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Achievements • written two books, one of which is hopefully being published early next year ~ finished studying NVQ Level 3 Beauty Therapy ~ Run 3 Businesses Anime Fan Since • November 05 Favorite Anime • ~ PHD (phantasy Degree) ~ Bleach ~ .hack//SIGN ~ .hack//Legend of the Twilight Bracelet ~ Love Hina ~ Final FantasyVampire Knight Death Note
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mood-strangely exited yet nervous at the same time... song-unable to stay, unwilling to leave
omg, by the time i get to writting this post, i have listened to fifty other peices and got back onto the titnci soundtrack *rolls eyes*
okok, so bleach..i'm gonna be wanting to die by the end..cause i have a strng feeling that it's this episode that hitsugaya has a slight cut down his front...TT.TT TT.TT
so hopefully that works *crosses fingers*
well, nothing worth commeintg has happened today..since no schhol and thereofre no embarrasing encounters with alex *sighs*
al though, i did another form of divination yesturday, and basicaly, the outcome is that you see/hear/read the person't name someowhere, adn it tells you hat to do...i et it slip out of my mind since, if you search, you never find, and at the end of the day, i was jsut flicking through a magazine and i got a random page titled `ask alex`
what the fuck do i do?
ask him what?
he has a girlffreind ffs!!! *cries*
hmm..and aslo, with the questions..i couldn't think, so i was jsut thinking of my storries and asking questions a long those lines!!
and i cannae be assed to think up questiins tonight *sighs*
ok, sorry i disapeared mid-post...dad came home early so i had to jsut post or loose everything TT.TT
who can choose what they dream, and dream i do
mood-unghmm song-all these htings that i hate-bullet for my valentine
yes, i tihnk i may possably be listening to emo..i'm not sure..oh well, i like the song!!!
god immem's gone annoying...you have to be logged into get the songs so now i spend my time, loading the page up, refreshing it and spazzing my wrist out by having to move extremely quickly to get the friggin code!!
and i cna't remember my login details ither!! TT.TT
ok, so i'm now listening to sugababes....friggin itunes spazzing up again..no that's just msn being anoying. damn msn.
ok so (god i'm saying ok a lot!! maybe i'll stick to right...) today, was crazy....i should have gone to chinese...but ya kno, i just wasn't in the mood...laura wsan't in the mood either, and emmha was sunning herself on hte beach at costa del mood with the lveoly chappers..so neither of us could be bothered, so we went to evasham and, jsut went to town. i needed a top for the party (which i have is yellow..alex likes yellow, hus jumper was white, he got it dirty and his mum died it yellow...why do i get told pointles info all the time??) so yeah, it's yellow and also has a white top (it's one of those crazy layered tops) and my plan of showing off my tiny waste (not sure weahter i'm proud of it or not) went down hte swanny cause NOwhere had a cropped top..i mean short of me buying a corset (the lingerie shops didn't ahve anything decent ni eihter. grr) and wearing that...so, i shall be wearing a yellow top with a black skirt and legggins..ie, i shall no doubt look like a crazy bumble bee. oh how joyous. not.
mm....me and laura had some crazyness going on..but for the lvoe of god i can't rembere..however, those of you who read my wednesday's posts oftenly, you shall know the type of crazyness we come out with...
emmah and her sexy new sunglasses there...
everyone point and laugh...*pointds and laughs*
i just got reminded, the craziness was me being attacked by the hand dryr!!!
and after our "chinese lesson" we went to the ford with some other peopel. god it's fuckin cald!!! oh well..did i spell that right..it looks wrong..it's cold isn't it?? well no, it's warm..i;m refering to hte spellings!!
oh oh, emmah, i shall be scanniing your pictures in later!!
i havn't smoked ANYTHING today, or yesturday and generall not this week, there's another good thing. i just cannae be assed with it atm and everyone's saying i'm adicted. WHICH I AM NOT. therefore, i shall prove a point.
hmm..no school tomorow as we have a study day....
questions: (yes, i am gonna do scenario situation :D
1) you looked into hte mirror first thing in the mirror. what happened?
2) after what just happened, you closed your eyes to think about it, and when you open them, you're stood ni the middle of a grassy meadow and you can see pearly pink buildings on the horizon, what now?
hmm...dunno what would happen next...haha, tbc
You don't remember me, but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream, and dream I do
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me
Have you forgotten all I know, and all we had
You saw me mourning my love for you, and touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me
I look in the mirror and see your face
If I look deep enough
So many things inside that are
Just like you are taking over
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me
I believe in you
(I believe in you)
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you
To live, to breathe
You're taking over me (taking over me)
You're taking over me (taking over me)
Taking over me
yes yes, the lyrics do have a relavance to me ni this post...
mood-crushed in love...AGAIN song-caught up in the middle-sugababes
ok...i'm gnna start off wit this off myspace (sorry to everyone who hates it) but it's soo sweet!! and yeah, i stole it of emmah too...
-To every girl that dresses cute not skanky.
-To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not hot.
-To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present for you.
-To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose that bitch instead.
-To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.
-To every girl who would just like once to be treated like a princess.
-To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.
-To every girl that wont get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.
-To every girl that just wants to hold hands.
-To every girl that kisses him with meaning.
-To every girl who just wishes he cared more.
-To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.
-To every girl who just wants him to call.
-To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him.
-To every girl that just wants to cuddle.
-To every girl that just wants to sleep with him without having sex.
-To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart out there again because she has been HURT tooo many times or so badly.
-To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.
-To every girl that thought maybe this one could be the one.
-To every girl that believes in her dreams.
-To every girl that would do anything so she could achieve those dreams.
-To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually doesnt think it is funny.
-To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.
-To every girl that has been cheated on because shes not a slut who gives it up to any guy.
-To every girl that doesnt want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.
-To every girl who wants words backed up with actions.
-To every girl that fell for all the lies only to find themselves alone in the end.
-To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face.
yeah, i know howmost have that feels *sighs* and so do most the gals i know!! gees..i shan't insult males now though since i'm consolling with one...but some sre just a total waste of space!!
well, today had an amusing start to it...i DIDN'T embarass myself..FOR ONCE!! BE PROUD OF ME POEPLE!!
i got in late...
1) i was being a lzy bum
2) i couldn't be assed with tutor
3) i was just annoying my mum for walking in on me in a peacful daydream.
and basicaly, i went to the library where laura was and said laura, `i am going to the ford, look after my stuff` and she looked at me and said `i'm coming with you then` and we had just got out the library when low and behold, alex came running toward us with his hair flapping around (damn he looks sexy) and he tripped over something...not sure what though, but he like, got around the wall and realised he'd dropped his book whihc i was nearly about to say he'd dropped (i was in a `i'll help you mood` today)(thankfully emmah and laura didn't know that oherwise lord knos WHAT i'd have been made to do!) and he turned around and said somthing along the lines of `oh...(somethng i didn't catch cause i was hurrying up the stairs so i could laugh like a loon)
funny thing is, he tripped over/dropped his book when he saw me..either he's mentaly scared by me (who isn't?!) or something i don't know/. god, if you exist, please tell me what all this sod having it in for me means...*waits*
hmm...then as i was walking out of school, i looked at his car...like i quite often do and i saw that his lights were on (idiot) and pointed it out to laura who said `where's his car??` five milenia later, she caught onto what i was saying...
i won't talk about the chipolate incident..mentioning..thing....
1) ich habe ein hinger
2) it contans explicit content
anyway, his lights were still on when i got back with laura so when i got into the common room i told fleur (who speaks to him) to tell alex he'd left his car lights on and then pointed him out..i think i managed that subtly for ONCE...having a good day apparently...so, she told him...
that's like, the main attraction of the day..
oh and i found out form hte person i don't enjoy beng in the near vicininty to, that he definatly is going out with gina. still. oh how joyous that made me feel. not.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO magnus is leaving myO!!! well, as emmah has told me so *tear* *hugs emmah*
hmm..well, as there is nought all more for me to rant about, i shall end this post and majorly catch up with commenting everyones posts as i just havn't had time *sighs* sorry about this everyone, i've done my usualy and let my deadlines come right up to my face without doing any courseowrk and have to rush it all..so i have to finish all my shit for friday...oh crappy days TT.TT
haha, that last is dedicated to emmah who owned herself earlier!!
me:mah, it's your favourite song by pendulum...`
emmah:`what? i don't like them!`
me:`i thought you, liked slam?!`
emmah:`what?`
me:`fat guy dancing!`
emmah:`this isn't it!`
me:`yes it is, listen`
emmah: *ignores*
song gets passed the intro
me:see, emmah! it is this song!`
emmah:`oh yeah...i just got owned`
to right misses..ok yeah, another crazy day for me xp
questions:
1) if you were trapped on a tropical island htat has NO civilisation, ie. just you there, what would you take and why??
2)ok, so still on siad island, hat are you most likely to be doing??
3) right, so you'r eoff the island, in the middle of the pacific, there's no sign of a bote, but there is a lvoely little (great white shark) swimmng around your raft, which you noticed has a log/branch/something coming loose, what do you do now??
4) sharks gone, but in any panic you might have had, you see a boat on the horizon, however, is is heading away, what now??
allright..so that was my imaginative streak for today i tihnk...
and, AND!! I AM HAVING MY BRACE OFF IN TWO WEEKS!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mood-full song-i would walk (walk, not roll) 500 miles-the proclaimers
omgomgomgomgomgogmomg
10 emails????
that short gave me a heart attacke when i looged on as i havn't been on for a while (by my standards this is!) so...emmah, if it's you just repeatedly clicking "send" ooh...there could be trouble....
um so today....i felt..SLIGHTLY better...that is i still felt like making frog noises into the toiletsevery other hour..but, but but but!! i hqave eaten. a full meal. and not left anything on the flate (except one grain of rice i realy couldn't be bothered to pick up with my chop sticks) so..that's good...
and because it was a hilarious moment, i shall have to type down mine and fleurs breif convo from earlier:
me: urgh aunty mildred is KILLING me (note-only females suffer from visits from aunty mildred...leave it at that guys if you value your dignity)
fleur: well then calm your aunty down with pain killers
me: i have *indescriabably hilarious face pulled by me* but she dosn't like them *sob*
yes, it was a rather priceless moment that no doubt only me and fleur...possably chrissie CAN find amusing...hmmm....
anyway...nothing happend today.
end of stoy.
goodbye.
wow....truly a short post...haha, ok questions:
1) describe pain
2) if yu feel ill, what do you do?
3) gimme a character to draw (yes i know that's not a question)
yes yes, that is what the chow young faty is all about...haha, 'twill be a truly maddy and brilliant film with him as well as the other guys *prances around the room like a loon...that rhyems!*
ok that was a tad random paragraph there...*calms self down*
right, i'll start off with my crazy and vair vair funny dream i had..as it came first anyway
this one is in the common room at the college i go to. typical day...sunny and warm unlike a certain scary incident i shall talk about in a min...
gareth (one of my mates)was in the kitchen area with alex (person A)...talking, and i wasn't there, i was just sidelining like ya do sometimes in dreams, and then alex went `what does she (me basicaly) actualy think of me?` and gareth said `ask her` and he said `no you ask her` so gareth called me over but i couldn't be assed to walk over to him to see what he wanted me for and said he should come over to where i was sat with emmah and laura so alex pushed him and said `go on then` and then he (gareth) grabbed his hand and started dragging him (alex) and then alex stopped short and said `stop bloody flirting with me, i can walk by myself` and me, emmah and laura heard that so i "fell off my chair" and we were all laughing like looons on loon pills when they both got to our table...that was really it
ok, so onto the creepy incident....i had a really bloody absolutely completely creepy thing happen to me this monring (you mighta guessed)... i had really bad cramps as it is yet again a "full moon" this week for me and i felt ill so i stayed in bed. grr to hell i missed a meal with the RREC today cause of it TT.TT
but anyway, i was awak when it happened, all of a sudden, i was pulled slightly backwards and up.
OFF
MY
BED.
and i didn't scream cause i wondered what the heck was going on..becuase i thought at first i had just had a wierd dream...and that my neck had randomly twisted itself nito a really painful and jaring angle through the course of sleep
then i suddenly felt like i was at Cornhil farm (place in cornwall where i go on holiday with familly a lot) and it happened again, only this time i tried screaming (i NEVER scream properly) but nothing would come out because my head was being forced into my pillow, and i could here this rasping breath and moaning like a guy was working really hard ot do something...
then it was over.
and i know i was awake cause the time was only a second past what it was before that wier incident and also because the CD i was listening to was in the same place it had been before.
and i still had my face shoved into the pillow with my neck in the same akward angle it had been during that incident.
so...knowing me i just won't fall asleep later...maybe i should get the vicar to come do an exorsim in my room...i think he does them...hmmm *hinks away*
well, i really odn't have much to say...except that i'm gonna be aok for the drum and bass party i'm going to on the 30th...htat's either thursday or friday....and htat's becuase i now know i shan't be plagued by cramps. i have thme now instead. oh the joy...and i have orthadontists on tursday. double merde..maybe they'll grant a miracle and say `yes you can have your brace of, we wo't tighten in on your sensitive gums and make you have two more weeks of pain AND not be able to eat on top of not eating`
oh dear, crying at free willy.
what the hell next??
haha, vespoman: i am doing my usualy and ranting abut nothingness in my perfecto english as always XP
emmah: i shan't go of on one...honest....
AND YOU ANR'T ONLINE AGAIN!!!!!!
oh well, i shall stop ranting now ^_^
sabai sabai ¢¢®¡×ú
ok, try to have a good week people *hugs*
hmm...i just rembered how my crush on alex started..right back in september...i wrote `i love alex forever` on the table, chrissie rubbed it off, he sat down, me emmah and chrissie had a loonish lesson...noting's changed really...
...
maybe i have an obsession growing over that song....hmmmm
OMGOMGOMGomgOMG!! i just downlaoded the chicken song. THE chicken song..omg it's so friggin awesome!!! *polkas off around the room again* haahahahahaha emmah, i'm sending you it next time your on msn!!!! hahaha
ok, i have given myself several challenges...
1) stop pointless ranting
2) stop going off on tangents/being distracted by laura and emmah
3) less videos..ie 1...or possably two unless it's bleach as that's generally in three parts
4) never put lyrics up again unless it has a decisive reasoning behind it
uh...that's it...
ok so today...i slept till lunch, put seom washing up and had tomoato soup with garlic naan bread (nice combo as i found out today XP ) while my mutti had mushroom soup and tomato soup mixed together (methinks "eew")
future referance:
mutti=mum
vatti=dad
that's from the Georgia Nicolson books ^.^
so after lunch, dad got the Rolls Royce out
i actualy think that is my dad's car because of hte colour...*thinks away* anyhoo, yes and we went for a drive around the country cause he's preparing a jaunt for the summer et cetera boring parents stufff...but that car always makes me feel so happy ^.^
angel zakuro: uh..if i can think up a decent question, sometimes the answers are amusing and threfor make it worthwhile!
hoaryu: yeah, alex is person A...i think you might have missed the post where i described that actualy..oh well never mind :P
kikitink: nah, you are NOT a dork!! i like knitting xp *hugs back*
1) should i bother thiniking up more pointless questions or just stop now?
so...i think this is possably the shortes post i have come out with in a while!!
i think that's a polka..if not oh well!!! haha, yeah i'm in a dancing mood *polkas around the room*
sabai sabai!!! ¢¢®¡×ú
ok i just did a really wierd hting..i managed to synch my iTunes kiss kiss with the immem one..it sounds wierd and ditant...wtf?? ah well!! haha...takes listening to same song sepratly on two things to a new dimension!! xp
(ie. a stereo and earphones...or two seperate sights)
anyway..dinner is now ready so i shall dpeart firts for the piddly department and thne for FOOD!!
hahahahahaha bob marley sings abotu havvering (if that's how you spell it) and i don't know what it means but it's in `i would walk 550 miles` xp
mood-hahahahahaha song-kiss kiss-holy valance (yeah, my profile song xp)
ok..i'll explain the subject line first i ithnk...you know how it is when you have a really random thought that just cracks you up?? that did..becuase i was listening to a Bob Marely song last night..urh....something about love..can't actually remeber what it's called now..but anyway, he said havver in one of the lines and i just fell about laughing cause all i could thnik about was emmah and the song by the proclaimers!!
*puts song up*
wow...loads of people have done a copy of that song by the looks of things...hahaha, oh well, you can't beat the proclaimers!!
um..so today...i didn't see alex..thank fuck as i don't think i could embarras mydself anymore infront of him!! after hte tripping over fify htings yesturday..and not to mention today i did the squint that he saw at the door....and i scrunch my nose up!! oh the joy..that must have been a nice sight for him *lmfao*
ok..i will hasten to point out right now that i'm not on drugs at all!! i've only had four puffs of a NORMAL fag today so i have no substance in me to make me go high...except nothingness...hhehe
haunted by dreams at night,
never free of you,
why did you posses me on the moors?
even in the deepest epths of memory,
you're there everywhere all the time,
let go of me.
what even attracts me to you?
handsome turns and lusfully..everything...
i can't be free.
i trapped myself to wander this path,
too full of emotion and empty of everything else,
unable to talk about it with even myself.
always running and never stopping,
just like the wind-never caring.
that's how it should have been
i think that's a sonnet...though i really cannae be assed to count the lines!
okay..so i've been in a rather poetical (if that's even a word) mood theses days...haha oh the joy.
lol that reminds me of something else..my saying of `oh the joy` which i have said for lord knows how long is spreadingaround the common room XD
i heard so many people saying it today.
have my other poem cause i'm in a bred ass mood...
hurt and wounded by the injustice-
abandoned by the hope...
hope that lit up the path for me...
but now i'm plunged int darkest night.
blind to everything and haunted-
by dreams chasing like fire through my head...
whispered voices calling my name...
tempting e to step backwards.
what i see is notwhat you see-
step into my life and feel what i think...
the hidden power no one knows...
the feelings that never show.
and don't then leave me alone again-
fending for myself in a downward circel...
lashed at every turn...
by what first lead me astray.
haha...i just notice that the grammer is the smae in every verse XD that wasn't even intentional! ah well.
questions methinks:
1) do you wirte poems at all?
2)if you do, what are they about?
3)um...oh i give up with this question..ask me one!!!
yes that's really all htat's happened today...for soem reason, the abscence ogf alex has given me a sane day. for once. and probably the ONLY sane day i shall have this year...
oh oh, and i've done quite a bit on my dress though i still don' think i'll have it done for the deadlnie...busy easter holiday for moi then...
moodow, ow the pain ni my lower back TT.TT songnot gonna get ustATu
er ling ling qi nian, san yue, er shi er ri.
that's today's date in ping yin the roman letters of chinese.
well. my back is ass raping me..ok that sounds dogy..rofl. it really hurts!! and i feel ill again TT.TT i think i'm coming down with whatever my mum and dad have had. oh sheer joyousness. i always wanted to be ill again didn't i? not. *shakes fist*
and it's raining again like it always does in england *sighs*
so....i shall start with yesturday's post as i wasn't on a computer AT all...i shall come back to meaning of my subject later on
on monday, the lady i'm making a dress for came over so i could check to see it all fits and stuff, and she's also a councellor (she's a CI at ATC, htat's how i know her) and out of curiousity, i asked her what my room said about me. *has to remeber it all*
she said *whilst looking around* that it meant i was a strong person with a hidden side. there was a spirutal side to me, i was full of fantasy and htat there was so much of me hidden beneath the surface that no one knows.
the scary thing is, that was all friggin true!
then i showed her a picture of alex to see what she thought (even though she was my CI at cadets, we are close freinds outsdie fo it...even though we arn't supposed to me owing to some rule or other laid down by the RAF no doubt) and she said that there was a lot of fantasy wrapped around him and cause he was older than me it was obvious why i liked him and stuff, and cause of the `being a councellor` thing, i talked abotu hmi and his GF and she said she'd be able to say what was between them if she saw them and i showed her the ONLY picture i have..haha, it wasn't even me, that LAURA found of htem to togehter and she said that the girl wasn't paying him any attention and was all eyes for whovere was taking th epicture and that alex was either completely set on her or completely drunk (in the pic, he was holding a half drunk pint of sme beer/lager)
hmm...so i felt somewhat emotionaly beter about things for a while up to wednesday)(yesturday)
and somehow, i ddn't update yesturday..owing tthe no computer thing.
well, on omnday, me and emmah made a deal that if i smoked ANYTHING on wednesday (or was it tuesday we made the deal? then she would shout `ALEX! JANEY JANE WANT'S TO GET IN YOUR PANTS` across hte common room, so i definatly kept that deal up...all though i may as well sa not bothered casue we were tlaking about it...not exactly quietly so to speak and on eof his frinds walked passed...oops and bugger.
ok tuesady...*thinks* um...yes i kept up the bad habit act *cough cough* and fell in love with alex some more. *gloewr* why?? all thouhg the councellor lady did say that i'd only be able to get over him when someone better came a long. great. there IS no one better than him. *glower, cuss and shakes fist*
that's it really...
wednesday: well, i kept my end of the deal up and didn't smoke anything. not even on the sneak. whihc would be ahrd as i'd still wreak of smoke. oh well.
chinise was the usualy hoot as me and laura started talking about inapropriate dreams and stuff *nothing mentioned here* and we were all laughing...but to be honest, it was quite normal...the most random hting that cam eout was `yesturday, did you eat fish?` which was frmo me as i really couldn't translate hte sentance and i knew it was on about yesturdaya dn yue is chinese for month OR fish...
train station...was boring....
back at schoolwe had a water fight..and gargled words...don't try gargling masticatoin..i choked myself when i said it and no one beleive me that t was the words ault. soemmah tried and SHE choked herslef...laura didn't try it.
ok. onto the meaning of my subject line:
nasicaly, owing to my bad habits...and three coming around....i saked emmah and laura to come with me for MORALE support so htey did..but i got them into it now...and i wish i hadn't because...emmah's not the problem..laura is..she wants more. and i know why.
i got into it because it takes away all feeling.
all thought...and now ew want more to get that feeling back...i know i can get off it cause i can control what i do.but i'mnot so sure wiht laura TT.TT
hmmm *runs upstairs to grab folder*
*is back a minute later panting away*
if everything was just sa simple,
as one simple breath,
...inhale deeply and all through
breath out slowl...savouring it all-
that putrid smell and bittersweet taste,
no one would bleed.
why i do it you ask...
are you worried for me?
no...but are you secretly curious?
there's a certain feeling,
that's what it is-
emotionless.
totally numb to the world,
no thouhgts or fantasies fo him,
to distract or hurt me so deep.
no thoughts of emotions...
freedom from the shackles of humanity.
that's what this is all about.
hmm..so anyway....nothing has happened today really...it is only second period....
questions:
1) do you have any bad habits? what are they?
2) do you dream in black and white or colour?
3) do you meditate?
angel zakuro: yeah, i raher suck at french..i did it one year and spent hte year after being kicked out of he lessons simply cause the teacher didn't like me...haha...i'll rember hat though!
kikitink: thanks for yor msn, i'll add you later ^.^ *hugs*
talim of hte wind: urgh, sand sandwhihc...eew!! *hugs*
ok..i really can't think what elso to annoy y'all with for now so i'll modify later...maybe...
BLEACH!!
sabai sabai *hugs everyone*
oh i just remembered...i had two vivid dreams about aex last nigt *shakes fist* but they'd be highly censored tob e put up here..i shan't delve into them this time around!! XP
oh oh!! laura hath jsut reminded me!!!! haha, i was gawping at alex...as i do quite often, and i tripped over a chair!! *pmsl* gods it was hilarious..thsankfully, he didn't see it..but still, everyone ELSE did!
modit
oh oh!! full bleach for once!! *skips around the room*
anyhoo...well, today was compleltey crazy today after writting the post..so i shall now fill you in...if you want..
well, i hand't seen alex as such this morning...before this post was written..well, dumbest thing earlier- i walked into the common room, and i saw him..standing talking..and for some reason, my head stated fixated on him whilst my body walked across the common room (vair vai bad mistake) and just as is was thinkin i really shouldn't look at him..i tripped over a chair..full on nt flying..though laura asures me he DIDN't see...please say he didn't...
well, after that...emmah wanted a party ring so i gave her my locker key on hte understadning she wouldn't gorge on them..as i have a whol bucket in my locker currently..and she said she didn't know what number my locker was so i got up to go and she wouldn'tgive my key back so i stepped after her but she wouldn't give it to me..and i nearly fell ino alex..oh the joy..hten i ran after emmah...in socks...and slid horizontaly around a table and then flew into the door...
ok..so that was MY embarrasment out of the way...
emmah had a crazy moment when he was at the venders cause we were all talking normaly and she was drinking her water and all of a sudden, she blurts out `oops, i just dribbled` and looked at alex... *laughs at emmah* you moose...
um..oh yeah, i was carrying out my bad habit act at hte style after going to summerfield with practicaly everyone..haha no joke, there were 7 of us and i've never been out of school with that many people!!
yes, and there i was being all innnocent and alex came and joined us with a load of his mates..including a guy i used to fancy..oh the joy of that...
he saw it. everything. the bad habits. oh crapp. he's no better. ha.
haha well, that subject line came from some random hyperactive conversation me emmanh and laura just had! bascialy...there's a saying in the georgia nicolson books that goes `it's nippy noodles` (it's cold) and emmah said NIPOLEANS! so i said it's nippy nipoleans...and it went on like that for a few mins....i just won't say it all cause you'll be bored!!
omg, she jsut said that hse might not be on theO for a while. NOOOOOOOO (emmah that is...can't rember who else i might have ben tlaking about. oh well)
oh oh!! my new artwork's up!!
omg...that picture has some really bad influences on me!!!
and through me-emmah and laura. misses not innocent people.!! haha!!
well nothing has actualy happened today...things i could actualy say....
i had another dream about alex..and he was dying..actualy, i was fightin andam newman (a chav), and he held a gun towards alex and said `admit it, you love him, and your more scared of him dying than yourself` and i said and i said `no, he means nothing to me, yhe just dosn't need to die since it's me your fighting` and he moved the gun to my face and said `why are you not scared now?` and i said `i'm not scared of anytihng` and he turned the gun back on alex and shot so i screamed `no` and he aimed just passed alex meaning i had just admitted a fear and everyone knew about it. i dunno why i just told you. oh well.
oh the joy!
urh...
questions!! haha!!
1)what's the wierdest sandwhich flaviour you've ever had??
2)do you smoke?
ok that was random... *raises eyebrows at self*
3) does anyone have a coffe i could have?? like, NOW!!
4) parles vous francais? (yes emmah, i stole that oof you but since it was me that told you how to say it in the first place....
ok...um, some of you didn't know what a lorry is..basicaly, it's a truck..i tihnk's that's right??
i think that's the best way for me to explain it!!
so, still not over alex.
not ill either. TWO DAYS OF BEING HEALTHY!!!!
not too bad i supopse...
*sighs* and i'm gonna do antoher picture of hitsugaya at some point..lol..maybe i should do a wallpaper for once.
*takes idea up*
i'll do a wallpaper next instead!!
hmm...how else can i bore ya to death??
*thinks8
i don't know
my headhurts.
no fair TT.TT
oh well, i shall leave y'all with a purty picture!!!!
well, sabai sabai!!
*emmah's stoned*
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Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning's light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning's light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning's light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name
mood-cold and crushed song-unwilling to leave, unable to stay
ok...first off-the subject line is from whisper by evanescence.
secondly, i'm crushed because i'm wearing tights nd they are pushing in against my tummy and it hurts.
thirdly-I DON'T FEEL ILL!!
oh and fourthly, me and emmah were in the toilets (we spend one heck of a lot of time there!) and i was commetning about my skirt riding up partialy on the way to school this morning and how a lorry was eyeing me up..only i meant the driver, cause lorries don't have eyes!! but we came out with it exactly the same time XD
then again, by thirdly, it is the third week soo....lets see what happens next week then.....haha
ok.
i had a really WIERD dream last night!! basicaly, i was at school and then me pip and some other random person who i never knew went to cornwall and we were all sleeping in a kingsize bed for whatever reason and then it was raining outside so we all went out (WTF?) and a load of guys who i never knew either came and slep in the bed so we all slept outside. in the rain.
then i was back at school and dad came and picked me up with my mum and brother and said wewere going to cornwall on the train and it would take four hours, just long enough to have a picnic (cornwall is 220 miles away from where i live/school btw!) so we went and we went to the seee and a place called Durgen (there's a garden called Glen Durgan, so it is an actual place) and we had a picnic, then he (dad) said `we're going to spain tomorw so you'll have to go to school for your first two lessons (monday-no lessons for one and two)(and it's monday today) and we went back and i went to school the next day and it was like the airpot lounges with all the shops and stuff, only with everyone from 6th form there!
so iwalked along and all the shops were closing and gareth (crazy pink haired guy) said i'd have to be really quick if i wanted to shop as school was about to start and then i got to the end and there was a casino there, yes a casino even though only the upper 6th are old enough to gamble and it was closing so another two of my freinds ducked under the closing door and then i woke up...and realised that i wasn't going to spain today TT.TT
so yes, random start to the morning and i ended up being late to school because of it.
thankfully i'm not a loner today thouhg cause originaly, emmah wasn't gonna come in today and laura's not here BUT i saw emmah so i know she's here. that and also the fact that she's sat typing uberly quickly next to moi!
questions:
1) what lessons/courses do you do in school/college/whatever your'e in...or if you're in a job, what job do you do..or both?
2)do you have frogs legs?
if you do, hop away..ok that was a cruddy question, my imagination is failing me...
3) do you drive? if you do, what car do you have? if you don't, what car do you want?
haha, well thayt's all for now and yes, knowing me something will happen with person A of the embarasing kind and i'll modify my post about it. but it's only first period so nothing has happned today.
also, why the hell isn't bleach up yet??
always running,
never stopping,
just like the wind,
never caring.
hehe, obviously i'm in a lack of caring mood!
like i said yesturday-I DO NOT HAVE AN ALEX FETISH YOU MOOSE!!! (aka, emmah)
this light i see,
is never an abolsution.
i must be dreaming,
theses thoughts i have-
cannot exist here and now.
let go of me and let me go,
to my own world-
where at last i could live and be free.
never to dream of us again-
or ever your smile at some other girl.
oh how you haunt me-
every night i dream of you;
everday i see you;
when all i want is freedom...
clarity in this endless tunnel.
rain falls on an uptunred palm
shaking and creaking;
the floor moves beneath me-
could i ever find what i want...
if ever you wern't there?
well i'm happy!! i just changed the music on emmah's ipod and stole and ear phone so now i have titanic music. i lobe that film!!
haha, i just remeber a dream i had.
ear snogging!!!
yes it was with alex.
and it felt good.
haha, if by some wierd reason we end up going out, i shall have to suggest it!!
anyone read the georgia nicolson books? what number's nip libbling (lip nibbling for most peoples) on the snog scale??
haha, well, i shall go daydream now..mmm....sabai!
oh oh, that word is said sa~bye if anyone wants to learn Thai.
also, Krap is hello in the masculine ways. there you go, there's a way to swear at teachers but not get told off!!!
ko kun krap!! i thinks that's cheers..but i can't remeber...haha
and i did chinese work last night. my god that is a first all year!!
ooh ooh, now i'm listening to Rose. the peice from titanic. not the flower. or a person called rose...haha i make myself laugh. lord knows why i'm laughing...
it's rather nippy nipolian's out there!! 
