomorow ^^
urm...and many many other thnigs....hope you're all well, didn't get much time tonight, so i'll come visit all of you tomorow hopefully and also write a propper post tomorow!!!
can't we stay for a while?it's just too hard to say goodbye...
mood-haunted song-ome german song that's in the video i'm about to post...
if anyone knows the song's name and who it's by, i would muchly apreciate it ^^
OMG!! (personal excitment) NIGHTWISH HAVE GOT a NEW sINGER AND a NEW ALBUM DUE OUT!! WOOOOOOOOOO why have i only just found this out though?? *cries* oh well, ich bin sehy happy!!
so onto the post..i just wrote another poem which as usual, is not cheery...*goes an gets it form upstairs* i'll put it in at the end though...
ooh so confused about the conditioner!! lmao everyone here said not to...but my mum said to...so i compramised and got a coconut oil conditioner and slept in it and my hair is in better condition now that it was yesturday..still so insanely dry though TT.TT but not falling out as i type..so it's good...right???
and gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! it's sooooo lonely here without emmah and laura to talk to *sniffs* the only two decent people around where i live are on holiday so there's even less for me to do in this rather cr*p olde town now...though emmah HAS got credit and drops me a line everynow and again...hmm...she was in Scarborouh today, on a pirate ship i might add *laughs*
well, i seem to have nothing to talk about again..so i'll leave you all iwth my poem:
how can i fly when you break my wings?
once i was high above this world-
now i'm trapped all alone among company...
the sun does not warm my face-
and even the moon has taken it upon herself shun me.
i never asked for such a cruel punishment,
i thought love seemed fit to mock me...
but when i opened my eyes to the world,
love was where i was-
completely...insanely...addicted...
you could never guess...
and i could never tell...
just how deep and strong this emotion bleeds,
becuase surely you would despise meso for saying-
i do not love you as i should.
not sure i like that one so much...but it's how i feel...haha, should put my other one up tomorow i think lmao
ja ne!! xxx
modit
ok, just re-found thi, it HAS to go in, and you HAVE to watch t..it's damned hilarious...though that could just be me and emmah in our own mad worlds *laughs*
urm..and finaly, i was really girly this morning..but thne i found my tom boy hat from in year 9...and i just had to put on again *laughs* so by this afternoon, i was back in jeans, a guys belt, baggy top, trainers and hada all of my hair tucked up into the cap and looked like a guy again!! ^^ sorry, i like dressing like a guy...too much lol
well, since i am...ok i am kinda down still..but feeling bette ron thw whole-i decided it was time for a more cheerfull song and differnt background and escape the bounds of black...
and on the subject of my blonde hair-well, i have sorted it out halfway...i know longer look like i resemble a tiger on top...i instead resemble a friggin hay bale -.- but i have the blonde dye to put it all right when it's properly dry ^^
urm...it's aslo kinda falling out...is sleeping in conditioner a good or bad idea?? one of my old mates told me i shouldn't as it was bad for the hair...
i have a plan!! i am in the library typing this post up lol, so i should be able to commetn all you guys abck later!! that is so long as my dad is still in a good mood and lets me on...
and to everyeon, i don't live with an hour. it's damned stressfull!!! most nights i manage to reply to my emails and if i'm lucky, get a psot done here and also commetn some peopel back...but it's hard, so haaaaaaaaard (oo-er!) lol, but hopefully there won't be that problem tonight!!
kaisap-lol, dark hair's cool but i'm naturaly light haired *laughs* so i'm going back to blonde..though it's normaly silvery brown...so i'll...look i twit when my roots grow out!
littlemiko-thanks for the comments ^^
aah, this song is so nostalgic..somehow...*raises eyebrows* enver actualy been to norway..but hey ho pig's bum. i intend to!
there is another one....but it's not so good *laughs*
sorry it's all hit and miss with me at the moment...my dad's only giving me an hour on hte interent every other night...so with everythnig piling up..it's jsu thard to work everything out.
so, thanks for all the comments, basically, it means everythnig to me ^^ and i ally will try my best to come to sights as your all such lovely people!!!!
ok..so the subject line...well well well....
here i am doing my hair again...blonde...i suit blonde, i;ve had it once before but no one saw it as it was an inbetween hair colour stage...but this time, it's gone..STRIPEY!!!!
i had black hair this morning..so, i got the bleach, plenty of it, and it's taken the black out to a kinda star colour..but my mate who was doing it accidently missed loads of bits at the front!! *laughs* so i really need to sort it out ASAP...well, for now *getds head scarf out the draw* lol
hmm...can't really htink what to say that won't get me into trouble *laughs*
hmm...time to make a short post so i can try and comment as many peple as i can...
urh...bebo hath stopped working *cries*
and another crazy dream...
ok, in short, i spent the whoel time kissing draco malfoy (aka tom felton to normal people, only he was in costume etc) lord knows why it came aobut..wait..becuase the film and book is due...hmm...that would be why then...
but anyway. why would people tongue suck? is that normal?? cause that's what i put up ith in my dream -.- not complaining though... *laughs*
and that's all...
ja ne!!
modit
ok, now bebo Is working...how spazzy
modit2
i take it back..it stopped working again..this could be a borin night
ok...i'm doing nothing fancy...jsut gonna say about ke crazy dream...ok first i am going to ssay, i am on limited time atm..becuase of my berother..so it's currently bakc ot not commeting people *sobs* so...and probs not posting in an age each time *cires*
so the dream-i don't fancy alex before anyone thinks it..
but, i was (this is the dream from here on in) on bebo,adn i added gina (alex's GF) and she left a commetn in hte `what are you doing` section of bebo (which everyone can see) and it said `some insane person just added me..i don't know why` so i did the same by putting `i just added a sane person..i don't think she like sit` then emmah joins in by saying `you added gina? WHY?? i'm going to add her` and hten gina replied saying `ok, another insane person added me, what's going on?` then alex added both me and emmah (we added him ages ago...and he don'st use his bebo) and he siad `ok what the hell is going on gina?` and then emmah said `i think this calls for group conversing on msn...` and i repleid saying `no no and thrice more NO, there will be no msning as i will be embarased` and then alex said `i think we should...` so emmah sent him and gina the addies...and thne i got dragged into a group convo saying `merde` then emmah started the embarasment off with things like `she wants to get into your pants alex` so in hte end i cracked and put `WELL YOU WANT TO GROPE HIS BUM EMMAH` and she replied with `WELl LAURA WANTS TO GROPE GINA'S BOOBS` and i replied (yes, there is a lot of replying going on here sorry) `how does that affect either of us?` and emmah said `it dons't` then laura signed in so we brought her to the group convo and gina said `oh god, the serial boob groper is here...`
alongside that convo, i was having a private convo with alex, and becuse laura found out about the groing thng, alex said `will either fo htme dothe whole gropey thnig now?` and i said `probs not` so he siad `fine, i'll grope emmah's bum and get gina to grope laura's boobs then...`
yes a crazy dream
i also have a fan art to put up if i ever get hte time *grr*
where'd you come form, where'd you go, where'd you come from cotton eyed joe?
"You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the IMPRINT is always there."
mood-dancing!! song-cotton eyed joe-rednex
Omg...this is absolutely hilarious...well...in my opinion...was commenting Emmah’s sight ad i was munching away on beef jerky (I had a craving lmao) and the talked about the song Cotton Eyed Joe so I ended up putting it on...*puts it in post* yes, I found that tres amusant!!
anyway...I did have a HUGE ass post this morning… then I submitted it...then the computer crashed T_T' so I lost it all...soooooooo, I shall try and re write it...hmm...some bits will change, some will disappear because I have forgotten and it doesn’t matter as no one actually read it!! lol
urh... ok starts with thanking people!
kiki-tink: thanks for making me smile last night on msn while i was in my major downy. I’ll never forget the pictures of those kittens!!! *quotes* `I’m stealing your girlfriend, look I’m already in her pants` *picture of a kitten in a girl's pair of jeans*
Yes anyway...lol!! *hugs* thanks for it all ^^
angel zakuro: thanks for letting me have the use of you poem ^^ i would have put your name anyway, but i wanted to be sure i as allowed to use it ^^
Emmah: yup, i am completely back with yee olde long posts..well..for a time..haha, parents come back tonight remember!
yup, i did actualy bite my mark..lmao and the entirity of his familly seems to have seen it!! lol his mum called me a vampire and his gran said he had a love bite and his dad said `it was probably that hazel girl` about all of it. haha
yeah, i know about the rain and all..wish it would stop cause we've had too much in too shorter time and all..but even sa the rain falls now, i want to go out in it and feel it's soft touch here i go with the romance again -.-
you oculd always sing here....SWING here oh my lord what am i ON?? i mean SWIM here lmao...aaw, no emmah!! *cries*
RAIN GO AWAY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!
haha, feel loved, a huge chunk of this post is entirley for you!! *roflspaz*
sooooooo...the major downy...um...in short, i was down...lol...I won't put it here as I wrote it last night in a HUUUUUUUUUUGE ass post...i.e. Longer than the ones I do here... but i shall give the link if you peoples do want to read it
OMG EMMAH!! IT IS OFFICIAL!! YOU HAVE CONVERTED ME TO MIKA!!! Yes...um...well, thought I’d go get a drink...got to the top of the stairs and low and behold, love today was playing on the radio. AND I STARTED DANCING!!! Then I realised what i was doing and stopped before anyone could see that...
What else was there in the last post...? (Ok, the bit about dancing to Mika wasn’t there earlier, that just happened lol)
Oh well I cannot remember.
On a good note...I REMEMBER!!
*laughs at self*
What I was going to say before I so rudely interrupted myself was...I had that major downy last night...not good and it started over something so trivial too *laughs* but writing everything that's been bumming me off down...I just feel...better...ok so slightly worried it'll scare the BF off... but oh well, I guess he needs to know it about me...now better than never...urh...Emmah help, was that blog a good thing to do????
The initial thing that was yee olde good point was that I have the new Georgia Nicolson book sat right beside me now (yes Emmah, you may by all means borrow it if you need/want??) tehe
Well, cheery bye!! And many cheerioes prosper in milk...or just don't ask lol xx
Right, no mistakes this time, I’m pasting all this into word BEFORE trying to submit this lmao