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Achievements • written two books, one of which is hopefully being published early next year ~ finished studying NVQ Level 3 Beauty Therapy ~ Run 3 Businesses Anime Fan Since • November 05 Favorite Anime • ~ PHD (phantasy Degree) ~ Bleach ~ .hack//SIGN ~ .hack//Legend of the Twilight Bracelet ~ Love Hina ~ Final FantasyVampire Knight Death Note
Goals • businesses =) Hobbies • travelling learning languages writing art and walking Talents • walking.... writting, fashion, art
myOtaku.com: silver star rose
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mood- hahahahdilahahaha song- tis eternal in my head. well, i'm not schtiz. i just meant, i have eternal by evanescence in my head as i fell asleep listening to it
ok, so my subject line. me and emmah were on abotu `who's fiiter-the guy i fancy or the one she (emmah) fancies?` and i came out with `well, HE has a decent set of hair`.
i mean what the hell?
a decent set of hair?
i amaze even myself with my idioticity. and that's a hard word to spell!
and the other part is to do with the growing scripting me and emmah have going on in our PMs now!! the car (aka [put put mobile) actualy has it's own lines....a car for goodness sake!!
well. i have now decided. ales is definalty going out with his GF....i further questioned emmah, and i somehow think, i cna't turn a blind i to her saying `well, they were full on getting off...` bugger. and today i saw them holding hands. double merde!! TT.TT oh well.
hmmm...yeah bleach is aweosme. OMG THE FRIGGIN CLIFFHANGERNESS OF it ALL AND LACKING OF HITSUGAYA TT.TT
that reminds me-i have a new DP i must put up ^^
lol, and you know that script i put up a while back?? well...it's now longer, and insaine!! it is so being made into a manga when i have a spare hour!!
haha, well, i'll be off now ^^
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i have been tagged by emmah!! haha, now aparenlty i have ot do 6 facts...
I'VE BEEN TAGGED BY Emmah!!
Six facts about me:
1)i am completley and utterly in love with hitsugaya toshiro..which is insaine as he lives on a peice of paper...
2)i live in an upside down house...
3) i really want a tribal pattern tatooed on my back at some point
4) i love piano and violin music
5) it is being in the sea or the rain which makes me truly happy
6) i love to write and i have a story (angelie i demonie) up on my bebo now as well as an insaine script growing in my PMs!!
Now I tag: laura, kik-tink, angel slayer, vespoman, angel zakuro and hoaryu
lol, that's all for me now ^^
oh, and i have a planned all nighter tonight to get my textiles down.
mood-...bugger and double merde song-eternal-evanescence
hahaha! this song has the rian in it!! well..at the end..so..you have to listen to soe wierd insturmental stuff...whihc is kinda growing on me the more i here it...ok so maybe cause it has the rain and thunder in it...
omg...so many people love the rain!!
lol, i went out in it last night..about 8ish..cause, it was this light drizzle and the temp. was 16 degrees...and i was just sat for an age..then i lay on my back...then it got heavier and we have a pond with constant water pouring into it and i was lying next to what smells like gardenia and also looks like it but according to mutti, is an orange blossom...and i just felt myself relaxing completley for the first time in lord knows how long..then i knida opened my eyes and realised i'd been asleep for an hour. in the rain. and i felt so awesome!! haha
ok..so that's.. the chear of last night...
chinise was as crazy as ever.
and...in talking to emmah on msn (whence the computer finaly started working)
i kinda remeber a bad point...
ok, so by now, i think everyone knows what kibnda predicament i'm in wiht alex.
he has a girlfreind. who he is definatly going out with....and then...everyone's like...you're not getting over him are you?? *me* no... and then saying, well, you'll get over him when he leaves.
right. there's the problem. i remember a guy i facied majorly bad back in year 9 and, i knew him htrough cadets..then he left..completley, never saw him again...and it took me 3 years to get completley over him...uh...bascialy...wha ti feel for alex is like...le grown up version of what i had for the other dude. shit. that means..i'm gonna be out of enlgand and hopefully in the caribbean before i get over him TT.TT
*sighs* thanks again for all your comments!! it really does mean alot to me *hugs*
ok, the final deadline for textiles is friday. that meaning by friday, all of my textiles should be done. it f*ck*ng won't be. there's no way. i've bleedin left it too long and i'm gonna need a miracle to friggni do it. or jsut OD on caffeine thursday night and do an all nighter...
so hopefully by saturday, i'll only be doing art..whiuhc isn't really hard..and i can go back to a normal routine!!
my ogd i have some random song on iTunes now...ding ding dong? chicken dance? i'm too sexy for my shirt? WHY do i have all this insanity there??!!! haha oh well *sings* ooooooooh, you touched my tralelang, mmmmm, my ding ding dong.`
uh yeah..that's how that song goes....
final thing: my wallpapers and e-cards STILL ar enot oing up.
and adam has not got back to me eithr.
so where the blooy hell do i complain??? emmah, i reminiscance would be good now..
ok sabai sabai ¢¨ú
haha, i frogot to say. i hate this computer. i had to restart it so many times to get it working and i got stressed (would love to know where le anger is coming from) and i ended up screwing my art exam question paper up and sitting throwing it at the computer repeatedly.
i feel so bad again...yet i'm all smiles. wtf is going on? and i bruised my hip turning hte computer off and punched the desk so now my wrist is smarting. *wah*
a random video for me to watch tomorw. no idea what is. i got the link and now i ahve to go.
ohmygod i hte reformatting endless ends of text. that makes no sence either. *rolls eyes at self*
mood-so tierd song-before hte dawn-evanescence
ok. first off- i am so impossably sorry i havn't managed to comment people recently!! it's annoying me now, cause you all spend time coming here...even if you do only say a few words, yet i still cna't find enough time to do anything else!!!
but hopefully i can do some more stuff tonight. i really hope i can!
ok. so explaining my subject line-i have bebo...and emmah (who i love so much and am currently two timing with steph owing to some stupid wierd conversation...) told me about the authors section!!! so, i now have a page where i put my stories up ^^ *does a crazy highland fling* i'm...taking my CBOX down as only me and emmah really use it and laura uses it occasionaly..and ILF has just buggered off hte face of the earth apparently. so yeah-i'll hopefully get a link in there when i work out the codin ^^
hmm...welll, i have managed some more embarrasing situations with alex...(person A aka arekkusu) which i am now having to remeber as it was yesturday...gimme a moment....
ugh bloody formatting TT.TT i have to friggin double spce my paragraphs cause the indent button (if htat's what it's called) dosn't work...neithr do italics. bugger. half the damned story IS in italics! *wah*
i seriously can't remember the embarasment..uuh....uh!!!!
um...ok i saw him kissing his girlfreind...htat's really not embarassing. i think he as kissing her...i dind't actualy look properly..so if i fool myself into thinking htat it only looked like it cause he as hugging her by the sink and there were three people blurring my vision..yeah, i think they're going out TT.TT
but then at hte junctn..*cough cough censor cough* he was driving (he does that a lot)-omg...i forogt some of hte sutff i'd written in my story and i am so cracking my ribs here!...not the point though-and, i was stood there..as you..well i, do..and i saw a peguet (however you spell hte damned name) and i jus thought `oh crap that's alex's car` read he registration plate and it was..and apparently he looked at me twice...i saw the second time cause..he kinda full on looked at me and chrisse said `actualy he looked twice`
then i left earlier with laura to go to the library and get soem books out...(a novel idea huh?? ok..crappy un i got from someone in a bookstore owing to another stoy i won't bore you with now) and i was walknig back, crossed the road to speak to some mates and saw a peugeot and (this is hat i mean, i see him driving everywhere. unintentionaly. bloody hell my hair was a mess as well) and i read the last three eltters (ok, htis s my bad habit for the year apparently. reading registration plates. i do it with every car i know-ie-muttis, vattis, brothers..even though i don't know htem...oh well..oh and alex's randomly there..only i know his registarion plate cause it's a patheticaly easy one..and i also know the random assistant textiles teacher's plate. see how random??) but his "girlferind" saw e.
oh, and ther's a party on friday. laura/emmah-you better be going cause i am not stalking him/gina all night to find out if they're going out or not ON MY OWN. yes, that there is the plan. cause, they are apprently going out. but none of us ever see them together in school. ok i say that, i've seen htem together a lot this week. wow, two days. and possably seen htem kissing. still not sure. and he dosn't bloody kiss her infront of me..or apparently my mates. and he kisses other girls. i need to stop distracting myself!! TT.TT so yes, we are, if there is a we on friday, inteding to go on a stalk..not literly as stalkers are creepy..just kinda subtly follow them or him or she..and see what they do. so basicly stalking.
only, i hate stalkers!!!
uh yeah, so htat's it..oh and i ignored him again today...i wnde he gets as confused about me as i do about him? well..possably not. he most likely thinks i'm this insaine twit (haha,...sorry) with equaly (omg i'm listening to BACKSTREET BOYS???) insaine freinds..aka emmah and laura (betteh.) and chrissie...
i have a feeling my spellings crap. crapper than usual htis is...i'm tierd. that's my excuse. and hungry. and ...meh.
i love the rain!!! hahahaha
i'll..cut off here now i think...lol
sabai sabai ¢¡§ú
modit
tis a while since i did one of theses lol
that's a song ILF would know..if he ever turned up....where ar eyou you moose! ok. i don't fancy you. i jsu wanna talk to you. now.
haha, yeah, so i've sorted my intro out...*sniffles* i didn't want to delete my CBOX..but it really is only me and emmah using it and occasionaly laura and ilf
mmm..coffee...this really is a lame modit..i was gonna say more..but i shoved it into my intor. haha. what a total spaz!
mood-i friggin hate auntie midlred soo bleedin much!! anime-bleach, episode 63 one hour special
haha, i rock!! ok i odn't really, i just sorted out the sound on this computer so me, emmah and laura can STILL watch anime on the computer ^^ however, it dosn't work on the other computer *sniffles* so it still means only one of us can watch anime at a t ime. as lng as i have bleach on a thursday, i really don't care!!
haha, the reason ni am so happy (as is emmah now) is because both our artwork has been featured!! haha, i never even knew but hanks to Angel Zakuro, i do!! haha. it's really annoying though, cause i still cna't get ANY e-cards up TT.TT and i have 8 wallpapers to go up still..and they won't uplaod, so i have asked adam about it...cause he's apparetnly the guy to ask...
hmm...so, as it is only first period, i have nought all to say except OW my stomache TT.TT i hate auntie mildred. she's visited FOUR TIMES THIS MONTH!! my poor stomache muscles cannot cope with this strain!! so i now have an appointment in may with the doctor...see if there's ANYthing else that can be done to stop the trumendos pain.
i also have an appointment some time in june with my Gp and le best doctor about my back..dad reckons i'll have to go for physiotherapy. joy. i really suck at that..i mean, i had foot excorsizes to do for physiotherapy and i gave up on them!!
bugger...this computer really dosn't like hour long episodes...ooh...i wonder if it has titanic on it...haha, i shall have to check it.
my god emmah's still typing away *wide eyed look* are we having some wierd mutual competition to see who can get the longest post??
definatly me..only, i have nothing to say...bum.um....-
I am Cow
Hear me moo
I weigh twice as much as you
And I look good on the barbecue
Yogurt, curd, cream cheese, and butter's
Made from liquid from my udders
I am cow,
I am cow, hear me moo!
I am cow, eating grass
Methane gas comes out my ass
And out my muzzle when I belch
Oh the ozone layer is thinner
From the outcome of my dinner
I am cow,
I am cow, I've got gas.
I am cow, here I stand
Far and wide upon this land
And I am living everywhere
From B.C. to Newfoundland
You can squeeze my teats by hand
I am cow, I am cow, I am cow,
I am cow, I am cow, I am cow,
oh, she's replyting to emails...oops...oh well, i shall leave you all for now and put some crazy ass video up later!! ^^
to be honest, i forgot how much i like avril's music...though that song's really not my mood, it's a just a song i like listenineing to...
um, i'll explain my laughter: watch this: it's (a) insain and (b) BLOODY AWESOME!
i found that video so unintentional on an unintentioanly found bebo page..well actualy it was a case of commenting a mate, seeing a picture of kurosaki isshin and attacking the poor guy who's sight it was...oh well...
OMG!! out fo curiosuity, i checked to see if i had a wallaper up..as you know, nohtnig's been uploading for fuck knows how long.. (ok i need to hill the languege...) and...IT'S UP!! (oo-er!) I HAVE ANOTHER WALLAPER UP!!! *dances around like a loon*
um..that asie..i need to put a comment about what's going on...and..
my moods not really much better..ok i am not wanting to KILL anyone write now..so i suppose..more relaxed...
i talked to my bro about soem stuff...well, not really..bu i talked to him...and it was jsut cool as it's the first time i've actualy seen him this week...
thanks for all your comments the other day, i really appreciate that!!
am i seriously so harsh on myself?? i've never relaly notcied..it's just...i've always been like that!
omg it's so hard to hold two myspace convos, two bebo convos, write a post, have mum faffing about ANd try and find someone ovr he internet called sam....*sighs* and i have writtne one paragarah an now have to faff again. shut up. shut up emmah! shut up andy! please for five minutes!! *whines to self*
ok, tell them i'll be right back..that always work...uh..forgot where i was up to now. bollocks.
okok, me and emmah are alright...that's the main.
and i'm talking to matt.
gods that was bad, i had an email from him. bsically, he was apologising tome for all hte insults he's said and hte hurt he's done, and how we should jsut not be matec cause he dosn't wanna keep hurting me and how he regrettetd not dancing with me at the prom. i wanted to cry. i really hate crying, but i sat there wishing my mum would go faf somewhere else so i could cry.
ok..i also cracked the other day and nearly yelled at mum.
1) she is ALWAYS down here when i'm on the internet. so i cna't do anything cause she disaproves of it all. great, i'm a crap daughter cause i use theses sights.
2) she always wnats t know what i'm talking about so i cna't rite posts or talk to mates about personal stuff cause i'll end up in more trouble.
3) i am not kdding when i say all hte time. am i emmah?
ok...so apart from that and hte throwing things around the room in sheer pissed offness...
friday wasn't bad. i got to hang iht some older mates who i havn't spoken to in lord knows how long. it was awesome, but i do feel guilty cause i ended up spendig to lessons (frees) with them and abandoning emmah and laura *sighs* it really wasn't intentional, none of us realsied the time until AFTER hte end of school bell had gone. but it really was awesome...haha, so much nostalgia and craziness!
hmm....so really, not much has happened..oh and i finished my designing for textiles..jsut the testing, evalutaing, two gant charts, costings, care labelling, working diagram and everyhing else to do..though, it's not really that much..i hope...
well, i shall love you nad leave you now ^^ *hugs* and thanks again for all the comments, it really does mean a lot to me!!! ¢¡§ú
oh and i ama ctualy getting a tan. my skin is not deathly white. for once. somehow. wonder how long it'l last...
P: i'll sush talking like a goldfish on marscepone pills
well...the only good thing from today is that i have till next friday to do my theory textiles coursework and i got to watch bleach in first period as supposes to waiting to now to watch it *thanks emmah for giving me link*
everything else has been impossably $hit.
i can't beleive how bad.
i dunno even why the hell i feel like this.
knowing my look the electricity'll go off again cause it's just my bloody luck.
my back hurts..it is that time of month again. FOR THE FOURTH BLOODY TIME IN A MONTH....girls will understand what i'mon abotu by that....
and i have jsut had a falling out wiht emmah. technicaly my fault cause i snapped at her..where as i could have done my usual nad never mentioned how i felt to her and got on with another day. but i've done htat for so many years now. it pisses me off. all i wanna do is get some freinds who'll value me for being...ME. not my act that everyone knows. the insane girl who dosn't care. she does care. a lot.
and what somone says to me know matter who they are means something to me.
so something a best mate to me means everything.
and she dosn't like somthnig i do..i won't say simply caudse not many poele do (it's not illegal) but yeah..she had a moan at me earlier saying it's a waste of time and not worth it. that's her opinion. that's fine. i appreciate that. she then went on to look away and say `you say you're ont addicted, but you want it, that's the same.`
it's bloody not.
i'll never get addicted to something simply because i hate fucking relying on anything for whatever reason.
i'm on bloody medication now and i hate it. it dosn't even work so i may as well just stop taking it.
i'm not weak.
the girl everyone sees is this clutzy idiot who falls over nothing and laughs at it.
yeah, i can laugh, simply because when i'm like that, it is who i am...but then, take away all the insanity and craziness i let take over, i do care.
when i'm not at college or i'm on my own-i don't fall over anythng and i can do things...
i feell ike a bloody scitz right now. two people sharing one body. and they're completely contradictory:
ones cam, quiet, strong and not clumsy,
the other's this clumsy idiot who dosnt care about anythnig.
why cna't i be fucking normal?? then no one would mona at me about petty things and i wouldn't be such an idiot and get down over said petty things and snipe at someone i lveo and loose her.
i just...really want to go to sleep and never wake up again cause i can't go on like this anymore.
there's only so long somoen can act for....right?? *sighs8
why am i not strong enough anymore?
oh and now my CBOX is fucked...anything else gonna go wrong for me??
and why the fuck is noen of my artwork loading up?
i'm just not gonna bother drawing now.
*sighs* sorry about this post..i just had to get everytghing out...i wanna kill something so bad right now...gods i even slamned my door i'm that pissed and i never do that o.O
great..and anohte of my mates still isn't talking to me.
am i really such a shit mate??
what the hell am i doing wrong?
well-i have finito my dress thank bloody god...but i havn't finished my folder work TT.TT more work then *sighs*
it was originaly in for today, but thankfully Sod has given me the day off, and my teacher isn't here..thankfully, so i now have until thursday to work my butt off at a less fast pace...i think my "working my ass solidly for five days solidly" payed off... ??
haha, me and emmah also have a script going about person A, (aka arekkusu aka alex....they're all the same person) and several other people and i was reading it..and he was in here...oopses..however he generaly ignores me so i don't think he'd be reading the insanity of my emails!!
emmah says she'll spam you all later btw...she's currrently doing courswork *gives her a hug*
my back is killing me again..meybe its the continous leaning over my sewing machine...i don't know, but if i move AT ALL it sends a spasm all up my back and..ow...so i rahter need somone to gimme a back massage..
oh yeah, not sure how long this'll be..amnd i can't remeber what i've said in previous posts atm so sorry if i'm repeating myself..but hopefully now my coursework is nearly all done i can spend more time on here...
*goes back to the mention of the scripting* i'm gonna turn it into a manga..so you can all read it then ^.^ haha, only if you want to though, i shan't force you to!!
hmm...i feel like annoying everyone...haha-here it is you wanna read it..if not, just skip past it...dunno if i'll actualy type anything..who knows?? well me obviously..
You: *goes up to Alex*
Alex: ...
You: ...
Alex: ... Hi...
You: ... Hi...
Alex: ...
You: ...
Alex: Do you want something?
You: Yea h, sex in a hula hoop so I can get it filmed and put it up on yourporntube.com. You up for it?
Alex: ..."
Gina: fuck off you bitch he's mine!
me: ph well, like i care...
Alex: ....
me: ....
Gina....
Me: ....*raises eyebrows*
Alex: ....uh...??
Gina: .....*scowls at me*
me: ....anyone here read the manga about a watermelon and a vampire baked bean?? *runs away at full speed*
Gina: *frowning like a loon* what the hell is going on now??
Random onlooker: she's mad...
Gina: I know that!
Random onlooker: she really is insane though...and her friends...
Gina: *raises eyebrow at random onlooker*
random onlooker: what?? It¢®¯s just a point!
Gina: but HE likes all that insanity?! Why am I dating such a loon?
Random onlooker: cause you¢®¯re insane?
Gina: ...
Random onlookers in common room: ... 0_o...
Gina: ... 0_o...
Our Ace Gang: ...0_o...
...
You and Alex: SEX IN A HULA HOOP! YAY!
Me and Alex: sex in a hula hoop! YAY!
Me: ...uh...quoi??
Alex ....nothing
me: ....
Gina: .....*glowers*
random onlooker (1): like is aid, she's-
Gina IKNOW SHE'S INSANE NOW GIMME A FRIGGIN BREAK YOU CRAZY OLD WOMAN!
(note: random onlooker(1) is the original random onlooker, she is also randomly an old woman...hence the randomness...)
random onlookers: o.0
ace gang: OMG!!!
Chrissie: she had a dream about him hip thrusting and bouncing around in a sleeping bag and having a random jaw piercing?? wtf?
Alex: *looks at Chrissie* what's she babbling about?
Me: ...noth...ing...just her randomnessshethinkstheworlsdisheldupbyamansatndingontwoturtles...
Alex: wtf?
Me: dunno..ask her *blushes*
Alex: you're¢®¦ blushing!
Me: no shit!
Gina: stop babbling and bugger off
me: uh no
Alex ...
Gina: *glowers at Alex*
Alex: *glowers back*
Gina: *glowers back again*
Alex: ...
Gina: fringing baked bean you moose!
Me: what's wrong with baked beans?
Random onlooker (1): they give you gas, that's what's wrong with them
random onlookers: *backs away slowly*
ace gang: you...uh...haven¢®¯t...EATEN baked beans have you??
Random onlooker (1): ...
everyone: *runs away from random onlooker (1)*
*Everyone's escaped outside*
You: Yay! Let's all have sex in hula-hoops!
Everyone else (not including Random Onlooker 1): ...
Me: ... Um, Jane, there's only one hula-hoop...
You: ... Oh yeah...
Alex: ... *Walks off to P.E. department*...
Everyone: ...
Gina: ... Where's HE going?!
You: I dunno... But it was just getting good as well...
Me: He's gone the P.E. department... Just when I said there's only one hula hoop... Please tell me he's not -
Alex: YAY! HULA HOOPS FOR EVERYONE! *Starts throwing hula hoops at everyone * *one hula hoop hits Paul Turvey* *No one cares*
me: ... Er...
Everyone else: Sex in a hula hoop! Yay!
Me: ... *Walks off*...
ILF: Wow, someone's gasses! I can't mistake that lovely aroma!
Everyone: ... 0_o...
Gina: Who's he?!
You: OMG ILF!!
*Everyone looks at ILF (except me, 'cause I walked off)*
ILF: I repeat, who let off?
*Everyone turns around*
Random Onlooker 1: ... Guilty...
yeah...there's our insantiy..haha, alex has walked passed countless times..ok he just kissed A DIFFERENT GIRL to his girlfreind...is he even going out with her?? WTF?? GRR I AM GOING TO KILL SOMONE IF I DON'T GET AN ASWER TO THIS IN A MINUTE
oh bugger..he's...near me...*submits post*
ok now he has a different girl fondling his chest...wtf??
and i have jsut remebered..cause he's talking about cars....he couldn't tell the differnce between an ambulance/paramedic car and a police car...I CAN!!! HAHAHA *evil grin* i just never bothered telling him..i just sat...doing my bad habits...
modit
right...knowing me it'll only be emmah that reads this...
but, if you do randomly re-read my post for lord knows what reason...you know i said Sod must be giving me the day off? WRONG he got me back good and propper lesson after lunch *blushes*
basicaly, i was in the computer room talking...not quietly so to speak, about the dream i had about alex hip thrusting..i think, or it might be sex in the hula hoop..which hasn't been explained..urr....i tihnk you can use your imagination?? but yeah, chrissie suddenly said `uh..jane?? look...` so i looked straight forward and continued talking (he was behind me i think) and then emmah was like `jane...*nods in direction of alex*`
so i turned around..and he wasn't far away...thankfully he didn't see ME looking for once, but i tihnk he most likely saw emmah and chrissie unsublty alerting me to his pressence...haha
and i ithnk he os going out with his GF..but then another of my mates said it could just be a close freind thing *screams for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever....* so i stll actualy don't know what the hecks between them *grr*
he has a nice purple top...
i'll shush now...
they're both soo unsubtle *ignores the me tlaking abtu sex in a hula hoop with him* *which he knows nothing about* *hopefully*
