Friday, June 22, 2007

But I've had too many stand-offs with you It's about as much as I can stand Just wait until the upper hand Is mine

mood-annoyed song-hit the floor-linkin park *changes song* well well today. was shit. i've had enough of all this completle shit. i thought i could trust the people i came to think of as best freinds. but i was wrong. blatantly. so here i am today, and i find myself in the same predicament i was in september. surrounded by two freinds who didn't want me. they meant everything to me....that was why i ever bothered tryna meet up with them...that was why i bothered walking into town to meet them on the spurr of the moment...but it means nothing to them. nothing at all. i found out they don't like me purley because they ran from me when i tried to catch up...and when i rang her nan, she said she didn't tell me previously she didn't wanna meet up with me cause i'd get pissy. i wouldn't...i would rather know where my place is than run after nothing...never knowing what was at her end of the road. what annoys me more is that all year they both hated ellie...becuase of who she was...and yyet, how they made me feel today was worse htna how ellie and izzy ever made me feel.. can i ever trust freinds again now? There are just too many Times that people Have tried to look inside of me Wondering what I think of you And I protect you out of courtesy Too many times that I've Held on when I needed to push away Afraid to say what was on my mind Afraid to say what I need to say Too many Things that you've said about me When I'm not around You think having the upper hand Means you've got to keep putting me down But I've had too many stand-offs with you It's about as much as I can stand Just wait until the upper hand Is mine So many people like me Put so much trust in all your lies So concerned with what you think To just say what we feel inside So many people like me Walk on eggshells all day long All I know is that all I want Is to feel like I'm not stepped on There are so many things you say That make me feel like you've crossed the line What goes up will surely fall And I'm counting down the time 'Cause I've had so many stand-offs with you It's about as much as I can stand So I'm waiting until the upper hand Is mine One minute you're on top The next you're not Watch it drop Making your heart stop Just before you hit the floor One minute you're on top The next you're not Missed your shot Making your heart stop You think you won And then it's all gone I know I'll never trust a single thing you say You knew your lies would divide us But you lied anyway And all the lies have got you floating Up above us all But what goes up has got to fall oh and emmah-considering wallby was in MY FUCKING MATHS SET I THINK I KNOW HIM. i jsut couldn't make him out for fuck sake. and did i not sya `who;s that, isn't it wallby?`

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