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Achievements written two books, one of which is hopefully being published early next year ~ finished studying NVQ Level 3 Beauty Therapy ~ Run 3 Businesses Anime Fan Since November 05 Favorite Anime ~ PHD (phantasy Degree) ~ Bleach ~ .hack//SIGN ~ .hack//Legend of the Twilight Bracelet ~ Love Hina ~ Final FantasyVampire Knight Death Note
Goals businesses =) Hobbies travelling learning languages writing art and walking Talents walking.... writting, fashion, art
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Welcome to my site archives. 10 posts are listed per page.
just a little update form the pasty munching west...
song-mambo no. 5-lou bega mood-wipeout!!
image of the day:
emmah-a better skate park to practice on...
quote of the day:
i feel your presence...
like a ghost you're always their...
like an itch you just won't go...
as the sea sounds it's song...
and the night embrace me wholely.
~me~
surf's up
ok, no, i haven't learnt to surf (yet) but i was watching the surfers yesturday lmao
and they kept falling off cause the waves were gonna be great, so they dived in and either surfed into each other or hte wave broke too soon!
it was amusing though, after leaving the beach cause the tide was coming in, we sat up on the cliff edge to cath a few more hours sun..and this flamin...haha, sorry...this SEVENTY year old SURFER came and joined us!! *laughs* and he was saying how he was flying off to florida in a couple of weeks ot catch the surf over hteir before coming back here for a bit and then flyign off somewhere else. HE WAS SEVENTY!!!!!
he serioulsy only lookled mid forties though *laughs some more* and eh said about his freind who was 61 still down their in the surf. greifen hell. there's hope for me yet!!
cornwall
'twas sunny ^^
ok, the only time i thought aobut alex (besides 24/7) was going through St Ives *puts areal picture in*
that at night, higher up the hill and looking down at the twinkly lights was soo beautiful!
but anyway..yes looking down at that i just started thinking `omg alex has been here, i know it` and at the time, i didn't know it was St Ives, i thought it was Carbis bay...and then dadgoes `oh this is St Ives..` and i just kinda gave up working what my life's about then...agian...
jack sparrow
enough said!
feet
they really hurt!! TT.TT had to have THREE verucaes frozen by hte nurse and F*CK*NG HELL IT HURTS!! i keep skipping cause my foot suddenly throbs. griefen hell. !!
anyhoo, i shall love you all and leave you now (in a non lesbian way i shall like to point out)
ja ne!!
xx
no i'm leaving you with questions... questions
1) ever been to cornwall?
2) like the sea?
3) like rum?? if yay, which rum?
4) like art?
ok...they may have turned out a random bunch..but hey ho pigs bum all's fine in life...i might not be if i'm saynig stuff like that...
well, i ASKED HIM OUT!
he said no though...
bu it was spasmodicaly hilarious!
because, it was friday in tescos...and it was a HUUUUUGE rush, and only me and andrea serving as owen was on a break...and in the momentual lull before the storm, i looked towards the door and saw aiden come in, and woah did my arms shake like jelly on a plate! then just as he came closer, i managed to control that bit...but i still think i was like a beetroot in colour...
so, aiden trotted over to me ith his lager and i looked at andrea who was looking at me looking at her looking at me...yes, and then said `alcahol?` and she said yes so i went `would you like a bag with this?` and htis will be so much easier in a script...*goes to script mode*
aiden: walks ot tills
me: *looks at andrea* alcahol?
andrea: *nods*
me: *looks back at aiden*
aiden: *is looking at the floor*
me: would you like a bag with this? *flaps bag around like some trainee balerina*
aiden: yeah
me: do you have a clubcard at all?
aiden: no
me: *looks at andrea*
andrea: *looks back*
me: *shakes head at andrea*
andrea: *laughs*
me: *looks back at aiden*
adien: *still looking at the floor*
me: *hands card and receipt over* here's your card and your receipt...aiden will you go out with me?
adien: *looks at me* no *walks quickly towards door*
me: *nervous laugh*
andrea: good grief you ACTUALY asked him out
me: *serving next customer*
andrea: is this the cosmic jelly all night then?
me: *agrees*
lmao, it wasn't that tragic as i was really only asking aiden out more of a `yeah i can ask him out` more than an `omg i am going to DIE if you say no` type thing...
bloody hilarious all the same!!
more to hte point, it wasn't as such a SUBTLE ask him out...i think that the people in worcester might have just missed it...
eh, but mainly i still lobe alex.
a lot ^^
cornwall
aye, i am off to the land of the corns tomorow!
woooooooooo
ok this was a ptheticayl short post...all i really posted was to say what happeend in tescos...lol
dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me, and dear my love, haven't you longed to be free...
--note--
ok, i really am gonna apologise for my lack of using myO. i seriously never have any time to myself now what with college four days and week and work on all the other days!
avatar today:
quote(s) this morning
You Make It Hard For Me To Breath When You Look At Me...-rianna
I remember the day
That we first met
One look at you
And my heart was set-jess
those are both from http://www.best-love-poems.com/poems (if that little html code worked)
so, i will apologise that i don't really comment/post much any more *sighs* i will try my hardest, but i can't do it in goldtime at colelge cause i can't even open my comments TT.TT and the main page dosn't laod up either, only the back room. *sniffles* *i
(i did actualy just sniff, i have a cold lol)
song-sweet things-DJ Tiesto mood-see what i mean about that DJ Tiesto craze??
yes, this post is uncertain because i don't know where i'm taking this.
i have truly, completey resorted to my sponanious ways...
which would have been for ever until emmah got me into planning *shakes fist at emmah*
on that note, i need to read my comments *shocked face*
ok so i took a detour of about half an hour replying to bebo coments and uplaoding pictures...haha, i shall have to put one up here as i now have pink, yes PINNK in my fringe!! lmso
righto-that last bit was actualy yesturdays' last post. i mean yesturday's post in general!
i am now going tp finish it.
mood-i can't get onto my bebo!!! nooooooo!! song-anywhere-evanescence
the greath thing here is i am now ranting out my ass cause i can't remeber what i was gonna talk about!
aiden/alex (clifton not the farter in the land of farts-aka ILF)
confusing situation.
i really like alex-as you can see, nothing there has changed.
BUT i also like aiden. oh dear. oh this is the first time i've mentioned him!!
ok, in brief-aiden is taller than me (unlike shorty boy alex)(who isn't actualy as short as emmah beleives), dark hair, BRILLINAT blue eyes and works in a bank-also looks sexy in a suit.
what am i meant to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo?
well:
¢¾ easy option-nothing
¢¾ or i could find out if he has a GF and ask him to the end of year ball (which is a whole year away)
¢¾ or i could ask him out
but, i don't like him as much as i like alex and if i DID go out with him it would be worse than tom or matt cause they at least didn't KNOW alex, but aiden and alex are really good mates so i'd be like `yeah, i DON'T fancy your mate`
and that there is the harshist thing known to mankind!!
well know it's not...but you get my drift...right?
graduation ball
is a whole year away
but, me having my facial happened to here my lecturer say `you need to start thinking aobut diposists for the end of year ball`
HOW CHARMING? HOW AM I MEANT TO GET ANY GUY DRUNK ENOUGH TO SAY YES HE'LL COME WITH ME IN THAT SHORT SPACE OF TIME?
i can't, that's how.
dreamspace
yup, i had another dream about alex.
i hate my subconcious!!
last night was the FIRST time i had gone to sleep and NOT thought aobut alex. FOR ONCE? and what happens before i wake up? i dream of him. grr *shakes fist at subconcious-my poor fist is getting tierd from all this shaking!!*
so...in this lovely dream of mine...
it was even more realisitc than the last!!
i was on the bus home from college on a perfectly normal day with the perfectly normal (snotty, annoying twitish) PH students and had to stand up at the front of the bus (that's my normal day) and then alex got on beinhd me and ended up stood infront of me and said `lets go boot the PH students out the way, i'm fed up of having to stand up ya know?` so we went to nearly the back where there's two forward seats and then two backwards seat and they face each other and he sat facing backwards and i sat forwards infront..or behind him....grief which way is that??
and then he put his feat up on my legs so i put my legs up on his legs and we had this type of war for about five minutes before he jsut lay down (somehow) across the gap and pulled me next to him (again, somehow) so we were curled up together.
and he had his short hair back!
alex
yup saw him again ^^
well it was a sad `see him again` situation cause i'd just got off the bus and was fishing for my keys in my bag and i could see this red pug 106 coming towards me and then the reg plate R935 KKV and i jsu tkept walking STARING AT HIS PLATE!! not at HIM, but at his PLATE. and then he was passed me and i looked back and thought `oh bugger it all!` actuly, i think i shouted that out. i really hope he didn't decided to check his rear view mirror!
but the sad point to that is i got out of sight and cried! like an idifoot.
yes an idifoot. that wasn't a typing error.
cosmopolitan
omg. now i know i am in love! there was ana rticle in their thi smonth. well next month as it's november's issue...
saying:
"love is as i described in my book lucky like getting hit by a large truck and not being mortally wounded. you feel sick to your stomach-high one minute and low the next, starving hungry but anbel to eat. you feel hot, cold, for ever horny and full of hope and enthusiasm, with momentary depressions that wipe you out. it's also about not being able to remove the smile from your face, loving life with a passionate intensity and feeling ten years younger.
"love appears without any warning signs. you fall into it as if you;ve been pushed from a high diving board. there's no time to think about what's happening-it's inevitable. and you can't control the heart-stoppping rollercoaster ride that just has to take its course.
"it's all of that and more. it's an ecstatic high and the lowest of the low, the best beauty treatment on the market and, sometimes, to intrusive for it's oen good."
jackie collins
i like that woman. i was looking for a summary on `how you know you're in love or not` for ages then it just dropped into my hand!
questions
back onto the begining predicament
yup, so that their about being in love is true to the bone about how i feel aut alex.
1) so, how the hell can i just go after aiden?
the rest of the questions-being perfectly normal
2) what colour socks are you wearing today?
3) what magazine(s) are your favourite?
4) what's your favourite animal?
5) do you like tomb raider?
and on that note, i shall now finish this post.
--end note--
the pictures i promiced in yesturday's short post which is now long forgoten lol:
song-sweet things-DJ Tiesto mood-see what i mean about that DJ Tiesto craze??
yes, this post is uncertain because i don't know where i'm taking this.
i have truly, completey resorted to my sponanious ways...
which would have been for ever until emmah got me into planning *shakes fist at emmah*
on that note, i need to read my commonets *shocked face*
okso i took a detour of about half an hour replying to bebo coments and uplaoding pictures...haha, i shall have to put one up here as i now have pink, yes PINNK in my fringe!! lmso
arr.
no idea how long this sall be as i am only doing this on orders of ILF..who never updates or reads my posts anyway.
but, i have notcied...how flamin long is it snice i last posted?? A WHOLE WEEK??!! WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY HEAD?
i know what's going on in my head-this is the first ngiht i am having to myself.
and i shouldnt be, i should be doing an assignment.
grief. haven't even watched bleach!!! argh
work and college=taken over my life.
there seriously arne't ANY hot guys at coolege. like ZERO. there a couple of potnetial hot guys. but that is it. PO-TEN-TIAL. grief. i am rnating a tmy sel and WHY AM I SAYING GRIEF SO MUCH!! *runs into wall*
back onto normal terms (haha)
drving
did 2 hours driving with my dadlast ngiht, went to herefordshire woooooooo that's...really quite far from where i live. but oh well lol.
twas fun.
nearly killed another pheasant...
night time driving's wierd!!
anyone ever tried it?
it was my first time doing that last time and it's really quite scarey to be drivngn along a main road with lights comign towards you, makes you perception on he road go haywire! but still fun..until i stalled and neearly crashed my car.
titumus
this bit is more for emmah's enyertaniment.
emmah-he CRASHED jsut after passing his test today, COMPLETLEY wrekced his car...
and wait for it.
cried.
grief-did we ever cry when he was being all "hard" wiht us. nope. he is SUCH a pansy.
damn it i iddint' indfish thids sh i i need to fo gobbut
mood-A&Ped out song-bassment jaxx-where's your head at
*sings and dances madly to self*
ok so i'm in "gold time" supposedly "doing one of my two assignments". of course i am. after i've been on here for a while...
college is really good...to be honest, i'm not sure how much i've written/typed about college since i started. i can't even reember my last posts. they were sooooooo long ago now!
so i have waxed someone's legs (i remember saying that!) and now had mine done (ouch!) and had a facial done on me (i may or may not have said about doing a facila on someone...) and also filed ANd polished someone's nails.
haha, the bit that makes me alugh is that fact that i seem to paint nails better with my right hand.
and i'm left handed. or, CAGGYANDED! lmao. sorry. bit of ol' brummy came to mind there...
the `pooters at college are strange. they let me on HERE, but won't let me read/comment people grr.
i can't even get an email from emmah. that whole confusing post that was meant to be an email...that was why lmao. to explciti fro the servers! and i don't think there's actualy that much explicit language there...!
note: i say actualy way too much now...
i still lvoe alex. lord knwos how many times i have said that...but it is still the smae. i may put a whole "alex" section at the top of my post ya know? `alex status: single and still liking him` but you would all get verry VERY bored of seing it...wouldn't you?
*lauhgs* on the plus side to all this, emmah has not been in on me working with ben and said anything yet. it's not gonna happen is it? woooo tescos dignity with ben remains intact.
it is a tad sucky now though. we don't work together anymore! (me and emmah this is, not me and ben-i'm stuck with mr `RECYCLE EVERYTHING` man for a while i think...) because she moved shifts...so i am now not with her TT.TT and she dosn't come and visit me at work! *shocked face*
i am refreining from visiting her until that happens.
urm...ran out of things to say after all that...
well, i shall leave now *bows* and return...somepoint.
owing to the lack of interent time returning, i shall be posting one day and commetning the next again. is that ok?? hopefully i can commetn you all tomorow as i have...the evening if i'm alloed on the pooter.
grief what has college done to me. i call computers pooters. it'll be given a name- it has got a name. i bet you can all guess what my laptop is now called...
ja ne!
after thought:
ok this is in no way insulting kaisap who sorted out my lvoely HTMLing for me *hyugs kaisap* i may switch the text box back to my original colours for while until i can find a more suitable image to go behind text...yeah you were right kaisap-that isn't a good image! but thankies for sorting the code out for me ^^
ok...i will do a propper post somepoint.
ie time when i can coment as well.
soooooooo confused about that littel post hte other week.
i thought i was emailing emmah...hecne why it didn't make ANY sence at all.
actualy, i have only jsu trealiside it was a post now..
so sorry about that!
and yes emmah, the server did manage to pick out the explcit woirds in it!
i know why i can't get the script.
pleas esend it agian so i get it...
BUT.
you know our little script has a small amount of explicit content?
WELL...
the server hath picked up on it all...so i cna't read the reply till tomorow now!! TT.TT
Love is everything it's cracked up to be¡¦It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.
-Erica Jong, O Magazine, February 2004
comment replies:
magnus: woah, that really IS a long comment!! haha. upper arms really...i have to be careful where i do cut if i do it cause of it being seen like...i don't want parent's/lecturers seeing it...and also, it hurts more there cause i get the muscle.
it is QUITE deep...but not so deep as i used to...now i do it to sober me up...if you get that?? like...on Saturday i couldn't stop crying so i hurt myself and got my control back! it's a dangerous habit for me though...if i get it back i may literally be dead meat...
i have a scar on my wrist form fiver years ago when i did it on the topside and i cut straight down to my vein and very nearly got it...
you do NOT pass underneath the radars!
haha, I¡¯m sure if you read the res of this post, you'll see where my `getting over Alex` lead to...not very far...*laughs*
i do have scars ('m not reading that comment in a logical way am i? didn't think so!) but apart from the HUGE one on my wrist, they're just silvery lines...ok, the one I just did may be quite noticeable *goes and buys foundation*
i cut¡¦everywhere. stomach, thighs, under the eye, fingers, lower arm, upper arm, neck, lower legs, back, shoulders, chest...any where it'll hurt but not be seen on a daily basis (so not really much on lower arm, just so it can be passed off as a scratch from something else.
it's ok, i don't mind you being interested, it's cool to be able to talk to you about it cause you do it too and i know you won¡¯t be kinda like `omg, you shouldn't do that...` or `i dislike you for doing that` etc...
Emmah: you do that quite often really. actually, your comments general DO have little to do with my post. like the dumplings. and that kid that's about 14. and avocadoes. OMG DO YOU WANT A FACIAL?? I CAN USE AVACODO OIL ON YOU!! (it's in a mask...i won¡¯t go into details...i'm sure emulsifier will jsut make you think of paint really¡¦or something stupid nothing to do with creams...oo-er)(SEE NOW YOU ARE MAKING ME GO ON A TANGENT!
right, and i want you to give me a DECENT (ie long) COMMENT HTAT HAS NO TANGENTS IN IT!! SEE IF YOU CAN DO THAT!!! *challenge*
roseeyes: omg. HARD QUESTION!! urm. urahara is cute, renji is hot. tehe
kaisao: that...image code...still isn't working...i'm sure you can see. argh help!! lol
post:
i lie. the song just changed to hanataro desu. which is still bleach. sort of. it's hanataro singing. as i'm sure you can imagine...
wolf spiders
urm. why am i screeching? well. the wolf spider i talked about AGEs ago.
it has had BABIES.
why?
oh to annoy me.
i am never going up the top of the garden when it's dark again. i nearly had that b*st*rd on ME. and it's SMALLER than the one i had. to think that other one could be bigger¡¦TO TIHNK IT COULD HAVE GIVEN BIRTH IN MY ROOM? WHAT IF IT HAS?? OMG I COULD HAVE A WHOLE FMAILLY OF FLESH EATING SPIDERS IN MY ROOM!!! oh nooooooo!! *is never sleeping in own room again*
so...
Arekkusu
I SAW ALEX AGAIN TODAY WOOOOOO
not for long. as he was driving passed me.
but i saw him.
and he didn¡¯t see me cause he was itching his eye ^^
i am so happy ^^
internet
i am seriously gonna kill something in a minute. i don't reply. people keep bugging me on msn (Emmah, that is NOT you) so i have Blackpool illuminations down here.
and msn is crashing everything. hence why i am ignoring most people. but oh no. you give them and answer like `today` and the have to ask everything don't they? urgh. so annoying.
but yes, my internet connection is shit. *copies this into word so it can¡¯t be lost*
oh no i can¡¯t do that, WORD crashes my computer! *copies it into spare tab*
first buses of England
never EVER use them. if you come to this country. steer away from first bus travel.
it is a cr*p service. AND. the bus drivers are abusive!
i seriously could have hit the one today. you know? my mate has a kid in a pram. and you know, there was no sign saying `you must collapse your pram before coming on here` i didn¡¯t know that. she didn't know that. and the bus driver was SO rude! she was all snotty, didn¡¯t help, and jem just threw her bus ticket at the lady cause you know, she had a pram in one hand, kid in another, she couldn't exactly HAND it over.
well then the lady got all arsy and called jem a `stupid idiot`
there was NO FUCKING REASON FOR THAT AT ALL.
i seriously could have hit her for that.
oh, and this morning, there was a problem with the bus in broad street. fair enough. they sent another one. this other one, DIDN'T FUCKING STOP AFTER BORAD STREET FOR ME AND ANOTHER MATE FROM COLLEGE. so thankfully, we could both get lifts in, but ya know, someone in uniform with a kit. oh could they possibly going to college? would it be considerate to stop and give them a lift since they waited an hour in the freezing cold? NO. go STRAIGHT PASSED THEM.
and with jem, the said `oh, you've only just got here, you can wait a bit longer before getting on the bus as these people have been waiting an hour` then they said she couldn't get on the bus cause she had too much stuff even though there were plenty of empty seats!
so she had to catch the 550 which dropped her off MILES away from the college.
in one day, is there really any need for that?
*files complaint*
on a more cheery note...
college
had my first practical lesson today¡¦waxed Liz¡¯s legs...haha, it really isn¡¯t easy, but i can do it now! and...i think her legs are ok.
all i know is she is going to get me back on my tur. oh dear.
house
and, owing to a discussion at tesocs with one of the peopel i served, i am going to arrange getting me a house in two years time ^^
yay!
work
and also, i managed to sort out my shift.
thanks to the lovely Owen ^^
haha, i worried him though cause i said `oooowen, don't diaper, there's something i need to ask you` `and it's important too` `and i think i know the answer you're gonna gve me too...` and all he said was `that sounds ominous` lmso. probably sounded like i was gonna propose or something! but anyhoo, i asked him if he minded swapping my late on a Sunday for his shift which is 3-9. and he agreed, so i am on a normal time and STILL have my Sundays wooo
hm. i notice how the style of my post has changed again...actually, I did this a while back and liked it. is it ok like hits? broken down into subjects?
questions:
1) what songs¡¯ playing now?
2) Do you like cream (of the milk type, not the sexual type-Emmah)
3) When you¡¯re down, what do you do?
4) What animes do you watch?
5) What country do you most want to go to (please don¡¯t say England-England sucks!)
6) Ask me a question lol
Ok, that was more questions than planned¡¦sorry¡¦I got on a roll there!
OMG I HAVE A SCRATCH CARD TO SCRATCH!! *goes and gets it*
Yay I won a pound! ^^ *will buy another one tomorrow* *from the same guy as today as he gave me a winning one since I asked ^^
It sounds strange, but I liketh it lol.
But then, I am turning into a DJ Tiesto whore. I love his music so much!