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song-nobody does it better (the spy who loved me)-james bond them tunes mood-pffff
today was ok.
chinies sucked...
i'm not hre *ghosts*
yeah, the internet is *fucked* according to mum, so just a wuick post to say high, and i'll get to your sights tomorow i promice!!
oh, and as i found out today, i, am not as completely over alex as i wanted to be. seriously not OMG ALEX!! anymore..i just..kidna saw him today with his GF and was like `bugger...` but..it's not so bad now..maybe it'll be my general horn crush...tehe
and it's raining agian..tehe, so the song umbrella is a good one for now!! hmm...we all got wet today (oo-er)
uh...........BLEACH TOMOROW!! WOOT!! ^^
um...*trying to maintain some sanity here...
OHOHOHOHOH!!!
i didn't say it yesturday..BUUUUUUUUUUT, i have a car now!! and my bro is gonna get me a pink sub 'nn amp for christmas..only a year way..but oh well, i might jsut be passing my test by then!
Know that we'll still have each other, you can stand under my umbrella
song-umbrella-rhianna mood-tierd
ok....i actuly am getting over alex. AT LONG LAST!!! to the point i have told peoples oter than emmah and laura!! tehe. god that only took a year *rolls eyes* hmm...but i still won't be seeing jake...cause..no one seems to have his msn. merde!! TT.TT and he dosn't have myspace/bebo either. emmah i have your problem!
another kinda really not good thing is the end of the week. i've known one of my freinds (fleur) since year eight and i've told her possably everythnig abotu me..and she's always been there for me for the last four/five years..and, cause she's in the year above me, ie, the year that's leaving FOR GOOd this year...i'm gonna be seeing her for the last time propperly on hte 11th..which is this friday *sniffles* i refuse to wear makeup. i just know it'll be non existant by the end of the day!
hmm...mum is now ranting at me cause she asked abotu money and i just said `i don't know` cause i don't know how much i need for the trip to spain i'm going on. tbh-i don't even want to go. but my mum and mr T isn't letting me drop out and now the money's gone i can't drop out otherwise we loose a lot of money TT.TT i really would rather stay ni boring old englnd and have to go to a load of university crap and do some teddy bear's picnic with the four year old kids (for the love of god i cna't think up the term we have and it begins with re and it isn't recess. why the hell would it be? what even is recess?? *dispears into world of crazy thoughts and confusion*)
hmm...my textiles coursework goes away to be marked by the examiner dudey person on thursday...sooooo *prays* hopefully the last few weeks o work have payed off for me...
uh...i really can't think of anything worthwhile to talk about!!
ja ne!
mood-ill song-wishing on a star-rose royce book-across the nightingale floor-lian hearne
ok, it's not letting me put a new post up for some reason. WHY??? it's still not letting me out wallapers up either TT.TT
hmm...saturday in briefest: was in tescos express ni the tow where i live with larua...and, i was looking for JAKE not alex, but anyhoo, i saw gareth tlaking to one of the staff and thouht `oh no, general horn....` and then, i looked again andone of his freinds, rob, had suddenly appeared! i have no idea where form. anyway, i picked company (a magazine) up and said `i really wnat that dress, it's so purty` to laura just as gareth swung his arms around and made me jumpa round and who should be wlaking right behind me but alex??? thankfully, he either didn't notice or is officialy ignoring me...
hten when me and laur awere going to the park abotu two minutes later, i went `oow ow my thumb` and leapt like a loon cause the nail had broken but not come off and was digging ni and...generally hurting...and then alex dorve past (Like he always does) and i jsut stared at it passing by for ages without even realising it!!! and rob saw TT.TT
oh well, no school tomorow as it is a bank holiday!!! *dances around the maypole*
hmm...oh and i have no idea WHY i randomly feel sick. i jsut do. and it's not nice.
emmah-you know the day you fell down a whole? (dear lord i sound like a gran telling the kids a bed time story) and i had something which i shared around? adn then rosie mentioned coke...i think it made me ill!!! TT.Tt but wouldn't it have actualy come out the system by now?
mood-HAHAHA song-umbrella-rhianna
hmm..where to start with today??
ok, school/college really was a pointless task. i hadn't done my textiles SOO i decided i wouldn't go...therfore i couldn't go to art as there were 3 people in my art class in my textiles MEANINg i couldn't go to tutor cause two people in my tutor were in art...and also in textiles...so i got in late...then i felt really ill towards lunch and didn't go to general studies...which i was actualy plannig on going to..but ya know...i just didn't...so i uh...didn't go to ANY lessons today...oh pleases tell me they won't ring my parents????
hmmm...
ok, i dont fancy alex AS much as i used to..just kinda fancy the hell off him sligtly. i still like jake...A LOT. a lot a lot...crazy dream *manic laughter*
BUT, you know i kept embarrasing myself infront of him?? (alex, not jake...yet) well...you mighta notcied THAT this hadn't happend for a while.
ok, yesturday-emmah shouts `jane loves you alex!`, `jane wants to get into your pants alex!` and `HI ALEX!` and...you know, he wasn't far away, you know i think he might have heard it all..oh and she screamed like a loon infront of him. she did hurt her self, she's forgiven for that bit. ONLY THAT BIT. then i was wlaking out the common room, saw him and said loudly `i think we better GO emmah` and she walked passed and said `HI ALEX` in her radio emmah style voice. ooooooooooooh she's evil...tehe, well, next chinese lesson...or just whenever we see chris next (the bloke she fancies) i'll be getting her back. all the better if it's in a public place tbh...
ok, so today. i have a habbit of skipping through doors sometimes. i do that all the time. have done for four years. only today, alex happened to be the OTHER SIDE OF THE DOOR when i skipped through it. god that must have scared him. it did. lmao.
i went to open it, but he did that before me, i was still mid air btw, and then, i was like `oh shi*****************it and plunged forwards (probably looking like i was about to fallover knowing my luck) and carried on walking as fast as i could to the female loos, and i heard him going `shi****t` behind me in a `oh dear lord` kinda voice.
so so far, i've been seen launching myself at poles and swiging around them (don't ask, jsut don't.) by him, running through doors and heading south by him (oo-er!)...have i missed anything????
oh, and we were on about the types of condoms you can get..it's a spoof type thing ie: gillete condoms...the best a man can get
and i brought the burger one up which is actualy `burger king flavour....home of the big whoppers.` only i said `what a big whopper` in my insanity just as alex walked STRAIGHT infront of us. he has got to be death. or just very good at ignoring us by now..which is more probable...
oh and there was the horn song which goes `horn, horn, horn, horn, horn, horn, horn, horn, horny horn!` and apparenlty alex was boucning his head in time to it at one point, so we were all watching him walk and he didn't do it againn!! but he caught me watching him and i actualy don't fancy him that much any more which makes things even more amusing!!!
another crazy thing from today...
this song:
now put `horn` to every bit...kinda like hornhornhornhornhornhornhornhornhornhornhornhornhornhorn...etc
trust me, it's hard to sing that.
especialy when y're nearly pissing yourselves with laughter.
whihc me and emmah weer doing.
twa tres amusnat cause everyone looked at us funny.
don't know why of course...
and the dream. for emmah's benefit. feel fre to skip past it as it is..uh..slightly sexual.
ok, i was rnadomly dreaming abotu jake (not laex or gina FOR ONCE) and i was at his house, only, it was MY room we were in...and then, he didn't have any condoms..so he was like `bugger` then his mum came in (at 12:54 am this is)(still in the dream) and said `i'm jus tpoppnig out to tescos, do you need anything?` and he replied with `yes, can you get me a pack of condoms please?` at whic point i was hiding my heaad in his pillow...and then she looked at him all motherly like and he said `well, at least i'm not risking anything!` and..that was kinda it.
emmah, ar you happy now???
and, a lot of you last night asked what ctrl-z meant. it's besicaly, say you were tpying,a dn you accidently deleted EVERYTHING, you would press the ctrl button, keep that pressed down and then press the z btton, and should undo everythng, giving the text back. likewise if you press ctrl-y, you would then delete all the text agian..or ctrl-a whihc slects all the text..and i'll just shut up abotu CTRLing now...
uh...i really don't have much else to say for now, so i shall once again try with the art work and talk to you all alter!! *hugs*
mood-tierd song-eternal-evanescence aka rain and thunder ^^
ok so today..nothing has happened..emmah is being a lazy bum and not replying to the scripting *shakes fist*
and now laura has joined us and the crazy trio is complete and triosome!! lol
*sighs* it's a week since i saw jake *sobs* i really don't think i will see him agian. seriously why did i bother falling for him?? what even made that happen? ok so he has nice eyes...that's kinda all i know about him and here i am having the particular horn for him!!
i wish i could see him agian though after thursday....*sighs* thursday last that is!!
ok, i have a sun tan. the girl who never tans, HAS TANNED!!
omg i jsut had a scare, i don't know how, but i delted the entirity of my post!! but thankfully pressing ctrl-z works wonders *phew*
ok, le bell is about tog, so i will leave you with yet another short post.
i love the name shiro ^^ tis my anme in chinies..surname that is-white, bai. bai jeini. lol, i'll stop with the chinese now!!
ok, my feet really hurt because, to start off my post, me, emmah and laura had chiniese..as most of you know (it was the usual insaine hoot) but we got let out lat and we RAN to the trains tation, adn we were on the bridge and we could see this train, ie. our train LEVNIG THE STATION!! WE JUST MISSED IT!! so emmah turned and said `we should walk back... that is seven miles of walking..whihch we would have done, but my bro picked us up after 2 and a half miles..possably three miles..cause he's worse htan my mum for me walking places!! TT.TT
and then, i jsut did the entirity of my magazine round (anohter 8 miles)(becuase of walkng around the area and also walknig around stupid gates and gardens and froufrouness)
hmm..htat song knida..does imply my mood..i don't know why i feel torn apart..but oh well, jsut my mind going schitz. oh now i'm listening to compassion by the same dude! wtf?? i am not depressed!!
i finito my textiles!! i'm sure you've all been waiting for me to say it..rather than the `i want to die` that came out of my emo insideness yesturday..yes, it is ALL handed in!!!!! *dances around* so jsut my art..and by the time everyone has stopped attacking me n msn and i've done everythnig, i have NO time to myself. i'm jsut not going on msn tomorw. i NEED to do my bleedin art researchnow!! one week till my exam!! OH GOD!!!
uh..that is..i do belevie, all i have to say...except, hakuna mattatta!!
mood-tierd and sounding my gneral dixe ^^ song-miracle-cascada
kinda need one ladialdadidlaida*manic insain laughter*
uh..well, my textiles...kinda isn't done...like i siad it was...neither has pip, hannah or phil finito theres..so it's not just me!
haha, and about that script..it's becoming a porno flick and insain by now..lord knows how we got this going..oh wiat, emmah was taking the piss out of me on msn....hahah
i am so getting over alex now ^^
ok i havn't seen him...
but i saw him at the aprty and really did feel like screaming `ALEX I HAVE THE GENERAL HORN!!!!` but..i idnd't..cause everyone would have heard..and that..could be embrassasing and lead o akward questions...
hmm..so, on the jake front..
uh, i still only know his first name...
i do however have jess' msn now..so my plan..which i never said...could work. right the plan:
i ask jess for jake's msn cause my freind fancies him. if she asks who. i say laura (she has volunteered to be guiny pig). then if she asks how they met, i say she was at tescos express and saw him stood near me which is how we came to know about naming and stuff...thne alura dds him, and speaks to him slighlty, then she invites me to a group convo, then i add him after going `oh, who am i talking to?` like a loon, then laura "gets over him" vair vair quickly and i stil lspeak to him..adnd it goes frm there...
i'm proud of me for working it out lol
uh..so...
WHY DO I FANCY A FRIGGIN STRANGER?? GAH!! TT.TT
that is SICK. i went to the loo, and on the way back, there was this bold old builder in the car park, and he looked at me, so i smiled back coutesly, and then he went `alright babe?` and loked at my breasts. it's just EEW!!!
i know i have siad this possably fifty tmes already, but today is the last day of textiles!! *hurrah* my teacher will slaughter us all if it is not in by tomorow and i only have two things let to do, so all is good!!
mood-GENERAL HORN!!! song-i'm not in love-enriquen inglesias
hahahaha*laughing fit* i'm not in love. what a song. not.
ok, yes, i only have my testing and evluation to do. and two gant charts and manufacturing spec which should take five mins. so technicaly, i only have 46 minutes left of textiles. change this into self distraction and boredom-2 hous and 37.6 minutes left...haha
well, i shan't stay long...as i have coursework to do, and i really am getting on to sheer desperados to finito this now!!
so, owing to my ambling posts (here we go with the self distraction...) i will re-explain my gibbershi from thursday (yes, i did mean gibbershi just now) i went to see a play at no.8 which is in the town i live and that was awesome as some of my mates were performing. and, before i had got into the venue, there were two blokes walking towards us. matt, and this guy (jake) who looks like alex and i just kept staring and thinking `that's never alex..it can't be..he looks different...` then we got nearer..and it kinda wasn't alex..but "alex aka jake" had seen me staring the whole time *oops* and then, when me and fleur had sat down, a couple of mins later, the two seats behind us were filled, and who should it be?? jake and matt and i looked, and he looked, and i looked back some more, and he looked back some more (jake, not matt) then i looked at matt to prevent a laughing fit!
and every interval this happened. however, my observation is goods (so's his *blushes*) as every time we took our seats again, him and matt swapped seats to annoy fleur (uh, we do all know each other btw, we wern't just randomly being twits together..ok i was..since that was my first time seeing jake) and i saw them doing their chair dancing, laughed at feur and always ended up looking back at jake looknig back at me..hmm...yes well, on the third (and last) interval, he sat down and i unintentionlintentioanlyaccidientlyonpurposetypeofthing looked at his crotch..and he kinda noticed me looking at his crotch, so i looked at him, then gave him my flirty smile i didn't even know i had..then i didn't see him agian cause it was le end of the night. *sighs* and i'm not gonna see him agian!! TT.TT
and now moving onto friday.
le party.
oh the embarasment!
jake wasn't there sadly. cause i had a plan to "get pissed" and have a full license to come onto him and possably kiss him and still have my morning after dignity there if he..you know...you get it....cause..yeah.
but, it was just hilarious! me and laura got a bit battered...i din't intentionaly do it as i was never planning on, but i got bored being indoors and had to down a double Jack Daniels cause we couldn't take drinks out i don't think. it went straight to my head. as did another thinng..haha
then there was the pole danicng...what a hoot! i can actualy do it, just, not when i run and launch my self at a pole after downing JD...and i don't actaly do it as a habit..jsut, htere was none around (for the most part) and SOO MANY POLES THERE!! i kinda have a really bruised and painfull knee now!! but it was amusing cause at that point, alex, who i have the horn for, came walking past just as i was swinging round the pole...in a not normal swingroundthepole kinda way..and his face. bloody hell it was pricelss!! it was an `OMG WHAT IS THAT MAD WOMAN DOING NOW?!` face..which i'm sure you can all imagine...
then emmah was acting more pissed than me and laura put together cause she was LITERALY rolling around the floor with laughter!!! and i'm not kidding there! ok, i wa sjsut as bad, i kept lying down for one reason or another..andfaling voer. htnak god NO ONE had a camera on me that night!! (oo-er...)
hmm..so saturday came-and i was hungover accroding to my brother which is apparently why i didn't notcie my phone go off five times...oops. but i was stuck in a dream!! and it was horrible cause i woke up, turned my music on (i was wake here) and then i went back to bed, and must have fallen asleep, but i could here my music still, and then, laura rang me (this is where i was dreaming) and i answered the phone, but i couldn't speak to her! i couldn't say anything at all, so i just held the phone to my mouth and just screamed and screamed and nohting came out, so i hung up and was about to text her saying that i couldn't speak when she rang again, and i answered, and said `i was about to text you..` but still no words came out, just scilence, and she was saying `why did you answer and not speak?` and i still coudn't speak, i just sat there crying.` then that was it-my mum came i and shouted at me for being asleep!
that's it really...i mean today. i've been doing courswerok all the time. yay. not.
on a plus side..i might finaly be getting over alex. i really hope i am. however-would it be better to fancy someone wih a GF and who i'm never gonna see again after 2 weeks?
or fancy someone i don't know and won't ever see agian?
*sighs* ok, that distracted me for more thna an hour. bollocks. see ya all!! *hugs*
nly a quickie before finitoing (with luck) my textiles
mood-tierd! song-hyouri-ichimaru gin
woot! i've..kinda fixed my mP3 player..i just have to hold the headphones in..also, the elte button on this computer is WAY too small! *puts a load of ## in trying to delte crap*
well-le good news is...i'm kinda over alex. is still like hom. but i saw someone better! ooh yes, someone better then the hitsugaya look alike.
guess what??
he looks exactly like alex, only, two years older...how pathetic. actualy, i thought it was alex at first and i got confused..cause, he looked like him but not...and yeah...confusion.
I DIDN'T EMBARASS MYSELF INFRONT OF HIM AT ALL LAST NIGHT (i had this show at no.8 to see because some mates doing their drama As were permoring, twas awesome ^^) and he was sat in the seet behind me ^^ and cause fleur new matt, i know him as well, not so much, i got away with turning around and looking at him. ok so he caught e everytime...haha...and i smiled at him ^^
and i am now bordeline sounding my cosmic horn!! O.O all that is stopping me is that if i went cosmic, i'd be liking chappers. and reece. and all manner of creepies. *erlack* that is why i am still sounding my general dixie ^^
ok, i need to go now.
bell rang and i have forty mins left ot finish my courseowrk!! TT.TT
which i didn;t finish even though i was working on it till 4am in the morning!!! TT.TT
i actualy seriously managed to stay up that long owrking...???
and thnaks again to visiting me, i really will sort this out oafter today!! *hugs everyone*